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「急事。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwwa0DHq7m
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「你不吃晚餐？」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡno9K70y6Nz
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我沒應答，逕自出門。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtooqLtjea7
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冬夜六時。厚衣下的溫暖身軀與袒露的臉和手，不協調感令我忐忑不安。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5y2JcekwT
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難以言喻的鬱悶。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKeyHCPkI4
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長嘆。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkbTU5fjGX
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「紅萬。」我邊說邊掏出八達通。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigLBRTNdcE
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店員爽快從身後陳列架取來貨品，熟練在收銀機屏幕上點點按按，然後給我贈品——果汁味肉乾三小包。我有意無意瞄了瞄她的臉。大眾臉，過目即忘。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEQ4TKeGXH
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「不需要贈品？」她驀地抬眼，與我眼神對上。是發現我的無禮目光嗎？540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SSdEhS3dd
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「我……錯認是口香糖。」我慌忙編個爛藉口，連忙接過香菸和肉乾。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpm2SvaaGg
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她假笑，沒再搭理我，拿起抹布四處抹。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPxnZ6DtMS
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我走出光線充足的便利店，重踏漆黑夜空下的大街。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QxalO219a
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另一種不協調。另一種忐忑，另一種不安。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVqS1pvocp
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櫥窗五光十色，路人絡繹不絕。人潮亂中有序，不約而同在紅色燈號前止住，然後在綠色燈號亮起當刻同時邁步。一致得神奇，一致得可怕。並肩而行的男男女女在過路以後分道揚鑣，不為曾經的遇見生起任何印象或猶豫。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPF5T7CMN6e
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心血來潮，我莫名其妙拐到小巷去。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhK4SNMM565
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污水，雜物，廚餘，鼠餌，坑渠。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq130wIHJvf
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髒，亂，腐，毒，臭。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyH5yFFfwoC
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為何要到這種地方來？不是捷徑，不知盡頭何處，不懷目的……540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTIM8Gw9dW
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小巷盡處是另一小巷，盡頭以後是另一開始。路接路，走又走。不停前行，像是正在找出口；絕不回頭，像是不打算找到真正出口。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTdw65T9hF
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厭煩日常走過的路，不欲重覆。若問想要到甚麼地方去，其實我沒有答案。很奇妙。眼下似乎有很多選擇，實質一切已成定局。那是大街，這是小巷。大街在明，小巷在暗。大街繁華，小巷冷清。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIx8UBDqXZ
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註定的。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTnU9rhK9q
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冷清小巷盡頭會有好東西麼？我不相信，亦不願輕言不相信。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWxKaCp46b
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汪——汪——嗚——拐角傳來狗隻悲鳴。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yd79R0kRj
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停步。猶疑。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu20leX5LS8
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惻隱？慈悲？然後呢？根本沒有然後，因為我自顧不暇。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTNDU6FDoT
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轉身。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bsIypwQiN
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汪——汪——嗚——拐角狗隻再次悲鳴。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLSg2e6lyH
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我回身走去。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jFQiqPI4a
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惻隱？慈悲？不，好奇罷。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVp3IKyvcvO
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把小狗抱入懷內。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBAmg9ZYyk
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「暖和沒？」我傻傻自語——嘴巴極需要說話理由。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRB0cO2lSp
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陣風從後疾過，寒意夾雜水氣與鹹香。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9MNp0uwY0
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海風？海濱公園步道？540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkmKlRleHz
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「一起散步去吧。」我沒期望小狗會回答，但我需要溜達原因。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzM3gSmm8u
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多拐兩個彎，我帶著小狗在兩幢高樓之間走出來，恰巧看見銀月自海平面升起。清澄，純淨，圓滿。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbgYcO9xti
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「看！這是月亮。」我指天示意小狗往上望去。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzgFGrjVr7
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汪——牠回答，但沒有依指示抬頭。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3j2axIgqX9
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「找個好地方坐坐吧！」為免小狗中途跑掉，我微微拉下外套拉鏈，把小狗往內塞。牠沒反抗，甚至懂得稍為伸出頭部，方便呼吸和看風景。我真慶幸剛才沒有對牠視若無睹：「乖。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbuBWEcWUa
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銀月清冷，步道冷清，寧靜。心跳規律，呼吸有序，乏味。回憶很多，未知更多，迷惘。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaqjdJKeRa
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「我上一次來海濱公園是小學畢業後的那個暑假。與幾個特別要好的男生相約到來踩roller，跌了幾跤，膝蓋流血。明明怕血，明明怕痛，偏偏為保面子而強說無事，硬撐一整天。結果翌日膝蓋腫黑大片，痛得要命，不得不到醫院求醫。結果在醫院留醫足足兩個月，九月中才可到新學校上課。」我在路邊長椅坐下，拆開一包贈品肉乾給小狗充飢，報答牠聽我發牢騷。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkLmqvXGWe
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「留醫期間，我生氣朋友們不來探望我，打算出院後臭罵他們一頓。出院後，我忙於學校課業，忘記致電他們，然後順理成章忘記他們。當我再次想起他們，已是高中畢業的事。」我點菸，一吸一呼，虛假短暫的舒爽。「其實沒甚麼大不了，無需要記在腦袋裡。但事情就是發生過，不是說忘記就可以忘記。」540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46fDP4FWtm
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記憶零碎，思路紊亂。嘴巴想要表達更多，無奈腦袋運轉不來，沒能將感受化為言語……算了吧。反正小狗根本沒興趣聽下去。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gxz4ZEKRd
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「你似乎對肉乾比較有興趣。」我又拆開一包肉乾予牠。牠吃得津津有味，舌頭不時舔舔嘴邊，甚至舔到小小鼻頭。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XvhdbOEy3
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我笑，笑牠傻氣可愛。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvldZdnW6Ss
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又吸一口虛假短暫的舒爽。又呼一口難以言喻的鬱悶。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwl2PRxPCSY
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鬱悶何來？540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVETLB87dOA
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學業壓力？愛情煩惱？家庭不和？540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4VqllMkQt
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也許統統都是，也許統統不是。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2eV581UPL
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多件零星不順心瑣碎事湊在一起成為一股無法消弭的鬱悶。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnykEGdwZ3
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有如一根經過繁複工序生產的香菸。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ToqpPxCgl
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有如一塊由豬肉、糖、鹽、增味劑、醬油、香辛料、護色劑、色素組成的肉乾。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡton5xBTwaN
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「好吃吧。」我又拆開一包肉乾。趁小狗專心咬嚼，我彈走菸屁股，將牠從懷裡抽出，來個深深擁抱。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOhfMGmLu5
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然後呢？根本沒有然後。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNqFKix4PT
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我輕輕放下小狗，動身邁步離開。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4xzDHim9a
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正如牠知道我身上沒有更多肉乾，自然而然不會跟上來。540Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZ8DJLWyvY
