I was right. I knew him well after all.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsqZDEsCpN
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Cleo didn’t want to leave me alone waiting for a message so she came back with me at my house. I had no intention to sleep. Not that I could if I tried. I showered and sat on the couch staring at the TV; Cleo half asleep beside me. It was killing me; knowing that right now Alex, my Alex was kissing, touching and having sex with another woman.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWd2aCEkrN
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It was around 7 in the morning when my phone begun vibrating on the coffee table. I shot up and grabbed the phone; Cleo tensed.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpIIo9auOh
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“I’m leaving the mansion. I told him. At first he just stared at me and then seemed to be furious,” the brunette texted me; the brunette that spend the night having sex with my boyfriend. With my blessings.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrp039b32cc
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I was crazy. I must be. There was no explanation for what I’ve done; sending her to have sex with my boyfriend just to confront him through her. At least she was cooperative.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZu9k2rXNI4
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“Thanks again. I’m guessing he didn’t say anything?” I texted back. It only took a few seconds before the mobile vibrated in my hands again; Cleo put her arm around my shoulders.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPjUsobnku
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“He asked me to describe you. When I did, he got out of the bed and before leaving the room he told me that the butler would arrange for me to get home.”403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIixewcUq8
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Typical Alex. When something was wrong, he didn’t even bother with anything else besides his own problem. Not even escorting the poor girl to the car.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ViMWW2nae
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“Okay. Thanks again. You have my number if you ever need anything,” I texted back.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2WM7elLcx
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“My pleasure. I'm sorry about him,” I’ve read and left the phone on the table and leaned back on the couch.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3J1Df87w8
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Cleo put both arms around me and held me to her. I felt like my world fell apart. Again. I was such a fool.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMF2ogx408P
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“I'm an idiot,” I mumbled against my friend’s chest.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnlmACr2Sw
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“No, you’re not. You’re just in love.”403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlxFPOvfLv
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I was so tired that I must have fallen asleep on the couch for I woke up lying there, with a pillow and a sheet covering me. Cleo must have given them to me.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PjbRZsgEv
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As all the events from last night came back into my mind, my heart fell and my chest pain returned. I muffled a cry and covered my eyes with my arm.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDiXSDwvZW
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I turned towards the coffee table where my mobile was laying and saw a piece of paper underneath it. “I promised mom to help her with some stuff. Call me when you wake up.” I dialed her number and put the phone against my ear.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuKhp2s6Kv
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She had just finished what she was doing and told me to meet her at her place. I carried myself to the bathroom and closet to get dressed. I didn’t know how I had the courage to even put make up on.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPizPKUOe1
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Fifteen minutes later, I was entering her kitchen and couldn’t wait to find myself into her room so I can fall apart. As I walked up the stairs and into my friend’s room, the door at the end of the hall opened; Damien appearing behind it, only in his shorts.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrnoySmHub
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“Hey,” I said but the sound didn’t leave my throat so I waved.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoem1DLZItB
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“Come here,” he motioned to his bedroom with his hand.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iO6HEov20
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“Cleo is waiting,” I managed to say out loud.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DyqOttbmr
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“She’s not home yet,” he replied and I began walking towards him. He walked to his bed and gazed at me “You can sit you know,” he smiled; little curves shaped on his cheeks. I smiled a small smile and sat beside him.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmf4ht0yl8
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“Sorry. I'm a bit off today,” I mumbled.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrbAnXGje9
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“Did he..?” he trailed; his gray eyes piercing me.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7KCv2sat7
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“Yup. He cheated again,” I smiled bitterly “This time with my blessings though,” I kept a tight smile.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHfUcN8saX
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“What do you mean?” he frowned. I told him last night’s events in a summary while he looked wide eyed.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdjr56Cw77
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“Damn,” he whispered.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQoPjdepIY
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“Yeah,” I agreed and my phone vibrated in my hands, startling me for a second. I froze as I looked at the screen. Alex. I pressed the silent button and left the phone on the bedside table.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqv29sq6v67
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“Him?” Damien asked and I nodded. “Want me to answer?” he offered.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bPH2U8RiG
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“No. Don’t want to waste any more time,” I said; my voice breaking in the middle of the sentence. Damien shifted on the bed so he was facing me while I kept my eyes forward as I was starting to get nervous.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6qmEsSXpp
