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天亮，上班。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZbfoWxPJs
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkA1IgBMRO
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡark34CjPfy
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGzi5Cn6P5
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtc0q3Wq9O
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDRmyVZCqO
到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkuI68ILlw
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看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZqY6kfsJE
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeIpiKxWEz
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRR7ey4Mw8
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRuofHlRwO
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrYdpd6Iwu
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYShtlGYNEG
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2uUv483hv
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZCzMWmBhv
「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPx4d1Eb74V
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwVU31QAgA
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRextCvCM6
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQo99WzXba
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftFbD99MCI
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwwxsElBqc
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHfnwMbrqu
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9a0YX10Ker
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8WmkXIs9b
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsArd7qJGa
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6d70yPhoM
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyipuznMBc
還是……864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJKlKwBxgD
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCupfegx8wM
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlGcNvIARG
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0RAVJQTeg
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwmdYwZ1Pn
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbXJVCw1ZF
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19KfuN10OV
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgxNj9ADM7
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5tKGGUa6d
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsghuFjx7yA
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuWYo3METM
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvL9MKYlvE
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFErNM9e3sa
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8woorMgX4
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxPS08oVNo
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14RESKiT3K
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2BnMVG9s1
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29KpyFYtae
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrOLxNc1hQ
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVKUJMVhVr
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloqHD9TYXZ
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKEr61kIrq
醉倒。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQYagJBKHz
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BtNsYwrJp
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhC6CowHttf
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXfKh90PaI
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFqCfMRTYS
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifOeTzovXB
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPfe9WWCQZ
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImDopyajPT
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAanJGdxGn7
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVhhAyMMCX
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFw8LbZ8lCm
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88L9xhWyKu
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkLmZPda2c
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTO5gojzBd
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNA49SVmck
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmosVX1ue6
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6V7vFXRRcW
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFTuQjII29
死寂。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEOZIubLOj
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAQlDGUjUE
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VFfiJISMK
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI51beMivL3
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FW3AKhOGH
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoKRrkvpNU
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98W6lAeeaa
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDnunIXFzq
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jLRKmwpVs
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIrkb6tyCE
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MR9tCB8bB
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrApkcexyn
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxhyKxQWEX
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHY4rPE9SQ
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNZdHWJYJr
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEv6yojbeL
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudcW4GMAoW
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxf1wio4HxM
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIu3pwHzFH
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSjFsLq8yC
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQ9Tkmdgnz
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gaT3FyObU
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoXHVRV5tj
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGc7VYhiVT8
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYi9blxc1w
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTUvF9AIdl
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pswmDXTCW
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「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPexUXsL1jC
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNUcnLTGii
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXH0rRo9ilk
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6WtqECZaK
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeclpwDO17a
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3ohzTJ3zZ
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEh8kJji8zU
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwKO8zDcqK
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECgOaRhnBN
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjaAKzQFqT
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcW4i2p3wax
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkiI08Wjsy
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4m8tVeXI0P
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBL55SoEpQ
「在你體內。」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkE4KHdLIno
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡan9nYDThhQ
「甚麼？」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wgT6n76zT
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ404WOvCXQV
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqBx14asvj
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjY4rejxKt
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8r2q0Q8OSY
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv6LhsTsoo3
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIZ5pheq2R
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7R3hwZ8n2
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdieqc6eSC
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJuOEn7IT8
「誰？」另一聲音反問。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡam6oFqOHq7
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3CUBQHoNC
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBcBeH9WcD
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcrhPWhC1x
靜。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziTuzEIfiC
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWJkrGTOmS
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfIxpkHv0o
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17RAxXu5kX
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7sAGZiVM1
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfHpQjGS3j
我：「我有精神病？」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoa9Simiwv7
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiuYOrDqZ3
醫：「是情緒病。」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2L1kGafX7
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08Yrmjq2cf
我：「怎麼辦？」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Gl8YcK6Kd
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwXE0D3tiT
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmu8Q6Uwom
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09wuD5N60l
我：「謝謝醫生。」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMWygKQouN
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78P4er9pVd
醫：「不用謝。」864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqItngJSNSb
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFmZ1wX7dU
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwfAMWDndo
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkstM1h9ZK
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMYAohms3V
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgeQ4f0vZV
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuhqG9NlWs
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2x0ksLFdus
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WFFdoCX7O
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPOSQfLRjZ
同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTSVCkWuYZ
864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRaGzPWt5A
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。864Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsIn4Xg0ug
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