暑假篇：釋懷620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfvRmr7D5p
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「你真喺Alvin啊？」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnY7K6Wr6EK
那名女生仍然一臉難以置信地問著我。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vI0IvOXOI
其實此刻，在我心一樣徘徊著同樣的問題「你真喺Ivy啊」。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYwtjzPNGr5
但是對於記性好的我來說，當然知道她就是Ivy了。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiO75yOuXB
雖然她把過往的長髮修剪為及肩短髮，並開始佩帶起眼鏡。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xVyPr6wOb
然而她那張熟悉的臉孔，仍然存在於腦海之中。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfb9XnyNsq
最糟糕的就是……我在一瞬間也回憶起，她哭泣著的容貌。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUto3BUu00h
亦都是多年前，我最後一次看見她的時候……620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxnKbpkcuw
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「我哋好耐無見啦！有無……有無三年啦？」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicOvhdugFE
Ivy在一陣驚訝過後，便隨即臉帶笑容說道。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczmRrbMuqR
再見時是哭著，現在重遇卻是笑著，是多麼矛盾的事情……620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEWLSQi4MH
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「正確嚟講應該喺四年啦。」我回應她。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP8sY81ANB
而她在聽到我的更正後，也立即數著手指：「一、二、三、四……喺喎！原來已經四年囉，嘻嘻！」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHyXTyINbQ
看著她傻笑起來的樣子，我的心中卻逐漸產生起一種感覺。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDp8FfBQHRd
一種難以形容的內疚感。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8O0U5EVtQd
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而在她的一陣傻笑過後，她似乎也察覺到了我並沒有多說話。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6s3oO14nhS
於是她便接著再說：「Alvin，你成個人成熟咗。」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4ocOZez17
「喺……喺咩。」我稍為避開了她的目光說道。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7gHlujSah
隨即視線也落在她的長袖衣上。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT4FxOZUeF
明明現在是夏天，外面三十多度，但她還是穿著長袖。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdBGMwOmFv
是用來遮掩著手臂嗎？620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJQIsOcnE2
是用來遮掩著手臂上的傷痕嗎？620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhboZTruUr
是用來遮掩著手臂上因為我而弄出來的傷痕嗎？620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBO7pygbDHu
單是回想起昨晚Mandy所說的畫面，我便不禁倒抽了一口氣。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWqOwNjaxH
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「Alvin，你介意緊以前嘅事啊？」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVc44FkqqVX
Ivy很快也發現了我的目光落在她的衣袖上，於是隨即便把衣袖卷起。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJg7ROf29I
展露了手臂上的數條疤痕。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchtSIIqFYk
這一瞬間，我的心涼了。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqoeujJiMn
原來這就是我當時的決定，而導致的後果了嗎……620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjtdLpBXBG
我沉默了數秒，接著也開口說：「對唔住。」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFAKJuTk8p
道歉，因為當時我傷害了她的心。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUhLLrU5Vc
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「哎呀！做咩道歉啦你？」Ivy立即愕然地說道。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzfHru2gAt
我沒有回應她，只是繼續沉默著。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAEJo6Htfg
使得她隨即也皺眉頭起來，並思考了數秒後說：「睇嚟Alvin你真喺好介意以前嘅事……真喺好對唔住！」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJa1EIP1m4
然而在她話後，她卻立即向我九十度鞠躬道歉起來。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI21948TGpy
這次輪到我感到錯愕起來並立即說：「做……做咩突然道歉啦？！」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6ZUYMk3a6
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「因為當年我一時嘅衝動，搞到Alvin你原來一直都介懷於心！真喺好對唔住！」Ivy繼續面朝地板說著。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutdyGw89WC
使得我都開始有點不知所措起來，只能不斷揮動手臂，示意她快抬起頭來。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6SKXhabUu
620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gVJyFC4MH
於是Ivy也快速地把頭抬來，然後雙眼注視著我說：「如果喺一年前嘅我，我諗依家一定喊哂口。不過依家嘅我已經對一切都釋懷，所以希望Alvin都唔好因為當年嘅事而怪責自己！」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqesBi6PKwM
「我自責緊……？」我疑惑地重複她最後一句話。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlURy7ioYBd
而她只是隨即指向我並說：「我識少少心理學架！所以咪睇得出你自責緊！」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX02T7ICkiv
是嗎，原來我一直都在自責著……620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFV84pndO0
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「其實講真啊，我都估唔到我哋會咁樣相遇翻，突然之間覺得所有嘢都好似喺琴日發生咁。」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVybt0zJuxo
「如果當時我唔拒……」當我打算開口說道的時候，Ivy卻再說：「唔可以。」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfRJBTbcmO
「吓？咩唔可以？」我瞬間愣住。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6EXps4cwT
而她只是搖一搖頭，並說：「唔可以因為要迎合其他人，而強迫自己失去咗自我。」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhJaRD23k5
620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqWs20TW0f
她的這句話如同子彈一樣，一下子打穿了我的大腦。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjLMr8uGuU
