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某一天，在午息時段，Ivy悶悶不樂地來到學校的庭園。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5ADPDldrz
找了一個寧靜的角落，獨自一人坐下，不禁嘆息起來。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcQo2gENqH
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbEvijFvHL
原來在剛才午飯時間，Ivy又一次鼓起勇氣邀約Alvin一同吃午飯。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluhuQvlR2l
可是早就習慣了與其他男生一同外出用膳的Alvin。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mkKiqqGBX
並且升上中學後，根本就沒有被女生邀約吃飯。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvt6yh90Yg
因此Ivy突如其來邀約，再加上當時朋友們的催促，Alvin也只好當下拒絕了她的邀請。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKuF16EN6Ou
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被喜歡的人拒絕邀約，除了感到可惜及失望之外，就根本甚麼都做不到。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq76oplocPd
Ivy曾經嘗試融入對方的生活圈子之中，卻永遠都只是停留在表面上的融入。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtD7eu0rQZd
至今，她與Alvin仍然是維持在每天上學見面時談上兩三句話的局面。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4q7AA4mFJ
即使放學後，她與Alvin透過WhatsApp聊天的次數，也少之又少。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XHMoX9zMl
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIq6cVNLzNA
「Alvin都好似唔多理我咁……莫非真喺要好似Laura咁講，直接同佢講我鍾意佢……」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JS9Hs6d0f
這時，在Ivy的腦海中也閃現出前陣子Laura的一句說話。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIt9kBAV0aJ
那句叫她向喜歡的人坦承的說話。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xOQD7VMHU
可是對於性格偏向內向的Ivy來說，要與喜歡的人坦白，可是一件難若登天的事情。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe69KuYR0PR
單是起初鼓起勇氣向Alvin進一步搭訕，她其實也在心裡掙扎了好幾天。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdqbUVDE4A
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrXLrnkLXL
「你鍾意Alvin啊？」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktTyedyHsp
突然有一把男聲從Ivy的後方傳來。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwdFk02D8V8
使得她馬上驚慌失色起來，並隨即轉過身來，查看聲音的主人。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPv9QlsC6O
「Dan……？點解你會嚟庭園嘅？」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUv59u3z86
在確認是同班的同學後，Ivy也接著好奇地問道。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGli14Mi4q
畢竟，學校的庭園平常根本不會有人到訪。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKZAx3XM1x
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「食飽飯無嘢做，咪嚟行過圈囉……但竟然比我八卦到啲嘢啊，呵呵。」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7KbUw842n
Dan在說著的同時，奸笑起來，然後就盯著Ivy，等待對方辯解。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtcfV5dlQW
「你唔好講出啊！我求你！」Ivy當然是立即雙手合十，不斷向Dan請求著。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6v9YAaoprA
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMTShBDb1R
接著，Dan也抓一抓自己的頭髮，一臉沾沾自喜地說：521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYRiy8vFHh
「乜我似啲會將人哋秘密亂咁爆出去嘅人咩？」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMwKEmmz2K
Ivy思考了一會Dan的這句話，然後就搖頭說：「咁又唔似……」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetzyAyHVOO
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgl1krOWq2
「鍾意咗人幾耐啊？」Dan隨即問道，看來是打算再八卦一下Ivy的事情。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotllmhNrpc
Ivy頓時也面紅耳赤起來，並不斷捏住自己的校裙。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuEuho8y3f
而在一番內心掙扎後，她也小小聲地說：「大概三個月啦……」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcZOyFYOYR
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpwJoTYVCm
Dan馬上「哇」了一聲，但很快又一臉認真地摸著下巴說：521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLKYlWA26H
「唔怪得近排見你同Alvin多咗嘢講啦……不過睇嚟你都好似有嘢煩惱緊？」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLKEh0JsGS
在對方的引導下，Ivy也開始向Dan說起了一切的由來。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ84xF2kvZX
由一開始對Alvin產生興趣，然後就是好感，最後就是喜歡了對方。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRagAMSdw2M
不過卻一直未能向對方表達心意。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpdb0nh2Do
