After Damien left the following day I decided it was time to suck it up and go home. I wanted to stay close to Damien before he left. If Cleo had a problem, she would have to deal with it. I was very excited to go back to him; spend with him the last twelve days. And in order to get a full dose of Damien was to be brave and finally face Cleo; even if she didn’t called me at all the seven days I was in the City.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gb15f42mc
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Later that afternoon, when Damien called me after work, I was still considering telling him that I’ve decided to return home, but I changed my mind quickly. It would be easier for me like that; not feeling any pressure. I still had to ask him what would happen with us after he moves to Italy for the next two years. That was one of the things that made me anxious.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxL6Ps3F2t
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I was worrying about Cleo way too much. I left town because Cleo wasn’t talking to her brother. How was I supposed to be with Damien before he left and stand by my decision and belief that nothing should come between two siblings?435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4uaR8IvVA
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As I was too wrapped up in my drama to be in a mood for drinks the past week, I asked James to go out together.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiAfZJjyn8
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I was done eating my lasagna and excused myself from the table I was having dinner with my brother, in order to go to the bathroom. As I walked by the restaurant bar, I noticed a tall blonde, familiar figure leaning alone against the bar counter.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0yAnfcP3I
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That’s what confused me. He was never alone. If he was in the mood to go out, he would probably have company; or at least Louis, his bodyguard, would be there. I shook my head and walked towards the bathroom.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5N1PoSLtma
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No way that that guy, drinking alone in a restaurant, was Alex. Alexander White was never alone. In public at least. Because he was the loneliest person I’ve ever met. The time when I tried to get close to him and almost made him feel something, felt like a million years ago.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmG95XXvzh3
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I opened the heavy door of the bathroom and walked into the hallway. I had to put a lot of strength to pull the door towards me and open it. From the force I used I almost stumbled on my feet in the hallway and bumped on to someone.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPuMeVhtAO
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“I’m so sor-,” I begun to apologize but my breath caught in my lungs. It really was Alex. But it wasn’t the same Alex I once knew. He was unshaved and looked exhausted; and drunk. My heart didn’t flinch as I was afraid it would.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUdYqYm18s
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“Yeah, whatever,” he mumbled and turned his eyes towards my direction for the first time. I saw the look in his eyes as he realized it was me. He masked his expression and turned his eyes elsewhere before he started walking towards the bathroom.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsPKqNBJWB
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“Alex?” I called, my voice almost pleading. I’ve never seen him like this.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6dDl5xhVj
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“What?” he replied as he stopped. He only turned his head sideways; his eyes staying on the ground. The Alex I knew never looked down at the floor.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfauJH9qkgB
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“What’s wrong?” I asked and took a step forward. I heard someone walking behind me and turned towards the sound. A woman walked passed me and entered the bathroom.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV5su1TYpO
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“Mind your business,” he said and started walking again. I frowned and bit my lip. His words hurt, but not the way it used to be. I finally walked back to the table where James was waiting for me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcBw3rBD9a
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“I was about to send the SWAT team looking for you,” he joked but when he noticed me he frowned “What happened?”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKR2xTihTNq
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“I just saw Alex back there,” I said slowly; still trying to comprehend what had happened.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNc06kQeAS
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“Oh,” he only managed to say but I knew he was worried; his brown eyes searching for something on my face.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPQcKjJzV0
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“No, don’t worry, I’m completely fine,” I assured him. And I wasn’t lying. “But he wasn’t,” I winced and explained in full detail what happened.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1bqwGRKoD
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“I never thought I’d agree with something he’d say,” James said as he put his spoon down. I ate the last morsel of the chocolate cake I had in front of me and stared at him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7xxw6u2nd
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“He just,” I frowned “He didn’t look right,” I breathed. Luckily the bar was behind me so I didn’t have to pretend I wasn’t searching for him because I couldn’t do it anyway.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwLQsaITKf
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“Erica,” my brother said with a tone that demanded to look at him. “He’s not yours to worry about,” he said.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvX4cWwvTQ
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“You’re right,” I nodded and smiled.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1D0YGpofA
