Chapter fifty-nine
He was angry. Angry at everyone and everything. Everyone had wronged him. Everyone irritated him. Nobody was good. Everything was dark. All the time. Nothing was serious. Or permanent. He fucked endless girls like there was no tomorrow. He didn't care about those girls. Just like nobody cared when his little sister and her friend were raped. And beaten. Then murdered like dogs. And when he found the bodies, bruised and pale. Or when he found his other little sister's body dead and limp. Floating in the water. Blood everywhere. Wrists slit. Her beautiful face pale and lifeless, nothing like the real her. He didn't care about anything.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPDbdAagZy
That he would soon come to start hurting himself. Use physical pain to distract from the emotional pain.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfWLQnKbnK
He'd watched his family slowly unravel, nothing he could do to stop it. He didn't know how to stop the pain. The slow burn that was within him. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGXUO3tiwy
It annoyed him. Frustrated him. That he couldn't help anything. He couldn't help himself. Or anyone, for that matter.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfAdHj037w
He turned to things that eased the pain temporarily. Alcohol. Marijuana. Sex. Hurting other people.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpsvEv60Qa
He drank and drank despite everyone's efforts to get through to him.
He couldn't see past the anger and pain. It haunted him. His dreams, his days. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeWq59JAFj
He convinced himself that he was meant to be alone. That if his sisters couldn't have a life than neither could he.
He pretended that he hadn't seen his father hit his mother. He pretended that his family was perfect before it fell apart.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xlxaogByK
He pretended that his mother hadn't left the family because of his and his father's mistakes.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCvvL9qsnd
He convinced himself that he doesn't deserve love or respect. That the demons that live within him were too strong.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTemVJ2P4b
That's he's a fuck-up. A mistake, hindering the growth and lives of others.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5C1orkGHa0
He didn't just hate himself, he wanted to destroy himself. But he couldn't. His parents had already lost two children. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2msqofzoj
So, he was forced to live a meaningless, loveless, existence. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIj5fY0jAl
He walked around the world not giving a fuck what anyone thought of him.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaPSFPVOkn
Disrespecting and hurting people left, right, and center. If he couldn't be happy then no one could.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhmVe8tf8h
He did want to get to know anyone. Be friends with anyone. He disregarded niceties and politeness.
Until.......253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8v3L3Kjvn
Her beautiful dark curly hair shone through the darkness.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHMruepMRL
Her figure enticed, barely shown. Not enough to satisfy his wandering eyes.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gCnHahvhM
Her almond-shaped eyes gave him a glimpse of heaven, distracting him from his eternal hell and self-damnation.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlSxLizrVU
She didn't know how beautiful she was so she walked around with a certain sense of naivety as well as knowing that the world wasn't all good.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKKbZNfeka
She didn't know how much men wanted her. Her innocence. Her purity. How many girls wanted her looks and the attention she got from men.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjZmn4YlqQ
She was polite and let others get away with far too much.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YoTi9tXsH
Honest but was sometimes forced to hide her true self. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHmqtEVRxj
Appealing.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNWASjpVQM
Quiet but tried to be outgoing.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoLAB0TqG8
A walking contradiction.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLORFHM6ann
He was dying to get to know her.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6XdM2ydao
He thought it was simple lust. Arousal. Horniness?253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJR9X4gRQC
But somewhere, deep inside of him, he knew that she was different. He could just tell. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hjuzxOO85
He didn't know that soon his whole world would revolve around her.
That she would become his addiction.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60MSyJB97m
His light.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAV5e2bPav
His savior.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwdUVITbzF
His second chance.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVzsfxkU2X
She was the poison and the antidote.253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OtyCINAUR
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