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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7ZOVandNc
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTNQLCkliG
和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhp7rdupur
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNbx8RtaLL
日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7FDQwW2os
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3g9ioNywRV
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7fjNHX9Zv
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Q2Z4TyKdK
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdppjqhhFAA
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡil1qf8G5SC
面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwXYyRkM1E
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfE6woJg6gx
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVnKnpAMgh
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUrHXKfxOz
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeKhd7V5i2
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83L9Dws7ot
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEL9VZQCgn
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡis4duGiyaB
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0VOLEUbL9
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqtUo7gfKs
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ftWvB7Egi
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbAEiB883J
家宜沉默了。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwcAz0cqO2
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFu6i5v7p04
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3CH8QOHxP
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlkOpp6XKy
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevOZskruQ3
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0spSV5aN9j
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTIKHfsU2r
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ECT8XdEMV
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrH2euQN9uF
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡre8DJwknND
有人說她成熟了，進步了。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbMsZD7Zvw
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEqtvgC3be
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1mwIoCIDS
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HLSVcUaDB
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡct58PQG6sJ
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5jjSGbht2
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPBzdYDVwK
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0SSv6eaXe
還是向現實低頭好了。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SMING9MEA
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeOkGIowPJ
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemhbRyXdip
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZgtAnSfJy
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6l6AWo5CWN
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCT0AsWE6YP
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7a7zJo7EF
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrCuN9hsVa
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxsnMokvqp
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RdIFfJpUo
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvdLKaABXN
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgWDA4bACb
家宜沒答話。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2bWjzdDTB
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwPHCkVBkk
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Izy3hsIlR
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3wrY6x6Zb
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYv1d4A20BZ
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jIcpUYD5C
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteRUPxhGFp
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK87xAUHpfo
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iNUeRU1Kd
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbA0mVt4XO
當初…768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sdUipPV1v
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLtwEnDB32
整個晚上，媽一言不發。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVv5NWm62q
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJ8MHVDtJ6
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCaOzCVESJ
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEZwenxmF6
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6a6M6lR0gC
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCbqsVB3q5
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgSDv5gkuV
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1OYObFIuS
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIwQjb5Fa6
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4QCJe7GsK
根本不是她的錯！768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1SYluQEaW
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjsQyPk6SJ
但道歉可保住一椿生意…768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTofqbtA28d
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3l9xeeKQB2
卻扭曲了自己…768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4JIsQIfiP
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSfN0ZYZ9U
值得嗎？768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82WrH4ICke
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YvUkLLBCw
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhikKwUq8bL
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqC3nrZZoo
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqc9U9XAdym
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqki3Teyz8b
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HxZkrNnM6
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUTtkJB8kN
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWSaEVerz4
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBphlqgwhZ7
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnln08VVlk
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsNeh8zTJj
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5GGMjHfUA
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Dw6ds5kl1
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzYqaZOzwN
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5H2KmEuZdO
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFUP1jH7oz
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFyzEbEgTL
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3qfcZvJKU
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFwKPmLRGX
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiLI7uch4D
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz11bopwvEt
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60V5b7ue5X
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1nVtUjIJo
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3obBcm2S8
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhu7cNMZALO
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgcu4mowHJ
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSPqm5GQX5i
不管了，先遞信吧！768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEwVWcl7Ca
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePlTqFCbJv
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeA96F8b3Aa
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lrK3Mfsic
家宜呆了。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdBNd3LWqv
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qDqQFlw3N
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAbDwJpbax
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YCHDGH9xH
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhcIpeUdS0
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjMDUROB3j
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXjo1VpGLC
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79e5ZKCrCF
這是…放棄了嗎？768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdNBA4XdOC
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoa3YZDieIX
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxX9hHMh5Dd
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLanTqUwEF8
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkNRxT0VNJ
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnaLLW9GZt
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6nJWGbolo
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZt6tvNfZn
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooVLSoOPLL
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6W6IUaHXG
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fv2pjoIfl
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITEBGDYJ2j
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKQgGTKrso
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqfY51VbRq
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnDAWQVqXb
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Levkktaj8
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡob1lUm2sWt
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNv3A99RW5e
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmzqhRr3bK
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMh545nfKj
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8BVwpYQ82
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIx4b5xnVmm
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomMvTEaeUr
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfc7T5AbXXq
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEypQ0gm8JY
768Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMXdBhdPJb
欲哭無淚。