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgC4LIsfaG
Dan聆聽完Ivy一番經歷後，隨即也露出一個恍然大悟的樣子。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgJobA9xaV
「哦，所以啱啱先見你唉聲嘆氣咁坐喺到。」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKugu7nuZEH
Ivy沒有說話，只是默默地點著頭。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6j1Ib6yCw
於是Dan見況也繼續說：「都明你點解咁沮喪嘅，明明鍾意人，但又無勇氣同對方講，想接近人，但喺又無從入手，令到自己卡咗喺個尷尬位。」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZ0XNRxK1r
聽到Dan「一針見血」的總結後，Ivy也馬上再次嘆息起來。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnn2Ag836E
然後一臉沒精打采地看著Dan，並用低沉的聲音說：「聽嚟我都喺無機架啦……」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJzZFiZacI
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzzZuhxCuQ
「唔好灰啦！不如我幫你探下Alvin口風啦！知佢點諗你都一件好事啊！」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpd3sHf7fi
Dan見到Ivy一臉死氣沉沉地樣子，馬上轉用一個輕快的口吻說著，希望從而令Ivy振作一點。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCaccb0xDS
而Ivy聽到了Dan的建議後，馬上想起了先前Laura的一句：「唔試過又點知得唔得呢？」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bvxRLS0PQ
隨即也重燃心中的希望之火，一邊點頭一邊把一切都託付到Dan手上……521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡag8T8vWCOu
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數天後，Dan看準了放學時Alvin獨自離開課室的時機。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq293IsroEF
馬上裝作想與Alvin一同放學而上前與他搭訕。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsowIQuxzje
「Alvin，不如今日一齊走啊！」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61nEZduEaN
「少有喎，你今日唔喺同Francis一齊走。」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJj3zLcMivE
「因為……Francis比人罰留堂啊！」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOuKpIIB7e
但此刻Francis其實是在班房裡與其他男生共同挑戰著手機遊戲中的關卡……521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8X2LPWIINQ
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNnqUr81id
接著，Dan與Alvin二人一邊聊著一邊下樓梯。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lzKUJ6Gsy
聊起兩三句後，Dan也開門見山問道：「Alvin，你喺2E有無鍾意嘅人啊？」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZmnUNkNG7
隨即二人也站在了原地。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkFEH3DGmx
而此時，Ivy也剛好走到了樓梯的轉角處，聆聽到了Alvin接下的回答。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrCsW5wPx6
「無喎。」Alvin的這一個回答，簡單而直接。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEDoQwXUcO
不過卻同時使Dan愣住了，而偷聽著的Ivy更感到失望起來。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3IzUWEoWu
看來她的幻想，都確實只是幻想。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDcgFflmrz
並如同泡沫一樣，在一瞬間破掉化為無物。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpImNPOaErQ
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUFrRpuvXK
「真喺無鍾意嘅人？」Dan再問道，並語氣變得質疑起來。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzv0UaaAN9T
不過Alvin仍然迅速而堅定地回答同樣的答案：「真喺無。」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Ke1pRT6hn
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIHaK7NcSc
這使得Dan不禁倒抽了一口氣。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFazwhWJiQ
不過機智的他，也很快就想到第二條問題：「咁班入面有無邊個女仔吸引到你啊？」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyYbGdDSMU
Alvin思考了一會，然後答：「嗯……無喎……」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDb9rzou2t
雖然答案一樣，但是這一次Alvin的回答，卻從中感覺到一絲猶如。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ431NtTO3QW
於是Dan也捉住了這份遲疑，再問：「真喺無？你諗真啲……例如Ivy呢？」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzUK93r6Wd
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLSQSxQ8PD
在轉角處的Ivy聽到了自己的名字後，也意會到Dan終於把與Alvin的對話引導到自己身上。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhmu8Yl169
她隨即地把雙手放到胸口上，希望能藉此壓抑住活蹦亂跳的心。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCe917X0Ba
因為對於接下來Alvin的回答，她確實感到額外的緊張起來。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitiCkSwuZi
可是，她接著聽到答案是……521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRqQGfPRuo
「Ivy啊……無咩特別感覺喎，咪普通同學咁。」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw62UeQXNbw
