I couldn’t listen to my professor any longer. My mind was running away from class. 589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sSMkNnG5c
More specifically, it was running towards Italy and the old Villa that Damien is reconstructing for the last two months. I bid my lower lip and tried to focus on the words that were coming out of my professor’s lips.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSl8q4QIqdn
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But I wasn’t able to succeed. I could see his lips moving but no sound reached my ears. I was wondering what would happen if I tried calling him. For a reason, I couldn’t even lift my hand up and touch the phone. I was so scared that the pain would return that my body was immobilized.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXvHEFr9ps
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I was comfortably numb. And planned to keep it that way.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtDWIzxQsR
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If Damien wanted me out of his life, I could live with that. I knew it would happen sooner or later anyway. I knew that no guy would ever catch up to him in my head; or in my heart. But I would try to feel human again.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wpEKwQjDj
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A loud knock on my door startled me as I was leaning over a ground plan that was starting to get on my nerves. I walked towards the stereo first to turn the volume down before making my way towards the door.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Lo3qIXSrb
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Behind the door was Cleo; looking slightly bored. I took a step back and let her come inside. She had come with the most absurd idea ever. She wanted us to take a trip. To Italy.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSLZ7ec8Dk
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“Seriously?” I questioned astonished.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaD8nYB33U4
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“Yeah, you have the tickets. They’re going to expire!” she said and sat down on the couch. I was still standing where I was; staring at her.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpeR3uIOuD
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“He is in Italy,” I said, trying to make her realize what she was asking me to do.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTygDeChlo1
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“He’s not all over Italy,” she narrowed her eyes at me “It will be fun. We need vocation.”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4mglAHmqN
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I didn’t reply. I closed my mouth, as I realized it was hanging open the whole time, and sat at the nearest chair.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VKrK0F6kW
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“We don’t have to visit him,” she said softly. I’ve always wanted to visit Tuscany but the idea of being in the same area as him terrified me. And thrilled me at the same time.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtXjsfU2Jt
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“Promise?” I asked.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65806vmutg
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“Yeah,” she smiled “I can always see him some other time,” she explained. “You don’t have to worry about that.”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWJuDbPWZO
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I took her word for it.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz19JiP2nUd
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A week later, I was sitting in an airplane towards Firenze; a city in Tuscany, just one and half hour away from Siena by train. Siena, the city that Damien was. It mortified me that I was so close to him.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3TWBJRHD5
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I desperately wanted to see him. But I was so afraid. I was even afraid to talk about it to Cleo, fearing that she might do something stupid. I did wax my legs and got all my nice underwear with me though. Just in case. I told myself that the waxing would have happen anyway, but I was obeying Cleo’s orders about the lingerie. I secretly wanted to be prepared for anything. I wanted to be prepared for him. But I wouldn’t dare admit it.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡId7ysSkqPF
I believe that is Break Up Rule No. 2 as said by Carrie Bradshaw “Lie. It is a lot easier than admitting the truth”.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpYqHBSJmJ
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Thankfully, the mind blowing landscape and my enthusiastic friends took my mind off of him. Of course during the day it was amazing. My head couldn’t stop turning and my eyes couldn’t take in enough details of the amazing city.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91XLgnDQIA
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The nights, however, were almost a torture. Italy is a very romantic country. And in the back of my head there was always a picture of Damien and me in Tuscany. Even though there wasn’t a possibility now that that would happen, the picture still existed. Just to make my life miserable.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9xQMFlxye
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“I have a question,” Cleo asked as we were seated on the ground at Piazza Del Campo, sipping our aperol spritz. Her voice lower so that the happy couple, Max and Lexie, wouldn’t hear.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSOZx1hIUi
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“Shoot.”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTpbjLLtNW
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“If you knew why he left, would you call him?” she asked and made me turn my head. She knew I couldn’t call him. So why was she asking me that?589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7i3yLCxJ5
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“Depends,” I replied softly. She understood that I meant that everything was about the reason he left. One of the many things I loved about my relationship with Cleo was that I didn’t have to say much. And vice versa. We totally understood each other.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmhCefZka1
