I couldn’t listen to my professor any longer. My mind was running away from class. 591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZBGAjPENZ
More specifically, it was running towards Italy and the old Villa that Damien is reconstructing for the last two months. I bid my lower lip and tried to focus on the words that were coming out of my professor’s lips.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM20FAz9vTz
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But I wasn’t able to succeed. I could see his lips moving but no sound reached my ears. I was wondering what would happen if I tried calling him. For a reason, I couldn’t even lift my hand up and touch the phone. I was so scared that the pain would return that my body was immobilized.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gMWRA8jfr
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I was comfortably numb. And planned to keep it that way.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfD46NyWYr
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If Damien wanted me out of his life, I could live with that. I knew it would happen sooner or later anyway. I knew that no guy would ever catch up to him in my head; or in my heart. But I would try to feel human again.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6oC8H2MBa
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A loud knock on my door startled me as I was leaning over a ground plan that was starting to get on my nerves. I walked towards the stereo first to turn the volume down before making my way towards the door.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uhPF7TPuO
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Behind the door was Cleo; looking slightly bored. I took a step back and let her come inside. She had come with the most absurd idea ever. She wanted us to take a trip. To Italy.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvgwj1taI0
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“Seriously?” I questioned astonished.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1vniICCeq
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“Yeah, you have the tickets. They’re going to expire!” she said and sat down on the couch. I was still standing where I was; staring at her.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwDJil7mMY
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“He is in Italy,” I said, trying to make her realize what she was asking me to do.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DgqSWKByJ
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“He’s not all over Italy,” she narrowed her eyes at me “It will be fun. We need vocation.”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTn0GK7WP07
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I didn’t reply. I closed my mouth, as I realized it was hanging open the whole time, and sat at the nearest chair.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbktow68W6w
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“We don’t have to visit him,” she said softly. I’ve always wanted to visit Tuscany but the idea of being in the same area as him terrified me. And thrilled me at the same time.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMWoCIKQuK
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“Promise?” I asked.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UWsMcC0Ye
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“Yeah,” she smiled “I can always see him some other time,” she explained. “You don’t have to worry about that.”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyudgD1b508
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I took her word for it.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JRgl3cQ9a
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A week later, I was sitting in an airplane towards Firenze; a city in Tuscany, just one and half hour away from Siena by train. Siena, the city that Damien was. It mortified me that I was so close to him.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLVIdHZbkX
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I desperately wanted to see him. But I was so afraid. I was even afraid to talk about it to Cleo, fearing that she might do something stupid. I did wax my legs and got all my nice underwear with me though. Just in case. I told myself that the waxing would have happen anyway, but I was obeying Cleo’s orders about the lingerie. I secretly wanted to be prepared for anything. I wanted to be prepared for him. But I wouldn’t dare admit it.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dNvqaRyY0
I believe that is Break Up Rule No. 2 as said by Carrie Bradshaw “Lie. It is a lot easier than admitting the truth”.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pDoO3rQ4X
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Thankfully, the mind blowing landscape and my enthusiastic friends took my mind off of him. Of course during the day it was amazing. My head couldn’t stop turning and my eyes couldn’t take in enough details of the amazing city.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrgzDYreAF
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The nights, however, were almost a torture. Italy is a very romantic country. And in the back of my head there was always a picture of Damien and me in Tuscany. Even though there wasn’t a possibility now that that would happen, the picture still existed. Just to make my life miserable.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbd9zzwl8z
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“I have a question,” Cleo asked as we were seated on the ground at Piazza Del Campo, sipping our aperol spritz. Her voice lower so that the happy couple, Max and Lexie, wouldn’t hear.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1e0Gf2Hh2o
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“Shoot.”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhniN66Xn4
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“If you knew why he left, would you call him?” she asked and made me turn my head. She knew I couldn’t call him. So why was she asking me that?591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Srngxia4W
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“Depends,” I replied softly. She understood that I meant that everything was about the reason he left. One of the many things I loved about my relationship with Cleo was that I didn’t have to say much. And vice versa. We totally understood each other.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cTEM2CC4u
