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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlc1uQeWez
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VMAtNjsCV
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDkBkO6Jfj
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxKlzQ35QG
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbeahnQ6qA
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ePZEQAJAj
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtS9STKWAir
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「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20tRUDodeI
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「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfeZOEmx1b
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「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrLP3rDPCu
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掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5apI85WfC
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTa2ZtDczj
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPXwhcG5W6
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家宜沉默了。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MDhCXK5Qi
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MEer6YDdJ
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2MamCTaV1
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這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rDIT2V57m
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOA9ZpkDyQ
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKt9kif9L0
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELc3Ombqzw
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUaYBXy8wy
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKk0RbDQ8Td
有人說她成熟了，進步了。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeMbNItvxq
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdfOsyau9m
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9R6rFeBfw
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似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0tTrv4seM
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHhYA5Vb0d
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrPc2GtRVn
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還是向現實低頭好了。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZ4z5dFCaD
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICKVUDdtSa
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUDswrUHAIC
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這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUZJGRwTk4
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdB5Yy4fn2
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ62nd32lvU
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRm4jlVVlp
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5bR4P1oQW
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrROWL15Bgl
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQLgT8238j
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家宜沒答話。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJuYcZ2fZN
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjUo8QFvNv
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Qe0RSpDcM
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFLIbxKXdi
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nh8Nr0S5K
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrz02oCmHY
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBHCIjYOcD
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYh2jvpZCDW
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當初…795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGzt4mi4uT
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikcVBRDEDR
整個晚上，媽一言不發。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtG8SOYtRpA
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4are8QihhC
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPCVkNS6ps
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但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxq8cOxsTXz
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhma2Bofq6S
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4O92PXWqB
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOopEJ5UXy
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wwYmZ4oyN
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgZkwAY3SF
根本不是她的錯！795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRy2WCuehUe
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ518gbOQVGK
但道歉可保住一椿生意…795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxsAIBSOhh
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卻扭曲了自己…795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDw2k3b3Xg
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值得嗎？795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgUcpDh8GG
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYku9up9mur
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdFrv2kg3Y
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtcWlXLO7n
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI2YmZB8aA
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbtD8d9pbs
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKHzR2s2Uk
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ens0QJb5s
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTTDQK5403
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJ1SPzWHfA
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRrRngOSF6
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxcuJ3QlUe
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDKGHY6SrD
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwQumz4imB
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3SP1gF1d8
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tesvspd6W
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYskBorXs0d
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tpyysH5U6
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgyflvGsiH
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhHO8KUEPm
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zz5sT52rf
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2RysVwuzF
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxldMqluGj
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqypJEMBK4b
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5TdZjx2VQ
不管了，先遞信吧！795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGSnrdtnUS
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9L7SSkP6z
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家宜呆了。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonSYFonHkC
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「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUwsJE1U8p
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她沒即時否定——猶豫了。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXxe2y3z8I
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「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92qjn14zUu
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這是…放棄了嗎？795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRXqi26uIi
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsTpIwpkcj
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家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCxKRLOzZJ
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家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3ue7KhT1S
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昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQdFOzAxj8
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當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnap5u3Fhw
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNCRG5IcRb
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdUTUZkOXi
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lL1UOEEuL
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLADuiVSorM
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「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKZIpxbZlO
795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡON95lAoHIJ
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcPiuJr8Ym
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媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcVKNR7Edu
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「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuS4RZQy0qs
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回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。795Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHJftelovk
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欲哭無淚。
