Any other day I would wake him up and climb on top of him, kiss him and touch him and share my first waking moments with him. Because he's mine. And I'm his.
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Today I'm waking up in a different bed, a king sized hotel bed with fluffy white sheets. Facing an arch window of gardens, it's heaven even though it's missing the love of my life. Rachel is in the adjoining room asleep.
My mum is arriving today and all of our friends. And my dad. I try not to be nervous as I know that everything will go smoothly because Jay has planned it. We decided to not see each other until the moment I walk down the aisle and look at him. It will render me to tears, seeing him waiting to start our forever.
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Jay and I talked about forever, a long time ago. When I first stayed at the lake house, we fell in love hard and fast. Spending entire weekends solely devoted to one another. No outside disturbances allowed. We got together and talked about eternity in the same breath. We had sex for the first time, and before he took me in the four poster bed he told me that he was ready for forever. That sex with me meant having each other for the rest of our lives. Now we are on the precipice of seeing that through, formally.
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A car will collect myself and Rachel from the hotel and drive us to the ceremony at midday. It's so Jay to have everything planned, and to not tell anybody any of the details.
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Matthew, Nate and Ross are with Jay. His groomsman, and best man. Matthew has my wedding band. I smile at the irony.
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I stand up and look out at the gardens in my silk robe.
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"Rachel" I call out.
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"The beautician will be here soon" I say.
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She is shrill, so excited.
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"Ahhh happy wedding day" she calls out. She joins me in the main room and we order room service.
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"So Mrs Gilbert Scott" she laughs.
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"When you first met Jay" she sighs.
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"God he's always been fucking beautiful even when he was a badass, hasn't he?" She laughs.
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I laugh at her. She genuinely makes me happy with her silly little remarks.
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"But did you imagine that we would be here, you marrying Jay with his baby in your belly and me as your maid of honour" she laughs.
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"Honestly" I laugh.
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"It's like he became a better person when you guys got together" she says clapping.
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"The first thing he said to me was hi there" I say reminiscing. It was in Matty's place and he pretty much pushed his way into the living room.
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"And honestly I thought Lord help me. He's bad but he's absolutely the most beautiful man I've ever seen in my life" I laugh.
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"He was magnetic, he had so much energy. So much drive and there was so much unknown" I say.
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"But when we actually got together" I smile.
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"Remember when we had drinks at Ross' and watched that scary film. We played truth or dare. You slept on the sofa. I tucked Ross in." I say asking her. It was when I was living with Ross.
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"Of course when you were single for all of two minutes" she laughs.
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"We'd been messing round for months, no sex just kissing whenever we could. I told him I loved him on New Year's Eve. He would find me alone and we would just end up in each other's arms" I laugh.
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"Taylor" she gasps laughing.
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"I know but that night I took Jay to bed, he held me all night long. I tried to have sex with him but he told me that the first time he would have sex with me, wouldn't be in Ross' spare room, it wouldn't be when we were high. He would make it special and he would worship my body" I say.
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"Wow" she says.
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"Did he?" She asks smirking.
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"That weekend, he took me out for food straight from uni, then he took me to his lake house, by private boat" I smile.
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"Private boat !" She laughs.
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"He said that he was ready for forever with me and then he carried me upstairs and wow he worshipped my entire body" I sigh wanting him.
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"That is very romantic" she smiles.
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"From then onwards we haven't left each other's side" I smile.
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"And you were right he's gifted" I wink at her, at the fashion show which myself and Rachel both walked for Kim, Matty's sister. Rachel had insinuated rather strongly that Jay was particularity gifted with his tongue and his skills in that department.
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She full on laughs.
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"I told you didn't I" she winks.
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"I thought I was in another world" I laugh.
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"You know" I say to her.
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"I was so appreciative of you" I say and she looks at me confused.
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"You looked out for me, you warned me about him initially" I say remembering her telling me to be careful with Jay.
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"He was different with me and other girls and after the Matty fiasco I didn't want you to get hurt" she says.
