When I come to think about how things with Damien started it felt a little bit hasty. I was still with Alex when Damien kissed me for the first time. And then I was getting over Alex when I kissed him the night we got together.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3j9Pm3wwD
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But then again, my feelings for Damien were always there. It wasn’t something new. He wasn’t just a rebound guy. I was always in love with him. My thoughts were interrupted by a set of lips brushing against my neck.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWJoOOV3I5
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“Jeez!” I jumped up. I was standing in the kitchen, making a pile of plates as I unloaded the washing machine.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVklwCIrjx
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“Scared you?” Damien chuckled. I nodded and turned around. He leaned down and kissed me; his lips cupping my own.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7uCcpPxUT
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“Third person in the room!” Max said as he walked passed us. I pulled back and blushed.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0aSm8ZVkf
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“We’re leaving anyway,” Damien told him. Cleo walked in the kitchen at the same time.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSTE65XAEo
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“Wait a little longer, I haven’t finished here,” I told Damien.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWfnhW6Jly
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“I’ll finish up,” Cleo said “There’s nothing left in the living room.” Her voice was all wrong.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRejTxjQfTm
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“Are you sure? You sound tired,” I winced. Maybe she was indeed tired.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3XXvCHzZP
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“Yes. I’ll unload the washing machine and go to bed. Eliza, the cleaning lady, is coming over tomorrow,” she assured me. “Oh, I got your stuff,” she smiled; it seemed a little bit forced.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDe7aQFfdhx
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“Thanks,” I smiled back and turned towards the dining table that she motioned me towards. “What’s that envelope?” I frowned as I looked over the A4 white envelope that was sitting over my jacket. Damien towered over me.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqCtyIELLy
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“Your gift,” she grinned “Open it.” That smile was legitimate and made me feel better.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIoq1TpoF7
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“What is it?” I frowned and opened the envelope. Max was there in a second. “Will you back up? Jeez,” I frowned at the Simmons brothers. I teared open the envelope and pulled out a magazine; ELLE magazine. A paper came with it. I burst out laughing and turned to look at her, but both Damien and Max were blocking my view in order to read the paper. “Move away!” I pushed them and almost run to Cleo. I threw my arms around her and hugged her. “You bossy little freak!”521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmI2IL4aGo0
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“I have to put some sense of fashion into you! Your initiation is great, but you needed this!” she chuckled for the twenty-four months subscription she bought me.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8vcs2NPRh
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“Can we go now?” Damien asked sounding bored and impatient as I pulled away from Cleo.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMI3cgGbx6J
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“Don’t push your luck,” I warned him and turned to Cleo again “Thank you,” I smiled at her.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOAlutqyK4
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“Weird gift,” Max mumbled and made me chuckle.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLALQJbltkR
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Damien did not waste time once we got inside my renovated garage. As soon as I turned on the air-conditioning and removed my jacket he walked up to me and cupped my cheeks; a sweet smile on his full lips.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCVnSyOhWx
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“Had fun tonight?” I asked; enjoying his touch.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7vcGoFJnm
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“Yes,” he nodded smiling and leaned down and kissed me. His hands squished my butt but I stopped him.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rnSjrjbgZ
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“I’m not having sex with you,” I mumbled against his lips. He didn’t seem to believe it and kissed me again. This time I pulled away from him. “Going to take a shower before lying down,” I said indifferently.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4x6gZoEQPV
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“We’ll see about that,” I heard him mumbling as I took off my heels. I walked into the bathroom and let the water running before pulling down my leggings.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNXbTfuRea
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“For now, see me closing the door to your face,” I mocked and closed the bathroom door before locking it. I wasn’t really mad at him and I knew that if he came in the shower with me I wouldn’t be able to stop him.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwg82IwuUdT
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He took a shower after me as I wore clean knickers and an oversized jumper that left my right shoulder uncovered. I was sitting on the sofa, surfing the internet when he joined me. He sat on my right side and kissed my shoulder as he put his hand on my thigh; no sign of lust in his moves.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOplAwiY7c
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“So, how do you feel?” I smirked mockingly.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9G23ICkNfZ
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“You’re twenty-five,” I replied; retaining the smirk on my lips. Damien chuckled. “You’re old,” I mocked and he lunched himself at me causing me to laugh. I always enjoyed fighting with him; especially after we got together.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfugZCpQPr
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“Crazy people never get old, ladybug,” he smirked as he pinned me against the sofa cushions. He gripped my wrists and I tried to free myself with no success. He bit his lip as he positioned himself between my legs.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7U0od6F7s
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“Go away, I’m still mad at you,” I mumbled; frowning.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCOAes3fxq
