x
天藍，樹青，人閒。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyzSOOXh3n
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1CKt69AAZ
衣來張手，飯來張口。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRftEQITCo
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7I3CY2ylIy
無煩無憂，無欲無求。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5qfYxYhgR
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWLFvvgzBH
輕飄飄，輕如無物。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCbXwhjng9
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqoHOzIgoW
我說：「若有所失。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAaLzXyVDP
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLLKelcPIM
祂問：「有何缺失？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRF2YwiohK
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGZWUWXDCs
愣，無法言明。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBxj8qZjuo
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7mqoyjoTk
橫行世間，萬物向我膜拜，因為我是人類，是祂最愛的造物。我說鹿角形態優雅，鹿脫角奉上。我說喜歡蘋果清甜，荒地倏忽長苗，苗成樹，樹開花，花結果，果落地。是蘋果。咬，清甜，如我所願。說不出的滿足，說不出的失落。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcManh4rur
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCuI8qVZaV
夜，與伴繾綣星光下。奔放，放空，空洞。躺卧大地，仰望繁星。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPSoEyfTww
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDQAWzGjcy
他問：「哪顆星星最美麗？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVUF1cXwxx
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJjuBUwVOY
我答：「差不多。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYjr5cV75T
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZpvFgrcWp
他問：「如果某顆星星消失了，我們該不會察覺到吧。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCNglsaZoI
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCdnpAHQhN
我答：「是的。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpIP7oNy36
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54JQnPGNql
他苦笑，睡，再也沒有醒來。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYaUPaU8X3
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufVAOsaxYX
問祂因由，祂亦感奇怪——人類享有無盡生命，內無疾病，外無創傷，怎會無端暴斃？459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dYp7l1LTe
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvkavPdrJz
「別憂傷。」祂是慈愛的：「我可以給你再造一個新伴侶。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmw4aNBlara
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nrnDt00d2
我說只想要回原本的伴。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFKtgH6zk6
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYEqWG6VXt
祂創造出一個一模一樣的他。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpYJLLJTOl
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1X3V4u1ULo
一樣的身體，一樣的性格，一樣的記憶。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1fsgdfbZl
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAPl7znmPU
但我清楚知道這並不是與我相處百年的那個他。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSv9PvgVPQC
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTfhbvEBAE
我沒多話，向祂跪叩道謝。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjVipSgocr
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7hp47yxJb
與新伴離開宮殿、往山下走去時，有人帶著伴侶遺體上山向祂求助。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXeozqNcQm
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCp1QNMZtsn
似乎人類暴斃並非單一事件……459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEprTqPHpcA
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OptjgHfoU
森林裡、星空下、營火旁，我和新伴與萬歲老者促膝長談。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszsZuruy5W
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDBJMnJDAL
「當感受不到自己存在，就會死去。」老者伸手入火堆：「痛楚令我感受到自身存在……」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2hvR2In6P
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NW3FkqnCx
「順心日子令我開始思考自己是否存在。甚或是……」老者縮手，幽幽莞爾：「我的存在是否有意義？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBOwICEO6r
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjpFyfXVNZ
一直沉默的新伴突然開口接話：「那夜，我發現耀眼星星可有可無，我立時明白自己更是不過爾爾。」說罷，新伴倒地死去。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBW3ArNgZlj
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3CNxBDv0R
我不感悲傷，因為這是他的選擇——他以自己想要的方式去處理自己。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTykut72n5o
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzMZ5K5DJ0
「你找到答案沒？」我問老者。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjABOeVnnD
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLZh9BLkWO
「沒。」老者坦言：「『未有答案』也許是最佳答案——我有不停思考的原因。然後『不停思考』成為我繼續活著的原因。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlIU8dXzNW
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKItEVTdlvr
「這豈不是自尋煩惱？」我難以想像如何在煩惱狀態下活上萬年：「如此活下去有何意義？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVHksnrelp
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oYZ4VDICG
「我只知死亡以後，一切意義於我變得沒意義。」老者沒有正面回應我的提問，避重就輕指出更壞情況，巧妙突顯現狀的好。老者答案偏頗，皆因不欲承認真相。人類沒能承認意識不到的事物。換言之，老者早知答案。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDZDp2POFP
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3i3myUu1nM
他聰明，知我聰明，亦知道我知道他知道甚麼。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfndTAlrek4
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AslXbSlwU
無法繼續逃避，老者倒地斷氣。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7U2iM8VP6n
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtRdF3K2iU
我不驚不訝，伴屍凝望柴火沉思。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Icee01Q3h
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i7OzkKYUd
我沒有死去，因為我並非思考意義何在，而是思考如何創造意義。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtquM4URof
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiWKLNL01F
天明。我動手創造意義去。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUG5NLkmdt8
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8ISq7uuFe
撥弄柴枝，焚燒遺體，燎亮森林。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uZJQgBXAq
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRKxjIHgHs
