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小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3kNtt20yN
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純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RpMKMKB3E
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是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXO3WgUpcn
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「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBzBvcTAss
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壓花書籤。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2AmoL3gMQ
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紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYtAO40ZDv
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPBWzFfSFE
「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxhPZgDOsJ
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXOt48kIbA
初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlGKBCQKA9
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難道是老伴的來信？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ4NQ01Ifu
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjEYX0WEvI
是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5z72U3G6f
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxclrgTzzVy
明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoNyJn8PRU
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLv4Mq7tt8
或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIjxJIFR96
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7S0SUSCfO
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcebXm9GUnI
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCkl9du4TP
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNNSBU9FNW
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HztWcaxsV
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yQpryIIkg
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGEkWhIEcO
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSfylJZEB8
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxyfcyMui3
努力活著，只為失去？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVU7YLclS7
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtz5uYRQvG6
放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wcxfB2WfV
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcIIxuZzQi
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOyxcz3Oe0
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUncdciPdOW
很累。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuPlueLPoE
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfc0HxO7bV
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9g96sHxgx
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想睡。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvnmc9H2CO
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放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVVaCL4jQW
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwXn2lxGKw
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LhRmQmpAx
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該要馬上包紥傷口。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNsKYjelA5
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但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUkvtSzmm9
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrpLMCVfh8
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8V5crF2DG
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiTGDNBnjG
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pGBvwp9GQ
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2Un8UdTmy
時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw90g33h6Ho
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIHSBuFVDT
她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO93yFLjzqm
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBGeqawKYK
他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCW9fA6Uzj
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEjJ2Q3mLK
被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbi2SmnMfD
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdt486PGf7
她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5k8JjUQ3G6
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現在呢？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRbwL6rO0h
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她主動放棄記住他。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRMp9rMau4
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2L6s26zk2
上天或她更可惡可恨？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikropgsQOF
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XsIosysbD
世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdATLKW1iqz
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnn8Y21s3BK
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUFNr902RX
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迴光返照。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJzvFkAafj
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhY0wkHZgyj
她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1BHlFLcVE
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JpnrHrBjf
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgptDXXxzsV
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9acEQ5SXOT
是她將一切與他扣上關連。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbpuiRNkJU
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4FtCItCMs
如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwMl4236LA
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手腕倏忽劇痛。
醫院。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mkBNWSNO7
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病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYptj2fiNxn
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VEivKKDIl
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXpTpMWCfL
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsKEPeP23i
當時是否不該報警求救呢？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEtR2hvXcO
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qzJiqF2fg
這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWL41Pw9Qk
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7Em7NGwUf
「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AgMr9e5mM
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrrxjluiBD
「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbjgzD2Hv8
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEd8HLWjC8
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNCn02qZyw
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLPDvj1CbJ
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKzmiK4dWz
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCY1rrPB5tY
「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbCeATncE8
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBKAWTkvZx
這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXcgE9kWrr
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原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkcSmtUnUY
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPymrsw50DT
十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTLP45NGQi
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「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUt8kuJcnZc
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrwQvc0oVF
「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3KQruWq7g
589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGTQIbn5rS
右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbpb7SMA5G
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活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrb6cbA9SM
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她打算怎麼處理？589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF31AWgh4ge
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未決定。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3RrbwsR8k
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那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IVUQDAm3a
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活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
