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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUo2S9I4u6l
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHbdp2mUgb
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDKHkIZrIY
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnSZ13lYF9
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CDlbVfJY7
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdqXKWTRlE
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAMLDYGCH2
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpc0aRt0VZy
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8jPOaL1HH
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「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FS41VQR5V
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzI2DDBVnzd
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnn6YfeZJxD
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掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbsy6PNBHb
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「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UbYd3TQ9D
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家宜沉默了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdJAYVgbRq
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMQGaXY2t5
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJSNVpgbK7
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這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuVYd7DYN8
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaqXY1DKHs
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87QeBEmcR2
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRh8oH6HFF
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmNV8zfX0g
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCJVuLrCy8
有人說她成熟了，進步了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4CGzJZVA2
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrajmB6QE40
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoF5BT52Z3i
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似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrBVC7n3GV
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXG5BLF0WxZ
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VIUXUynWq
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還是向現實低頭好了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHQqvKaJL8
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoZuMB8Brs
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNDZp18G3k
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZTPoFfJPv
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpPbhtgzbL
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYiUlW1qUk
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZExGj9FZh
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakSIBaU2Jh
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxugwFmDPv3
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDzzxM7zGa
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAysxZ5woJ
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7TInGdlgL
家宜沒答話。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OixeJS4Zg
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgr86binQz
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89jemnX2ZQ
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ioSHglNtv
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7Rk1Vojno
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgO1lTULHc
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKx0Nf6OaJ
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWgpY3vAZw
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85ART538MI
當初…769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLaiLmceii
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XK0t5ssUy
整個晚上，媽一言不發。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEfyOqljEY
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fgAZew5em
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5CprN8K9U
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEMIUakyyV
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8qh34Qikj
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw32mP3LFMF
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NM2Vxp78P
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqLHWXm2IE
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0gxRIayKU
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7d6TH6T7ht
根本不是她的錯！769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJ5A7fSul9
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzdhwwuVB0
但道歉可保住一椿生意…769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9eBItJah1
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卻扭曲了自己…769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tKxk5H7LF
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值得嗎？769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7bxFbFbrk
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XanLL2Kkq
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAq71ED5mM5
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOU8HsT6pyk
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68mnWdsPDv
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXVUyRaki6
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUvzaz88al
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bJ3khgakJ
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzImW0hVZkR
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjolUHUh1eK
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXeAmXsBVN
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiojYBFSNKo
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx68QqiG5Os
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7owpDou9O
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjTkbwdDke
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPHbXjZFNS
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePU3auEWxq
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaE9Ntkz1w
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtO759kpCUB
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56VTWKV1SC
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理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeOswh8vd5
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMY1mzS4BYc
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVytSQmH0QO
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不管了，先遞信吧！769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqTz6uN7gh
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrcumJYZar
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家宜呆了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMInd52Fmpc
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「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLN1VPToH7W
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她沒即時否定——猶豫了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbk4ws7vz4
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「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglRrjZQZLz
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這是…放棄了嗎？769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduzyN8HgJn
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrX639BNtg
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家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3cjUWyqyG
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家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkgL7TDU9s
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNuYH1hcxF
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCG9KFG11T
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當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0SZsc52pt
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvm8tTAPHwV
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxVDP1VYM7
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPvdYHxCFg
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RVksNbWQH
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSwGxfJype
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKrVlOnXCo
769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ488ll03Uw
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvCy4NHJlP
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媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZieqjf15T
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「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1qp10Zezz
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回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。769Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcng8XG5fna
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