有人運水，有人撲火，有人救人。各施其職，各盡其義。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqufW4fiT3
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27S0IgTkCL
我氣定神閒，穿過人群，前往山上宮殿找祂。居高臨下，俯視地面眾生奔波頻撲，頓時百感交集。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkspeIfX4Kz
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisoTxhshlc
「你不怪責我？」我直接問。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHtG8butkG
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mZlm5IL8g
「我明白你用意。」祂無所不知。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ylevdn4MY
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyKgx8eJ9X
「你早知大家暴斃原因？」我所知有限，因為我只是一個普通人類。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JLoZLXscz
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbWxBqRaRt
「我知道原因，但我無法理解，所以沒能解決。」祂愛人類，卻非人類，無法徹底代入人類角度：「我不明白為何人類需要『充滿缺憾的世界』。完美的和平世界不好嗎？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6yGtDIDo4
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgNPODJs9g
「有我的世界完美和平，無我的世界完美和平，換言之，我就是可有可無的、沒意義的。」我指著忙碌救火的人們說：「看！一場火災令大家由百無聊賴的遊民立時變為救人救火的大英雄。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtREvxApbMR
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGoKs3v6NF
「為了證明自己，寧願離開幸福，不斷遭遇不幸？」完美的祂不明缺憾的美麗。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpKFLMLVsA
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozFj7kTapn
我堅決點頭。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpdFcN21gn
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLimY20pdM
祂悲傷流淚。淚水觸地一刻，我被強大力量彈飛，飛離宮殿，安然著地——祂還是愛著每個人類，包括我。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAmip5cwiI
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7cFwAlUKzq
我回頭遙望，宮殿消失了。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyPz1PDf3W
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVYrsT05VT
感動，感恩，感慨。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6o4O1srTw
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pxfkJFScG
祂竟默許我的行動！459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxSvoBwHWy
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFJyHkUjS8
我浪跡天涯，到處作惡。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCqSV7CX2a
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6yiSzLw71
有人追殺我，說我破壞和平，為禍人間。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnQBxo1Eiu
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZAVSImBSQ
有人認同我，協助我，保護我，膜拜我。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRb9JT47riF
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFEXf4yW6v
時日漸過，當追殺者和追隨者各佔世界人口一半，我選擇隱退。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlsHcChRlP
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolQBcEZ3dp
億年過去。我某天在街頭偶遇祂。祂說剛在新開張的咖啡室買了咖啡和蛋糕，邀我一起到宮殿品嚐。我說好的，不過要先到便利店支付電費。祂笑問為何不繼續拖欠。我說經已拖欠幾季，快要被斷電。祂笑我假壞蛋，我笑祂假正經。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NJlMc3Lc5
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GSme5KJBs
宮殿依舊宏偉，祂依舊和藹，我依舊迷惘。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFKFXezKxp
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZsLVbORfo
「覺得現今人類怎麼樣？」我嚐一口咖啡，暗讚苦酸澀比例得宜。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlt1wvcPNT
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVRg8fSWnn
「怪。」祂眉頭輕皺。「你呢？喜歡現在的人間嗎？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6eDO3QFvf
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJrqBQ9wS4
「我不敢細想這問題……我擔心自己會後悔……」我望出窗外，俯視雲下人世眾生，雙手不自控微顫：「人類壽命日益縮短，我估計無人可以活過一百二十歲……」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8G2mdwHfG
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLsSYQabRB
「你認為是自己一手造成？」祂倒是比之前更淡然，放下咖啡杯，轉而品嚐蛋糕。沒待我回答，祂又繼續說：「無論你有沒有插手，人類終究會滅亡，分別在於滅亡時間和方式。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiWB1lrJ9v
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtmMD7DQdD
「我不明白。人類本有永恆壽命，若非我自作聰明，大家該可以……」我的內疚感硬生生被祂的說話壓下——因為祂不會說謊——取而代之的是大量疑問。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2TAt65ChI
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgirIPTLDg
「我在造人時加入了『分別心』，令每個人類都有獨特性格和思考模式，希望集思廣益有助促進新一波人類文明快速發展。豈料分別心令人類十分在意自身和周遭人事物的區別，部份偏激人類甚至完全否定自身，因而暴斃。」祂碟上蛋糕不知不覺間缺了大半，當然，也可以說是祂吃掉大半。若有所失同時若有所得：「打算召喚大洪水給大家來個痛快了斷，減輕痛苦，誰料你提出一個奇特方法！我姑且放手讓你一試，效果很不錯。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FF2791Rt2
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4qXOyurW1
「不過大家的壽命縮……」我聽不出我的煩惱與祂的解說有何關係。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF20LVQXmWH
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6UYUNCK7o
「活膩了，自然不想活。無論世界和平或混亂，無論本身壽命長或短，無論生活順心或困苦……」見我思路走入死胡同，祂直斷了當道出當中因由罷：「無論旁人如何對待，最終決定權還是在當事人手上。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHpnGc09qy
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomvz3krogR
繃緊多年的情緒得到解放，活上億年的我倒在祂懷裡，哭得像個孩子。459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuoDuAX39s
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMuf7ExxQU
「我哭累了……」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamIspyRzzl
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYazAxsucDO
「那就好好入睡吧。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIx73JKlhp
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpY0DUQ2A2P
「可以不醒來嗎？」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLxBs6M3vG
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbNJA7UmQh
「隨你喜歡。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjmBRjnvyr
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiinSgfc6h
「謝謝。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9vckSxaxd
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGryXO4Pst8
「不用謝。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwttA3hozU9
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoseqfNcrI
「我愛祢。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rqZaaNLJz
459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtB90NDFjk
「我愛你們。」459Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8v76EsobIM