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“Can’t do that,” he raised his eyebrows and without a warning he crashed his lips to mine. I parted my lips from the surprise and he found the opportunity to brush my tongue with his. I couldn’t help but kiss him back eagerly. I could feel him growing between my legs and the moisture ruining my clean underwear. I moaned into the kiss and tried to push him back. I was suffocating in that jumper.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ASkq6Qg76
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“It’s hot,” I mumbled and he relaxed a bit. “Do something useful while you’re there,” I mocked as he sat up on his knees. I pulled the jumper up to my breasts and he helped me remove it.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOdTMnbcHM
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“I thought you said you won’t be having sex with me,” he smirked. I sat up quickly and got up.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISTkd9GeoM
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“I won’t,” I confirmed and got into my bed. He chuckled and followed me. I didn’t resist as he lightly pushed me back to the mattress and climbed on top of me. “And I’m not helping you with that either,” I raised my eyebrows referring to his erection.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIW7NrIDac
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“Baby, we will have sex,” he said; a dangerous smile on his lips. I narrowed my eyes and pushed him away. I tried to avoid looking at his eyes. Those grey orbs were dangerous; I could lose myself in there. Not that kissing him was easier. That’s why when he leaned down and kissed me, forcing his tongue into my mouth, I kissed him back. I couldn’t help it. And he knew it.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCGXWaylZ7
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He pinned my hands against the mattress over my head with one hand and moved down to my neck. I moaned lightly at his every touch.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JGEWgi8Rj
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“Go away,” I mumbled but it was muffled by a moan as he sucked in my nipple. My body ached for him.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINjrCgB2i6
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“I love how responsive you are,” he said. His voice wasn’t the typical hoarse tone; I could hear his lust into every word. I knew I was hopeless as he pushed my underwear to the side and brushed his fingers over my wetness.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqiejYneYt
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“It’s the hormones,” I explained flatly “I won’t have sex-” but as two long digits entered my wet folds I gasped and forgot how to speak.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMZDCQmFda
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“You know you want me,” he smirked as his fingers moved in and out of me causing me to moan. He moved up to my ear, his fingers never stop moving. “Admit it Erica,” he whispered against my ear “You want me inside of you.”521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwcZg6EJW5
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“Oh God,” I moaned as his fingers moved to my clit. I couldn’t say no to him. But I would. This game was fun. “Go away,” I breathed firmly, my eyes snapping open.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8I00Xmv0Q
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“No,” he said and we stared each other for a moment. He removed his hand from my wrists and cupped my jaw; forcing his lips to mine. He then moved to my ear for a second; his retrieving his fingers from between my legs. “If you really want me to stop, say something irrelevant and -” he said; his voice soft and gentle.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt16J6Fh34b
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“I’m fine baby,” I assured him and he kissed my temple before pulling back. He took advantage of the little pause to grab a condom from the drawer and removed both of our underwear. I was putting all my strength to my thighs trying to keep my legs closed as he put the condom on.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpkOc13KWw
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“One and half week, damn it!” I groaned. Damien chuckled. He knew he had won this already. He managed to part my legs and positioned himself between them.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnHdDmkOB7
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“You know,” he mumbled and kissed my lower stomach “You want me,” he said as he kissed my belly and moved up to my lips. Before I ever had time to think, he pushed inside of me. I released a loud moan, my fingers clutching his back as his long and thick erection filled and stretched my depths.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegUO3G9oMa
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He grabbed my hands and pinned them against the mattress before he drove into me again and rocked my body with each pounding thrust, and my grunts and gasps chorused the slicksounds our bodies made sliding against each other.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUqCtzqeKX
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“Yes, Damien,” I mumbled.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfguDt2HgS5
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“I told you, you wanted me,” he said between moans. My fingers were clutching thin air as he held them down. I wanted to wrap them tightly around him. I arched my back, colliding my body to his and he released my hands, putting his against my sides; his grip tight.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KyIAFTdeB
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As I felt him throb and pulse and begin to explode inside of me, I squished his back, pulling him towards me. His body swayed and his groans seared my mind. It added fuel to my fire and my sweaty body suddenly shuddered and convulsed. My vision went white and I came hard, clinging to him with every muscle in my body, I trembled and spasmed hard in his arms.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6kXUEpzcq
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I was gasping for air, my body and mind dizzy and not quite back to myself as he collapsed on top of me. It took me a few moments of lying there, breathing and assessing tender places, to gather my strength enough to collect my thoughts.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdlV0N4UD8
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“Damn it,” I mumbled “I hate you,” I groaned. Damien chuckled against my chest; vibrating my body as well. “I can’t stay mad at you,” I complained.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWu6hww87K
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“You can’t stay mad at anyone baby,” he laughed and pulled his head up to look at me; his grey eyes were darker around the edges.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ltYj7oWT7