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But his face was constantly on my mind for the rest of the night. I only managed to forget about him when Damien called me to say goodnight. As always, Damien could see right through me, even if he wasn’t actually looking at me. I tried to avoid the subject as much as possible but he insisted.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHClh2n0aFe
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“It’s not about you or Cleo,” I sighed because I realized he thought I was upset about Cleo.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSeafrDx09
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“Oh, okay then,” he said defeated. I groaned.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwAcvBzIqQ
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“It’s not even that big of a deal, I’ll forget about it until tomorrow probably,” I sighed.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJVRFKFqmS
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“You’ll tell me about it tomorrow if you don’t forget it?” he asked.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CmJ9J5J1e
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“I will,” I chuckled.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRNiEkHMge
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There was no way I would tell him I run into Alex. I always noticed how he flinched and tensed whenever Alex was mentioned, though he never said anything. And I never asked.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7iJDMEvEX
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I woke up the following morning and turned on the television as I always did. I made breakfast and watched the morning shows. I didn’t really liked gossip but I preferred them rather than the News where lots of reporters and politicians where yelling at each other. I sipped my coffee and left it on the coffee table to put strawberry jam on my bagel.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQlGEQqxuE
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“ …Alexander White apparently was arrested…” a voice through the television reached my ears. I froze and looked for the remote control to turn the volume up. “…last night, after causing a fight…” the voice continued.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuwoZGM7EI
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“He’s still in jail?” a blonde woman next to the brunette that spoke first, asked.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKPzkOhz3r
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“Of course not. They said it was a misunderstanding. Come on, you wouldn’t let a multimillionaire in jail!” the brunette scoffed.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdcKRrOBFa
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I ate my bagel in two mouthfuls and run for my clothes. I folded my sheets and blankets on the foot of the couch and put my ladybug teddy on top of them, put on my make-up, grabbed my bag and left the apartment.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9aSeSebXM
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I didn’t know where he lived in the city but I knew where his office was. I needed to see him. After what I saw last night, hearing he was arrested didn’t sound so unlikely. I tried calling him on my way there but he didn’t pick up. Not that I expected him to do so.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXe6c1lHRZ
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“Erica Starling for Alexander White,” I said at the information desk in the lobby of the skyscraper his office was.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuX54ybfMz8
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“I’m sorry miss, but Mr. White won’t take visits today,” the red headed woman behind the counter told me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCLyhNwViq
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“Please,” I smiled “I saw him last night and he didn’t seem alright. I’m a friend. I need to be sure he’s okay,” I pleaded.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8UhtHVSSr
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“I’m sorry but I can lose my job,” she whispered.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeM47wK5brJ
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“Just tell me where in this chaos his office is and I’ll make sure he won’t fire you,” I assured her as I leaned over the counter in order not to be overheard. “I really am worried.”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT34skHgFju
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“Take the elevator,” she sighed “Twenty first floor, I’ll call his secretary,” she said almost inaudible. “If you can pass her,” she raised her eyebrows.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWgzurbSjX
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“Thank you,” I smiled and walked towards the elevator.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslsCNTqOAm
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About ten minutes later, I walked my way towards a white desk, where a woman in her late thirties was seated. I greeted her and told her what the lady downstairs told me. She seemed to recognize me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ctLqoL2iP
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“He strictly said no visitors today,” she winced.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzZJhuotSe
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“If he yells, he’ll yell at me,” I said “Please,” I tried to smile “I’m really worried,”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVRia2so9J
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“That makes two of us,” she mumbled “He was already here when I arrived this morning,” she said.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtUnTbxCxW
“I’m going,” I whispered.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa96en5ExiN
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“No no,” she said but she nodded. I walked fast towards the two huge black doors and she walked behind me. I opened the door and walked in the office.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3YMu21KqL
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“I said no one enters this office today!” Alex yelled from somewhere in the room. I spotted him across the room, staring outside the big glass, wearing the same clothes he wore last night.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84Jel7ogKR