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He took my hand in his and squished it. I just kept my eyes forward, afraid to turn around and face him.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjyBZy04yn
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“Look at me,” he pleaded whispering. I exhaled deeply and lowered my head. I didn’t want to look at him. Every feeling I had for him since I could remember myself was coming back ten times stronger when he was sweet and caring with me.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZZxZXcslo
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My phone vibrated from the bedside table again, this time Cleo was the one calling me. I sighed and answered the phone.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqFNFSq9Fn
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“Hey. I’m at your place,” I told her and she just told me she was parking her car before hanging up.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxDsQOA9q2
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“I’m going...” I trailed and got up; my hand still in his.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvLMOsugz6
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“Okay,” he mumbled and stroked the back of my palm with his thumb before letting his hand slip away.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKycxDOsFtt
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Alex called three times that day. I never answered. I didn’t have the courage or the strength to deal with him. I couldn’t bear to hear his voice. It would hurt too much.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQri7E45XwL
I curled into a tiny ball in my bed and cried myself to sleep.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAwJs04EHW
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It hurt that I’ve let myself trust him again; I’ve allowed myself to dream and everything was shuttered. It hurt so much.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2570P1v7Q
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I opened my eyes disoriented; the sound of knocking on the door reached my ears. That must have been the sound that woke me up. I sat up on the bed and slowly got out of bed.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHAbShB6sf
As I opened the door, still half asleep, I froze. Alex was standing in the doorway wearing just a jean and a t-shirt. I wasn’t used to see him wearing casual clothes. I began hyperventilating and tried to close the door to his face. I really couldn’t stand watching those eyes. It hurt.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKhSDMLqwy
He put his hand against the door and kept it open. I didn’t have much strength for I just woke up, and he overpowered me.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaoxss8QgT
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“Please” he mumbled. I lowered my head, not facing him, and turned around. I heard him entering the renovated garage and closing the door behind him.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALcuT6cErU
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“If you’re going to say that it just happened. Save it,” I mumbled as I walked towards the kitchen counter to make coffee.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYX3FhH5LnW
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“Obviously it didn’t,” I heard him say. So if he admitted it, why was he here? “How did you know her?” he asked, obviously about the brunette that spent the night with him.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1YoGrJHV7
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That’s what he cared about? How I knew the girl that he fucked last night? That’s why he was here? I felt angry. I bit my lip to restrain myself as I put water and coffee in my glass.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBm0qd9miV
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“Small world love. Small fucking world,” I smiled bitterly.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QXjZ6jeKc
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“Will you look at me?” he asked. I felt so angry at him when he spoke those words.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiImPVWRGn
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“What I ever do to you?” I snapped, finally turning around and saw his face for the first time. He looked tired. But I didn’t care. He didn’t reply. What did he have to say after all?403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfnXPd44Bf
“Oh yeah, right!” I mocked “All I ever did was love you. How could I do that to you! I’m such a horrible person!” I scoffed. He sighed in response and rubbed his forehead with his fingers.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaH53jfDoKw
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“Erica, please don’t...” he trailed.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznnmuoXuDT
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“Don’t what?” I spit “Does my words hurt you?” I asked bitterly again. It was a rhetorical question. He would never respond to a question about how he felt. He was never talking about his feelings. Never. Maybe that’s why he was able to hurt me so much. He had no feelings.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1gTSRhe42
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“Yes,” he breathed; leaving me astonished. My face fell. I put both hands against my eyes; my knees getting weak.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NYbxCmFVA
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I managed to walk towards the bed and sat on the edge; leaning forward and resting my elbows on my knees as I held my head on my palms.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSAehijana
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“You have no idea how I feel,” I breathed; my eyes wet as I tried to hold back the tears. The hole in my chest aching and burning from the pain.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5cisPtLpO
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I felt the bed shifting and I noticed that he sat next to me when he tried to pull him towards him.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeENozWR8wJ
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“No,” I flinched “No,” I said and pulled away; tears began oozing from my eyes. He pulled me against his chest and kept me there as I was crying. I didn’t care anymore. I didn’t care if he thought I was being childish or vulnerable. I was in pieces.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4X0SzBGvna
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“I'm sorry,” he breathed.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LHVW8o8m7
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“Stop apologizing. Please,” I pleaded. It only makes it harder. I calmed down as his grip tightened around me. I could smell his beautiful scent as I was buried to his chest.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKi1zYNKeKl