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Cleo opened her handbag and pulled out something. As she unfolded it, I noticed that it was a piece of paper. Max and Lexie had turned their attention towards us. Cleo handed me the now unfolded paper. A ripped front page of a gossip magazine.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerLHTWxegS
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I exhaled deeply as I saw Alex and me on it. It was the day I met him in the City; the night before I returned home. It was the moment we were hugging. There were also smaller pictures; one at the beach again hugging and another one by the car, his hand against my cheek. He was hugging me to thank me. My eyes snapped back at Cleo for a moment.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UsGQy3WYe
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“I found it in his desk, at his office,” she explained. I didn’t ask why she was searching his desk in the first place.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyvb5l7Szg
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I parted my lips to say something as I released that this is what made Damien leave. But did it matter? For him it didn’t apparently. I closed the paper into my fist and threw it in my bag.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8GBGXqxUD
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“You don’t want to call him?” Cleo frowned.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubIFoZhizq
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“What is it?” Max asked and I noticed with the corner of my eye, Lexie shoving her elbow right on his ribs. Max frowned and closed his mouth. I took the paper from my bag and gave it to Max.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1A0VKdqjyB
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“No,” I exhaled “If he cared for an explanation, he would have stayed.” Obviously, this wasn’t the reason, it was just an excuse. They never mentioned it again and I was happy with that.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhMAev5CYY
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We had two nights left and we decided to visit a Pub that was two blocks down from our hotel. I could feel Cleo eyeing me as I was getting ready. She made me feel nervous.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXPetJJEFi
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I wore my black skinny jeans, a long black top, my black high heel boots and several accessories. I put on my make-up, eye liner and red lipstick and turned towards Cleo that was also completely dressed in colors now too.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFvM8CO8FE
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“Okay?” I raised my eyebrows to get her approval.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xoSLBOQvJ
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“Sure,” she nodded “Though you look like a frigging vampire!” I narrowed my eyes at her.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUV4p09Qmk
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“Do you want me to slap you?” I threatened.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KdQ4TzNky
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“Bring it on bitch!” she said before she laughed. “You’re gorgeous,” she smiled and I smirked.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUzc7Qkhlb
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Break up rule No. 5:“No matter who broke your heart, or for how long it takes to heal; you will never get through it without your girlfriends.”. Fact.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZT13sr8NQ8
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We were having such a wonderful time, drinking and dancing. Max and Lexie were occupied with each other, so Cleo and I danced alone. I took the last sip of my second beer and left it on the bar counter, asking for a third one.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWYfLFLDZQ
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“Bathroom,” I mouth to Cleo as the barman place the new beer in front of me. She nodded and I walked away from them.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TK0ZUiG1t
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Ten minutes later I walked out of the bathroom and made my way through the crowd to find my friends. But they weren’t alone.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJSPEGR7oN
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Break up rule No. 4: “Never stop thinking about him for a moment because when you do that is when he will appear.”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwfLt6nYJR
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I could recognize his figure anywhere, anytime. My heart accelerated. I only noticed that his hair were longer because he had them wrapped in a small ban. I think my heart left my chest and collided on his back. I stood there and inhaled. I was certain my heart hit him because a moment later he turned around. And another moment later, our eyes met.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79dBZHnFtT
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I parted my lips in order to breath. He was unbelievable beautiful. He was unshaved and had grown a mustage. I think I could see a small line of hair underneath his bottom lip but I wasn’t sure. For a split of second he reminded me of a musketeer.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1RUtLrihq
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I averted my eyes, narrowing them at the same time. Should I walk over to them and pretend that everything is okay? Or should I run for the exit?589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkvMjE313g
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I saw a guilty smile on Cleo’s face. I narrowed my eyes even more. I couldn’t stay here and act like nothing has happened. I grabbed my phone from my bag and as I walked towards the exit I typed a massage towards her. “Be ready to scream pain in every language that was ever spoken on planet earth! And you’re paying for the drinks!”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IZ3KWW2S9