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“I’m sorry, I tried to stop her Mr. White,” the woman said.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1cQflhXHl
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“Don’t yell at her,” I frowned. He never raised his voice. He never was out of control like he was now. Once he heard my voice he turned on his heels and sighed. In the light of the day he looked even worse.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0jmz2lNLZ
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“I told you to mind your own business,” he told me “Leave us,” she said to the woman and I turned towards her, giving her a small smile before she closed the door behind her.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYi44XQZZ9s
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“I was doing that, but then I heard you were arrested,” I raised my eyebrows and walked towards one of the chairs that was in front of his desk. I sat down and waited for him to talk.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIh8i8VnAbU
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“What do you want from me?” he asked; hatred in his voice. His tone took me by surprise. I breathed sharply and stood up. I walked towards him but didn’t approach too much.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZc3deiIv3
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“Tell me what’s wrong,” I pleaded.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvY2Elkw4W
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“Why do you even care?” he asked. He looked hopeless and that scared me. I felt my eyes blurring and blinked to keep the tears back.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHt0UUYHZuC
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“Because you’re not okay,” I whispered in response. He laughed and walked towards me. I just blinked.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOyX0iEvGc
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“I’m fucking fabulous, love,” he leaned to my face; a mocking grin on his lips. I told him the very same thing when he came back to find me after the first time we broke up. I looked down and exhaled deeply.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadtm6Avi00
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“I’ll leave town at four o’clock, call me if you change your mind about talking,” I told him. He didn’t even reply. I grabbed my bag and walked to door. Said goodbye to his secretary and the woman at the information desk in the lobby and returned home.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNAiC45hwL
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James was surfing the internet while I cleaned the apartment before I packed my bag. I was a little moody because Alex’s reaction bothered me but my brother was right; he wasn’t mine to worry about. In two or three hours the most I would be with the love of my life and probably forget that Alex even existed. And I couldn’t wait.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1IUYNr5Ie
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“Going to put my bag in the car,” I informed James but as I moved towards the door, my mobile rang. I reached in my back pocket and froze as I saw the number. Alex.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dvcWHKnuk
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“Hello,” I said as I answered the call.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbXuzDLd8J
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“I’m outside your brother’s apartment,” he informed me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlccHzMQTEd
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“Oh!” I frowned and left my bag on the floor.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BuoMGosAq
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“I’ve updated the bat mobile, want to see it?” he joked.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjFQI6wlG7
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“Sure,” I replied “Give me a minute,” I said and hang up.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikMxdLDp8w
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“What happened?” James asked from his desk.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBodKizR4Po
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“Alex is downstairs,” I told him as I got out of my converse and wore my black wedge shoes.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHREeeZBr4y
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“What the fuck Erica?” he frowned and turned his chair towards me and stretching his arms.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8LpNztVWO
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“He was arrested last night,” I raised my eyebrows “I went to see him today and he threw me out,” I tried to explain.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGuo1azXgg
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“You should take the hint then and go home!”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWrNEAdPZi
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“If he’s here, he wants to talk! He doesn’t have anyone else,” I winced at my brother.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1bi7kZmAL
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“Fine,” he exhaled. “Call me if you need me,” he said and sipped his coffee.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImes0kPEkR
I smiled at my brother, got the keys to his apartment and my mobile before walking out the house. Alex was waiting in a black Aston Martin outside James building. At least one thing didn’t change; he still drove expensive cars.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjXyAkYBZb
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“Hello,” I smiled as I sat down in the passenger’s seat.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIh4mmlZFY
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“Hello to you too, love,” he smirked. He was acting like yesterday never happened.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmi7SFYCkK
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“Elusive,” I raised my eyebrows, grinning, as I motioned towards the car.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEBWf94WvT
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“You know me,” He chuckled.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nuFC8c7yJ
