過去篇(四)447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibpIXxIRtz
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNFmjqDDBo
某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbc4H1EAWwx
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NT2gMpb46
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKisrb6gVx
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4Ge3oYb1h
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHVAFU0zIn
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXmZZrGUHf
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjVzQxmdNF
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHyVp9TD8r
被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIF8lgtkmUy
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjE1skkCqVo
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5w4P7YwKf
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mnvMpxaoa
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NPSZRvI8J
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Qmc0oqHIL
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fAvMHhWYV
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpez8MUTHD
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjdtn8gK1B
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjydzaTUIm
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjKH7yG3Y5
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSGLPbtCDJ
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jqWZRbsZv
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7aWU6yBja
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3npYMWJ6ui
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrd1Vh7kVB
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYR9pC5xsLg
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPt50WkdDy
「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLVyXQAcZu
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxfm2rs1BM
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1VBYzlbB0
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIkud5G5IX
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBn67vv5hV
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGq0FwktNZ
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9PCFwTjNQ
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr15rUh8V1n
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oclMDGV89
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIjCFWz3ppS
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eO1ksMMxU
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPE4ceT9j6d
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuI6g7e1ngI
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtbwBsONTQ
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyTODTVo8jN
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtY0ARw7H8J
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7M2cL7Q9mg
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6A8c1sEb2
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5a4rKWYYZ
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡok1iHywFLM
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4c4q1AmGa
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4u5I8AI51
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJjUhT85Bq
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Hqln6uiP3
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxx3piYZMT
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoZ8J77rmu
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxuxEbub1M
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihMxDfqgLS
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMTTlLQCZM
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447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTHRcOi9tV
數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWN02qd3sRh
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOo96fSgDl
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdDopKxP5J
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi75dAsXw33
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1h0a0PUdMB
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOmv5tQ56w
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtr9j6SWqAL
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdtjPJ0GLY
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzsI4DUn9B
隨即二人也站在了原地。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNg8gzlx4s
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjhyaOzjYD
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVt0yBCertM
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklPr2PTMNI
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsRFSo3SGt
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQN66jAddq8
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHOPTb2OcL
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfaEF5RKXY2
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1KEGRL87L
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkXTfhq4qG
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxSMxK3FiM
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6jxA3B0qt
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaQBV2mzXq
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkYfknE17K
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtA2MmSfuT
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqwzk0Sq8z
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9sItzSzRX
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBK1O4TfM0
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFECxViKawO
可是，她接著聽到答案是……447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzkJEFuCrp
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEfuPnuQv0
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJRtZjZelL
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQYsBMI1w4
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfw1v9iGwru
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wu27YPiug
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldEUAV7tif
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxCNFF5v7t
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZsXcmImbD
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutgV2FUjA9
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkNqlRAEjR
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3NjzlmxbE
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhuSYuZCld
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOECctMgRXF
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uaEC1A79n
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi08JWkyt0h
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5zFt9F0hb
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bT4E7qqPo
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnWwjVEgJD
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPP76Q3qPgx
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5NvGpQYkU
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbbxZZbhv0
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447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcZlvmEocd
「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoCZYRwnwy
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8juW5esYU
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtxxC9sPsv
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLTiAXRx0S
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeS51SWUbc
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOED9cvYf2
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMKz5oNjlc
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4MMd1dqh0
「嚓—」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlt0H6p82Ki
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoANnEn7pS
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2tgvyLF6x
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6IasyCPLkY
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhs8Xk6KVyw
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWXvFdtH3q
作者在此鄭重聲明：447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCY3n7z5eDs
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSts2uWkRb
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIybgOSR7J
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoa1Qv1593
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCTCvdTU5u
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4b4bKxz5M
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZZHMJY6eN
447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqtIQc3a4E
作者閒聊：447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KeF3zcrA6
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0W6XxjKAr
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……447Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RPDJRz11g
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