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"But I'm glad you ignored me anyways" she smiles.
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"He told me he loved all day long, kissed me all day long. Told me about his mum and dad and I just fell in love with him like I've fallen for no other man." I say.
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"You're made for one another" she smiles, stands and embraces me.
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There's a rap on the door and I go to let the room service in. They come in with stainless steel silverware and ornate cutlery. The gentleman lifts the steel lid to reveal my poached egg and I smile. They serve our food on the round dining set which overlooks the window. If you didn't realise that you were in Australia, you would think by looking out of the window, that you were on the set of a British period drama. The flowers and the birds. It's just ever so slightly warmer than England. I half expect Mr Darcy to burst into the room speaking in a British accent. For a book lover it's the perfect setting. I sigh, Jay has got this.
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We eat our breakfast and take it in turns to shower in the en-suite. Before I know it the beautician arrives with several bags and a suitcase. She gets to work on Rachel first. Straightening out her blonde hair.
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"Once we've done your makeup" she smiles.
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"Then you're free to get your dress on" she says in a friendly Australian accent.
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"What look are we going for" she asks both of us and I smile at Rachel suggesting that she choose.
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"I'd love a Smokey eye, and red lipstick" she smiles and I knew that would be her choice. I smile and watch the beautician, Anna, work her magic.
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"Wow that looks awesome" I say to Rachel glancing at her in the mirror.
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"Makes your eyes pop" I smile at her.
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"We can go a shade darker than we did in the trial for yours" Anna asks.
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"Thanks but I loved what you did, and it's exactly what I want" I smile. It was ethereally beautiful.
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My hair dries out into loose waves and I smile looking out into the gardens feeling more and more relaxed.
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"Ok that's the finished look" she smiles at Rachel.
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"Wow" I say stunned.
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"No crying please, it's all waterproof and I've set it but please do your best" Anna says.
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"You look wonderful" I tell Rachel and she smiles.
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We laugh.
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"You're up bestie" Rachel says.
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"Okay for the bride" Anna says and I take a seat. That's me, I'm the bride.
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Anna takes her time making my face look beautiful and I do my best to remain still. She perfectly emulates the look she created on my trial. She then pulls a wand through my hair and we discuss the half up half down style that I want to achieve with my tiara placed in the back of my hair. An hour goes by, after using lots of hairspray and plaiting sections of my hair it looks magnificent. I wish I could keep it like this forever. I feel truly beautiful and I cannot stop looking in the mirror.
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Another knock on the door has my heart pounding. I begin to wonder who it might be, I had imagined that it would be just myself and Rachel travelling together to the ceremony.
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I open the door to see my mum. Without thinking I cry. She pulls me into her embrace.
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"No tears" Anna jokes.
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"Taylor darling you look beautiful" mum says and she's sobbing.
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"Jay flew me here and booked all of the transfers" she smiles impressed.
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I dab my eyes and Anna evaluates. Touching up the look.
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“How’s baby” mum asks. We told my mum about the pregnancy together. She cried and sobbed and hugged us both.
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“Baby is fine” I smile and she gets that teary look in her eyes.
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"Is it dress time" mum laughs, clapping her hands.
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Rachel appears in her bridesmaid dress and I gasp.
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"Wow" I say almost crying again.
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"Rachel that looks truly beautiful" I say softly.
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Anna indicates that mum sits in the beauty chair as she begins working on her makeup and hair. I smile feeling complete now that my mum is here.
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"You know dad is coming" I say sounding like a teenager again.
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"He is" she smirks.
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"He is" I laugh.
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"Well that should be a blast from the past" she laughs.
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“Taylor have you told him about the baby” she asks softly.
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“Yes” I laugh
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“It went a bit like hey dad it’s me your little girl by the way I’m pregnant” I laugh and Rachel chuckles. Mum laughs looking at me through the mirror.
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“Rachel you look wonderful in blue” mum says smiling at her. Rachel smiles graciously.
