oh god
oh goodness gracious
had several run ins with mental health problems, never acted on them but still its weighing me down.
B isnt being cool atm i forget how much ive actually wrote down but uhhhhh yeaahhh
im not sure if a breakup is heading my way or nah
i dont know if i could handle it if im being honest
im better friends with K now however i fear if B breaks up w me then idk how long K will stick around for.
ive been going to the gym with K usually and others, sometimes B sometimes K's friend H. H is okay. he set me up w his boss' phone number n wants me to work where he works. but he works in hospitality n im not good with people. but i will do it. eventually. 176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTbe5skQLR
J is still around. we're still giggling in class n not doing work. i still love her to bits n pieces.
yeah, im gonna dickride penana for a second176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBDQaclEwY
i joined the discord like uhhh several months back n just stalked it for a while. but ive been yapping to the bengeeto guy n hes pretty cool. when B is ignoring me at work or hes too busy with his friends or whatever n J is snoozing then ive been talking to bengeeto. hes cool. gets me away from doomscrolling tiktok n instareels n shit so thats cool. very cool. 176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQ3Qv9mvN8
ive been throwing up. a lot. almost everymorning now. been ill. cant eat breakfast. i believe its anxiety bc this has been happening for 3+ years just in waves of severity. i told my parents and dad said its excessive screen time and told me to touch grass. went on a walk, didnt help. found out why im dreading everything though
so i only ever do things when my friends do things. 176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgGm8brj7I
"oh vinsie, come to the gym with me"176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCGrJHkgHI
"oh vinsie, lets hang out in town"176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6WKek3F5v
"oh vinsie, come to my place" 176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMw4LOJhpFY
shit like that right? so when no one invites me out i dont do anything, i stay home n rot by myself. and when my friends hang out on their own i feel dread as well. B went to K's house the other day and i felt like i was gonna DIE. it was awful. i get jealous when my sister hangs out more than i do because why cant i do that, why does J have to live so far away. 176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qADz3mVD9
it sucks.176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSJGJMV2dm
until the next entry,176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDg2VPTrzWN
-vinsie176Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYg1QoNUhOU
