Chapter forty-three
"Bye, Ben," I say before giving him a hug with Matt's black hoodie in hand.
"Bye," he says and starts to walk away. I'm still confused as to why Matt had to give me his black hoodie. I know it has something to do with jealousy but he's already beat Ben to a pulp why does he still have the need to be jealous? Anyways, I have other things to think about. Like how I have to get to my classes soon.
I take out my phone to check the time as I'm walking up the stairs. Its only eight o clock in the morning right now so I have to be ready in about ten minutes and then drive to class.
I reach my room and once I step in, expecting to see Skylar, I find that it's empty. I guess she's still with Jon. I text her just in case to make sure she's okay.
Hey. What're you up to?
I put my phone to charge because it is about to die any second. I sit down in front of the vanity and collect my thoughts as I fix my hair. I have to leave in about five minutes.
I can't say that I'm surprised that he sees a therapist. I know something tragic happened when he was fifteen so I can't say I didn't think about that possibility already. I was just kind of....confused? I didn't really know how to articulate what I was feeling. He won't tell me anything about his past and neither will Jon. I don't know who Maggie and Maritza are and I feel frustrated that I'm in the dark about everything. I like him, don't get me wrong but I know so little about him. I feel dumb and useless. How can I help soothe him if I don't know why he's in pain? Hell, I don't even know how many women he's slept with but everyone's always warning me about him, and it's scary. I don't know what he's done to women and I found out that he use to fight a lot. With who? About what? There are scars on his wrist and at this point, I'm thinking the worst. I'm really scared for him. For our relationship.
I leave the room after I get finished with my hair and leave a note to Skylar even though I already texted her. Just in case.
Its 8:10 am and I'm walking down to my car, to drive to school which I am not looking forward too. I always forget about all my responsibilities when I'm with Matt. It's kind of annoying. Also, magical. I get into my car, dressed in Matt's black hoodie and some black leggings. I kind of don't feel like looking cute today. I'm really excited about our date tonight. I get to look all pretty and Matt and I can get to know each other better. I promised myself that I would refrain from having sex because we need to get to know each other on a deeper level. Not just physically. Also, he and I have no fucking self-control whatsoever. I mean, like, ten minutes ago we fucked in his car, in the parking lot, in broad daylight. I thought I would NEVER do some shit like that. Its so....slutty. But I always enjoy myself with him. He knows my body better than I do and it's amazing. I love to hear his groans. The filthy things that he whispers in my ear. It makes me feel so good. So desired. I hope I make him feel that way.
I pull into the parking lot of my college, hoping and praying that I don't get too much homework. I
I'll try to get it all done after or during my classes.
I reach my first class and see Ben. I wave at him and proceed to the empty seat next to him. I sit down and he smiles at me.
"Hi, Ben." Ben is always so understanding and nice. I don't think I could ever be mad at him.
"Hey," he replies, less enthusiastic than usual.
"Everything okay?" I ask and push my backpack underneath the seat.
"Yep." he doesn't look at me.
"You sure?"
"Yeah, everything okay with you?" he asks.
"Mhmm." I'm about to tell Ben about how I'm going on a date with Matt tonight but he specifically told me to stay away from Matt. I just remembered that Matt already told him. "I'm sorry. I know you told me to stay away from him but I can't. I'm already in deeper. He told me things that he hasn't told anybody. And I know people don't change but I'm not about to give up on him." Ben turns and looks at me.
"Don't say I didn't warn you." I roll my eyes. Why can't he just be a supportive friend? Well, I mean, Matt did beat his ass so maybe that's part of why Ben doesn't like him. I really need to talk to these other girls that Matt has wronged. I need to find out what he's capable of before I go any deeper in with him. The professor starts talking and I wander off thinking about our date tonight. I am so excited to have this bonding time with him.
It's finally time to go home and I'm so happy and excited right now. I finished all my work after school. I had to stay an extra two hours but it's worth it to have no distractions while I'm with Matt. I get into my car and check the time. It is currently six o'clock. So I have to hurry home. I told Matt that seven was a good time to go so I have to hurry up and go get ready. God, I am so excited. What if he dresses up? That would be so freaking cute! I still can't believe that he actually agreed to go on a date with me. I'm absolutely delighted that his first date will be with me. God, I like this boy so much.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQE43242ZK
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When I get into the room Skylar is sitting on her bed doing some work.
"Hey there! Long time, no see."
"Yeah, where'd you sleep last night?"
"Frat house. I got kinda high." she smiles mischievously and I know that she got more than 'kinda' high.