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I think we both didn’t want to get in any real conversations until he were seated somewhere. The only meaningful conversation we made in the car was if I wanted to eat or have coffee. Other than that, we kept the talk light; making jokes.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iweW65YCY
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“So, what are you really doing here?” Alex asked me once the waiter placed our order on the table. I looked at him. He really didn’t look like himself.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBzJQazTZr
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“It’s quiet out here,” I smiled and sipped my coffee. I turned my head towards the beach; away from him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrpg36zn0b
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“You hate the silence,” he called out my lie with that intimidating tone of his. For a flash of a second I recalled telling him that I wanted to live my town because it was too quiet. But his tone bothered me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDOPPFcl2t
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“Lose the tone Alex,” I said and sipped my coffee again.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxdwhhgMdn
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“You’ve changed,” he stated.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipG0cX9oOL
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“I did,” I smiled.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzMlIluGtV
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“You haven’t answered my question,” he smiled back.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfytFjjx1AY
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We’ve been seating on the same table for only ten minutes and already playing games. He sat back on his chair, eyeing at me. I mimicked him. Like last night, I was aware of how much unlike himself he looked.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDc5aSPYio
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“What happened?” I breathed and spontaneously leaned closer to him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75mmqOccl7
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“You just can’t leave it alone can you?” He replied and sipped his coffee.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXInluu88R
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“No, Alex, I can’t.”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4M1zgvzWV
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“You should,” he raised his eyebrows; his tone suggesting that he wasn’t going to talk about it.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh5EsMkDGP
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“I will not, because something’s wrong with you,” I breathed. He seemed very irritated as I pressured him. “Just talk to me,” I pleaded and put my hand over his on the table. As soon as I touched him however, he pulled his hand away, like the contact burned his skin. I breathed.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqJw5OKbVl
If he really didn’t want to talk to me, he wouldn’t have called me. But I knew it was very difficult for him to talk about what he felt. We were so much alike in that area. So much, that for a moment I actually realized the strength Damien needed in order to be with me and be so patient.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5pKkFfIRG
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“Thank you for the coffee,” I said and stood up. With the corner of my eye I saw him frowning as I took my bag from the chair between us.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz82R5OMScG
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“Wait,” he said and I heard his chair moving. I turned towards him and saw him leaving money on the table. “Let’s go for a walk, shall we?” he suggested and motioned towards the beach. I exhaled, unsure if he was willing to talk, even now but followed him anyway. “First, I want to apologize about last night and this morning,” he begun.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOg5b5mLoT
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“That’s okay,” I replied.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTA9FD9frY
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“No, it’s not. It was inexcusable,” he said as we walked “I’m sorry.”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW77YkXgqGk
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“Apology accepted,” I smiled. “Now, you want to tell me what did you do after I saw you last night that got you arrested?”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8z35sXqG6
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“No, not really,” he said. I stopped on my heels. He turned towards me and sighed. “The police wasn’t there to arrest me,” he tried to explained.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3gCxwekhv
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“Oh,” I frowned and turned to look at him; the light but cold breeze hitting the side of my face.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXimsoSIKP8
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“Um,” he trailed and his squished the spot between his eyes with his fingers.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvOuk7fRqL
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“What’s really going on Alex?” I asked. He turned towards the sea and put his hands in his pockets.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSZf5CC2Ry
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“Too much stuff,” he mumbled.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Zp7bIBvRC
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“I’ve got time,” I said and turned towards the sea as well; my fingers curling up into fists inside my pockets.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IH67N5awm
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“Mainly,” he begun “It was my mother’s twentieth death anniversary two weeks ago,” he confessed.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmlxNUJ9Lo
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“Oh,” I breathed “Have you gone to the cemetery?” I asked; unsure if that was the right question or not.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAJD56tk2g
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“No,” he said and clutched his jaw. At least I found the weak post.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsevRTsbes6
