I put my palm against my chest and frowned lightly. The pain wasn’t strong, but it was there. My parents had arrived at the hospital soon after I’d called them. Alex told them everything he knew, as I overheard while they were talking outside the room.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ093Y3V9J4b
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Apparently I needed to stay in the hospital so they could monitor me; make sure that this wouldn’t end up with me having a heart attack or at least until my new doctor came back from her vacation. She was going to have the last call on when I would be going home.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlDg0bJhZV
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A knock on the door made my parents and me turn towards the door. I managed to send Alex home to get some sleep just two hours ago so I didn’t expect anyone else.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlh7dpCpEqc
I didn’t want to call Max because I felt embarrassed therefore I didn’t expect him to show up at the hospital.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAQP5mFfgy
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I couldn’t see who it was but I saw my mom smiling and getting up from her seat. That’s when Max and Cleo came into view. I sighed and leaned back against my pillow. I would have to explain why all these was happening.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvhnd01UjI
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“We’re going to the cafeteria. Want me to bring you something?” my mom asked and pulled my oblivious looking dad from his hand.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHXxtGMSwi
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“A juice,” I smiled “And a cake,” I said with a smug smile “Can I eat cake?” I frowned suddenly.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnX9Sfjzhw
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“I’ll ask,” she smiled and left. The twins smiled at my parents as they walked past them.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7C1rTz1byh
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“So?” Max looked at me and sat down at the foot of the bed. Cleo didn’t move.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdluaXC2sP
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“What?” I asked, frowning; avoiding the subject.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApL3lqXgqv
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“What’s going on? My mom didn’t say much,” he explained.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPf6Rm8uQWV
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“Well, I had chest pains and they thought it would be better for me to stay in,” I smiled uneasily. Max blinked and tried to speak again but failed.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuB4G8gWnFd
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“Why?” Cleo spoke for the first time; her voice kind of startled me. I haven’t talked to her for so long and I missed her so bad. I stared at my hands, my sight blurring, and the machine started to pace up. I noticed the twins turning towards it.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSJ4kr8QrU
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“I don’t wanna talk about it,” I mumbled “Not yet at least.”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs3aAkDNyC
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“When are you checking out?” Max asked another question.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0Gp0O1OD6
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“When my doctor comes back from her vacation,” I replied “Tomorrow I think,” I winced and Max frowned “Yeah, I know bad timing,” I chuckled. Cleo looked more relaxed after my small joke and a small smile formed on her lips.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXkqVgGoZ9
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“I got you these,” she said and opened her bag, taking out three magazines. She moved closer and gave them to me.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIfALY60lo
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“Music too huh?” I grinned as I saw my favorite music magazine among the fashion magazines she preferred.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9SGrWJPg0
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“Well, it’s not the time to be a bully,” she chuckled. I noticed Max gazing at the magazines, as if looking for something and then winced when it didn’t found it. I guess he was looking either for a car, a football player or a semi-naked woman. I smiled lightly and turned towards Cleo again.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHMulcYicE
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“So,” I took a deep breath after a moment of silence “Tell me about the project,” I smiled at Cleo “What is it about?”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzclMFHa8vg
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“Um,” she breathed “Need to have a portfolio of ten summer outfits and sew one of them,” she explained.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrMoeyYniL
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“Random summer outfits?” I asked while she sat down on the chair where my mom was seating earlier.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZS8YqKgdIu
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“Sort of, I need to show a work outfit, a party outfit, a brunch blah blah, you get the picture,” she chuckled lightly.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wBNFtZrYb
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“How close to the end are you?” I made an effort to smirk.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2a01UN2VgP
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“Surprising, she’s almost done,” Max mocked. I grinned at him and turned to Cleo again as she spoke.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IGOCqQPwm
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“I’m actually drawing the last one but I can’t stop thinking about the previous I’ve done, so I’m gonna sew that one,” she said.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LVeQNIIeE
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“Cool,” I smiled.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KrFkl9Bpk
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I tried my best to ignore the fact that although she knew that Damien left, she only contacted me the first day. But as I couldn’t afford anymore drama these days, I turned to Max for a while, asking about Lexie. I understood that he didn’t want to say much maybe because he didn’t want to remind me Damien’s departure. Not that I have forgot about it at all.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZ4vU2aSNT
