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小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqAv7GU2lB
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純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjIW1WV1io
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是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6R2Y41z7F
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「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1XXiELseA
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壓花書籤。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrPtziGVTH
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1m1Iu1XPzF
紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zWSH0Ir9k
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZfWcjJnqU
「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLa9pY4VGvh
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初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡls8dbCLIUi
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSk8HDYOEeG
難道是老伴的來信？528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoghgk7jzPe
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTtvJ4ceKe
是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDV5ZYjbBb
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xufVwXVeV
明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAP8VjyrevZ
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeGnvedOtV
或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwi1JNYi0uG
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNiWEEWM3F
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdpgaCbrxL
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVKNwXP0lu
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgHCkU96KL
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgto4d6SKcM
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRG9NNzXwz
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqD1DTZd4oA
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gsFmmO25C
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFQ5MqclMR
努力活著，只為失去？528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbU43bKeDSf
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDdv5z7xMH
放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5q44ygwj5
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ypp231SmD
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6s4q1fdglP
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很累。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEc6RsMWfJe
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfJSTyvUMe
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTq5ALSqDPy
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想睡。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5lMoycdh0
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放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYrZ0B7ySw
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxtsMrqyiJ
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VR0Dexjs9
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該要馬上包紥傷口。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vnrcRIXHG
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但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGB4DRhbWK
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOCSLMHMAe
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUSX5Gg6lC
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6saDZ6YdL8
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MKG0PzaET
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmV89GbVEcS
時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMCvcdzzd9
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她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0pHPs9TBK
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他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DYoSDMSJs
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxVZL3Luid
被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESbUJ5dHQf
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡug6d5xYZJF
她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtxRuDojqC
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現在呢？528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8kSEIbBKQ
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oXFCiV3oD
她主動放棄記住他。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQj7ntb12W6
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1cUpCKFmt
上天或她更可惡可恨？528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9428EMUDPD
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RqjwEg5JS
世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuzVksmd4S
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMZft2Lei4
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVpOgKH2iI
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSwTfYEa1e
迴光返照。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgphvzU61Zq
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaH35Xq8blb
她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIpxeeLFjI
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3ewempU3h
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmJYvHEX7h
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WmbkJKQ5Q
是她將一切與他扣上關連。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KjkJY5vnA
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0CxRdMJ7Q
如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhL8aXFU8r
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QMFodLSZv
手腕倏忽劇痛。
醫院。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqsVmrkFVN
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPxboDQFIC
病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMZFKB1pLe
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAthtBBTB2P
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fDp9khxCG
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LmgZCUe63
當時是否不該報警求救呢？528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmczTYXyQa
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2MPXs8MKq
這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjifuuJrrK
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3i1pNN9bWZ
「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLcDTWFa7j
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi18vSlAD8O
「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkWj5VivX1
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwqNOCb5Lg
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3A8CpQaMK
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCMdeI7HBn
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKNJIYKTpL
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zBPhy2hcH
「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWGxGCpfVC
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoFKcPvw4k
這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4D6CRS3vH
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原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmy0V3Yowd
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZ3JFMabmb
十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw73c9aMqbH
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiBP5ExCfE
「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6SSwlAlWq
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7shDRtmduA
「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyycFXHb8M0
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsem2IiBii
右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91Nx0VjmPt
528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUABGXsBFJ
活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFE7oUQFKX
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她打算怎麼處理？528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMv2qq8Ngs
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未決定。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡammzvDusnp
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那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。528Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPYACeX5pN
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活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