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Cleo opened her handbag and pulled out something. As she unfolded it, I noticed that it was a piece of paper. Max and Lexie had turned their attention towards us. Cleo handed me the now unfolded paper. A ripped front page of a gossip magazine.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbCV55B59Y
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I exhaled deeply as I saw Alex and me on it. It was the day I met him in the City; the night before I returned home. It was the moment we were hugging. There were also smaller pictures; one at the beach again hugging and another one by the car, his hand against my cheek. He was hugging me to thank me. My eyes snapped back at Cleo for a moment.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvzScPaxSI
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“I found it in his desk, at his office,” she explained. I didn’t ask why she was searching his desk in the first place.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWeZlg66ZZ
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I parted my lips to say something as I released that this is what made Damien leave. But did it matter? For him it didn’t apparently. I closed the paper into my fist and threw it in my bag.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVZEtPqqRv
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“You don’t want to call him?” Cleo frowned.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VqYg4a0Xi
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“What is it?” Max asked and I noticed with the corner of my eye, Lexie shoving her elbow right on his ribs. Max frowned and closed his mouth. I took the paper from my bag and gave it to Max.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbuFjF5T5U9
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“No,” I exhaled “If he cared for an explanation, he would have stayed.” Obviously, this wasn’t the reason, it was just an excuse. They never mentioned it again and I was happy with that.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNH1yvJZJG
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We had two nights left and we decided to visit a Pub that was two blocks down from our hotel. I could feel Cleo eyeing me as I was getting ready. She made me feel nervous.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwGyKYZYuV
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I wore my black skinny jeans, a long black top, my black high heel boots and several accessories. I put on my make-up, eye liner and red lipstick and turned towards Cleo that was also completely dressed in colors now too.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKhyeKeGX0
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“Okay?” I raised my eyebrows to get her approval.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcLEZjedMB
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“Sure,” she nodded “Though you look like a frigging vampire!” I narrowed my eyes at her.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfZB2DeWc2
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“Do you want me to slap you?” I threatened.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOtSfHutGT
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“Bring it on bitch!” she said before she laughed. “You’re gorgeous,” she smiled and I smirked.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlt5p5OgTB
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Break up rule No. 5:“No matter who broke your heart, or for how long it takes to heal; you will never get through it without your girlfriends.”. Fact.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsBEW8dGg3
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We were having such a wonderful time, drinking and dancing. Max and Lexie were occupied with each other, so Cleo and I danced alone. I took the last sip of my second beer and left it on the bar counter, asking for a third one.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYznuA0HIt
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“Bathroom,” I mouth to Cleo as the barman place the new beer in front of me. She nodded and I walked away from them.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2H8ph1psu7
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Ten minutes later I walked out of the bathroom and made my way through the crowd to find my friends. But they weren’t alone.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yOqaLldiS
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Break up rule No. 4: “Never stop thinking about him for a moment because when you do that is when he will appear.”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQe4jt1vmM
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I could recognize his figure anywhere, anytime. My heart accelerated. I only noticed that his hair were longer because he had them wrapped in a small ban. I think my heart left my chest and collided on his back. I stood there and inhaled. I was certain my heart hit him because a moment later he turned around. And another moment later, our eyes met.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBdPaGFqYp
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I parted my lips in order to breath. He was unbelievable beautiful. He was unshaved and had grown a mustage. I think I could see a small line of hair underneath his bottom lip but I wasn’t sure. For a split of second he reminded me of a musketeer.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATmOCiMnyM
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I averted my eyes, narrowing them at the same time. Should I walk over to them and pretend that everything is okay? Or should I run for the exit?591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53VqmQB0E8
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I saw a guilty smile on Cleo’s face. I narrowed my eyes even more. I couldn’t stay here and act like nothing has happened. I grabbed my phone from my bag and as I walked towards the exit I typed a massage towards her. “Be ready to scream pain in every language that was ever spoken on planet earth! And you’re paying for the drinks!”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjtw88Z17i
