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天藍，樹青，人閒。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlLmvobVap
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衣來張手，飯來張口。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeilhTXUmM7
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無煩無憂，無欲無求。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjIYEl7GQm
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輕飄飄，輕如無物。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nSZGsmDyj
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我說：「若有所失。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcerkXnyIr
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祂問：「有何缺失？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡez52W6JV3K
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愣，無法言明。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzkhrmbhL5
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橫行世間，萬物向我膜拜，因為我是人類，是祂最愛的造物。我說鹿角形態優雅，鹿脫角奉上。我說喜歡蘋果清甜，荒地倏忽長苗，苗成樹，樹開花，花結果，果落地。是蘋果。咬，清甜，如我所願。說不出的滿足，說不出的失落。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYBVgigdLC
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夜，與伴繾綣星光下。奔放，放空，空洞。躺卧大地，仰望繁星。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaHG9rSNhJ
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他問：「哪顆星星最美麗？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7WMkcvstD
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我答：「差不多。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLefPDDECl
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他問：「如果某顆星星消失了，我們該不會察覺到吧。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHSHtQpXzd
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我答：「是的。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipKYDSROKN
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他苦笑，睡，再也沒有醒來。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYlakb9x4d
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問祂因由，祂亦感奇怪——人類享有無盡生命，內無疾病，外無創傷，怎會無端暴斃？462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36faI3DUSJ
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「別憂傷。」祂是慈愛的：「我可以給你再造一個新伴侶。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8fqwaWxw5
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我說只想要回原本的伴。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwr799j4gOI
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祂創造出一個一模一樣的他。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8EZjAC2dS
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一樣的身體，一樣的性格，一樣的記憶。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBhCJzbKm0
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但我清楚知道這並不是與我相處百年的那個他。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nFECG6SZe
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我沒多話，向祂跪叩道謝。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqztONCqYv
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與新伴離開宮殿、往山下走去時，有人帶著伴侶遺體上山向祂求助。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6TaulMORd
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似乎人類暴斃並非單一事件……462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAXvOBP9rC
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森林裡、星空下、營火旁，我和新伴與萬歲老者促膝長談。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlcDrpOKsX
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「當感受不到自己存在，就會死去。」老者伸手入火堆：「痛楚令我感受到自身存在……」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB32oRf7cqZ
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「順心日子令我開始思考自己是否存在。甚或是……」老者縮手，幽幽莞爾：「我的存在是否有意義？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiyNwMArIp
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一直沉默的新伴突然開口接話：「那夜，我發現耀眼星星可有可無，我立時明白自己更是不過爾爾。」說罷，新伴倒地死去。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTww4ce5Wtk
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我不感悲傷，因為這是他的選擇——他以自己想要的方式去處理自己。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LqGRIASjl
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「你找到答案沒？」我問老者。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYDt9Pq9Td
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「沒。」老者坦言：「『未有答案』也許是最佳答案——我有不停思考的原因。然後『不停思考』成為我繼續活著的原因。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBqUk8tZVE
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「這豈不是自尋煩惱？」我難以想像如何在煩惱狀態下活上萬年：「如此活下去有何意義？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mCHNIFjEX
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「我只知死亡以後，一切意義於我變得沒意義。」老者沒有正面回應我的提問，避重就輕指出更壞情況，巧妙突顯現狀的好。老者答案偏頗，皆因不欲承認真相。人類沒能承認意識不到的事物。換言之，老者早知答案。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPgadElSkD
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他聰明，知我聰明，亦知道我知道他知道甚麼。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBu1UnozUSs
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無法繼續逃避，老者倒地斷氣。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwynrjFzsJ
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我不驚不訝，伴屍凝望柴火沉思。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzrJEf8qOE
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我沒有死去，因為我並非思考意義何在，而是思考如何創造意義。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡov9qI9TYj5
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天明。我動手創造意義去。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpPrp0C94W
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撥弄柴枝，焚燒遺體，燎亮森林。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTaXi8Lfrd