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I pushed open the bar door and walked outside. Some men that were outside smoking started whistle as I stood there trying to catch my breath. I walked passed them, trying to ignore them.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aj5VhJDue
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“Wait,” I heard him calling. I didn’t stop but he caught up to me. “I said wait,” he told me “It’s dangerous to walk alone in the middle of the night,” his voice became softer. I never looked at him.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnI62eA0Npy
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“Whatever,” I mumbled as I kept walking; my hands inside my black leather jacket clutching my mobile.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnV8Pnoqju
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My heart was running; unlike my feet. I couldn’t calm down as I felt him so close to me. When we finally reached my hotel, I thought he was going to leave. But he followed me in the lobby.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP9RMDavr4
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“Thank you. Goodnight,” I mumbled and took a step away.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPM7O1JoOs
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“That’s it?” he asked and made me stop. I turned around and for the second time tonight my eyes lied on him. My heart ached. He was even more gorgeous in the light of the hotel lobby.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJDcUzMinK
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“What else do you want?” I asked. I wanted run to my room and cry.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXg246NF3q2
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“I thought you would at least talk to me,” he said. I couldn’t understand the emotion behind his voice.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSSPSUq3oR
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“I don’t have anything to say,” I replied softly “Nothing that you’re interested to hear anyway,” I mumbled. I looked at his grey eyes, butterflies attacking my body, and shook my head lightly. “Goodnight.”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OcTD6Acwb
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“Will you stop saying goodnight?” he asked, frowning; frustration in his voice.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgUnuhB1BU
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“Dear Lord,” I exhaled impatient. The torture just wouldn’t stop. “I swear to God, as from tomorrow, you do not have a sister,” I said in a hollow voice. She would pay for calling Damien and making him appear after two and half months in front of me, willing to hear me.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEk20zapOs
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“Let’s go upstairs and talk,” he offered as if it was his hotel room. I turned around and started walking, without saying a word. Damien followed. Why was he here?589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OwE7sTsCb
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I felt like crying. I felt like punching someone in the face. I felt like crawling in a u-shape. I felt like screaming.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO23GlKqbLe
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I opened the door and walked inside. The room was a mess but I couldn’t care less. Not even if our bras were lying on the bed in plain sight. I threw my leather jacket somewhere on the pile of clothes.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EUobdYhIY
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“Let’s get it over with,” I mumbled as I grabbed a bottle of water from the table.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGaeYnawjG
“I suppose Cleo called,” I raised my eyebrows and had a sip of water.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9Lzp72ic3
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“Yes she did,” Damien confirmed. “She also called three weeks ago and demanded to know what happened. When I didn’t say, I suppose she went through my stuff,” he winced. I bid my lip. “Because she called today and said we needed to talk,” he said and walked towards the balcony, retrieving his cigarettes from his pocket.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iV99tPGiu
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“Oh! You needed your sister to tell you that?” I asked breathing through my nose aggravated as he walked outside the room. “You’re a grown man and you need your baby sister to tell you that you need to explain to your -now- ex girlfriend why the hell you left, huh?” I scoffed, as he lid up a cigarette “I thought you were more mature than that!”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0sFdXgFob
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“Explain what, Erica?” he said, trying to keep his voice down “I saw my girlfriend hugging her ex in the front page of a magazine!” he frowned; throwing his hands in the air.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3ojzIYjKv
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“I texted you that night! I told you I had some news to tell you. He was in a terrible shape,” I tried to explain.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqpf0jCBTy
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“He’s your ex boyfriend! Who cheated on you twice!!” he said now not even bothering to keep his voice down.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRg3U4PuOd
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“He started using drugs! And keep your voice down!” I said as he breathed in from his cigarette.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGtMDUMQU3
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“And who are you? Mother Teresa?” he mocked.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGlN4bRl2l
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“I just run into him. He has no one else,” I said “You didn’t even bother to let me explain,” I said, my voice defeated and low.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaz8fijhnYR