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I pushed open the bar door and walked outside. Some men that were outside smoking started whistle as I stood there trying to catch my breath. I walked passed them, trying to ignore them.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBLVaSsaNH
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“Wait,” I heard him calling. I didn’t stop but he caught up to me. “I said wait,” he told me “It’s dangerous to walk alone in the middle of the night,” his voice became softer. I never looked at him.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ahdum1P9L
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“Whatever,” I mumbled as I kept walking; my hands inside my black leather jacket clutching my mobile.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUIih1wyeW
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My heart was running; unlike my feet. I couldn’t calm down as I felt him so close to me. When we finally reached my hotel, I thought he was going to leave. But he followed me in the lobby.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubKFmn5l5r
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“Thank you. Goodnight,” I mumbled and took a step away.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGI9sHug278
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“That’s it?” he asked and made me stop. I turned around and for the second time tonight my eyes lied on him. My heart ached. He was even more gorgeous in the light of the hotel lobby.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8T9sX7Bfm
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“What else do you want?” I asked. I wanted run to my room and cry.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5anMewgGU
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“I thought you would at least talk to me,” he said. I couldn’t understand the emotion behind his voice.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJxZQ8yXHl
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“I don’t have anything to say,” I replied softly “Nothing that you’re interested to hear anyway,” I mumbled. I looked at his grey eyes, butterflies attacking my body, and shook my head lightly. “Goodnight.”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4u6tZD8Bb
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“Will you stop saying goodnight?” he asked, frowning; frustration in his voice.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcibw2K3MT
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“Dear Lord,” I exhaled impatient. The torture just wouldn’t stop. “I swear to God, as from tomorrow, you do not have a sister,” I said in a hollow voice. She would pay for calling Damien and making him appear after two and half months in front of me, willing to hear me.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBekoUPuIZC
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“Let’s go upstairs and talk,” he offered as if it was his hotel room. I turned around and started walking, without saying a word. Damien followed. Why was he here?591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWFpdWinpy
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I felt like crying. I felt like punching someone in the face. I felt like crawling in a u-shape. I felt like screaming.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYs1CiDh5m
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I opened the door and walked inside. The room was a mess but I couldn’t care less. Not even if our bras were lying on the bed in plain sight. I threw my leather jacket somewhere on the pile of clothes.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oJ29xgNDN
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“Let’s get it over with,” I mumbled as I grabbed a bottle of water from the table.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTzcbL1CCS
“I suppose Cleo called,” I raised my eyebrows and had a sip of water.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrAMiGGtFL
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“Yes she did,” Damien confirmed. “She also called three weeks ago and demanded to know what happened. When I didn’t say, I suppose she went through my stuff,” he winced. I bid my lip. “Because she called today and said we needed to talk,” he said and walked towards the balcony, retrieving his cigarettes from his pocket.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUBfyonHva
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“Oh! You needed your sister to tell you that?” I asked breathing through my nose aggravated as he walked outside the room. “You’re a grown man and you need your baby sister to tell you that you need to explain to your -now- ex girlfriend why the hell you left, huh?” I scoffed, as he lid up a cigarette “I thought you were more mature than that!”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqT2nG2VEHa
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“Explain what, Erica?” he said, trying to keep his voice down “I saw my girlfriend hugging her ex in the front page of a magazine!” he frowned; throwing his hands in the air.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWMIuCPNtZ
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“I texted you that night! I told you I had some news to tell you. He was in a terrible shape,” I tried to explain.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Rho1RJML7
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“He’s your ex boyfriend! Who cheated on you twice!!” he said now not even bothering to keep his voice down.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYythjiMba
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“He started using drugs! And keep your voice down!” I said as he breathed in from his cigarette.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSNskaLiTo
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“And who are you? Mother Teresa?” he mocked.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPFqNjrj5k
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“I just run into him. He has no one else,” I said “You didn’t even bother to let me explain,” I said, my voice defeated and low.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkPl2iOgjd2
