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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwMVnurRpb
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxA3L3XZLnm
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgvYJFovOu
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9g3LQtrlN
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94NksFPbKt
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oXLp53puD
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUfvDoICaC
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsaKshrC8CU
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「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SJAcxRAKN
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7LpTsft3K
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItJqdndSoJ
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwhqZVToxR
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXySHMvuiI3
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSnU1qSbFF
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlT1Cr73XA
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qwiOIxgAb
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NAY2F1uU6
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjniZ6ptsgS
家宜沉默了。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mY9cICgqO
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvp8WazEdkw
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOlzZ4lEo7
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMgktAiSUZ
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90UV4Of6qw
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPKRIOjUai
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIebcvEejC
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLPdgrjZuG
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMawwGvbSI
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1BTZRHv8H
有人說她成熟了，進步了。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9woTgUfh0
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3iPA5OYNp
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkplX0ewfPA
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGg3QwLKfK
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEewyuV3BSm
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24ND8mDmcb
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpgqJW5XLt
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還是向現實低頭好了。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfCjGLDwbs
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLEkSzuoJv
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rNfNBi7DK
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVRXcimTfq
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtD4CDrATkz
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbFcDTv14j
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBLjIweS7d
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8SZl3G97m
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59VMMiezRA
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIaH6RDt4H
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KHda5VgtW
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3g9eHAs4iO
家宜沒答話。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqNIjDDeNh
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHU621CUODJ
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYUBs3CETs
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKFjLFDEmu
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gdv5d3BJk
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBZah10D5L
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DQfxmIfvr
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTzH8QRgEl
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKVyFi8ftT
當初…798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYtK1tOiDs
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOX4KxeHic
整個晚上，媽一言不發。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETB0grXYem
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPpnnXPF0T
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpB2ccSWKq7
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2pc9LYXeY
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnMxnBAFvj
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUvsWuI0oL
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzdaRrt4Md
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvs5gVm98EI
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeCYVjBblp
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHtOxgn8VZ
根本不是她的錯！798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjGuBgypt6
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFSDi88xlC
但道歉可保住一椿生意…798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡueWzjir3rn
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOCAtUjsxs
卻扭曲了自己…798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHGEXEzpIg
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMxAPM8oPA
值得嗎？798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDsJqFTonw
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEK1364PEz
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6Ps6PjHTY
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3jdSX0nUq
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWSs4fnjZQ
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZIEyQknLu
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38D5Qj8B01
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVRhzEJ1fy
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlOWWqg6Hu
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWJuItvtS9
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtinZMU6Ybf
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbz3XLIkth
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTSTcViRdl
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EUEUJTCUq
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1nyU8imY3
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLaQfcrSVg
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjZgRkMrKa
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmeWjBqduDz
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyJ8Yfpz6b
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8kobSK8HQ
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡape68gitW6
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理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuWvypzsiP
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEs4VyxHyAS
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiigzj7Tgr
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8canvlipP
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFr8JFbTpG
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOb3xIg28y
不管了，先遞信吧！798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBcsF1RiIU
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4znT5CJI0
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzk72FQ6TWO
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4b9noqCOW
家宜呆了。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa60POpnk3E
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIZXzFqRQj
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsB55JYiHf0
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBfW1Qyvjy
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdXLSfGWSd
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HV6925RfX
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8jLxBp1aH
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMwWh3jivi
這是…放棄了嗎？798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4myaInjEJT
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1Rq6jqefr
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLQLSv5ugo
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucDqQDioTE
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlYKpSHoVX
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMglRHlrqca
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQaiVUbipm
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41kn4FKP6y
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHnXOoSnmg
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmNODq0g5x
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1O3hVpwyd
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMl9WFAi7e
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkpBngsSL3
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPqp1U1snU
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYiDjWcekY
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMl5VH4qGXH
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKrQLoHmKR
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLEaaev0Ma
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLETIYMLsJ
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCtmRGg0hs
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9m5dMRh74
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPL8jfRIpcb
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvutJgjumfH
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7sfUHA01mP
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccqOpXllJU
798Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZD8oP8EzX2
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