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Max had to go outside to answer his phone a little while later and that’s when Cleo came and sat at his spot.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJMfHBCOml
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“Um,” she begun and exhaled deeply “I’m really sorry that I haven’t contacted you since you came back or since you left actually,” she frowned. “I was mad at first because I didn’t want you to get hurt and then…” I swallowed hard figuring out for where this was going and I felt being dragged down under by a black hole. As my sight blurred I averted my eyes from her.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLy1LpG2ERD
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“Please don’t,” I interrupted “I’m not ready to talk about that yet,” I mumbled; my hands curling up into fists.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNtcSA43yn
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“Damn,” she breathed out as she studied me.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8my2AADixT
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Thankfully, the very next day the new doctor came by my room; a young woman of medium height and slim figure with curly blonde hair. I was suspicious that Alex had something to do with the fact that I was her first patient; especially since she was stunning. But then she informed me that she was a psychologist; she couldn’t have many patients actually staying in the hospital.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡis5nYqg3gn
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“Can you please leave us for a moment?” she asked my parents. As soon as we heard the door closing, the doctor sat on the foot of my bed. Popural spot.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEyYCoj69Q
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“As your pathologist may have told you, right now there’s nothing wrong with your body, it’ s just reacting to emotional pain,” she explained “So, we need to work on that,” she smiled.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDcxDR3Gwo
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“Okay,” I nodded. “So, when I’m getting out of here?” I grinned. Mrs. Abbott chuckled.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlDJz4JfVC
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“I’ll come by in two hours, for a session and we’ll see,” she smiled.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4IYhXLtrK
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“But I’m fine,” I winced.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmW5t97A1P
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“We’ll talk about it later,” she smiled and nodded me for a goodbye.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6OmLzAYUY
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She must have informed my parents herself because they didn’t ask me anything when they returned to the room. They left soon afterwards, leaving me to read a book I asked from my mom. I would probably have to study for my exams but I didn’t felt ready and just the thought of it made me anxious.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyUE3PbMLQ
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Samantha Abbott, my psychologist, was sitting on the chair across from me; a notebook on her lap. I was getting impatient. I wanted to go home and hide under the covers of my own bed. I felt oppressed in the hospital as I had to suppress every feeling I had; unless I wanted everyone to witness my weakness.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7efQXeQME
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“Is this really necessary?” I mumbled.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMIdzoPBJU
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“How are you feeling today?” the blonde doctor asked me; ignoring my question.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4w2jqVsvC
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“Fine.”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzoFuAxLIO
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“Fine is not a feeling Erica,” she noted.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡME7mpbllHh
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I breathed through my nose. I wasn’t anywhere near fine. I couldn’t understand why Damien left. It killed me even more that I knew it was a matter of time that he’d do it. I just hoped he would prove me wrong.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsS52fSS67N
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“Okay then,” I exhaled “I feel ridiculous about this,” I motioned around me “People get dumped all the time,” I said and my eyes stared on my lap “So I don’t get it why I have to do this.”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXeSgTv8AS6
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“Because we want to make sure that you’re healthy enough to go home,” she smiled. I looked at her. I guess this could be done two ways; the easy way or the hard way.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSlvF8SJnQ
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“Yeah, still… I mean, people get dumped all the time but I ended up in the hospital. Always full of drama,” I rolled my eyes.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWud6ix2MM
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“It’s not your fault you’re here,” she said “When things bottle up inside they’re bound to overflow at some point.”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFNzTqiazR
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“I know,” I nodded. A deep sigh escaped my lungs as I curled my knees in front of me. “I feel it’s beyond me,” I confessed.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdfAdFIImp
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“How much I love him. I can’t handle it,” I paused “And obviously he couldn’t either,” I raised my eyebrows “I knew it was a matter of time before he’d leave me,” I confessed.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjJGmCtmQl
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“Why do you believe he would leave you?” she asked. The tone surprised me. I always thought that psychologists ask blank questions, just to get into your head. I blinked and then scoffed.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LsLY8tu9u
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“Why wouldn’t he?” I smiled a bitter, small smile.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9n9iMjkL3A