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“Kiss me,” I mumbled and cupped his unshaved cheeks. He leaned over me; touching his lips softly to mine. I tightened my walls around him and he groaned against my mouth. He pulled back after a moment and he left the bed to go to the bathroom.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbtwgqMAkV
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He reentered the room and went to the coffee table. I saw his naked figure leaning there and taking something. He lid up a cigarette and came to bed. I couldn’t help but smile as he walked back to me. He was gorgeous; wide shoulders and muscles flexed as he moved. We’ve been together for a month and I still couldn’t believe that we’re finally together; that I have him to myself.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPqC59ypX6
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“What?” he grinned; the cigarette hanging from his lips. I’m going to die.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhgeDrOzPX
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“Sometimes I wish you would stop smoking,” I smiled as he sat down on the bed. I shifted and turned to my side “But then you look so ridiculously hot with that death stick between your lips,” I sighed. Damien chuckled and pulled me into his arms. I curled up to him, my head against the crook of his neck. My fingers were tracing the scanty hair on his chest while he turned his face the other way everytime he breathed out the smoke. I was almost asleep when I heard him speak.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHzTAfMRuT
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“You guys weren’t five,” he said.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXDE468a5k
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“Hmm?” I mumbled confused.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HkgiWaL3A
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“I was eleven years old,” he said thoughtfully “So that makes you four,” he continued and I was listening still confused “Max just discovered how to torture you. Every time I was pulling you away from him, you would hug me and call me your superman,” he said and I chuckled now understanding what he was talking about. “And once, when you were five,” he chuckled “you told me not to grow up so that you could marry me,” he said and I could hear his grin.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wjh4T5frv
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“You were always my superman,” I mumbled and kissed his chest. “Though superman wasn’t torturing the people he saved,” I frowned.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJ8rnHfSoo
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“It was fun,” he chuckled lightly and kissed my forehead. “It still is,” he smiled against my skin. The memory he shared send a warm feeling to my heart and I wanted to talk to him so bad. But how? How do you start talking about something like this? What if he felt suffocated?521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4n3axELk0
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“Hey, are you okay?” he asked when I didn’t comment back on his joke and I could hear the concern in his voice.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEq3UVwdec
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“Yeah,” I breathed out.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIbqWmY5IL
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“Come on, you can’t lie to me,” he said and pushed me away lightly so he could see my face. I pulled back from his arms and covered my torso with the covers as I laid on my stomach; leaving just the edge of the sheet over him. Damien sat up against the headboard of the bed; waiting for me to talk. I can do this. But my mouth wasn’t cooperating with my brain.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoe70mL3oe
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“Ah,” I groaned and threw my head down to my hands “I can’t do this,” I mumbled, my pulse increasing. He put out the cigarette and turned back to me again.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDNXNvB81l
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“Erica, what’s wrong?” he whispered and reached out for my hands. He pulled them away from my face and searched for my eyes.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnUYCoyCbV
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“I’m scared,” I breathed. It was the only thought I could voice.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIraAxXUmbM
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“Of what?” he breathed. He winced as if he thought I was being irrational.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjLHB3DPeT
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“Shit, you’re already losing patience with me,” I winced and turned to the side. I wanted to be alone. He was losing patience and he would leave me. I knew it was a matter of time. I had already turned my back on him and was ready to get up from the bed when he grabbed my wrist.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vuAE47c46
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“Don’t move,” he said; that intimidating tone on his voice. It was enough to bring me back from my breakdown. He shifted and pulled me backwards until my bare back was touching his naked chest as he sat me between his legs. “Talk to me, don’t walk away,” he whispered to my ear as he put his arms around me. Tears threatened to run down my cheeks. He covered our bodies with the blankets and held me there tightly against his body; his fingers laced with mine as he had his palm over my hand.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWbQVuM39p
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“I want to,” I mumbled “But I’m scared.”521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhku0xcT0u
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“But why?” he asked softly “It’s me,” he said and stroked my hand “You have nothing to fear,” he whispered and with one hand he pushed my hair away from my neck and brushed his lips against my skin.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6v29ZbyXu3
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“I’m scared of how you’ll react; of what will happen next,” I rumbled.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrseUCSzx9
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“Erica, I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again,” he said squished my body to his “I’m not going anywhere,” he assured me.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJsXi4t66u
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“Is just,” I began and had to swallow the lump in my throat “Things happened too quickly between us,” I mumbled and I heard him exhaling. It almost sounded as relief but I wasn’t sure.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5xLTNsNMR
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“Is that all you’re worrying about?” I guess he didn’t understand my concern.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUz0Sjol7k