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“What was there to explain?” he said his voice low this time “I was walking to the office and saw the damn paper. How do you think that made me feel?”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ110Z6vdQAX
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“Oh, because leaving without a word was such a smooth move huh?” I asked aggravated. “I really don’t have the energy to fight over something that happened almost three months ago,” I sighed.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCRCtoQZ80
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“You never got over him did you?” he asked. I saw his liquid eyes glowing in the middle of the night as I stare at him confused.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCEtxVY0GA
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“What?” I frowned.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF48lxPGZ18
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“We started seeing each other just as you left him again. There was no time for you to get over him,” he explained. I stared at him in a pained expression. He had no idea.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1gpr436Mu
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“You weren’t just a rebound guy,” I shook my head lightly.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdZy3EWr36
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“That’s what it felt like,” he replied.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlfRtKknzF
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“I asked you to be patient with me,” I mumbled and leaned against the balcony doorframe. “But you left, didn’t even bother to talk to me first or even answering your phone,” I whispered now as I tried not to burst into tears.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYBlOiqE3M
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He didn’t say anything. He put his cigarette in the ashtray that was on the balcony table. I sighed softly and went inside the room. I pushed some clothes out of the way and sat on the foot of the bed.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMvfmFqoSQ
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“It hurt watching you crying over him. Again and again,” his voice came from the balcony doorframe where I stood earlier. “He tore you up and you took him back again. I felt betrayed when I saw the pictures on that magazine,” he confessed.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIt6MGq7NlF
“And he had the nerve to call me,” he scoffed.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiK6VVm08D
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“What?” I frowned and turned to look at him.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYes18DHkm
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“He called me about a month ago,” he replied. I was admitted to the hospital a month ago. I narrowed my eyes.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fm8NUw07Q
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“Why does no one mind their own fucking business anymore?” I breathed through my nose. “What did he say?”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulrfYux56l
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“That he needed to say something but I never let him finish. I really have no interested to hear what he has to say,” he said and I could see the frustration oozing out of his body. I inhaled and exhaled deeply. It was now or never. But he beat me to it. “Just tell me the truth,” he pleaded “Do you still have feelings for him?” he asked.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXQWkLxfts
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“Why is it still about Alex?” I asked, my voice loud, as I shot up from the bed “It’s been two and half months since you left and I still don’t feel human! I’m like a damn zombie! I don’t allow myself to feel anything because the only thing I feel is pain,” I confessed. Tears run down my cheeks. “I might have cried over him for a few months but it’s been like this with you for years! So stop talking about him! It’s not about him!” I stopped my ranting in order to breath.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpFtNmTVPN
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“You’re not answering,” he mumbled.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0eaOBt2Z2
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“Dear Lord! NO!” I said losing my patience “I don’t have feelings for him anymore. He’s just a friend.”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShMXHM7EcB
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“You’re friends now?” he raised his eyebrows.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnakOMxXBq
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“He was there when you weren’t,” I mumbled. I didn’t want to tell him about the hospital.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlek0PjH0P
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“Fair enough,” he breathed. I noticed he was already in the middle of another cigarette.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4B0n31Tn5I
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“You’re smoking too much,” I told him as the death stick was hanging on the side of his mouth. God, how much I love this man. A faint smile appeared on his lips before his expression turned serious again.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSonTDlrH06
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“You said that it’s been like this with me for years…” he trailed “What do you mean?”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OprtYPQOG
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“You really have no idea?” I frowned. Clueless. That’s what he was.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPf5oRETkrw
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“You never actually told me what’s going on inside your head. I’m always guessing,” he told me. He had a point. I sighed.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwO68r6vG33
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“It was always you,” I begun, my blood pumping through my veins as I was about to finally admit the truth to his face “I even remember the way I looked at you when I was in grade school. Or how happy I felt when you were holding me that summer at your summer house. I think it was the first time we went there,” I said and leaned against the tv table.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiug7zWEoX