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“You should answer to that,” Samantha told me and saw her hand moving her pen on the notebook she was holding.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfQDwwzO86
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“Okay,” I exhaled. “I always loved him. That will never change. For the most part I was alone in this since he never knew and will never know how much I loved and will love him. I’ll just deal with being alone again,” I shrugged my shoulders “It’s not a big deal,” I smiled.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhCsLK1np0
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“Erica, I don’t think you realize how much of a big deal this is,” she looked at me “You’re body reacted to the emotional pain you pushed away. You need to deal with this before you’re body looses this battle. I’m not going to lie to you. You can give you’re self a heart attack,” she kept talking and the only think I could think of was “Fuck, he’ll actually be the death of me”.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlloxzXrEBJ
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“Other people get headaches from stress and emotional pain, others get nausea, others all the above, others get heart attacks. Every organism deals with emotional pain differently. Yours is on the verge of giving you a heart attack. You’ve pushed yourself to the limits,” she said and I began fuming.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ub6w97wmy
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“So what the hell am I suppose to do? Make him love me so I’ll stop the pain?” I asked, my tone rising and my hands cutting the air in front of me. “You can’t make people love you! Hecan’t love me! I’m not…I don’t think…” I stopped to think the best way to say this “He’s too good for me anyway,” I whispered.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Rwo55DZap
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“You need to build up your confidence. You’re a beautiful, smart, young woman, Erica,” she said and I wanted to laugh.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2pKC8xx0C
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“Well, I still didn’t worth his time,” I mumbled.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAEwAuCvX1
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“Have you talked to your friends about it?”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiri1nzno0q
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“Not completely,” I replied and rushed to explain “I think you run into them earlier; my friends. They are twins. It’s their older brother,” I sighed “So, it’s complicated,”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PlqKcmGyC
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“Why is that?” she asked again. Her questions were starting to annoy me.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEv7oHKgHT
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I explained all the reasons that made this so complicated for me. I figured that if I couldn’t get away from this, I might as well take advantage of the situation. Since I thought my best friends weren’t keen on listening what was going on inside my weird head, she was the only option.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNwTnOy4np
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She discharged me from the hospital the very next day. I went home with four different pills to take each day and an appointment every two days for the next ten days.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEOcY7xJC2
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I had asked Cleo to wait for me until I was ready and felt comfortable to talk to her. She was supportive through those two weeks that it took me to actually feel human again and I was glad to have my best friend back. I could see, however, that she didn’t feel as comfortable, maybe because she was scared that something she would say or do would trigger me.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgQy6Xn088
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I didn’t even bother studying for my examinations using the hospital and the whole situation as an excuse. My parents of course were supportive about that, reminding me that what mattered what for me to be okay; an extra semester at the university wasn’t going to harm anyone.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFiHushFBK
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The first month passed quietly and I managed to actually control my outbursts about Damien whenever I thought about him. Now, I would only cry during my sessions with Samantha, when I had to talk about him, or not even there. When Cleo couldn’t keep me company, Max would or when he wasn’t available Alex was there to keep me occupied.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdJnUBQUuq
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“Are you okay so far?” I turned towards him from my seat as he stopped the car.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1OsiF6y3V
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“Yes,” Alex sighed. I smiled and got out of the car, the bouquet of flowers in my hands. We met at the front of the car and I gave him the bouquet. “Okay,” he straightened up and sighed.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSG4L3lhX0R
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I check his black tie with my fingers to see if it was straight and put my hands against his shoulders.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK95y0MYirq
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“Ready?” I smiled.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8dbi7F0az
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“Yes,” he smiled back and led the way.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZktLyxN8Dj
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We walked quietly for a while before he stopped in front of a beautiful white stone. I noticed the name “Elizabeth White” curved carefully against the stone and knew we were there.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3Tcc6GEsu
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“It’s been two years,” he sighed.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRnn1Rlcr8
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“That’s okay,” I told him “You’re here now. She knows you’re trying your best,” I smiled.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBS9A6Uu4kz
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He turned towards me and smiled too before he walked away from me and crouched down in front of the stone. He left the bouquet in front of the grave and stayed there for a minute.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqnLZOXEKS
