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439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQqSubpqlk
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5PjpvBFup
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCYaZzBwCd
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7Q8J1puA5
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUGJB0AkiB
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4ptU3mTJz
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgcUFkOATO
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp78vswaPn
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMlKOijrlR
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYATePcz9K
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3B1zjJEro9
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7mP0DOG2v
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4V1a8Owpu5
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNu6T9kxLyv
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VhdnzfiZh
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FmnSK30C6
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSiYKVtcaT
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0861dSiMsM
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKCTMM0zea
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7g926wkut
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbdGTRkKfS
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOiuRa7wyn
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2J8ZZHsBo
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiclFh3KDhX
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOI1aXbTNy4
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzZg8T4YhS
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡealL0KXcOG
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93XGKP16t9
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaBosy2KZF
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGzHBFnVUI
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOEHbNgDIS
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnp4SZox72k
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VGCCDegwc
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXtYWiSG62
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8i69TsgWt7
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KkdRS3elu
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCPQq2kGc2
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiXljaJSRi
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvstJiEYk0
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YB45oDiEn
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpexuz9Ibn
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQ4MhQomMU
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgg56tfwfD
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoaJLNj8Jt
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXtLzE2nXF
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xDsfCj3ra
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSFr16Q2HF
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82T3DDOEoM
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EWopFEtIO
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2wD2Of7qI
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmR6kvj51u
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7DERmIoos
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3U6r9PBJsD
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9a3xNvNaP6
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFcRIW4D2Z
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunmaMnpao0
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7xNK2wX5K
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdoU0u6kDU
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLqAyUypiH
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlo5JAh6ni
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDqvdoUV6N
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGQSS7PCyC
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamDD86oO4r
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkdlDUj96H
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoJdXozPOF
隨即二人也站在了原地。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctpLlHg4rn
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LC1JEga9s
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiPZ6olnX8
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOM1Ah1wlc
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydop9jYB40
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBUp08jSip
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJFcAX3QTz
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEq4pyxkfnz
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2v08IbsSes
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIVhVHh6Lb
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkoWob9jGp
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WzT9TfBu2
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyp6LZXn5dk
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rjfdWj5pU
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uMKTs3t5d
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctLMWVyN1X
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeNQQgxtbM
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoa1sQvdMzC
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIHO8RLCkf
可是，她接著聽到答案是……439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2mh2rXy44
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6Z4R1Pe8B
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakrVu903Md
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjzpWdrLOD
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DXJQTmiT6
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHYwNO7BDZ
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bNGnpSvu8
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYwgIpdFyZ
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kcIBYN7OW
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7QwZ31HZ9
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAB0FPuPvMQ
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4unwfo0BDf
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgycuaQWZ2
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjaR1Ouxip
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5cspUX92U
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1a4yvxK5Pf
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPGdriS8OL
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzd53U4Ucb
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpbc514kqD
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzHIadwed6
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCU7BbyDppg
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6s3QVo9uj
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fbGhthm6H
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX21JaK88P3
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0aVuOx6e33
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8LEuM7Rlg
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPHEdWKFK2
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilOs4i3QdF
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbzMqkSg8g
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSpkQKa5Ga
「嚓—」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMrtcCV37M
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHkfNyuLl8
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6UHv7Nucy
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yLi20Stk4
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XdV172ysU
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作者在此鄭重聲明：439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8l10soOZE9
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jUTKHFuPN
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UTYJQwkqU
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDm5udzc9R
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmLA9fpcp6
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0IuFuOsCy
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aXGUM3lSl
439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3NkpqaaFp
作者閒聊：439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHC5XEllXP
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNtJzj11qn
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSOoh4yvJt
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