Chapter two
As I’m driving to UCLA, for my first year, I get worried. 538Please respect copyright.PENANA2cbEXmevzj
Nothing big, I’m always worried. Worried that I’m not pretty or smart or something stupid. Once I even cried in a bathtub. How stupid, right? 538Please respect copyright.PENANAzyISoUs8h5
But that stupid phase was years ago. Six years to be exact. That bathtub phase is over and now I’m going to college. 538Please respect copyright.PENANAhuFG3iN1UA
I’m so excited but at the same time so anxious. I already know I won’t have a problem with making new friends. Actually, that’s the easiest part. love meeting new people.538Please respect copyright.PENANA34J5JtDGMS
My mom always says that I'm a social butterfly. Oh. My mom. I’m going to miss her terribly.
It's just been me and her all my life. She’s always been busy working her ass off as a real estate agent. She’s very successful and we live comfortably. 538Please respect copyright.PENANAcBnGE6qrbj
That’s why I’m able to go to a college that I chose. College at all is a big accomplishment, she always says. 538Please respect copyright.PENANAfNnnCt6WIO
But her working so much comes at a very steep price. Her always being busy means, too busy to date.538Please respect copyright.PENANAZHMb9BlD8z
Too busy to go on vacation. Too busy to have more kids. Of course, I’m not complaining. At least not for me. 538Please respect copyright.PENANArylD3IsxGK
Its always been that way. No, I’m complaining for her. She never gets to do things that she wants to do. 538Please respect copyright.PENANAGhBUvLk4qp
She never gets to relax, and it worries me. I mean everything does, what’s new? But I worry that she’ll collapse under the pressure.
I begged her to let me get a job so that she can take a break but she told me to focus on school. School has always been important to me, naturally, but it’s also very important to my mom. 538Please respect copyright.PENANANuVTJPVqW8
She says that she is where she is today because of the things that she’s learned. So I’ve always focused on school. For me, but also my mom.538Please respect copyright.PENANA4jqsh5NGiZ
That’s all she asks of me. All my life since, about, age five I’ve tried to always be on my best behavior because I knew my mom was busy. 538Please respect copyright.PENANA6kDRQ2fO5L
I knew she simply didn’t have the time to deal with me acting out, so, I’ve always been a good child. But I really am going to miss just me and my mom. 538Please respect copyright.PENANAFRiZ5gnSp4
Mom and me. I’m going to miss us baking pie every Sunday. My mom is sweeter than any pie we could ever bake, no matter how much sugar we add.
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