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小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvbdNjhepB
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純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RpVSkDQgE
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是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ljKH74UPx
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「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKUHDJLX2u
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壓花書籤。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9p9iSfluY
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紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIyucjuP9R
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxQxnbmjMN
「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuGGnrhRA7
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初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7v8MGCE8U
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難道是老伴的來信？522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkl5PICSfdy
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是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyWiyEKwwH
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNMCcWWHwT
明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeicx7hB0Kf
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5RqKXNuyE
或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXloXrGRs4
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFFeMX1bY7
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3UlVHgpWG
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ll6Bh1Bxp
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXZJzzdUBd
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡizdHAqvqU1
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2tJ1iv7Bs
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7BA2ePtTc
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8bLitKM9D
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuuRkxyISN
努力活著，只為失去？522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RKo81czEy
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放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkMkVRvhBp
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56UqiGcb7y
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xfS9Lkgx0
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQ8xTSyuUL
很累。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDF0Lv4ZPx
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpUkV6XI9S
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1BIg47ACP
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想睡。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvl5QM25I3D
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放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzSPUPLbBL
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BPPkMnk3U
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aWqp9SOiZ
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該要馬上包紥傷口。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbLBiirJgX
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但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9arS9zhjnX
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflfGZ3ex77
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6EeFqspFN
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBIKfTt3Fi
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46CpyPHnej
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時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2srYbPyMz
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOr4qWzIp0h
她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JV83ATCHj
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他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdt0Tsm91Gv
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OLmdUgF9Q
被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmsdo9M50v
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepdQVWjbXj
她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuijqK22eD
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現在呢？522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhjioJl0nJ
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她主動放棄記住他。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52uRmtKMWp
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上天或她更可惡可恨？522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMIy0zhQkUA
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaDMHRBadC
世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6IIauAVmB
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2foch5D3h
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWrcrwj6Nt
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDCOis5I4T
迴光返照。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTz0veFWaQ8
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她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03z5iBWiHi
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6qjK7naNy
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81F1JRJQUR
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCysPI42wT
是她將一切與他扣上關連。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aByIGGaSx
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如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqXFd6veG3
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LLcEOkig0
手腕倏忽劇痛。
醫院。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVEn8jl7vh
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病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJgjjqxgIb
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPod2OqPO2x
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrj6OahLwks
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當時是否不該報警求救呢？522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRnYlVMRXi
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這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuls63rx2b
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「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23jMqKTQmz
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHo6evCm0i
「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZQUDrQlDh
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYZvrfczaT
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYWCwHuqTh
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oSUV7uQwG
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KpgTV1P4A
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9VkgLhx9S
「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTihD9dwKRo
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQacK6sowFY
這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2lLqqb2Xc
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原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp83xCmxQ44
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十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeHIq2qSTY
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「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnnS5tDvjJ
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6DufhH8de
「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ErkFlkWy9
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右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnv4YWysBzH
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活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZclX15yqf
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她打算怎麼處理？522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwwmSYwMo8
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未決定。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgnBx1OLSZ
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那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQbxhJBC7U
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活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