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“You said «mainly», what else is there?” I changed the subject.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaJ6EkxaV4
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“I got into a fight with my father three days ago,” he said.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNBqWiJORI
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“This isn’t news,” I chuckled lightly; trying to keep the mood light.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEAhLueXft
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“He threatened to remove me from the company,” he replied “The Company is all I have,” he whispered.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mLgti5X27
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For a split of second I wished I was his girlfriend so that I could have the right to hug him and tell him that everything would be okay.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIqg7YUV9S
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“No it’s not,” I frowned. He shook his head. “What did the police want?” I asked suddenly remembering that he didn’t actually tell me what happened last night.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHgnoPVlYM
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“I was with an escort,” he mumbled but I didn’t interrupt him even it surprised me. Alex didn’t need an escort; he had every woman he wanted. “She was supposed to put some whiskey in my glass but I had forgotten some pills on the bar counter, she found them, left and called the police,” he said. I was stunned.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTc0zHrBf0
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“What kind of pills?” I mumbled. He didn’t reply. “Drugs?” I asked incredibly. He remained silent. His silence was an answer itself. “Jesus Christ,” I tried to catch my breath. “Have you,” I tried to speak “Have you been using?”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFlAptBDJp
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“Just a couple of times,” he replied.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7ARVUhcMl
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“Why?” I breathed “Why why?” I couldn’t stop myself. I was hyperventilating trying to put a meaning to what he just confessed. I put my hands over my forehead; squishing the area as if to stop my head from exploding.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKS4eSkFHk
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“I’m a mess Erica,” he said and run his fingers through his hair. I took a step and stood in front of him to make him look at him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLUyWL2xTG
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“You should have come to me.”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYuq2jci1i
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“You made it clear the last time we saw each other, that you wanted nothing to do with me,” he replied. I shook my head. I never told him something like that. I might not be his girlfriend but I did care about him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPz5NFMH3dx
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“I would have listened. You know I would,” I whispered as I looked into his tired brown eyes.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhECocjDS85
“Yeah,” he breathed.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6pqVGoTLU
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“Hug me,” I whispered; my hands falling on his shoulders.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlevXydsWQ
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I knew that Alex was a dominant creature. He must have felt too vulnerable already. By asking him to hug me I tried to give him some power. He put his arms around my waist and pulled me even closer than I already was.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXncSLxTvB
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“I’m here for you,” I whispered to him as I rested my face on his shoulder for a moment.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUFqq6QALp
“Remember that.” I told him and put back slightly “You need to shave,” I mocked as I pulled away from him completely. His brown eyes were liquid and they sparkled as he chuckled. He touched his cheeks his with hand as he released me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCiisuoVWsN
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“Yeah, I do,” he smiled. I put my hands inside my pockets and tried to warm up as we started walking back, towards the car. I felt my mobile vibrating from inside my pocket. I got it out and saw who it was. I pushed the busy button and opened the messages folder.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwulBFINdDu
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“I can’t talk right now, I’ll tell you later. I have some weird news! I miss you xxx” I texted Damien. How much I wished that I was in my car right now; driving home. Damien was leaving in two weeks and I didn’t know how much time I had left with him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NxuUwEV5l
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“When are you going back?” he asked as he opened the passenger’s door to his black Aston Martin for me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTlo6uYz3a
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“I was supposed to be back right now,” I sighed, thinking of Damien.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHi52nsr3VD
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“Oh, I apologize for keeping you,” Alex said. I stood between the car and him and turned to look at him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtg8j0hkPO6
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“That’s okay,” I smiled and looked into his brown eyes. He took my hand in his and looked back at me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAvvPYAmFH
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“Can I hug you again?” he whispered.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdzteCoAKc
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“Yes,” I smiled and turned my body completely towards him. He put his arms around me and pulled me against his body as I put mine around his waist. “Everything will be okay,” I whispered.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFj0n5EdsD