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“Do you want some privacy?” I asked quietly.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQocmaxae5
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“No, I’m okay,” he replied as he stared at his mother photograph; his fingers brushing her face.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKXRHiOGyB
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Sometimes Alex confused me so much. Sometimes I wish he was like that before we broke up. Why did he have to show his soft side to me after all of this? If he did it before maybe we would still be together and maybe I wouldn’t be that hurt right now. But I treasured those forty days with Damien so much. They were some of the best days of my life and I felt guilty for even thinking that I would be better off.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXH4SxeHknx
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Alex got up and stood beside me again; bringing me back to the present. He took my hand in his and held it.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zPMDhoyL8
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“Thank you,” he whispered and lightly squished my hand. I turned towards him and as our eyes met I smiled at him.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1gfFIGWm0
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I turned my eyes forward again and sighed.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw92JQOP3bD
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The same week, Samantha informed me that she will cut down our sessions to once a week and I figured it was time to finally talk to Cleo. As far as I knew she had no idea how things with me and Damien were before he left.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyFC06BJ7K
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I invited Cleo over for dinner and left the option to invite Max up to her. I tried to keep it light, do what we did before everything happened; just order dinner and watch television next to the fireplace.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7djUDqvf1G
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She arrived alone so I figured she would like for us to talk like this. We sat down and decided what to order at first. When the food arrived and I returned into the living room with plates and as my mind was already spinning I couldn’t help myself anymore.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzromi7IXx
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“I just wanted you to be okay with it,” I winced. Cleo sighed and left everything at the coffee table.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLa2bIUVOI
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“I’m sorry,” she mumbled “I just didn’t want you to get hurt Erica,” she frowned as she looked at me.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xEHPVUxrb
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“I know,” I mumbled and sat down on the chair. “I left because I didn’t want to get between you two. I would never make him choose, even if he’s the love of my life,” I confessed, not realizing what I said.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwEOzmjqS3
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“You really love him?” she asked and a deep sigh escaped my lungs.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNLaRyiywl
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“Why do you think I’m in this mess?” I asked softly “Though he’ll never know,” a bitter small smile appeared on my lips.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeKacpWNLj
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“I had no idea,” she replied. Of course she didn’t, because she wouldn’t listen to me. “Were you okay before you left for the City?” she asked after a moment of silence.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOobGSi1t2n
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“Yes. I actually made several attempts to talk to him, to tell him how I feel but the only thing I’ve managed to say was that I was scared,” I scoffed.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeXiqr86lk
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I explained how he wanted to visit and talk to me, while I was away just to let her know that it wasn’t entirely into my head. Told her that he kept saying that he wasn’t going anywhere and that he wouldn’t leave me and that’s why it hurt so bad. Because he knew I didn’t want him to promise me things but he did it anyway. And then he broke those promises; and broke me into a million pieces.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqitJYEJlP4
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Cleo wasn’t talking by this point. She would only make small questions to get the whole picture of the relationship I once had. Then I had to do the unavoidable; tell her the impact her words had. I tried to phrase it better though. I told her that I knew he was between relationships and that he never stayed with one girl for too long. I also knew right from the start that I’m not enough for him, that he wasn’t for me and I’ll never be enough for him.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetv8ZvaV9T
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“I’m sorry for saying or implying those things,” she sighed deeply.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlragbxNAK
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“I know you are. But it’s the facts,” I bit my lip. Before she said anything else I started talking again. “Before I even started getting back to normal, he told me he was going to Italy,” I said “So, I never really had the chance to talk to him again.” I explained.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijeGfeNJL4
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“If I knew it was serious, I wouldn’t be like this,” she frowned.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGb31JfnyQS
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“Don’t torment yourself. Obviously, you were right. I was right. It was only a matter of time before he left.”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SnvdaBGnO
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“But, I don’t get it,” she mumbled “If you guys were fine when he left the City, why he left for Italy earlier than planned and didn’t even say a word?”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LsBiIR4Va
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“If you find out, I would love to know,” I told her and now that I got all of that out of my chest I decided to grab a bite from my food that was waiting on the coffee table in front of me.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPy85uxgWxC