"Shit. Where'd you sleep?" she looks at me knowingly. She knows exactly where I slept.
I start to put my bag away and get my stuff to go shower.
"You know where I slept," she smirks at me. "I'm actually going on a date with him tonight."
"Oh really?"
"Yeah."
"He's picking you up?"
"No. I convinced him to let me drive myself." she shakes her head in disapproval.
"Why? Let the guy be a guy."
"What do you mean?"
"You're one of those girls that'll try and split the bill, huh?"
"Yeah. We're both on the date."
"No, no, no. Understand, guys like to do stuff like that. He wants to pick you up and pay for your shit and buy clothes for you and stuff like that. Its how guys are wired."
"Well, it's too late, now. I'm driving myself but I'll definitely keep that in mind."
"Well, I've got to finish up this work, and then I'm out," she tells me. I remember what Jon had told me about her being a little weird in their relationship.
"Hey, what's up with Jon?"
"Oh, he's good," she replies dryly. She's never this dry when it comes to him. Before every time I would so much as mention his name, her face would light up.
"You two are dating, right?"
"I mean, yeah, I guess." she continues writing on her paper.
"You don't sound too happy."
"Well...I don't know. It's complicated."
"Oh, trust me. I know a lot about complicated." I take off my shirt and pants and Skylar continues doing her work. I wrap my towel around my body and take off my undergarments from underneath the towel. "I'm gonna go take a shower, real quick." I blow a kiss to her as I walk out the door.
As I'm walking down the hall I think about what Skylar said about Jon. I don't think their relationship is going to last. It sounds like its a one-sided relationship. I think Jon is way more into her than she is with him. That's obviously not a good sign but I don't think I want to be the one to inform him of that...so I won't. I'm not gonna tell him.
I go back upstairs to my room and find that Skylar is gone. Wow. She really just up and left. I put all my shower stuff away in the closet. I really need to start getting ready. Now. I see a note on the vanity.
Have fun! If he pulls any shit, I'm coming after him. Love you, boo. Xoxo, Sky.
I smile at the sweet note. Nice to know that she has my back. I text her before I start to get ready.
Love you too!
I see that it's already six twenty pm. Shit. I look in my closet for an outfit. I spot a velvet, dark blue, fitted body con dress. That's cute.
I grab it out of my closet and lay it out on my bed. I grab some black heels out of my closet and put them on my bed.
I put some music on my portable Bluetooth speaker and start to get ready.270Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94ihPd34ja
I put on my dark blue spaghetti strap fitted dress. It hugs my body and accentuates what curves I have. So pretty! I put lotion on my arms and legs while dancing to some of my favorite songs. I'm in such a good mood right now! I love it!
I comb out my hair and put some product in it. I've decided to leave it out in its natural form. Thick, curly, and long. Trust me, it gets annoying but my hair is cooperating tonight so I'm good.
I sit in front of the vanity and moisturize my face with coconut oil. I curl my eyelashes and then put some mascara and eyeliner on along with some clear lip gloss. With makeup, I think sometimes less is more. Plus, I don't want to come off as trying too hard.
I spray some perfume on and put some deodorant on. All finished! I look myself over in the full-length mirror. I look pretty. I mean, this is as good as its gonna get for tonight. Hopefully, he thinks I look good, too. It would be so cute if he actually dresses up. That would be so freaking adorable!
I grab my black clutch, my keys, and my phone and head out the door.
I hurry down the stairs to my car. Its six-fifty and I have to be at the restaurant by seven o'clock. The restaurant, El Diablo, is only about five to eight minutes away so I should make it on time. Matt told me that he'd already made a reservation this morning.
I can not wait, to see him! I squeal in excitement as I pull up to the restaurant. From the outside, it looks very modern and sleek. The color schemes are black and red. I get out of the car, grabbing my things out of the seat.
I walk into the restaurant and wonderful aromas fill my nose. It's pretty noisy in here with waiters and waitresses shuffling across the floor. It's moderately full in here so I am happy that Matt made a reservation. There's a handsome man seating the guests and he looks to be about my age or a year older.
"Good evening, where will you be dining tonight?" he asks with a blindingly white smile. He has cute little dimples in either cheek and his smile is very welcoming.
"I have a reservation," I reply.
"And the name that it's under?"
"Walker."
"Is that your last name?"
"No, it's my umm....dates....last name." I stammer. I really don't know what to call Matt and me.
"Aww, damn. Lucky guy. Right this way." the handsome waiter says. I smile at him. I am in such a good mood right now. I can't wait till Matt gets here. He seats me at a table that is right next to a large glass panel.
"Would you like to order now or...?"