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“I’m scared that it will go away just as quickly,” I said my voice barely audible as I stared at the black and white stripes on the sheets.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52r7CuV3kS
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“I won’t let it if you don’t,” he whispered to me and stroked my skin. It wasn’t a promise like the usual promises that would terrify me. He was only saying that if I don’t let go of what we had, he wouldn’t either.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkHIyUEPnZ
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My breathing increased and I could barely keep my tears back. I hated talking about how I felt about him or in general talking about things I’ve kept bottled up. It always made me cry.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4H9ALfpy2C
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I sat up, the covers fell back on the bed as I moved, and put my legs on either side of his waist and my arms around his shoulders to hug him. I kept him tightly against my body as he put his arms around me.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bubUU64x2
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“I won’t,” I whispered to his ear and kissed his skin. “I thought I was ready to start talking, I have things to tell you, but I-” I mumbled but he interrupted me.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzhyz9qDJC
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“That’s okay, it’s late,” he whispered at me and made me lie down. “Get some sleep and words will find you,” he smiled as he leaned over me and kissed my lips.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vC2RBaf1T
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“Don’t be so good to me,” I whispered as I barely managed to control my voice.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡto10UqCTXr
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“Go to sleep,” he said, completely ignoring me and kissed my forehead.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnesg5FMh7A
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“Okay,” I smiled a small smile. Damien lied down behind me and put his strong arms around me; pulling me towards his body. “You’re my superman,” I giggled and he chuckled.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73VDiv5F03
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I didn’t sleep well. However I didn’t toss and turn because I didn’t want to wake him up. I just lied in his arms enjoying the feeling. He was so beautiful. Damien was everything I ever dreamed of and I was ruining it all with my insecurities. I loved him so much my heart ached.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMGzFPyb9b
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Several times I caught myself opening my mouth and was about to tell him those three little words but I couldn’t. I couldn’t even say “I love you” to him while he was sleeping. I was terrified.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTj966siIF
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How could I explain to him how I felt all those years when I couldn’t even voice it? It was pathetic. I was pathetic.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNh4OVsPhgF
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I spend New Year’s Eve with my family and relatives and met with the twins and Damien later on to celebrate, like we did every year. Cleo was keeping her distance from Damien and me during the night. She was a little bit moody every now and then but nothing too serious; towards me at least. I never paid too much attention due to the large amount of vodka I had. But it was registered to my brain; Cleo had a problem with Damien and me being an item.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNFcIrl1TI
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Two days afterwards, I was sitting in my place with Max playing cards and watching television. He was the right person to ask about the weird situation. He would say the truth no matter what.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTdXa9Z8Yo
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“Dude, what’s up?” he frowned and threw the cards on the table “You’re very distracted.” I took a deep breath and released it.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhdQgMSUUx
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“What’s going on with Cleo?” I winced “I mean, she’s okay with me but she talks a bit weird at Damien,” I explained my question “And she’s also tensed when Damien is near me.”521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2D7gHQtPFI
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“I thought she would come around by the time you would start worrying for real,” Max sighed and leaned back on the armchair.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEccPJygqK
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“What do you mean?”521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjS9r6Yoht
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“You should talk to her about it,” Max winced a bit, feeling uncomfortable talking about it. So something was going on! And Max knew about it.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAl4OEPjC5q
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“Oh yeah! Like we’ve talked about Damien and I when I confessed, right?” I scoffed “She’s ignoring the whole thing! It’s like the big elephant in the room!” I exclaimed. “So tell me what the fuck is going on and I will talk to Cleo, I assure you,” I told him.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKUzwdD2BK
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“She doesn’t talk to Damien,” Max breathed.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2saR9JnCe
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“What do you mean? They talk -” I frowned as the Christmas day came to my mind.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BYoqGtHCE
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“She only talks to him when she has to, like when you’re present,” he said. I was stunned.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoy5DQ1Qxyi
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“Wait,” I put my palm in the air towards him “If something irrelevant to me happened, one of them would have talk to me about it. Since no one of them did, I’m guessing it has something to do with me,” I thought out loud. Max looked at me; a sympathetic look on his face.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDHH4f4oWu
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“I think it’s best if you talk to Cleo,” he suggested.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hwwyaDLZh
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“Yes,” I said and grabbed my phone. She wasn’t talking to her brother? But why? If she didn’t approve, then I guess she wouldn’t have talked to me either. Or she wouldn’t be talking to me at all!521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcLnOluhrr
