一晚,思思陣痛。阿朗帶上「走佬袋」,和她到醫院去。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAftDyjcpkgX
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後來,回家,已經三人。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAl0b9rvZXIN
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小嬰兒小名叫棉花糖,軟軟滑滑的,令他們融化。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAt56JTrLMOA
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之後每天,棉花糖都會在夜晚哭鬧。思思和阿朗輪流起床照顧她,有時肚餓,有時賴屎,有時睡不着。1045Please respect copyright.PENANA6BtCzk55Kl
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二人疲累,但興奮。他們又有了一個新的身份:「父母」。忽然天降使命感,二人告訴自己、提醒對方,要好好照料棉花糖,給她最温馨的家;傢俬不是擺設,而是用作孕育愛的。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAcTG9PHy102
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有一次,阿朗母親上來探望他們,見思思正在喂奶,說:1045Please respect copyright.PENANAYFWRQTgL0E
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「唔係咁喂呀,姿勢唔啱。」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAavkGuFa5UK
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「你係咪唔夠奶呀?棉花糖邊夠飽㗎。」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAnmFnBBHJgQ
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「後生真係後生……」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAIk2w95JBJY
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思思不語,明明在醫院時,坐月姑娘讚她喂得好,而棉花糖啜得很開心。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAgXNTKJpAXD
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但此刻棉花糖確實不斷哭泣,無論怎喂也不能安撫她似的,像跟着阿朗媽媽一同批評她。1045Please respect copyright.PENANA01y3YoHQ9G
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思思忽然氣餒,心想:連你都唔撐我嘅……1045Please respect copyright.PENANAy7YWSstXc2
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平時,就算睡眠不足,脾氣暴躁,她也能回校聽課,回家後處理家務,處理自己的情緒,因為她知道,這個家中,每個人都累。而她持着「為了棉花糖」的決心支撐自己的身體。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAombB1hSsUb
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她在二年級時轉了主修學系,從哲學轉到了社會工作,今天出實習,回家即喂奶。在外,笑面迎人;回家,受到批評,以及得不到棉花糖的肯定……她突然想做回小孩,她怕再這樣下去,會成為自己最討厭的大人,將嬲怒發洩在不相干的人身上。1045Please respect copyright.PENANArzPwhCAgFt
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她強忍情緒:「好,我再試下。奶奶你出去坐下啦。」1045Please respect copyright.PENANACsEDfJWRp5
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很快,阿朗回家,思思面色已經自如。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAHXzz1xD8Ki
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他知道媽媽作客,所以買了一盒半肥瘦叉燒回家加餸。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAzuea5q4F5I
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飯桌上,三人共對。客氣寒暄。1045Please respect copyright.PENANA2xR9I0mn7E
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「阿仔,最近嚟唔嚟食飯呀?包好餸過呢度喎。」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAS3Nwto35R7
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「得閒就嚟,放心啦媽,呢度都好好住。」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAv5fimSECNK
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阿朗媽媽再婚,從三百呎公屋搭上了私樓的電梯,她看起來十分精神,髮質順柔,指甲修得齊齊整整,連牙都白了不少。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAEEgAi3DniC
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「思思。」阿朗媽媽忽然喚思思。「菜同蛋都寒,唔好食,對身體唔好。」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAdA2SoJcpE6
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「啊,叉燒都係,毒呀。」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAXIP1A9pBws
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阿朗看着枱面只有三碟餸,失笑:「咁佢可以食咩?扒白飯?」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAi4ZDpPmJiY
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阿朗媽媽沒有說話。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAFyLEm2kBoO
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「唔緊要,我都食飽啦。入去喂棉花糖先。」思思起身。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAnEds65x7K6
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一關房門,她就哭,轉身背對棉花糖,不願讓小寶寶知道她是軟弱的——1045Please respect copyright.PENANA3vF53gUs1g
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我好餓。全日都冇食過啲咩。點解寒同毒?我都係想食餐飯啫。1045Please respect copyright.PENANA00BT4Uv0Eo
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她嘗試笑,拉下衣領,喂奶:「棉花糖,你要食飽啲啊……」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAiccj8GkuCE
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但棉花糖不斷搖頭,作拒絕狀,嘴巴偶然碰到思思的乳頭,刺痛了脹奶的她。1045Please respect copyright.PENANA4UYoMSV5WK
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思思心想——有得食,你點解唔食?求下你,啜一啖。1045Please respect copyright.PENANALwx8hVHEHz
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被棉花糖拒絕的這個小小的齒輪,脫落,令思思整個人也開始散亂,她開始思考最近的一切。她想吃孖條、上課後和同學飯聚、出外看戲行街拍拖,總之不困在小小的空間喂奶拖地。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAtn3S8748YC
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阿朗開門,一見思思紅了整張臉,卻不斷牽扯嘴角,他嚇一跳。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAnwFovuFDfb
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他將她擁入懷,說:「因為阿媽?」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAZBIH402I0t
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「唔係,我自己冇用。」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAyr1lO9QDNB
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阿朗不明白,她何解無用?他覺得,她最近有些抑鬱。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAlZAlwft8tP
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「你想食咩?我買俾你,對唔住寶……」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAsPS5ENuVD6
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他不知道自己在為什麼而道歉,但他覺得自己有錯,明明說過將世上最好的給她,現在呢?將世上最好吃的空氣餵她嗎?1045Please respect copyright.PENANAVsahL9DNlr
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思思笑:「煮個麵得啦。我冇事,真係。」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAhrubVWesXq
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她知道,阿朗莫名內疚;但偏偏誰都沒錯,他們沒錯,阿朗媽媽、棉花糖同樣。1045Please respect copyright.PENANA53dDPHy9v2
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他心想:喊哂都叫冇事?女人真係……1045Please respect copyright.PENANAAe8vmNPjvP
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阿朗送走母親時,對她說:「思思最近好辛苦,同你凑大我嗰時一樣辛苦。」1045Please respect copyright.PENANAKijVydE2Go
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「你又知我凑你辛苦?」她笑,兒子已經長大,為了老婆什麼也說得出。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAlBriR8V44Z
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「因為,你哋都係媽媽囉。」阿朗無厘頭地答。1045Please respect copyright.PENANA91eAM2hsCX
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阿朗媽媽明白,他意指,請她別再挑剔思思。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAfQ1GAOpvYU
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「嗯。」1045Please respect copyright.PENANA1msdvPsFId
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送走母親後,阿朗到街邊買了幾串魚蛋、燒賣、豬大腸;經過便利店,買了孖條,打算和思思一人一條。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAp0rR20elf1
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怎知思思見到,哭得更兇,然後,又笑着吃她的晚餐。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAlxmg7P1xUq
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女人。阿朗心想,真奇怪。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAEDWn1rjrCj
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「放心啦,我買嘅一定唔寒唔毒,請安心品嚐!」1045Please respect copyright.PENANARqnfyeI0xo
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為免思思抑鬱情緒加劇,阿朗會等她入睡之後,才外夜班工作。每次他安撫好棉花糖後,都祈求她不要再醒來。其實他不明白,為何小嬰兒總喜歡在深夜大哭,是寂寞嗎?發現已沒有大人關注自己,所以不安嗎?1045Please respect copyright.PENANAu6anb5PuP9
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他總是抱着小公主,直至她在床上無聲遊玩。1045Please respect copyright.PENANADcAIld8NqT
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他想:以後一定要乖呀棉豬,爸爸媽媽都好愛你。1045Please respect copyright.PENANAAxzhyXGqaU
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