"No, I'll wait."
"Okay. I'll be back in about ten minutes." He walks away and I stare outside the window. I am sitting in the chair that is facing the glass panel. There's a beautiful lake right outside the restaurant. It's a very pretty sight. The sky is a salmon pink and orange color, paired with the aqua of the lake. It's absolutely magnificent. There is a chandelier hanging from the ceiling, high above my head. This a such a beautiful restaurant. Especially since the main colors are black and red I think It makes it look more...modern. I take a picture of the view that I have and post it on my social media account. I take a few selfies before looking at the time. Its 7:15 pm. I got here at about 7:05. It's fine. It's very Matt-like to be late for things. I mean, I would be worried if he wasn't late. I put down my phone and wait patiently for Matt to arrive.
After about twenty minutes, the waiter comes back to my table holding a tray with a glass of wine on it.
"Oh, I haven't ordered anything yet," I say politely.
"Oh, my bad. You can have this one, though. My mistake." he sets down the glass of wine. "Its very good, trust me."
"Thank you," I say and he walks off again. I'm actually thankful that I have this wine. I'm starting to get a little anxious. Its 7:25 pm and Matt still isn't here. What if something has happened to him? I decide to wait a little longer.
Another thirty minutes pass. The waiter approaches my table with another glass of wine.
"Would you like to order...."
"Novah," I say trying to stay cheerful even though I'm very doubtful right now.
"Beautiful name. I'm William by the way. I brought another glass of wine." He sets another glass of wine in front of me.
"Trying to get me drunk William?" I as jokingly.
"Trust me you'll need a lot more than that to get drunk. Are you ready to order?"
"I'll wait."
"Alrighty!" he says cheerfully and walks away. I check the time. 7:55 pm. I decide to text him to make sure everything's okay.
Is everything okay? I'm at the restaurant and very, very worried. I send the text, wondering if I'm coming off as desperate or needy.
No. I'm genuinely worried about him.
Another ten minutes pass and I start to get really worried. I call Matt twice and he doesn't answer either time.
Jon. Hopefully, Jon knows where Matt is. I call Jon. It rings five times before going to voicemail. I send him a text instead.
Do you know where Matt is? If you see him tell him to call me. I send it, anxiously waiting.
I check my phone after ten minutes pass.
Nothing.
I try to sit patiently while drinking my second glass of wine which I am illegally drinking. I wonder if William knows that I'm nineteen? At this point, I don't really care.
Its 8:30 and Matt still isn't here. I've called another two times and he didn't answer. Neither did Jon. I'm tapping my heel underneath the table. I'm a nervous wreck right now.
William brought me another glass of wine like five minutes ago and my head is starting to hurt. This always happens when I'm worried. I don't want to go to the bathroom because somebody might take our table but I'm only going to wait for another half hour.
Its been forty-five minutes and the restaurant is closing in fifteen minutes. I've had three glasses of wine and a salad, and I'm on the brink of tears. I'm trying so hard not to jump to conclusions but I just know he wouldn't stand me up. I really, really hope that he has a good reason for not showing up.
"Hey there." I turn around and see William in normal clothes. He sits in the seat opposite of me. "My shift is over but if you need a ride or something..."
"Shit. I forgot to pay." I grab my clutch and start to open it.
"No, no, no. You're fine. Plus, the cash registers are closed anyway." I sigh and rest my head in my hands. What if something has happened to him? I stand up abruptly.
"I should probably go, then," I tell William. He stands.
"Let me walk you out." I start to walk towards the entrance and he walks beside me. "Was the wine good?" William asks.
"Yes, it was, thank you," I say trying so hard to hold back my tears. He turns his head in my direction and I just look down at my feet.
"Are you okay?" he holds the door open for me and I walk outside, him following.
"Yeah, I guess," Lies. Straight-up lies.
"I'm not buying that. Maybe, you could give me your number and tell me what happened when you're ready?" he smiles sweetly and takes his phone out of his pocket.
"Why not." I say and hold out my hand.
"Yes!" he hands me his phone and I type in my number. He's been so nice tonight I couldn't refuse.
"Well, I have to go."
"Well, I just wanted to say, that I think you're gorgeous and whichever jerk decided to stand you up, is an idiot."
"Well, thanks." I hand him back his phone and walk to my car.
"Have a good evening," he says to me.
"You too," I say back.
I get into my car and quickly turn it on before reversing out of the parking lot.
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The frat house. I'm going to drive to the frat house and see if he's there. I check my phone really quickly before pulling out into the road. No texts or calls.
Alright, time to find Matt.
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