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Max told me he was going to see Lexie and I knew Damien was at work, so I drove to Cleo’s house after I made sure she was home. She was waiting for me in her room. I thought it was best not to burst in there like wanting to kill someone. Therefore, when I arrived I called her, as I always did, to ask her if she wanted something to drink. I took two glasses of juice and walked up the stairs.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3bk5BCRXO
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“Hello,” I smiled “Here,” I told her and gave her the juice.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6iANEPYfi
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“Thanks,” she smiled back and took the glass “What’s up? I thought you were going to start revising your first class today,” she asked and pulled her sketches towards her to make me space to seat.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQZPMUrRKI
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“No, no leave them, I’ll seat here,” I told her and sat on her desk chair. “I was,” I replied to her question “But I wanted to ask you something first,” I said and she looked at me sipping my juice. “What happened with Damien?” I asked and she drew a line on the pad she had on her lap. “You’re not talking to him.” It wasn’t a question.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRkQuXcFLs
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“Nothing happened,” she mumbled.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqWE7ww7cp
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“Yeah, okay!” I nodded mockingly “Cleo, it’s me, remember me? Your best friend?” I raised my eyebrows. She didn’t speak. “I’ve been ignoring the fact that you’re ignoring my relationship. I tried to give you time,” I spoke.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zQbnNGexg
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“Is something I have to solve with my brother,” she said, never looking at me.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBF3JlcWSc
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“It has something to do with me though and I don’t like that you two are not talking because of me,” I explained. I hoped she would tell me so we would solve this.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCPa9Y1B7q
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“You’re his girlfriend,” she said as she changed the pencil with a color pen.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCi9czZpAlo
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“I was your friend first,” I mumbled “I am your friend,” I frowned.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIgMEBBY32
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“Okay then! Since you put it that way! I’ll tell you!” she said and looked at me; her tone rose up slightly. I waited. “You’ll get hurt! He’s always between relationships. Never stayed with one girl for too long!” she rumbled on. I felt dizzy.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiiz4kZ36E
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“I know,” I whispered.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfLRxgCZ2j
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“If you know, what are you doing with him?” she asked and I breathed through my nose trying to keep the tears back. “He’s not for you!” she breathed.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGJK8senyG
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“He is not for me? Or I’m not for him?” I asked; my voice broke at the end. I didn’t want to give her time to respond to my question because I didn’t want to listen to the answer. I was afraid to. “I know I’m not enough for him,” I whispered and got up; the tears blurred my eyes “I’ll never be enough,” I shook my head and opened the door.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlGnJe3tXC
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I heard her calling my name but I didn’t stop. This is what I didn’t want. This is why I kept my feelings to myself for so long. Because I knew I wasn’t enough for him; so why really bother?521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRppOwEU2LV
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I didn’t understand why she was talking to me and not to him. But it didn’t matter anymore. I didn’t want to be in the middle of them! No matter what the reason was, they were brother and sister; they should support each other.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2QAeHZkOM
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I couldn’t be in the middle. I would never be the girl that made him choose his girlfriend over his sister. Ever! I couldn’t bear to do that. She is my best friend and I love her, I would never take her brother away from her. Even if it was her choice not to talk to him; I was the reason and I hated it.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIEl3RjKF2
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I entered my house and sat in my parent’s kitchen. James had left yesterday afternoon to go back to his apartment. Maybe I could visit him, just to be away from all of this for a while. And I knew that underneath it all, the only thing that made me want to run away was that my own best friend didn’t approve me for her brother.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDilUIXsjlC
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“Hey kid,” he greeted on the first ring.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyo98xcnkD
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“Hi,” I breathed.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZTqbkMHe6
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“What’s wrong?”521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0L7EIDM8S
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“Can I come over and stay for a while?” I asked.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyNDiB4w5z
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“Of course, but what happened?” I could hear his frown.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQbEYTtJ4T
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“I’ll tell you tonight,” I told him and got up to pack my things. He wasn’t staying too far away. His apartment was one and half hour away but it was too far for him to drive everyday to go to the university. I called mom to let her know that I was visiting James and she of course made me take four tuppers of food.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6V8G34qLe1
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I decided to call Damien as well; he had to know I was leaving. He didn’t believe I was fine when I told him. Reasonable since my voice had less color than a black and white film. He only asked me to wait an hour before leaving because he wanted to see me. At first I thought of saying no to him because I didn’t want him to see me like that but my ego didn’t let me decline.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1gew7Tduw
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I really wanted to see him. An hour wouldn’t hurt.521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCFyCJPecr
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