這算什麼?626Please respect copyright.PENANAHIS0Zobmby
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。626Please respect copyright.PENANAvqedIasSbS
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。626Please respect copyright.PENANAOCDJZ7heXU
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。626Please respect copyright.PENANAz9Sj1PMtKL
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。626Please respect copyright.PENANASd0EyWWCAk
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神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。626Please respect copyright.PENANAtVMZiyJrxN
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。626Please respect copyright.PENANApL9meQVZvZ
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走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。626Please respect copyright.PENANAuIsRrMAl5R
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然後便準備下山了。626Please respect copyright.PENANAQzkCNLQp4n
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。626Please respect copyright.PENANAxepDbkD3iC
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。626Please respect copyright.PENANAAkcfUw1aFr
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」626Please respect copyright.PENANAs1VuCKAHcD
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。626Please respect copyright.PENANALITfs4S7MY
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。626Please respect copyright.PENANApcPF6bdr3v
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樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。626Please respect copyright.PENANAn6TYXSSG3b
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。626Please respect copyright.PENANAGSbzKgwlqP
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裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。626Please respect copyright.PENANArFWWRm2qIy
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養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」626Please respect copyright.PENANA32BJ4cLKx0
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不會告訴我,又一天了。626Please respect copyright.PENANAX3ZUXRnFGd
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。626Please respect copyright.PENANAOVr8MPYrZB
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。626Please respect copyright.PENANAOWDUu3Mis4
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。626Please respect copyright.PENANAGYmU86DE0H
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我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。626Please respect copyright.PENANACXn8Oqb7zK
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靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。626Please respect copyright.PENANA4bhjHKF9ns
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」626Please respect copyright.PENANAVdDoMKEchl
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。626Please respect copyright.PENANA3alY4Hqa2l
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。626Please respect copyright.PENANAomqVAJ6qxc
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怎麼說呢?626Please respect copyright.PENANAhcUjiTGcDt
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。626Please respect copyright.PENANAinjr4IpsOr
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。626Please respect copyright.PENANAj0BWcFNrv8
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。626Please respect copyright.PENANAUq64eIBZZe
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。626Please respect copyright.PENANAvxPgT1Ep06
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。626Please respect copyright.PENANAGCZWm2nT78
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。626Please respect copyright.PENANAYpTzTkbUk1
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我再點頭。626Please respect copyright.PENANAJaAbFRrVR0
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。626Please respect copyright.PENANAFRvVYc8hpR
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。626Please respect copyright.PENANA20KxdZGedm
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我馬上看第二天。626Please respect copyright.PENANAqJ7vocBEB6
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。626Please respect copyright.PENANAJFsSpxIlcx
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。626Please respect copyright.PENANA27NzoUwSrD
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……626Please respect copyright.PENANAYt0XW8lmeB
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。626Please respect copyright.PENANAhJNYBGs0cg
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」626Please respect copyright.PENANAbby5KPPcwI
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」626Please respect copyright.PENANA8and0tlRgk
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第二天「END」出現。626Please respect copyright.PENANASU25I77hva
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我蓋上了練習簿。626Please respect copyright.PENANA7UGra5oF6C
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。626Please respect copyright.PENANAt3x9EkHf5M
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?626Please respect copyright.PENANAUHGUvU8Mg9
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深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。626Please respect copyright.PENANAphQM0pwkcy
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。626Please respect copyright.PENANAd5SXhJVydL
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。626Please respect copyright.PENANAKnBnpNgiOn
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。626Please respect copyright.PENANAa5sAexsjjD
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。626Please respect copyright.PENANAwOhG7tR2P4
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我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?626Please respect copyright.PENANAsUAESxBI50
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。626Please respect copyright.PENANAMicvBwqiPJ
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。626Please respect copyright.PENANAlJFsHTIFBB
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「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」626Please respect copyright.PENANAnojmA8woZM
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「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。626Please respect copyright.PENANA7DlZ1DDGj4
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」626Please respect copyright.PENANAiV1Kgs2XGM
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「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。626Please respect copyright.PENANAwI7xlBDpb9
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。626Please respect copyright.PENANASvE8Pfcl0Q
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。626Please respect copyright.PENANAVncS5nfZdL
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然後再次坐好。626Please respect copyright.PENANAhx0VNGgdWQ