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“What was there to explain?” he said his voice low this time “I was walking to the office and saw the damn paper. How do you think that made me feel?”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqDqytuPBv
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“Oh, because leaving without a word was such a smooth move huh?” I asked aggravated. “I really don’t have the energy to fight over something that happened almost three months ago,” I sighed.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRR12vkzJJL
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“You never got over him did you?” he asked. I saw his liquid eyes glowing in the middle of the night as I stare at him confused.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MYXNxSjvf
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“What?” I frowned.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XKZxVKJ3H
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“We started seeing each other just as you left him again. There was no time for you to get over him,” he explained. I stared at him in a pained expression. He had no idea.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFM5Ml1ESM
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“You weren’t just a rebound guy,” I shook my head lightly.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFzaPtsXRd
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“That’s what it felt like,” he replied.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4lEJG0xwu
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“I asked you to be patient with me,” I mumbled and leaned against the balcony doorframe. “But you left, didn’t even bother to talk to me first or even answering your phone,” I whispered now as I tried not to burst into tears.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QWpMye4ke
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He didn’t say anything. He put his cigarette in the ashtray that was on the balcony table. I sighed softly and went inside the room. I pushed some clothes out of the way and sat on the foot of the bed.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ynt0xJd5I
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“It hurt watching you crying over him. Again and again,” his voice came from the balcony doorframe where I stood earlier. “He tore you up and you took him back again. I felt betrayed when I saw the pictures on that magazine,” he confessed.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKNzundPZK
“And he had the nerve to call me,” he scoffed.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabwRt8lH21
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“What?” I frowned and turned to look at him.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ047mDFcCZn
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“He called me about a month ago,” he replied. I was admitted to the hospital a month ago. I narrowed my eyes.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bzMmEv0hV
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“Why does no one mind their own fucking business anymore?” I breathed through my nose. “What did he say?”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RQ6EKBHKQ
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“That he needed to say something but I never let him finish. I really have no interested to hear what he has to say,” he said and I could see the frustration oozing out of his body. I inhaled and exhaled deeply. It was now or never. But he beat me to it. “Just tell me the truth,” he pleaded “Do you still have feelings for him?” he asked.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpbjeJVxHD
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“Why is it still about Alex?” I asked, my voice loud, as I shot up from the bed “It’s been two and half months since you left and I still don’t feel human! I’m like a damn zombie! I don’t allow myself to feel anything because the only thing I feel is pain,” I confessed. Tears run down my cheeks. “I might have cried over him for a few months but it’s been like this with you for years! So stop talking about him! It’s not about him!” I stopped my ranting in order to breath.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOzVTPHAZK
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“You’re not answering,” he mumbled.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JLxsmAh9D
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“Dear Lord! NO!” I said losing my patience “I don’t have feelings for him anymore. He’s just a friend.”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlI6MhVqo0h
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“You’re friends now?” he raised his eyebrows.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGNLf4JRYD
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“He was there when you weren’t,” I mumbled. I didn’t want to tell him about the hospital.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNBNmRn015
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“Fair enough,” he breathed. I noticed he was already in the middle of another cigarette.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDHiP1xsKI
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“You’re smoking too much,” I told him as the death stick was hanging on the side of his mouth. God, how much I love this man. A faint smile appeared on his lips before his expression turned serious again.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KrsC8ieDq
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“You said that it’s been like this with me for years…” he trailed “What do you mean?”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jTRYTTEPy
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“You really have no idea?” I frowned. Clueless. That’s what he was.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbZhGdGJec
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“You never actually told me what’s going on inside your head. I’m always guessing,” he told me. He had a point. I sighed.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqv9ptBwLk
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“It was always you,” I begun, my blood pumping through my veins as I was about to finally admit the truth to his face “I even remember the way I looked at you when I was in grade school. Or how happy I felt when you were holding me that summer at your summer house. I think it was the first time we went there,” I said and leaned against the tv table.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL18trTnNkU
