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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxXfwUSrTr
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZpLrUrp5d
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡln6TgZGqYw
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxaYh83giz
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZsysiMhTJ
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmSh6f6nLJ
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPZHDfFBRT
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46GNiX5Zy6
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AXLk1WXjH
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILW40geVrd
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLw3qkRCP3K
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Kp2YRACVY
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsYyA0OswB
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYnY1jmUUD
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUlsiOtl1w
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYimn3ezAYS
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9dE9g1S7p
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfTXgOrSnB
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBqRXj976f
家宜沉默了。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVdRKPV7XV
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9N5tfzamEY
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1v5s3AUkfC
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbsXJVhR3c
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVkrpIh0WF
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3lRuTLPds
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3fdMXmxvK
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxSdJ0tV6d
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXi7Dj2Y2Cb
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAaHjjoUcp
有人說她成熟了，進步了。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRGmcvBhiZ
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWqrEh9HsE
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtjgHl9rrJ
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05LgnAE39Q
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrv8WhWUse
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWVOtZXD92Z
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXpccLsHUB
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWcu4xykTB
還是向現實低頭好了。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIA95t2BAJm
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZuYTjeRE5
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NAJ2zfq4N
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yRgK8UKTz
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsX0CU5Mvb
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXIORg5lar
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEeEeSTcDQ
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3FeVnvWEn
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvX2OsbLCM
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFK4SQoJ12t
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdxsHDMzhI
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroIiYPmSm2
家宜沒答話。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTphFlVKXGI
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTjRyIPJbo
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSL6XsJ7RJ
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyZDMD5sRK
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn8tKhlNNx
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT04gZ7ni8k
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKB0kAgvii
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2qEoN5yEY
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0B9NRj6l5
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMFhko4jx1
當初…867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkX1cLM99Z
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOa0GnKt5a
整個晚上，媽一言不發。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHPYKdmLre
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpciTe61ew8
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2Lv5NZSsW
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaVlH86b39
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8o6avajeWj
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Ffoa0enS4
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DaM4J5F58
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNuNhmIvNZ
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsA3bc4vxtg
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQ6Jb01CRd
根本不是她的錯！867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51fYTlTwDT
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMgsvVLcv5
但道歉可保住一椿生意…867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVP4gXPQcad
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卻扭曲了自己…867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7ExEZLuPf
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值得嗎？867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuuGby3VDo
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5yNGnyy5Q
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDL6Bko55Vd
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKj4eDi8vtC
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOfVj1ycII
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR564SjgzyP
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1J5oLaEP4u
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKOcQDxojO
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAs6AFeDQE
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiLOM8UnMh
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeXkdecrp5
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeeqat131R
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14hcYoXRKg
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gaLZ2SVns
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1uqFh3yz5
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0nHGSNc1Y
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZjUjCHCVl
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5VEoMGStj
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQnwyJu9yp
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHQXHrbW4l
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlENj45fuE5
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtfRtzXAr4
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXibDLKYKX
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKqTSBsmaf
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdOiphcEsu
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSU3RG8Yc1r
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PCM2bOtDS
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiuyyf7x8V
不管了，先遞信吧！867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAkqNxZne0
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrvLj47Kzu
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkp2zTNJ9w
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0DooWOISb
家宜呆了。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7HrSk06VM
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXusqpY8Fg
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Hws3zRBie
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxoHklGB3d
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuGBRVDkNe
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfMVdHP0Mr
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcPlOesIwN
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfr0w16AGr
這是…放棄了嗎？867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1bRpL7l8hC
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52RN50seiH
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAgKRuIEjJ
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccfvgRggu9
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHS4shfNGe
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkCflYqOpd
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQmtkYEMrZ
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaNKxl00fk
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MCSq3vRfa
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEYcUMyMj2
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCxr8XWOr4
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQhtacrgAt
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFgeK7Q4K6
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenwskviKIK
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlY7FRgdbO
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kJQMIuIx3
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkZKYEysK7
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbMcocM8qy
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahIfHd2OMU
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9IVCQxs39
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHPZMzBwUQ
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZysoUxONS
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpBkmVp1kh
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Pg6mRAHXZ
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2qV0e8tIQ
867Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYhyITsIV5
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