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「你還可以嗎？」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcK1RwKTASw
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「無法不可以。」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWga1kp2Xkq
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「如需幫忙，來找我吧。」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVp2yqkXHZQ
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXviFjyu17A
「謝謝你。」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRl1xmOLgiT
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqgvdyfdRC
我對隸屬同組的小妹報以虛弱苦笑。與她向來關係不錯，概略知道彼此家庭狀況——同是經濟支柱，一屋老嫩。聽到她主動提出幫忙，我除了感激，更多的是感覺羞恥。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiP9rcipMTy
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0obPztYG7
唉！多講無謂，反正既成事實。倒不如動腦筋思考如何向妻子說明狀況。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDXEl4xLnP
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixWE7LeRK2
疫情關係，全球經濟不景氣。我和妻子預料這段艱難時期將會維持好一段日子，早已節衣縮食，積穀防饑。但我們慢慢沒有想到老闆會有此一著：工作日數減半意味薪金減半。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1LHhxr8Oq
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehOq1WDRtg
供樓開支無法削減，父母醫療開支不能削，孩子教育開支不能減。唯一可以削減的只有我們夫妻倆的使用……487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sEqP2Hr7D
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCVDVF0F0Z
飯後，兩老早睡，兒女溫習，妻子洗碗。我怯怯到廚房去。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHMfDTzyuV
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8A7RTe9AGO
「老婆……」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gowqzP8cl
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sfCwSRh1H
「有困難？金錢？」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ut7p6fMlw
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR06sbqL9xG
妻子搶佔發言先機，心裡不安的我更覺虛怯。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYyu5MVtaO
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWXW3PuSJR
「是。明天開始，只需星期二、四上班。」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSbUHOii6T
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWZtZC4sNq
「嗯。」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXohbSLsC8B
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPJpY33dVG
妻子沒再多話，專心洗碗。她的冷靜淡然在我意料之外，卻又在情理當中。無力改變現實，也就只得接受和硬撐，呼天搶地無補於事。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxkZVbM5mo
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqZCAq4zVD
我回睡房躺在床上發愣。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDS3ohX8z0p
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKc30GB4qju
無能。無力。無奈。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArXyLQLutg
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrT6etZx0my
千思萬緒化作團團亂線。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPC3q8Ochw
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhN543W3dgb
剪不斷，理還亂。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU3fdU8K8V
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45yxAwKVj3
勿剪，別理。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5V1wUtEN1
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovHBamTO7n
待時日將其化解。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhPGYQMwan
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莫操心。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1TJSpJufv
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莫操心？487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPKndLM7FD
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiScVwSOSnI
如何莫操心？487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ637cmopqZb
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiyGK2FJTw
我知道困境必定會過去，但我必須硬撐直到那天到來。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQdbTZfE1l
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrCjCoF9PA
撐多久？如何撐？487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rVF3hRNLz
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不知道……
日出。星期二。上班員工人數銳減，辦公室冷清不少。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZahKovuVmU
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzZsvBIWRg
有人若無其事，有人變得寡言，有人大吐苦水。不論個人感受如何，公司繼續營運，世界繼續運轉。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyVB298wtH
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRZzbW3fIX
啟動電腦。電腦桌面背景是站在浮冰的北極熊。毛色暗啞，骨瘦如柴，神色虛弱。想必多日找不到食物，飢腸轆轆。絕望？誰管你的！天地蒼茫，白皚皚一片。無論北極熊是否存在，北極仍是北極，我仍在地球另端為家庭財政傷透腦筋。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWz7MWqGy4
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDq4QZS89wR
午餐。翻熱食物。是昨夜飯餸，白飯菜心排骨。白飯黏糯，菜心苦黃，排骨柴乾。想要一支豉油。下班後去買吧！不了，豉油不是必需品，不該浪費金錢買奢侈品。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KiTHv6Vfo
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJlRIs672Z
下班時間，加班。加班同事還不少。沒法子。減少工作日數不代表減少工作量，也不代表工作進度可以放慢。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRSNQUgQDq
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzinyZq5vtd
每次想及時間、日子，位於電腦屏幕右下方的時鐘就會顯得格外礙眼：它在提醒我妻子的飯菜變涼了、孩子掛念我的心情變淡了、父母與我相處的時間變短了；它在催促我加快手腳完成當前項目，接下來的工作將以排山倒海之勢襲來；它在教導我人生大道理，一寸光陰一吋金，吋金難買寸光陰，更何況加班沒有加班費……487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGnICELbcp
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgetcTRR6jC
關機，正式下班。心情太壞，說服不了自己留下來。回首，同事們仍在埋頭苦幹。理解，但無法奉陪到底。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLk84ppE1jX
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7E0Hv7zIY3
大街上，人影疏落，商店無燈。車站無人，想必有一班次剛剛離站。等。車頭燈或白或黃，在黑夜暗色環境當中尤其刺眼眩目。節慶煙花，演唱會螢光棒，無燈飯廳裡的金魚缸，床頭小燈，被窩裡的手提電話屏幕……腦袋失控，只管想著一堆毫無意義、不著邊際的雜亂畫面。累？是吧。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBcNDHUA6i
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡial14Mq1hF
我笑。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuR55feUUKH
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pRUOUfrHb
在巴士入站之際決定轉身離開。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePSKtUDdzL
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpJziRV0IJ
忽爾不想回家。
「飯餸在雪櫃。你自行翻熱吧。」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgX1KMpmIee
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGpvvrBbIr
「好的。」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDKO3q6YCn
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7OnvtzAGd
我敷衍回應妻子幾句後也就洗澡去。熱水沖去臉上油塵，皮膚霎時變得乾淨而乾燥，微癢微痕。或許每個人都是因為這些不著眼的小耗損而老去。無可避免。無可奈何。是否只得順從？是否只得接受？不順從又如何？不接受又如何？487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgO2wHXboPF
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNpb658taw
只會苦了自己。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JEP0nNKQi
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV93OB770nY
努力改變過，極力掙扎過，然後一切依舊——世界依舊不似預期。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJiu7D6SsN
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGf7EneDlVS
通體蝕骨的無能無力無奈。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9c4tQZsdT
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEX1q7gAP5L
浴後，睡床上。妻子望著天花發愣。天花燈沒有亮著，光源自窗外滲入，剛巧側照伏在天花的小蟲，以誇張得滑稽的比例拉長小蟲影子，如怪物，如鬼魅。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTg85Gfh9tE
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWS4Mwh9IR
「你的同事有沒有跟老闆反映近來遇上的問題？」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ344LvXJXuL
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmgkAjqD0M
「沒有。大家都在座位上邊罵邊工作。」487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5MKlBYNJW
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQhVI2mvyc
妻子乾笑一聲，側身面窗睡去。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5JJILevtT
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknEu1dbRG6
我實在笑不出口，呆望天花數蟲子。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTL4t0PfPnp
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一、二、三、四、五……