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“You were three,” he whispered surprised. I turned to look at him.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRcgTOecci
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“I guess,” I shrugged my shoulders. “Then you grew up and forgot all about me,” I said trying to mask the hurt in my voice “Once you went to Junior High, you stopped coming over or hang out at family dinners,” I smiled bitterly at the memories. I was having such a hard time to accept his absence even back then.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlH4UJOrXTI
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“I even remember how I felt when I saw you kissing your girlfriend by the swimming pool. I think I was eleven then,” I winced. “I realized it was jealousy,” I chuckled embarrassed. “A year later, Cleo got her first boyfriend and I finally put a name to what I felt about you,” I smiled.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SYc5QBoLO
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“Did she know?” Damien asked; his voice hoarse. I turned to look at him as I came out of the memories. He looked dazzled.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwks2MS5Gj
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“No. No way. Neither did Max.” I shook my head “I forgot about you when you finally left for college next year. But I guess I never got over you,” I sighed. “It was always about you,” I breathed.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2Abo45ZiS
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“I thought I was imagining things,” he chuckled after a while. “You never said anything,” he said and looked at me. “Even now, I started this,” he frowned.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpgUQB9QfS
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“And If you didn’t, I would probably have stayed quiet,” I whispered.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLux2qsFZZ
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“That’s what I don’t get!” he said sounding impatient “Why?!” he shook his head trying to understand.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkMX1O09T1
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“Because I know who I am. And I know who you are. Plus I didn’t know how Cleo would take it.”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmuTHoEUzX
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“Will you stop talking in riddles for once?” he looked at me and took a step forward and put out the cigarette.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgq5bZwOAw
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“I know that the only thing I managed to tell you so far is that I was afraid. I was afraid of opening up to you and talk to you because I knew that if you, out of all people, hurt me I wouldn’t be able to deal with it,” I said staring at the floor “I wish I was wrong,” I mumbled.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfl2JtKG3i
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“What? What do you mean?”591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRvOCp1rIB
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“I don’t want to talk about it,” I said. It was the wrong thing to say however.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HLfw9owTM
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“Oh, that’s a new one!” he scoffed “You never want to talk about it. You always talk with riddles. You never tell me what you’re thinking or how you feel! Even now, Erica, you speak about the past,” he said and I was looking towards him but not directly at him. “You never talk about the future! Or about now!” he said. He was all over the place.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqFUkcN1G4
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“Talk about what?” I said frustrated and got up. “I know I’m not good enough for you! My head is mess. I’m scared to open up and I know I’m not worth your valuable time. You have a beautiful mind, you’re gorgeous, educated, you know how to talk and behave. I’m...I’m…whatever,” I winced and threw my hands in the air.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSNeR4fxPK
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Someone knocked on the door just as I realized that tears were running down my cheeks again. I wiped them off with my fingers and walked towards the door. Cleo was standing there.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsItQ9XAuV
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“Baby, are you okay?” she asked and took a step forward.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7PTbBUQw6
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“Can you sleep in your brother’s room tonight?” Damien startled me as his voice came from behind me and opened the door wider so he could see his sister. Cleo looked at him and then back at me. I was looking at the floor and I looked at my friend only when I felt her eyes on me.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5LAxfOHy86
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“Sure,” she nodded “Text me if you need anything,” she told me and left.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMAEby99Hc
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I closed the door slowly and turned around. I didn’t know what to expect from him. I took two steps away from the door just as Damien walked up to me. He didn’t stop; he just put his palms on either side of my face and stared into my eyes. How much I adore those grey eyes.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTns0P1JQN
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“I love you,” he said. The world stopped. I couldn’t believe I heard those three little words coming out of his mouth. My heart flew, it felt alive again. “You’re more than enough,” he whispered. “Don’t ever dare to believe otherwise. Your head might be a little bit disturbed sometimes,” he smirked and made me chuckle “But it’s the best place to be,” he assured me.591Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96w6r9RUwJ
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