她說得沒有錯，我一直以來都是在扮演著一個只會迎合其他人的角色。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhozEunt4S
620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡectLUrKmN0
「以前我一直都會諗，如果Alvin你無拒絕我，究竟之後會點。」她說道。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iiQhyQLjp
而我思考了一會後，便說：「我哋會一齊咗，跟住就唔會發生之後嘅事？」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjccg2FEYe
「喺，我哋喺會一齊，但喺一切都只喺因為你唔想hurt我，而強迫自己同我一齊，咁樣嘅話，我哋根本就唔會過得開心！」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1BPWog1Tg
她說著的時候，語氣明顯變得有點激動起來。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnscnDIFTP
但她仍然繼續說道：「咁所以，唔好再因為我嘅事而怪責自己啦！我依家過得好好，識咗一班好室友，佢哋仲教識咗我好多唔會嘅正向觀念。」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF63HlfkkZf
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而在她的一番言論後，我便合上嘴巴，並閉上雙眼，大腦開始思考起來。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsrnAjZnjG
因為當初Ivy的事件，我變得開始只會迎合他人。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7JUjsM3VIU
後來與Mandy交往後，我開始執著於承諾。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkslQkJzRva
結識依玲及Venus後，我仍然只是一直在配合著她們對我的心意而行。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGo773gAIf
一時是好朋友、一時是前度、一時是曖昧對象。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzOU1Mw8PT
到底我的真正想法是甚麼？620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMMQsPRoXV
而為什麼，我又會落得如此的地步呢……620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFmVTvhzRW
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想著想著，我便不自覺地冷笑了一下。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJISpCKChUS
而Ivy也隨即說：「所以希望你唔好再自責啦。」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOJwU75ZAa
我慢慢地張開眼睛，然後看著她說：「多謝你，我諗我諗通咗啲嘢啦。」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzr1g9OcLA
其實一直迷失著的人，原來就是我自己。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGc8Z1BQYS6
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「見翻你，可能喺種緣份，喺上天安排我哋再相遇翻，然後解開心結。」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8bH6cWLW5
「心結？你唔喺話你釋懷咗啦咩？」我好奇問道。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7kiKFvUfm
但Ivy接著卻突然面紅耳赤起來，並說話變得有點口吃起來：「對你喺釋懷……但對另一個人唔喺……」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbZqyYXbQ7
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「喂！學生妹原來你喺到啊！」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPI0NK8cLa
此時，從我的後方傳來了一把男聲。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbS48drkKn
於是我便立刻扭頭過去查看，發現原來是剛剛那位受我邀請完成任務的Youtuber以及他的另外兩位朋友。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1CFq0WHlJ
而從他剛才的對話推斷，他們應該是認識Ivy的……620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSuRMyUmDY
莫非Ivy所說的室友就是他們嗎？！620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xO6X79YRJ
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接下來，其中一名男生更走到我們的身旁時，並稍為打量了一下我。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHXpgNG3so
然後就一臉恍然地向Ivy說：「哦！原來就喺佢！」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ANO6Nz6Lj
「嗯？」我立刻擺出了一個疑惑樣子。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDNR0P8E6HL
甚麼原來就是我？620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2LDXdMLED
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然而，那名男生並沒有理會我的反應，只是繼續與Ivy說：620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7RLqyC8EA
「你要講嘅嘢喺咪講哂啦？」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0gzODqezb
「講哂啦！」Ivy立即回應對方，並表情瞬間變得更害羞起來。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDeGuwAYX6
而我對於他們的對話，仍然感到萬分不解。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZVfcE6d1y
但是那名Youtuber也隨即向我說：「我哋幫你哋做完任務啦！記得subscribe同like多啲我啊！」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTKxKJPTZX
接著，那三名男生便與Ivy一同向我作了一個簡易的道別。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡud2ph4S9Qm
然後就轉身從圖書館的另一個出口離開了。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxUKEGt3Hq
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與此同時，也只留下了完全摸不清頭緒的我並自言自起來：620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAuwpLUIdA
「到底講緊咩啦……」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXILfyJJp4
不過既然今天能重遇Ivy，並得知她至今還過得挺好的。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34VJPb6t1N
我想……應該是時候要放過一下自己了。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOvbQPjM5m
當年的內疚，應該都會逐漸消散了。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS73283uz24
這算是解決了我人生其中一個遺憾了吧？620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUCd32Snsr
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但是，在解開了過往的困惑同時。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1h1euAWng
也提醒了我，在未來，我將再次需要作出選擇。620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhw2jyyupOV
而且還是三個那麼多……620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76S8gwOwwL
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「只有釋懷，才能夠走更遠的路」620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUztyBINQQt
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作者閒聊：連動篇總算告一段落了。在不久將來，Ivy還是會再次出現喔，不過那已經是第二個故事了~620Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sFQB144fo
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