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"I have to say Taylor, Jay is very thorough isn't he" mum laughs.
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"Oh he's thorough" I say laughing back.
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“We already have three cots for the baby to sleep in, a pram, a new car, bottles and bibs” I laugh and my mum smiles at me.
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“He’s wonderful” she says to me.
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“Honestly he’s genuinely wonderful, caring and gentlemanly” she says.
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I scoff.
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“No you’re right he is a great husband and will be a wonderful father to our child” I smile dabbing at my eyes again.
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"I simply must see this wedding gown” mum says.
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I smile and head into the walk in wardrobe.
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Unzipping the hanging cover bag all the way around the garment I hold my breath. Uncovering the dress I'm left breathless. It's stunning and I almost forgot just how wonderful it is. When we lived at the lake house, Jay took me to lots of dress shops. Formal ones where the gowns were exquisite and pricey. My mum would call those places millionaires clubs.
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This dress though, this wedding gown far exceeds anything I've ever put on myself. It is effortlessly feminine, close cut of the best silk. Ivory white with the perfect draped neckline. Completely sleeveless with a low back. Light embellishments that give it just the faintest sparkle whilst still remaining undeniably classy.
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I take off my robe and step into the gown. It’s the most expensive thing I’ve ever worn. I’ve placed a stick on bra on for that added oomph and cleavage but other than that I will be wearing nothing but a wedding garter underneath.
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I slowly pull the silk up my body until the neckline sits just right. Gazing in the full mirror, I’m stunned by my reflection. I am getting married. Taylor Elena Harris is getting married. I lightly place the tiara and clasp it in my hair. I am his queen. His everything, the bearer of his babies.
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I fasten the clasps on the dress and zip the dress up slowly. Breathing in a touch and praying that the dress still does up. I tell myself to relax, it will do up just fine. I thank Jay mentally for booking a suite with air con, as the cool air hits me and stops me from being a hot mess.
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The fit is wonderful. In fact it feels better than I remember. I place my hand over bump and tell him that I will keep him safe, I will love him for the rest of my days. That his mother and father are so totally in love with him already. I tell bump that he is doing this with me, today we are becoming a family. A family that will never ever be broken, a family that cherishes each other.
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I slip into my stilettos and sitting down I pull the garter up my leg and let it sit on my thigh. I smile at the thought of Jay undressing me later and pulling it off with his teeth. I can already see the devilish light behind his eyes and the smile that will play on his lips.
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Next to go on are my diamond earrings and necklace. And finally after spritzing Jay’s favourite perfume I stand back and assess.
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It is true that I have never looked this good in my whole life. The dress showcases my cleavage without it being raunchy. It skims down my waist line and trails to the floor. I twirl and see the deep v exposing my lower back. It’s special and it’s the perfect look for a bride.
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My mums face drops in the mirror and she begins to cry instantly.
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“Oh Taylor” she says standing up and embracing me.
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“You look wonderful” she sobs, I can see Anna ever so slightly cringing because mum is now crying off all of the makeup she just put on.
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“My little girl, a wife and a mum” she says looking at me.
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She sips her champagne and stops her crying. Breathes in deeply and smiles.
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“My baby you are going to be so happy with this man” she smiles telling me.
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“Call it female intuition but I just get a feeling that he is going to make you feel so cherished and loved. And we are going to shower that little baby with so much love too” she smiles. I dab my eyes and Anna practically jumps in to save my mascara from running.
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“It’s the most breathtaking thing I’ve ever seen you in” Rachel smiles.
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Mum puts on a pale pink dress and heels as Anna is touching up every bodies makeup and hair before she leaves. I thank her and tip her as she goes. Mum smiles delicately as Rachel downs the rest of the champagne and I laugh.
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“Where is the venue” mum asks me.
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“I have no idea” I smile as I receive a message to say our chariot, literally chariot is the language that has been used in the message; has arrived and that we must promptly head to the gardens to be picked up.
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