I was right. I knew him well after all.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJ0Y2bORBU
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Cleo didn’t want to leave me alone waiting for a message so she came back with me at my house. I had no intention to sleep. Not that I could if I tried. I showered and sat on the couch staring at the TV; Cleo half asleep beside me. It was killing me; knowing that right now Alex, my Alex was kissing, touching and having sex with another woman.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJFDE4vrbBE
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It was around 7 in the morning when my phone begun vibrating on the coffee table. I shot up and grabbed the phone; Cleo tensed.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvvRt4mJeu
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“I’m leaving the mansion. I told him. At first he just stared at me and then seemed to be furious,” the brunette texted me; the brunette that spend the night having sex with my boyfriend. With my blessings.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfppD0S5y4p
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I was crazy. I must be. There was no explanation for what I’ve done; sending her to have sex with my boyfriend just to confront him through her. At least she was cooperative.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCJe9d1Pco
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“Thanks again. I’m guessing he didn’t say anything?” I texted back. It only took a few seconds before the mobile vibrated in my hands again; Cleo put her arm around my shoulders.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnQZLKooAD
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“He asked me to describe you. When I did, he got out of the bed and before leaving the room he told me that the butler would arrange for me to get home.”412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3tUNrBVKK
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Typical Alex. When something was wrong, he didn’t even bother with anything else besides his own problem. Not even escorting the poor girl to the car.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJz7GcApzw
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“Okay. Thanks again. You have my number if you ever need anything,” I texted back.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJScYekj6N
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“My pleasure. I'm sorry about him,” I’ve read and left the phone on the table and leaned back on the couch.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicGS6VR30K
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Cleo put both arms around me and held me to her. I felt like my world fell apart. Again. I was such a fool.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fg1AeAcII
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“I'm an idiot,” I mumbled against my friend’s chest.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbSSx9BjUV
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“No, you’re not. You’re just in love.”412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKUxN2B1YD
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I was so tired that I must have fallen asleep on the couch for I woke up lying there, with a pillow and a sheet covering me. Cleo must have given them to me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lJDRqe55j
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As all the events from last night came back into my mind, my heart fell and my chest pain returned. I muffled a cry and covered my eyes with my arm.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uUTzgpUAU
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I turned towards the coffee table where my mobile was laying and saw a piece of paper underneath it. “I promised mom to help her with some stuff. Call me when you wake up.” I dialed her number and put the phone against my ear.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSZQRldJeZ
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She had just finished what she was doing and told me to meet her at her place. I carried myself to the bathroom and closet to get dressed. I didn’t know how I had the courage to even put make up on.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3qkR84MDr
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Fifteen minutes later, I was entering her kitchen and couldn’t wait to find myself into her room so I can fall apart. As I walked up the stairs and into my friend’s room, the door at the end of the hall opened; Damien appearing behind it, only in his shorts.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZttS9zUi8
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“Hey,” I said but the sound didn’t leave my throat so I waved.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEeo29gZZZ
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“Come here,” he motioned to his bedroom with his hand.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3UsGBLM5F
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“Cleo is waiting,” I managed to say out loud.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ttj2FvWjn
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“She’s not home yet,” he replied and I began walking towards him. He walked to his bed and gazed at me “You can sit you know,” he smiled; little curves shaped on his cheeks. I smiled a small smile and sat beside him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QRBOquMWz
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“Sorry. I'm a bit off today,” I mumbled.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduODOhbDjJ
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“Did he..?” he trailed; his gray eyes piercing me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WZUrrkrBY
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“Yup. He cheated again,” I smiled bitterly “This time with my blessings though,” I kept a tight smile.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSX6IvCTLD
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“What do you mean?” he frowned. I told him last night’s events in a summary while he looked wide eyed.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIAMyLhd50
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“Damn,” he whispered.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7NJW0lNol
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“Yeah,” I agreed and my phone vibrated in my hands, startling me for a second. I froze as I looked at the screen. Alex. I pressed the silent button and left the phone on the bedside table.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadawafys4c
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“Him?” Damien asked and I nodded. “Want me to answer?” he offered.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDfex2NBDs
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“No. Don’t want to waste any more time,” I said; my voice breaking in the middle of the sentence. Damien shifted on the bed so he was facing me while I kept my eyes forward as I was starting to get nervous.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYjMz9h8Sf
