我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1Oo2nqLxZ
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYnKAY8cnF
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjsRshRqJZ
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwtDVTWQlx
「咬下——」明白了。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mhHYRHF6r
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uAK9dHVJ2
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOOwJC33PC
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfTwu0QXlN
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZCUHXCAdx
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwwqVBv3keQ
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9snhx1gyB
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLxZxMsESn
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNU21ubmC9G
神是不是故意的？648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjMTMkVttE
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpozVHU8krD
竟然……安排這種測試給我。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVCzzDXgwo
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsJAWYVi5F
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgjlSv8DKJ
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lVtoTOJEy
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYH9KCTkfpx
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjYn2kWUx4
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxc4HI8WbC
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IjMD8wmZJ
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVcF7xGu9d
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecWAh4JX9n
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWuXSjMNBp
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjilyKQXq9x
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkBZhBKuU2
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbpMQB5kKt
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFk2HfIOILx
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4mYDWBn6k
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4eoBo98ev
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bc1bUpewC
「唔好再講喇。」我說。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcgJeH9JRh
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CHMV27hq3
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IdXWIZuSj
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoBYdF5qyH
然後我沒有再阻止她。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngE5gDd3bo
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKYsYQQ5In
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitfh1W7HWU
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGd8m2pUK8
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nssEUQKgW
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpU9hSRyL6z
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDUHd1Curn
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewUCdVpoEQ
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOhIwNzKcM
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAXUEzS2oF
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWZ1D0lk9u
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhAfJ0W9sv
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7bigKWE00
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhndNfnOyT
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfgpSZJYKU
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eSEisVRxD
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BPEx0j8rM
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kjjoQ5YYM
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7s4bdNFXhM
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKfZKOLNYk
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbe6S8EaAbW
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtsmzKFqvf
我也正在難過。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0btRd5Jaec
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jbGI24FBn
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbW8rGoNSxZ
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiazSt517AW
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2gpxGnP19
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVs7GQs6V41
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDRg7BsQL0
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SRcyKJw5c
「點解？」她問。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgXAA32Bgm
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8UBL5IscD
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8n48uprh8
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1MOZ09fa8
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWlNVA3BHi
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWH1MTblW9
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TnMrnRyjn
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkoYczrHmS
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevlIskpVUO
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTou63gpJN
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡee2Gqd3t4e
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsAGIA6EMA
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGikC4rG25I
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXzKzCpxhz
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCyOzZilm5v
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1ZQ8Ckc6O
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2enl4d2Ow9
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4e8EmiL6s
這是……什麼爛方法？648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGubSOMUovf
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AEosKA4gO
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qGXb9cBFw
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMeF2DqYsy
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPLqZDwaMZ
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XzJog3oW4
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8GtDDRyni
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSqCT7ngN3
「咩條件？」她問。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rhzX4rd3E
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZzVZylczS
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMKpTzzy7e
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhWPgPkQ9K
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFAlb5c5xA
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02og99azho
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaLwvjnXdF
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9mBWKq2Hj
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UA6fNh3E4
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDuaDZCCfA
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcSE8pP2lf
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbjS6trgj5
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVtuvsmzkG
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSla56BZ2D
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicFNZEospB
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeF7JK5MW3z
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdS1DHTwyi
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssxwUthXoY
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEB4De4BK5T
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRBUXykORv
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8cCOYwUat
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVM3zT22g4n
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PWLDNGs1J
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4rS6PQ37K
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrENu64FcdW
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PacPJf4eb
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Px0U1P5kA
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrL8oHNPJg9
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugt2lR9zVR
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NXaFs0Fa8
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6lIiuwFYU
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTY8kDlGO7
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfD9n5HZ6r7
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrQXCxMoHB
說完，她聽完。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ307J0qeiIi
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfTgSvrhe7
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaasRn9VrK7
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZpj15K71M
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVghREmLQK
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOsZdsDnVQ
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQUDmzXUxR
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ixe4DbiWe
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRhyr4HmTL
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ353JObKri0
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUs7urR3GC
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGzONo4HXs
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaXHooTEWD
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSD7vwGJl17
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQB9Yv68gtk
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3wA2fWwzf
「陸傾兒……」我說。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDGaIYToHR
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9w88XvE7N
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcgYL8Wp1f
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESe6ABcT8l
「揀咩都得？」我問。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFA8dBOlC5
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0clvNZI6pL
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLKfNUdFQT
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Fl66J9bRX
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQ98LeUK3R
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwdeClWT2e
而我不懂回答。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4WKMME7Bd
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1LgwrsSgF
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHmCLIO1W5
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7he8VvD2q
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgQCLg51jt
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0TBiISNO2
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8GGUnXJD5
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXdw7fLdZ0
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbs9A2TTxWd
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKmb37LARS
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1naAgOJGa
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJkA1buXBS
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfLMmYHNq8
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdic69kJaB
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN51YhiF5K6
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXivoQT2etM
過後——648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbykDzi5eR
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uGbgYExoA
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7rxZFtT8h
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcU9YQmi1O
屁股坐下。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSGmnEiXdV
648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIbP5Du9if
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。648Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9ryYNQgXA
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