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“I’m gonna call him,” she said; sounding determine.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurqSOloveQ
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“Don’t,” I rapidly shook my head.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFctKM4q6O
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“If he wanted to say something, he would. He’s the kind of guy that stays quiet and you know that. So, I don’t wanna ambush him like that.”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡne8EaV9531
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“Okay,” she nodded. “Do you want to tell me how it started? I hate it that I wasn’t near you when it all happened,” she smiled a shy smile.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9W2zm6jwnD
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“Remember that night at the summerhouse when Mike visited?” I asked and she nodded. “Since he had nowhere to sleep and I was drunk, we slept together,” I said and her eyebrows rose.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvJel7YcgD
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“Not like that dude! Slept for real,” I explained and she chuckled “Anyway, the next day we stayed back at the house and Alex pissed me off, I had to calm down and I got into the swimming pool. That’s when he kissed me for the first time,” a smug expression on my face as I remembered my heart bouncing, butterflies attacking my body and his lips tasting like chlorine. I shook my head to push away the memory.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYAsYHL7JH
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“He kissed me again after the renovation. We spent a lot of time together in the garage,” I said softly looking at the floor as the memories consumed me.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0y53pOHTcP
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“Eat, your food is getting colder,” Cleo said out of the blue. I sighed and nodded.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6an6zzAnvQ
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“When Alex left the first time, that’s when the chest pains begun,” I told her after a while.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwrmMB0YG7
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“You never said anything,” she frowned, when she swallowed her food.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMpAcGVoKy
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“It only happened twice I think and once after he came back and he wanted to take me to the doctor but I convinced him I was okay,” I explained.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazhvWeZEqd
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“Is that why he was at the hospital?” she asked.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fnUzjQVUc
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“I hope not,” I chuckled thinking she meant that he felt guilty for not taking me to the doctor back then “I run onto him my last night in the city actually and he was a mess,” I said and she looked bored; Bored of the over-dramatic Alex. “Seriously, from his half words I understood he almost killed himself or started doing drugs. He had no one else, so I made him talk to me,” I shrugged my shoulders.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgBphPZarV
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“Good thing you run onto him, then”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkt8kVUdUQu
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“It was,” I nodded “Anyway, when Damien left, he contacted me to see how I was, I lied at first. But you cannot lie to the master of lies,” I explained and she scoffed; agreeing with me. “He got me to tell him everything and as I talked the chest pain was there and he noticed. Only this time he dragged me to the hospital for a check-up. The next time it happened, two days later, I called him and the rest you know,” I explained.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFSzDWvSre
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“Oh, that’s why he’s there,” she mumbled.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxVKpFrAoo
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“Yeah, I got him to go to the cemetery the other day, after two years,” I said; feeling proud of myself.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJemB80JA9
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“Are you…” she trailed “Are you feeling anything for him?” she asked finally her voice small. I shook my head.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldRYpYjqHx
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“He’s only a friend now. He keeps my mind occupied and plus, I don’t want to be in a middle of a romance anytime soon,” I mumbled looking at my food before taking another bite. As that night came back to my mind, the second time Alex took to me the hospital, the reason came to my mind and a deep sigh escaped my lungs. I left my food on the table and leaned forward, touching my elbows on my knees.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiafrCBq1Jd
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“What?” Cleo asked softly.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cMn7axP1i
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“The second time I went to the hospital, I had called Damien and he answered. For the first time he left, he had answered his phone,” my voice trembled.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtIEdbunlP
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“What, what did he say?”480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDMbbaJDxl
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“I told him that I just needed to hear his voice and he replied with a «So what?» I hang up the phone then, because I didn’t want him to hear me crying,” I explained but tears filled my eyes and I sobbed hard. Cleo put down her food and came to sit beside me. She put her arms around me and hugged me.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ549LtdrX38
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“You’re gonna be okay. I’m here now,” she mumbled. That gave me strength and calmed me down a bit. I sighed as the sobs stopped and I hugged her back.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuluJhduIH5
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“Thank you,” I mumbled as she brushed my hair and kept me into her arms. I had missed my best friend so much. Now that she was here, everything seemed easier.480Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshdNcZOOO5
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