我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdusTUiiWZ4
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0ckkH5S0Q
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnh5zGJ8dxo
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Nmx9vfaSf
「咬下——」明白了。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMidqnzRVv
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjqtKCd2EHC
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrry9KV6kw
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDocErA1uQ
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZpjjIoF19
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcyKHzCdx3
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡre1NiL08bX
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKg9YKFKXFw
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1J97TrIE3
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iQzc2rdYa
神是不是故意的？678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyM95BMiBh6
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJn1e1BjA0n
竟然……安排這種測試給我。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqxkfdefB6
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla4qD9vK15
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbR5GdVXUo
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSkXu9kL6H
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HnWJGrsv2
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOzuoPXS39
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7RZNwrcm4
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54WaRm8D3K
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfTdIG0GU8
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNDFwd0sGo
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhv05VkHkwr
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprnGo5cgoL
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHm2KSQRMAu
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQPZs6xrTX
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKS1oJ2IkfY
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5cJTyYolg
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIBPTDmrRW
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXXgaz0fq2
「唔好再講喇。」我說。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwIrR4P2wf
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SZztinytG
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GuWyUrNKG
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLydeIUPZeo
然後我沒有再阻止她。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfBvUxXTyr
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzGctWdt8e
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMiM5Bbm5Kw
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhEgiUJp8w
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cCd23Fyi5
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ov8wcsXjV
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3v60gIZBDh
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhpC7tEXZz
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9MEWsysUn
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cYIMC9g8u
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbBDLE88ob
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxdzlHjO8j
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwimEN1oUO
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SCjy0TQO1
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRS05WZ83uS
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWm7iHk1Fx7
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDNZ4iqwIF
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4bcY2kzOl
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNzY5I7CIO
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sCAL0zDg8
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL97Rkze3i2
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pNEkOqeGG
我也正在難過。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHr1Ppnju6T
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdo32GgPfsg
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWNxcHFrzo
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2DnNJbMjT
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKJ2k0kgbF
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6hxp0MS5B
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsENcBH8kAz
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMCf1fgOz4i
「點解？」她問。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJXmSexIYf
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPpoz3stQ3
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoFdTkRaCYR
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVsnTc8djd
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wjGHTNxor
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7X8FYMIPt
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRF3xd28WZ4
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbS3FWqjk1
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuawU3Z46J
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡga9yRWrMIM
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjCp95yFij
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVjf6hL5FC
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqGFsRVfuk
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yxsY2n5uE
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0Kfy2A6rl
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7H0IYybga0
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAF9HpNfurH
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyoB440lFH
這是……什麼爛方法？678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHDEFLZKgA
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCCZ8Uxoft
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJohfeu6Pt
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sveXcD7qc
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOLvoRqcF8
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKsdtJeorJ
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7pbtS6K4Y
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFp8Drxrsj
「咩條件？」她問。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVplHoFTyf
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ20cZfHrOD
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinHZAbrmba
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0NLPvj5wq
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOm9qxIMCfU
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoffTtI6jEc
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VkgL2AeyF
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUrevgLaIz
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0Sljl16GY
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7H3rtvtteF
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFR59T6des
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1rhz9lkiQ
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFKBs6Vqf7
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiPonff3eH
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsMW2DWFKo
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcR4AeyVqs
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7UkpPTrln
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOmLDEgMs2
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKrWMlorq5
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDp5Osoojx
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcd5AhUV5cN
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrpKqQjYS5
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwL2Jr8vhPb
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKy56sWHxsT
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgcjFV4N0f
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wz7pNYKgT
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHvM1g2TJo
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbF6uPYw6HC
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QXGGCzBnS
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCzfrAzAux
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5L20NgTQp
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOr1UOcZJej
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwF615YyRt
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFon1LFkAk1
說完，她聽完。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4KApG9lCF
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TARcRSVBS
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMwFuyw7Nc
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZ4uZttuFE
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3n6iX53pyY
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShqn3lpol1
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HOxHUNZTx
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRQk5rtK2G
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZcSBu1Jqc
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxXSLdDYJJ
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirKst5oHTh
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkbo7MJSp8
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpliBfSmLP4
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsaSJQkz78
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcd0BLMxv0
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKE4HVmv5Fo
「陸傾兒……」我說。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJ5bvfXj0n
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNoRieIZu1
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqFiqdv906W
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNF4arY1rx0
「揀咩都得？」我問。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwjYH5Ul32
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GoAyxfOWM
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6DVJMgdlU
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3klVwh2LSy
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFekI09u7sA
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQCpZV4HZa
而我不懂回答。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrHkBbOqGt
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvm4MT7oDV
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUEpeupCDA
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56wWTMXzyK
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3c0RTQHE5
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuoYXMTBB9E
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uUQXomX8Q
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ofSCXlku5
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIajxKpzYnv
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xGzV92dWW
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURoPD1nkoU
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5KwTygXYX
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqej6QURBw
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPEZyjiDdw
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMm9fTYwZ9
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0Zw8GieIk
過後——678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJj4XWTXRt
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEDinR8xtB
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4s4FRkoyQ
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4V3k0V5Vto
屁股坐下。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGuAh77h1g
678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePfiUzps4t
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。678Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLDKIGiPu2
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