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My mind wasn’t working right anymore; I was lost in his arms and couldn’t think clear so when he pulled my face towards his and place his lips on mine I didn’t flinched away like before. I only parted my lips as a deep sigh escaped my lips as he kissed my bottom lip. He took advantage and parted my lips more; his tongue entering my mouth.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RJkFrfOhl
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I knew that if I stopped him now, the way I wanted him right now would haunt me and never let me be. He would always be with me. So I let him kiss me. I didn’t protest even when his hand traveled down my spine to my lower back.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmKDxr4Fec
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He lightly pushed me back and climbed on top of me while I pulled him with me. I put my hands around his neck and kissed him back as he put his hand under my shirt. He pulled back and took off his t-shirt and mine, tossing them to the floor.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRt0qy6ffvA
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He stopped for a moment but I didn’t want him to speak. If he spoke he would have brought me back to reality and I would probably tell him to leave. I pulled him to my lips once again, not allowing him to say anything as I closed his bottom lip between mine.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqiA2f6NnVR
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He moved his lips down to my neck as his hands traced my body; a soft moan escaping my lips. He pulled away for a moment only to remove his pants and my shorts before crushing his lips onto mine once again. I was having an out of body experience. I wasn’t thinking anything. I was only feeling.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUUrIeNsFD
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I moved one hand onto his back and another onto his waist, pulling him to me as his lips licked and kissed my neck. I pushed him back a little bit only to reach out at the bedside table and open the drawer and take a condom as he was now kissing my arm and cleavage. As I returned to him, he removed my bra and cupped my breasts; one with his hand and the other with his mouth.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Qd1nu4oxm
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He slightly pulled back and removed my underwear and his boxers before putting on the condom. I was gazing at him through the state of trance I was in, trying not to think that just 12 hours ago he was touching another woman like he was touching me.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqlwhETfduE
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He came back on top of me, placing his hands on either side of me against the mattress and looked at me for a moment. Maybe he was looking for regret in my eyes; maybe he thought I was going to stop him. And maybe I should have.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRd41kuW5u
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I put my hands on his necks and pulled him into a kiss and as he lowered himself onto me I felt him press against me and enter me; a deep moan escaping my throat.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhGo8Hmty4
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Maybe it was the fact that he wanted me to forgive him again or the fact that indirectly I told him that I loved him; his moves were gentle and slow. He pulled back for a moment and as he kept thrusting into me slowly, he looked at me. I looked back, wanting to keep his image in my mind, but as he opened his mouth and I thought he was going to say something I broke the eye contact.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz53gztQxs9
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“Faster,” I mumbled and his moves quickened; making me climax as he shivered over me; my legs wrapped around his waist. I suddenly felt blank. And then a strong wave of emotions struck me; the ache alive in my chest once again. I felt like crying. But I wouldn't. I wouldn't cry in front of him again.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2xTwipKRv0
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He collapsed on top of me and I held him there, stroking his back and kissing his shoulder, trying to take in my last minutes with him. His weight on top of me, his smell and his hot breathe hitting my skin.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqRzPbb6l0
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“I'm sorry,” he whispered to my ear and that brought me back to reality. I pushed him back.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdUEdVBZrc
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“It doesn’t matter,” I replied and sat up. Maybe it was harsh but I didn’t care. He certainly didn’t care when he was having sex with someone else.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwd45HoDseh
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“I can’t do this anymore,” I whispered and he sat up on the bed; watching me. “You’re hurting me too much and I can’t do this anymore,” I explained. With the corner of my eye I saw him lowering his head. I stood up and wore my underwear and top.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4TCS70os2
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“Maybe someday you’ll find someone that can love you enough to make you love her back,” I whispered. I watched as his face tightened and he got up, starting to wear his clothes. I thought the conversation was over but as he wore his boxers, he then walked up to me.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVyHPUPste
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“You did,” he whispered; putting his palm against my cheek. Was he saying that he loved me back? No I wouldn’t let his words get to me.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhKPPhBvNX
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“No. I just loved you enough to let you break my heart. I'm never gonna be enough,” I whispered back; I could see the hurt in his eyes. I was wondering if I was looking like that right now. “I'm sorry Alex but if I keep this up, it would probably kill me.”403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBy1XfAuO1
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He pulled back slowly, not saying another word. He put back on his jeans and t-shirt and begun walking towards the door. He paused there for a second but he didn’t do anything. He didn’t turn around to look at me or said anything.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKHxY9XH8D
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He opened the door and left.403Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBkrfMBlCI
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And I just got back home for the Holidays! As I said the updates on this will be a bit slower than it was...so...I can't wait to read your thoughts on the chapter! :}:}
