第一二八章：畢業營(七)527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJKoics9su
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一聲喊道下，我便把Mandy拉到懷中緊抱著。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdEyE7nckH
已經不知道，這個舉動到底是理性控制，還是感性驅動了……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0M11Ax6b7
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不過在我懷中的Mandy，也在一陣錯愕過後。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdY7qUPWU0
便輕聲地說：「做咩咁突然攬住人……」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJxMUPjF1B
「唔知……我都唔知點解自己會突然咁做。」我仍然摟抱著她說道。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OMOYRmEW4
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而我們唯持了這個姿勢大約半分鐘後，她也再說：「一陣比其他人睇到啊……」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡES46Snx7Kq
聽到她這這番說話，我才下意識過來，現在還是在營區內，隨時都會有同級的同學或老師出現。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5YvVAqrdQ
因此，我便很快把她推離懷中，並說：「對……對唔住。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjcANtoHDV
但她沒有責怪我突然的舉動，反而是臉頰泛起一點紅地盯著地板看。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5b0NCSezFR
我想，突然被人抱入懷中，有這個反應也不奇怪。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZ4VUS1thc
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「不如我哋去個邊企？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fiB5jdrR0
發現氣氛變得有點尷尬起來的我，便指向了近河畔邊的平台。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbYsQ95R2t
她抬頭看一看我指向的方向，沉默了一會。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaajMmHCBbq
接著也少少聲地在嘴邊說：「好。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYS3oC1PYS
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隨即我們便一同往平台的方向前去，不過路途上卻沒有任何傾談。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPACem3Ybdo
畢竟，現在我腦中想著的，都只是她那一句「道別」。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvT7hdtd6G
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直到我們來到平台，並雙雙靠在欄杆上。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN93UozyCoV
她也開口說：「聖誕之後，我就會翻番澳洲讀書。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPNdB4jD7l
「喺啊……」我竟然比想像中表現得平淡。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWxshFrQrB
而她對於的我反應，似乎都感到有點意外。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWsTRAAGeo
於是好奇地望向我，隨即我都一同與她對視起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsx6Zb7wvb
「阿侑你嘅反應比我想像中冷靜喎……啊，唔喺。你啱先都無啦啦攬住我。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLO9AWYJtOq
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其實我的反應會如此鎮定，可能是因為我早就猜想到會有這一天的來臨。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzcAqwFX1u
始終，她已經不是第一次離開我了。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53AZGD1IeB
三年前，她因為移民而前往了澳洲。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUJlfVwHrs
可是在一年後又回來了與我再次相遇。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYKDtrt7rg
但是她的家人仍然在澳洲，這樣代表，終有一天，她還是要離開……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGCH56sGCo
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「點解又突然翻去讀書？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6eqqv16xB
她沒有即時回答，而是扭過頭去看著前方一片漆黑的河畔。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOWlyt9Q37
「本來都諗住考埋DSE先，但屋企人都希望我唔好考，而喺返去讀多兩年high school，然後直接駁入U。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20K1rpNfPy
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聽到她這樣說道，我都瞬間理解到為何她的家人會作出如此的抉擇。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPLbqKdYy2
畢竟論教育，香港的教育實在太過落後，只專注在菁英培育上。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQkLNOD2Vn
然後又推行現在的「一試定生死」方式，來區分能力高與低的學生。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwCSU43PjQ
分分鐘考入大學還比在麻將桌上以海底撈月食糊更難呢。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhgpqXEdC2
換做是我的話，都會選擇在海外升學。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnweNG11NH
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在她的話後，我也一同望向眼前漆黑的河畔。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBqHmLg0zB
頓時覺得眼前的景色，就如同不久的未來一樣。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBxZKxGt2c
現在晚上看著，只會覺得一團漆黑，根本捉摸不清眼前的事物。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjbRgvrnwu
換做早上看著的話，卻會清楚地看到河畔上所有的景物。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXsoHxgdHt
人，會因為一時的迷茫，而失去向前的動力。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo50PXzggOB
但又會因為熟悉而感到舒適，並最後失去了探索的動力。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGDrLcC6ZL
到底是選擇留在舒適圈，還是離開，都將會引致不同的未來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHM8nFMLpuE
而我們往往擔憂的，就只是那個未來到底適不適合自己。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dI5mZa20z
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Mandy發現我沒有回應，於是又再說起來：「所以今次真喺要再見啦。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcc7EyLdSy
她又再一次提起了「再見」這一回事。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMormqQdK2q
但這次我並沒有像剛一樣立即把她拉到懷中，而是說出心中話：527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDgyOpkzMZ
「老實講啊，其實我唔想你走。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG30xlYKEa6
「我知啊，啱先你攬住我個陣，我聽到啊。」她在話後便微笑起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhXZQneGAR
感覺就像在回味剛才的一刻一樣。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjZEc63G8J
但接著又再問：「點解咁唔想我走？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ThvjgmyzE
「因為我自私囉。」我直接說道。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHqoy1VRHm
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然而，她又沒有立即回答，而是轉過身來背靠在欄杆上。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHj4iG49o1
「唔可以自私喺我到架。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBtcMfR5M1
「點解啊？」我一臉好奇地反問道。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeYqBhUcvf
「因為……我唔值得你自私囉！」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIWi0AgLVB
她這樣一說，使我愣住了。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPJP1Vi3Z2
但是正當我開口時，她又說：「仲有其他人值得你自私。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKFCYURPkt
「你嘅其他人喺指？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuN4BryRJmp
「Venus啊，Elaine啊，甚至可能喺你畢業之後識嘅人。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETqlzdX38D
在她提起Venus的名字時，我的腦海卻聯想起一段畫面。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRU1jcYwlmk
就是開學的那一天，她與Venus在6C班門前談天的時候。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tKf3FVRpM
因此我也不禁問：「愛瑩喺咪一早知架啦？」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwak7i88vF
她點頭，然後望向夜空：「班入面有幾個女仔都知。其實我都諗住差唔多時間同大家講架啦。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VQlpYZmqH
即使與全班說，大家都知道後，都是改變不了她要離開的事實。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8c1Zswdsw
而我此刻想對她就只是：「比我……」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlimsiTzn9y
「時間都唔早啦，不如我哋翻去啦。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9K6PxeKGb
她突然的一句打斷了我的說話。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSJzTVSpIw
是巧合？還是刻意呢？527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBOal38907
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並且她在提議後，只是雙眼默默地凝視著我。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsLFNulCCn
我隨即只能吞下還在口中的說話，點頭回應：527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdw57wm6AUP
「都好。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsKNKVqldL
答應了的這一刻也代表著，我們的話題，將會在此結束……527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4aiouNAFj
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片刻後，我帶著複雜的心情返回了宿舍內。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHyv0X3MZq
並在打開門的一刻，就見Harriet拿著毛巾及衣服在大廳的沙發上看著電視。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOfu6oDDa5
「散完步翻嚟啦？」Harriet看見我的出現，便立即問道。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttmsb8j6Co
而我只是坐到他的旁邊，並靠在沙發上嘆氣起來。527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiecmXACpq
「唉，感情真喺好複雜呢。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYskRPeB4cE
他先是愣住了，但是也一同靠向後，並輕笑了一聲說：527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZveFuU4jvk
「喺啊，感情真喺好複雜架。」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS789nI5Ssp
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「想放手，但又想捉緊，真複雜」527Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPj0Fy0K4yR
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