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlpsbIEHyx
聽到Alvin的回答，Ivy頓時如同石化了一樣，目瞪口呆地站在原地。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQ6jqwQJBT
連此刻站在Alvin對面的Dan也瞬間感到愕然起來。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEvqQNEzxt
或許他自己也猜想不到，這就是Alvin的答案。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6KX0Gg58l
不過，感到有點不知所揩的Dan，也靈機一動，立即再問：521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrxjrnL2jU
「如果Ivy喺鍾意你呢？」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcu0aNVtf7
他選擇不再轉彎抹角，而是斬釘截鐵地道出了Ivy的心意。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCsZssQqY0
但其實他都猜想不到，原來Ivy一直偷聽著。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLyLHAmMAT
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgeitnKkyl
然而，Alvin隨即也皺起眉頭說：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLg7W50RexG
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0lWoCkK1n
正當Alvin說完這句話後，他們的上方也突然傳來了一聲急促的腳步聲。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKeXvht9WJ
於是Alvin好奇地探頭瞄了一眼上方，並發現沒有人。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbitreIxto
接著也扭過頭來繼續與Dan談論剛剛的話題。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qiaEaU309
然而，他並不知道，剛才腳步聲的主人，正是Ivy。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25YZgGsuMn
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OdqU2xJfr
而與此同時，Ivy也已經淚流滿面，走到了學校的某處。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZEN037bQK
孤單一人坐在角落，蜷縮著身體，雙臂抱住雙膝，痛哭起來。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJYWosxj2Y
她的哭聲，無比悲哀及淒慘，如同心被刀割一樣。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdH5njAW0uW
看來這份傷痛，將永遠刻印在她的心中，成為一條永遠無法修補的疤痕。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32hB1zt8aR
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「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwg9bL0SWp8
直至深夜時，Ivy再次因為回想起Alvin的這一句話，而驚醒過來。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSyXE1pszm
她隨即慢慢地離開了床，並坐在一旁的梳妝桌。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvSY1JrCkI
然後，打開了桌燈，看著鏡中雙眼通紅、神情疲倦的自己。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCb1uzBZ31a
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwO2ssLJ5Km
接著再回想起Alvin的說話，以及這三個月來自己的所做一切。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4pLsbHui4
她不禁冷笑起來，隨後打開桌上文具盒，拿出了一把美術刀。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTRKEGrOBj
伸出冰冷的刀鋒，對著自己的手臀……521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3q0khAhLEQ
「嚓—」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmo5UWijGCB
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFDaJEbdnX
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaVt6fUk2d
「懷著多大的期望，就會迎來同等的失望，甚至最終帶來更深的絕望」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qKLTocNEn
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSE7OZR86bJ
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作者在此鄭重聲明：521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkwb9TNpNU
𠝹手只是劇情的一部份，並且是虛構情節。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7O6iRwePd
讀者們請潔身自愛，切勿嘗試！！！521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynyALphza2
無論遇上多麼不如意的事情，都切勿做出任何試圖傷害身體的行為。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvM3QVMLsVY
若發現事情未如理想，無法獨力承受，請向身邊的人如父母及師長尋求協助。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqpJXRxjPE8
切勿將傷害身體來發洩情緒一事合理化，請各位潔身自愛。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8aYe0OoWb
愛人前先要懂得愛錫自己。521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqddvJqzlrX
521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqez18BXUGs
作者閒聊：521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMRudU1QDv
過去阿侑的一句：「就算佢鍾意我，都唔代表我要鍾意佢。感情呢啲嘢講feel架嘛，如果要迎合佢嘅心意，而勉強自己，我做唔到。」521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WC7x7EvmZ
完全是在打著現在自己的臉……521Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpI705paT0L
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