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“Thank you,” he mumbled in my hair; his fingers running through my locks.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBmEko4AhJ
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“I just wish you’d come to me earlier,” I breathed.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJNaKOK94C
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“You found me just in time,” he breathed out a bitter laugh and averted his eyes from mine.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOnq99TCA8
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“What do you mean?” I pulled completely away from him and frowned.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFDt8Ts8kR
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“Nothing,” he shook his head. He put his palm against my cheek and looked at me. “You were the best thing that ever happened to me,” he mumbled.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QYHksP1se
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“Alex, don’t,” I pleaded and took a step back; my calves hitting the car.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8G9iGMO9C6
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“I’m sorry,” he apologized and run his fingers through his blonde hair.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq324V4BlW2
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“That’s okay,” I said “Come on, I need to get back home,” I said and squished his hand.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ndITziEoD
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“Okay,” he smiled as I sat down in his car. A few seconds later he was seating beside me; driving away from the beach.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztR0OhkDeU
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“Will you be okay here on your own?” I asked, really worried.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBWCaHjExE
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“Hopefully,” he said as we entered the freeway.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIfROTdJu3
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“I need to get back home and I can’t leave for another two or three weeks,” I begun “I need] to know that you’ll be okay,” I told him while looking at his profile.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xWhRIO4Q6
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“I’ll be okay,” he said and a small smile appeared on his lips. When I didn’t speak, being busy studying his expression, he turned towards me and smiled a bit more. “I promise, I’ll be okay,” he assured me.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuqLvwsM1O
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“Okay,” I nodded “You know where you can find me if you need anything.”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxVS3IYNLm
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By the time I got to James apartment it was too late to drive back home. I haven’t made the trip many times and the road wasn’t familiar. Also, I might defend my bug to others that insulted it, but it was actually quite old and didn’t want to drive a two hour trip in the middle of the night.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuSgAbRK6E
James of course was waiting for me to return and asked me what had happened. He looked calm when I told him in full detail the conversation we had.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtFMqYfZ32
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“Erica, do me a favor,” he said once I sat down on the armchair. I turned to look at him. “Just, keep your distance from him.”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVnK6FSHihL
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I understood that he was worried but if I turned my back on him, especially after I made him open up, he would definitely end up worse than I found him. He was already on the road to destruction.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GhI8zrQwI
Since my stuff was already in my bag, I only had to search for my pajamas. I made my bed and a bowl of cornflakes and got ready to watch television. I squished my ladybug teddy bear and remembered that Damien noticed I had it with me when he visited two days ago. I remember his smile when it slipped that I held it in my sleep since it gave it to me, four months before we got together.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3gyrYKbR6
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I smiled at the thought of his beautiful smile as he stared at the teddy that sat comfortably on his bare stomach and grabbed my phone.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpukUXmTPMI
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“I’m coming home tomorrow,” I texted him.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTPUJBSkvk
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“Finally!” he replied soon after. “What’s the weird news by the way?”435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVdRBo637D
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“Too big for a conversation at this hour, I’ll tell you tomorrow in person!” I just wanted to tell him the full facts and be able to see his reaction.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2i2iVyQ6JC
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“Okay ladybug…so what are you doing?” He somehow managed to turn every late hour text into a devious and lustful conversation. Not that I minded. It amazed me everytime I stopped and realized that I was talking to him. I doubt that I ever fully grasp the fact that we’re together.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3CJpRHZYQ
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"So now weve come upon the hardest thing ive ever done/Its telling you that im a mess/What sort of mess i mean/Is self-destructive gasoline"435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkY8snvLbVg
“Chameleon boy by Blue October”
So what do you think it will happen next??? Can’t wait for your comments!!435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDyvtX1sMM
P.s. I know grammar on some really sucks. I’m working on it!!435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWA6RoR8v4
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P.S.2. This chapter was based on Smallville - 9x05 – Roulette. If you check out the Characters, you'll see details about Alexander White.435Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouKMwevHVK