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He took my hand in his and squished it. I just kept my eyes forward, afraid to turn around and face him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4Y8DaL1up
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“Look at me,” he pleaded whispering. I exhaled deeply and lowered my head. I didn’t want to look at him. Every feeling I had for him since I could remember myself was coming back ten times stronger when he was sweet and caring with me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7wlVZfWIL
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My phone vibrated from the bedside table again, this time Cleo was the one calling me. I sighed and answered the phone.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXC5YD5bKPL
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“Hey. I’m at your place,” I told her and she just told me she was parking her car before hanging up.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8whySvZVw4
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“I’m going...” I trailed and got up; my hand still in his.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSu4mrHuh1c
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“Okay,” he mumbled and stroked the back of my palm with his thumb before letting his hand slip away.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8D9liySCZ1
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Alex called three times that day. I never answered. I didn’t have the courage or the strength to deal with him. I couldn’t bear to hear his voice. It would hurt too much.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93EGe3jso4
I curled into a tiny ball in my bed and cried myself to sleep.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUMIIfSIre
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It hurt that I’ve let myself trust him again; I’ve allowed myself to dream and everything was shuttered. It hurt so much.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYdDIr3xH7
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I opened my eyes disoriented; the sound of knocking on the door reached my ears. That must have been the sound that woke me up. I sat up on the bed and slowly got out of bed.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuecYJn5QK6
As I opened the door, still half asleep, I froze. Alex was standing in the doorway wearing just a jean and a t-shirt. I wasn’t used to see him wearing casual clothes. I began hyperventilating and tried to close the door to his face. I really couldn’t stand watching those eyes. It hurt.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVLI3RKJfA
He put his hand against the door and kept it open. I didn’t have much strength for I just woke up, and he overpowered me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaqu94Sg4Q
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“Please” he mumbled. I lowered my head, not facing him, and turned around. I heard him entering the renovated garage and closing the door behind him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhB0sVWUwEC
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“If you’re going to say that it just happened. Save it,” I mumbled as I walked towards the kitchen counter to make coffee.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0S60fd5wV
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“Obviously it didn’t,” I heard him say. So if he admitted it, why was he here? “How did you know her?” he asked, obviously about the brunette that spent the night with him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbcMNdzhp5
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That’s what he cared about? How I knew the girl that he fucked last night? That’s why he was here? I felt angry. I bit my lip to restrain myself as I put water and coffee in my glass.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JQdD8tM8F
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“Small world love. Small fucking world,” I smiled bitterly.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPDHzjOJyt
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“Will you look at me?” he asked. I felt so angry at him when he spoke those words.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgc1oX0Hri
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“What I ever do to you?” I snapped, finally turning around and saw his face for the first time. He looked tired. But I didn’t care. He didn’t reply. What did he have to say after all?412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQSIzIkvcm
“Oh yeah, right!” I mocked “All I ever did was love you. How could I do that to you! I’m such a horrible person!” I scoffed. He sighed in response and rubbed his forehead with his fingers.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpAPLMtiIl
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“Erica, please don’t...” he trailed.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JHhk6JSxz
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“Don’t what?” I spit “Does my words hurt you?” I asked bitterly again. It was a rhetorical question. He would never respond to a question about how he felt. He was never talking about his feelings. Never. Maybe that’s why he was able to hurt me so much. He had no feelings.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb9MJvJgydR
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“Yes,” he breathed; leaving me astonished. My face fell. I put both hands against my eyes; my knees getting weak.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWKARTjO3E
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I managed to walk towards the bed and sat on the edge; leaning forward and resting my elbows on my knees as I held my head on my palms.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPDItEdVRv
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“You have no idea how I feel,” I breathed; my eyes wet as I tried to hold back the tears. The hole in my chest aching and burning from the pain.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YF1FYbu1M
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I felt the bed shifting and I noticed that he sat next to me when he tried to pull him towards him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtY9N1CjgZy
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“No,” I flinched “No,” I said and pulled away; tears began oozing from my eyes. He pulled me against his chest and kept me there as I was crying. I didn’t care anymore. I didn’t care if he thought I was being childish or vulnerable. I was in pieces.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjHRXRMPYI
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“I'm sorry,” he breathed.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiKaAD6sWb
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“Stop apologizing. Please,” I pleaded. It only makes it harder. I calmed down as his grip tightened around me. I could smell his beautiful scent as I was buried to his chest.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4tynpzpsk