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有人運水，有人撲火，有人救人。各施其職，各盡其義。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXyMf95qqO
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我氣定神閒，穿過人群，前往山上宮殿找祂。居高臨下，俯視地面眾生奔波頻撲，頓時百感交集。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NtyP8wrVS
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「你不怪責我？」我直接問。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRpEo2rDeN
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「我明白你用意。」祂無所不知。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBidOPMo0M
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「你早知大家暴斃原因？」我所知有限，因為我只是一個普通人類。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuCwp9upJL
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「我知道原因，但我無法理解，所以沒能解決。」祂愛人類，卻非人類，無法徹底代入人類角度：「我不明白為何人類需要『充滿缺憾的世界』。完美的和平世界不好嗎？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRpwpQlwxn
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「有我的世界完美和平，無我的世界完美和平，換言之，我就是可有可無的、沒意義的。」我指著忙碌救火的人們說：「看！一場火災令大家由百無聊賴的遊民立時變為救人救火的大英雄。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVqvt8FzKy
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「為了證明自己，寧願離開幸福，不斷遭遇不幸？」完美的祂不明缺憾的美麗。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIT0PDUeMm
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我堅決點頭。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4D9K9M31h
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祂悲傷流淚。淚水觸地一刻，我被強大力量彈飛，飛離宮殿，安然著地——祂還是愛著每個人類，包括我。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcTQ2knc3t
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我回頭遙望，宮殿消失了。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlo41xPhn9q
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感動，感恩，感慨。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFEU0ckjZi
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祂竟默許我的行動！462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4LGPxPLII
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我浪跡天涯，到處作惡。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwrhr4Ql8J
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有人追殺我，說我破壞和平，為禍人間。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdDf94NQJ9
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有人認同我，協助我，保護我，膜拜我。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQjNJZSPq2
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時日漸過，當追殺者和追隨者各佔世界人口一半，我選擇隱退。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWT2SfpJDa
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億年過去。我某天在街頭偶遇祂。祂說剛在新開張的咖啡室買了咖啡和蛋糕，邀我一起到宮殿品嚐。我說好的，不過要先到便利店支付電費。祂笑問為何不繼續拖欠。我說經已拖欠幾季，快要被斷電。祂笑我假壞蛋，我笑祂假正經。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxBaaj4iYq
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宮殿依舊宏偉，祂依舊和藹，我依舊迷惘。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnHiIQF0FA
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「覺得現今人類怎麼樣？」我嚐一口咖啡，暗讚苦酸澀比例得宜。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDex2uRoh9
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「怪。」祂眉頭輕皺。「你呢？喜歡現在的人間嗎？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vVt5QVhjA
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「我不敢細想這問題……我擔心自己會後悔……」我望出窗外，俯視雲下人世眾生，雙手不自控微顫：「人類壽命日益縮短，我估計無人可以活過一百二十歲……」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0C5rn5SBKI
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「你認為是自己一手造成？」祂倒是比之前更淡然，放下咖啡杯，轉而品嚐蛋糕。沒待我回答，祂又繼續說：「無論你有沒有插手，人類終究會滅亡，分別在於滅亡時間和方式。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NuUiKYEqu
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「我不明白。人類本有永恆壽命，若非我自作聰明，大家該可以……」我的內疚感硬生生被祂的說話壓下——因為祂不會說謊——取而代之的是大量疑問。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbh1hWDzyx3
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「我在造人時加入了『分別心』，令每個人類都有獨特性格和思考模式，希望集思廣益有助促進新一波人類文明快速發展。豈料分別心令人類十分在意自身和周遭人事物的區別，部份偏激人類甚至完全否定自身，因而暴斃。」祂碟上蛋糕不知不覺間缺了大半，當然，也可以說是祂吃掉大半。若有所失同時若有所得：「打算召喚大洪水給大家來個痛快了斷，減輕痛苦，誰料你提出一個奇特方法！我姑且放手讓你一試，效果很不錯。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTInnwzyxS
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「不過大家的壽命縮……」我聽不出我的煩惱與祂的解說有何關係。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vf4e7BF5f
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「活膩了，自然不想活。無論世界和平或混亂，無論本身壽命長或短，無論生活順心或困苦……」見我思路走入死胡同，祂直斷了當道出當中因由罷：「無論旁人如何對待，最終決定權還是在當事人手上。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqiogZE8SB
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繃緊多年的情緒得到解放，活上億年的我倒在祂懷裡，哭得像個孩子。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQOeDSLhqP
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「我哭累了……」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLyV3XjKpg
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「那就好好入睡吧。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJq0LZzckdi
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「可以不醒來嗎？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSMQYQeZT0
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「隨你喜歡。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsrL4qz39O
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「謝謝。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqpQqZPzQC
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「不用謝。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJcuk6KGWu
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「我愛祢。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUQYYQA4DO
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「我愛你們。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2obBrBL8TA
