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天亮，上班。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVLwLO8hAd
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PWyrcdHY1
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYURNhI41Q
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTblzfAuS3a
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94BOUpU8JN
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看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SfZvWuBsU
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwT3teHNSK
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmoHiQ0l8e
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQ81FKFVOS
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM97bcogWMu
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJIXHk19sX
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLedBq78PRS
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtafR4D5aJx
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEt22p1xzLL
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fALvTa6R7
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5cuvr7ecY
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2ajNFYvpZ
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3fxPdNKWx
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUQn1C7m4d
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4aFhfJVln
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqMLqEkmlD
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還是……924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiLMEtwCWD
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiWdDcCZqy
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSoCscIA6X
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7USGXnCmkO
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lyL5mNnnm
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXrxdUymvY
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OElffxUqo
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGNnpSlw9T
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yTnnagzRr
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTBT03RxSq
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYTUjJslpr
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NEG7kqDxa
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3LaXn5IGu
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKA6geiLcs
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrfzFiqcQg
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgjn47UYES
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2JnRqu0bT
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilkpkU1O8M
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡill1JNHvzJ
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCaAV9iiDL
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPNaOEYzCh
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvqLejMmn1
醉倒。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMSxv5ujx5
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqemIheUPY
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Rv3ZsC1TV
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bSlyQt9iK
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQb0ou0CFB
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjBclyLpPV
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRWgwwcAbw
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfg5Ajyxjl
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJULpZrePhr
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH27IgGypWV
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCSaKIBABl
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7m1zxpj7l
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1W8bN05U1
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqXmtrqXOd
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jw8Z9Sewn
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfV9GjS3J0U
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xJ2jyHj0m
死寂。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFBDDxGe0W
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fDj5ZSoUd
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8Huvk0Myd
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMKUg9tUZC
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZD00dd6OQ9
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkVFqW7e8L
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZz3DnMzDv
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZF4Jhfb7W
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyE5gQvAP8
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2G0VPf3ep
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJND1jKMunq
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPa0dsOAVzd
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeghksEBwcF
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTHb79hLpg
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt49vdnKeAP
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2Urh5HMtz
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7k7DePLQC
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPMve5IdiY
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡda7dfUdQG3
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrBrWjph6j
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDgSlmE4vi
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmp8U0iIadB
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdsgDM8D2ZJ
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdKaj8FmfF
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrR2rvt3cr4
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgkxrby2DC
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVngfyETc9
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡca9iqonqmV
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpVzbey027
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulBHX7IvsJ
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhsXvG6dRI
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEKVtSq09a
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLSglp6VLD
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGLu7S7uJO
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pR5JyKCa1
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcbSRluP63
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm15mRyrt14
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXzUWg6VAq
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIiUwmos6G
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiAQ6p0xKb
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「在你體內。」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCETtsvdCUD
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「甚麼？」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIibFAFO35
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「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1H5xlJtlkn
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLH3kvuPZ0
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXd6mVGfxJ
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0N343sKwQ
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYNWuO2LO5
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCCvUcMB4X
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AEuAmlA7B
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKY127YGaEs
「誰？」另一聲音反問。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KrciOSGbi
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNElKWdC646
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFivpIGj7v
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靜。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2fti6qxEu
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAZhBEwZN2
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GzjgZyu9n
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYgnbAfVAv
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4s6ngOfb6
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqQHpJGJ1U
我：「我有精神病？」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89CgD4BsMS
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuP1mBpvt0m
醫：「是情緒病。」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoHBLL1WTJ
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnqboOQXeX
我：「怎麼辦？」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6p9PLTbHj
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPNWiBUARv
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2GBbXWvvA
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ge8xkLmgI
我：「謝謝醫生。」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHDfNW7F3x
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudxEw1t9i1
醫：「不用謝。」924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxZajYClTo
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMghoxedhz
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXKcIFGo1o
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSPq0ZwTl3
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIpGiH6J3c
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlKwnwnzlm
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNB7jnILzW
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTH57SFIKh
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cVwrk0DIj
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHP2cabDx6b
同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5INDSHxEp
924Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdLKBdZiBl
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