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My mind wasn’t working right anymore; I was lost in his arms and couldn’t think clear so when he pulled my face towards his and place his lips on mine I didn’t flinched away like before. I only parted my lips as a deep sigh escaped my lips as he kissed my bottom lip. He took advantage and parted my lips more; his tongue entering my mouth.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGUk3WLkUW
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I knew that if I stopped him now, the way I wanted him right now would haunt me and never let me be. He would always be with me. So I let him kiss me. I didn’t protest even when his hand traveled down my spine to my lower back.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwe6RLTwjs
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He lightly pushed me back and climbed on top of me while I pulled him with me. I put my hands around his neck and kissed him back as he put his hand under my shirt. He pulled back and took off his t-shirt and mine, tossing them to the floor.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyz9zJ6Z9dX
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He stopped for a moment but I didn’t want him to speak. If he spoke he would have brought me back to reality and I would probably tell him to leave. I pulled him to my lips once again, not allowing him to say anything as I closed his bottom lip between mine.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGVbZqq40k
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He moved his lips down to my neck as his hands traced my body; a soft moan escaping my lips. He pulled away for a moment only to remove his pants and my shorts before crushing his lips onto mine once again. I was having an out of body experience. I wasn’t thinking anything. I was only feeling.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zqdF89EeM
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I moved one hand onto his back and another onto his waist, pulling him to me as his lips licked and kissed my neck. I pushed him back a little bit only to reach out at the bedside table and open the drawer and take a condom as he was now kissing my arm and cleavage. As I returned to him, he removed my bra and cupped my breasts; one with his hand and the other with his mouth.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvi6RBEUgdo
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He slightly pulled back and removed my underwear and his boxers before putting on the condom. I was gazing at him through the state of trance I was in, trying not to think that just 12 hours ago he was touching another woman like he was touching me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdKM2t6Qzz
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He came back on top of me, placing his hands on either side of me against the mattress and looked at me for a moment. Maybe he was looking for regret in my eyes; maybe he thought I was going to stop him. And maybe I should have.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8s8vayZtS
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I put my hands on his necks and pulled him into a kiss and as he lowered himself onto me I felt him press against me and enter me; a deep moan escaping my throat.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZWTfmAUwD
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Maybe it was the fact that he wanted me to forgive him again or the fact that indirectly I told him that I loved him; his moves were gentle and slow. He pulled back for a moment and as he kept thrusting into me slowly, he looked at me. I looked back, wanting to keep his image in my mind, but as he opened his mouth and I thought he was going to say something I broke the eye contact.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3flhhVnY0
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“Faster,” I mumbled and his moves quickened; making me climax as he shivered over me; my legs wrapped around his waist. I suddenly felt blank. And then a strong wave of emotions struck me; the ache alive in my chest once again. I felt like crying. But I wouldn't. I wouldn't cry in front of him again.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RBj2uJknq
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He collapsed on top of me and I held him there, stroking his back and kissing his shoulder, trying to take in my last minutes with him. His weight on top of me, his smell and his hot breathe hitting my skin.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUUQPuiAId
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“I'm sorry,” he whispered to my ear and that brought me back to reality. I pushed him back.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBNb9TQ2ej
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“It doesn’t matter,” I replied and sat up. Maybe it was harsh but I didn’t care. He certainly didn’t care when he was having sex with someone else.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpM266WdtyV
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“I can’t do this anymore,” I whispered and he sat up on the bed; watching me. “You’re hurting me too much and I can’t do this anymore,” I explained. With the corner of my eye I saw him lowering his head. I stood up and wore my underwear and top.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79K1a47wGh
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“Maybe someday you’ll find someone that can love you enough to make you love her back,” I whispered. I watched as his face tightened and he got up, starting to wear his clothes. I thought the conversation was over but as he wore his boxers, he then walked up to me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfF8SQRoYHM
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“You did,” he whispered; putting his palm against my cheek. Was he saying that he loved me back? No I wouldn’t let his words get to me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXogaRq3xqB
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“No. I just loved you enough to let you break my heart. I'm never gonna be enough,” I whispered back; I could see the hurt in his eyes. I was wondering if I was looking like that right now. “I'm sorry Alex but if I keep this up, it would probably kill me.”412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIEKiIfEo7
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He pulled back slowly, not saying another word. He put back on his jeans and t-shirt and begun walking towards the door. He paused there for a second but he didn’t do anything. He didn’t turn around to look at me or said anything.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjp8Uykg6jM
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He opened the door and left.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXxIH1C9cp
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And I just got back home for the Holidays! As I said the updates on this will be a bit slower than it was...so...I can't wait to read your thoughts on the chapter! :}:}