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「陸……傾兒。」626Please respect copyright.PENANAF1VTU28V0n
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。626Please respect copyright.PENANAy7wK6dK3LU
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。626Please respect copyright.PENANAqbCr7omWmg
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紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。626Please respect copyright.PENANAsRmqLtHjLh
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一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。626Please respect copyright.PENANAnn9Nzu2CJm
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不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。626Please respect copyright.PENANA9TUBLjjQds
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牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?626Please respect copyright.PENANA8TqQD3VIb9
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。626Please respect copyright.PENANA99olbLZS0b
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坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。626Please respect copyright.PENANAGSiQKREqNO
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山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。626Please respect copyright.PENANA9i2QY9nWhb
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第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。626Please respect copyright.PENANADtmdLrUSXl
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。626Please respect copyright.PENANAQNEdLrjoGR
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不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。626Please respect copyright.PENANALF449wxIKj
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這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。626Please respect copyright.PENANAHbwUPndZEN
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。626Please respect copyright.PENANA2sHULFEceD
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。626Please respect copyright.PENANAHdCwpDXsAS
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那麼,我呢?626Please respect copyright.PENANAd5uZjNEM3G
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?626Please respect copyright.PENANAeTKnSOvtND
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「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。626Please respect copyright.PENANAsVZmtp9fi5
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我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。626Please respect copyright.PENANAvKWjq4BliI
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。626Please respect copyright.PENANAbhXqAyu1td
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「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。626Please respect copyright.PENANAHhBcR1GMVR
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。626Please respect copyright.PENANAKxB7ngCS0V
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 626Please respect copyright.PENANAkWSAORPpyM
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 626Please respect copyright.PENANAAXIcPFKbb5
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。626Please respect copyright.PENANA4AdlhFCnBL
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「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」626Please respect copyright.PENANAJP3WIbwAjX
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「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」626Please respect copyright.PENANA01oPaV21Pz
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「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」626Please respect copyright.PENANABAihhGCgPZ
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「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」626Please respect copyright.PENANAFI0jfZ8JDt
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「係……係。」神明丁聽著。626Please respect copyright.PENANAr7cXv4smf3
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」626Please respect copyright.PENANA0BajEmdo7z
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「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。626Please respect copyright.PENANALwoGGhCtjp
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。626Please respect copyright.PENANA13O8gaY52I
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。626Please respect copyright.PENANAT1Xofx8R3j
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。626Please respect copyright.PENANAggFWOm2u4V
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?626Please respect copyright.PENANAiqMmaTXvxB
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我期待著。626Please respect copyright.PENANArMVSz7cOt0
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。626Please respect copyright.PENANAyzk8GbXGDw
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。626Please respect copyright.PENANATLrdflifdk
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。626Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0mLFV5ROt
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」626Please respect copyright.PENANApEeT8VcwrY
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。626Please respect copyright.PENANA2rRSQj0tKF
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」626Please respect copyright.PENANAxY2GJcPkfK
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。626Please respect copyright.PENANArvlnUve4lr
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。626Please respect copyright.PENANARezimRFnmJ
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傾耳以待——626Please respect copyright.PENANAaJqsZzhten
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」626Please respect copyright.PENANA6klliQRMQC
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。626Please respect copyright.PENANAqxUVW9piSY
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聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。626Please respect copyright.PENANAjRR5lEx88a
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。626Please respect copyright.PENANAJy5Ey8Mfut
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」626Please respect copyright.PENANAtuyukPrcG7
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身體傾後,躺了下來。626Please respect copyright.PENANAJm0Tc0Et42
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「係諗住攤。」626Please respect copyright.PENANAqLxsDZtcck
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。626Please respect copyright.PENANAhlW51ykP9U
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。626Please respect copyright.PENANA3lqjwZ5CeJ
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在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。626Please respect copyright.PENANAA4HpVjYl46
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露出鼻尖和微笑。626Please respect copyright.PENANAdWzPa36Zyp
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。626Please respect copyright.PENANAUvCXmpiM3f