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天亮，上班。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfY7kepAcoh
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokas8SOBtT
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRW1Z426mNO
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsC6L4He4F
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaT41xjaJef
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看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBK3ZJWgj5
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwLt0OcNCL
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lYdu9EFOC
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0QWTP4OJf
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0FNaVlE0P
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQmYGGMlQ6
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmIZNpuBJoM
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRxyaSwCBC
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsEYNerPmH
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dpzCqKna4
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsT6h7Y9qtn
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaoBYA9WNeF
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hvxGbEj6h
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwwDjU9eGG
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyedEBTCgA
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG42Xb3bTUR
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還是……982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ113YAeMXqW
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXzMcyLe5A
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQYQsS5MUf
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNb1R4tjOx
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgxyqXcM4r
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大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JDDGf3DFT
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjTZTsQzgW
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUZV2WxoXC
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbw8v7dzQ2B
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJIuWbbtdk
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hBjtOQ8ZG
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHyseL5Zeb
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Zjw6QVLG8
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjXs4JgDaw
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhZaJbspFb
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAUABi6rzk
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzMdmiwWdr
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36N714T2m6
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCkKgJWVW5
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4a6BebbQQ
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEdgm2HP0G
醉倒。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKni5TF7PK
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYW5CPsl3m
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22EVe32aEk
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVZSnBV3Rc
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRv9XmQJUu
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmMdh4fSAa
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyhMT6G35F
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看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx93BejFmBD
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4RZjUeUqU
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFx8J9hHB36
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大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLon92ikUz
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8IqAWYABn
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQCkChhalw
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死寂。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3XHL0pmtJ
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdzd8zUWKN
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbdJNzIhGh
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzxElsc2S9
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcboxmzHQ8q
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pDCukX0Zc
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUGPMhbx9l
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7c4Q0bWOD
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3ztOM5bTg
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDw3w5fTEg
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlObZM8ybEh
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuB60PqRvlW
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACGhDzQJAz
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYmcChRqNo
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEsruDaTtU
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgk5jZ7J2Ln
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8m8HcaszTs
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSDbDvcezS
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSu5l5N0Xf
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOu8IY25uv
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvKHKrUkhb
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKtAOX0Uof
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說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4WAZG7Mgc
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ914ebS9AF6
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hqIq58jWt
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtkL9niJcq
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPdEUbgxIY
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfaQGWWnKLw
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJSYFmai1e
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYSLsA6Gl7
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwkUCHhsae
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgLDEmXdVx
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskwWZg8n1t
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3klyPDRKoy
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFuFWtQNse
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbeyX9q8EM
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zz0Cx1qgG
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ExZ4xLmsV
「在你體內。」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSJBml3vZm
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「甚麼？」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpQthBbfCQ
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqW5M1k38T
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrMgzN40ym8
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLQhPccejh
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UrMfBl4Ch
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMPRu88ZFX
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQMyRphxdH
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡij4ksIj94N
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKY6oWmg7CB
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wuVPplagd
「誰？」另一聲音反問。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzu8KGMaiI
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVFXYPdYIg
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwADg3OeZmE
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靜。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdU41wRdJrs
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzYP1whcuF
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzx5OLoW6aF
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOggCx7HkTe
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyisbFFUHRu
我：「我有精神病？」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUflDuEaoM
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBxmkk5RM1
醫：「是情緒病。」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRwrZtK3WS
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWFgvpHxJg
我：「怎麼辦？」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYb3dRDRE3
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡir2ns3zI51
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHbimgPuKT
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS47WczddRP
我：「謝謝醫生。」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMscOKQMLNz
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGJUxggHbT
醫：「不用謝。」982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXI9YOaz5Mo
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJ7FQMNd2H
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqn3PKNTBa
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGve71yo4lU
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXamuLTmrK
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiKKmaxxNQ
982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieVllQMO0k
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；982Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQQt4zlYqi
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