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“You were three,” he whispered surprised. I turned to look at him.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVi4RBf71n
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“I guess,” I shrugged my shoulders. “Then you grew up and forgot all about me,” I said trying to mask the hurt in my voice “Once you went to Junior High, you stopped coming over or hang out at family dinners,” I smiled bitterly at the memories. I was having such a hard time to accept his absence even back then.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMos29BLdfc
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“I even remember how I felt when I saw you kissing your girlfriend by the swimming pool. I think I was eleven then,” I winced. “I realized it was jealousy,” I chuckled embarrassed. “A year later, Cleo got her first boyfriend and I finally put a name to what I felt about you,” I smiled.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcbkjKyhYr
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“Did she know?” Damien asked; his voice hoarse. I turned to look at him as I came out of the memories. He looked dazzled.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Bxe0UvOVD
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“No. No way. Neither did Max.” I shook my head “I forgot about you when you finally left for college next year. But I guess I never got over you,” I sighed. “It was always about you,” I breathed.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMX2YWTb3Qu
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“I thought I was imagining things,” he chuckled after a while. “You never said anything,” he said and looked at me. “Even now, I started this,” he frowned.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarD3laLBU1
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“And If you didn’t, I would probably have stayed quiet,” I whispered.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7o6RKyTDX
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“That’s what I don’t get!” he said sounding impatient “Why?!” he shook his head trying to understand.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsazAtE0BY
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“Because I know who I am. And I know who you are. Plus I didn’t know how Cleo would take it.”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUJUUJVykd
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“Will you stop talking in riddles for once?” he looked at me and took a step forward and put out the cigarette.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJbDBx1N15
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“I know that the only thing I managed to tell you so far is that I was afraid. I was afraid of opening up to you and talk to you because I knew that if you, out of all people, hurt me I wouldn’t be able to deal with it,” I said staring at the floor “I wish I was wrong,” I mumbled.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldpX0p4KCy
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“What? What do you mean?”589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHV9e2kPJU
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“I don’t want to talk about it,” I said. It was the wrong thing to say however.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4IiAxqO7s
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“Oh, that’s a new one!” he scoffed “You never want to talk about it. You always talk with riddles. You never tell me what you’re thinking or how you feel! Even now, Erica, you speak about the past,” he said and I was looking towards him but not directly at him. “You never talk about the future! Or about now!” he said. He was all over the place.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB46tB2496N
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“Talk about what?” I said frustrated and got up. “I know I’m not good enough for you! My head is mess. I’m scared to open up and I know I’m not worth your valuable time. You have a beautiful mind, you’re gorgeous, educated, you know how to talk and behave. I’m...I’m…whatever,” I winced and threw my hands in the air.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3OEkcngAd
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Someone knocked on the door just as I realized that tears were running down my cheeks again. I wiped them off with my fingers and walked towards the door. Cleo was standing there.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeJCpU67X9
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“Baby, are you okay?” she asked and took a step forward.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhslryhrTx7
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“Can you sleep in your brother’s room tonight?” Damien startled me as his voice came from behind me and opened the door wider so he could see his sister. Cleo looked at him and then back at me. I was looking at the floor and I looked at my friend only when I felt her eyes on me.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRXeIz40cT
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“Sure,” she nodded “Text me if you need anything,” she told me and left.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zLjfXDt6v
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I closed the door slowly and turned around. I didn’t know what to expect from him. I took two steps away from the door just as Damien walked up to me. He didn’t stop; he just put his palms on either side of my face and stared into my eyes. How much I adore those grey eyes.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSXbay44yO
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“I love you,” he said. The world stopped. I couldn’t believe I heard those three little words coming out of his mouth. My heart flew, it felt alive again. “You’re more than enough,” he whispered. “Don’t ever dare to believe otherwise. Your head might be a little bit disturbed sometimes,” he smirked and made me chuckle “But it’s the best place to be,” he assured me.589Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZcxUEtohd
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