這算什麼?619Please respect copyright.PENANAQS4vfUV45E
619Please respect copyright.PENANAyNdevpEwqH
突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。619Please respect copyright.PENANADhYAplHxcO
619Please respect copyright.PENANAWxqaqpilrJ
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。619Please respect copyright.PENANAl32pL9BdVe
619Please respect copyright.PENANASj3gEurfMM
說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。619Please respect copyright.PENANA7jQKZWSExD
619Please respect copyright.PENANAw6QHCWsOu9
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。619Please respect copyright.PENANARGXQQPE7fv
619Please respect copyright.PENANAsWpyzM6ppF
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。619Please respect copyright.PENANAqdgUeRejUZ
619Please respect copyright.PENANAGUi1XHExEi
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。619Please respect copyright.PENANALZ8yAc4DK3
619Please respect copyright.PENANAhZLguSpKgU
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。619Please respect copyright.PENANAdmwW5fsnRz
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然後便準備下山了。619Please respect copyright.PENANAdIIn4EklmG
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。619Please respect copyright.PENANABiQXSblGFI
619Please respect copyright.PENANA1J3zNuSvEu
「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。619Please respect copyright.PENANAWsBo5a7Yf0
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」619Please respect copyright.PENANAh60Ba1IjCq
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。619Please respect copyright.PENANAlsRrJhOBXC
619Please respect copyright.PENANAKj0YyyG4DA
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。619Please respect copyright.PENANAsSQnQLLBOr
619Please respect copyright.PENANA7qPQ8zWsuC
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。619Please respect copyright.PENANAY6xysB7ICq
619Please respect copyright.PENANAYkZyay4T8x
雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。619Please respect copyright.PENANAWdVwI58LIi
619Please respect copyright.PENANA99hsOIYhdP
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。619Please respect copyright.PENANAmgh90gge3h
619Please respect copyright.PENANAYBAnDXoiBf
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」619Please respect copyright.PENANAq49qiaMqJ9
619Please respect copyright.PENANAUKGKsiS0vm
不會告訴我,又一天了。619Please respect copyright.PENANA8RSbUSOzVe
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。619Please respect copyright.PENANAXSvkZK8G0H
619Please respect copyright.PENANAiQ4e4I471t
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。619Please respect copyright.PENANAs4bQwQXsIj
619Please respect copyright.PENANAQ30BVKZlmk
現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。619Please respect copyright.PENANAZL569I2j8w
619Please respect copyright.PENANAhy6oCKrNFK
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。619Please respect copyright.PENANAgzpIoPvFCF
619Please respect copyright.PENANAJrymYRcMqB
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。619Please respect copyright.PENANATBj1Lxbo1V
619Please respect copyright.PENANAoQzarXTeiy
「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」619Please respect copyright.PENANABohSPGqEvf
619Please respect copyright.PENANAg67bnnuBsX
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。619Please respect copyright.PENANAvyUXrlNR16
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。619Please respect copyright.PENANAxisnsvba0M
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怎麼說呢?619Please respect copyright.PENANAS6fDoXZ3vX
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。619Please respect copyright.PENANAPNsgzELH3b
619Please respect copyright.PENANAiVlDdyBCUA
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。619Please respect copyright.PENANAotDkU9CqWX
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。619Please respect copyright.PENANACSIot6S2R1
619Please respect copyright.PENANAHhqGdmbBIo
那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。619Please respect copyright.PENANALPzQdc3Sd4
619Please respect copyright.PENANA2qhGbNN9pc
「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。619Please respect copyright.PENANAS8rXjYb7dx
619Please respect copyright.PENANAkMf23mGMAi
「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。619Please respect copyright.PENANAQYT0WXlj4r
619Please respect copyright.PENANAUgQWXEiBVb
我再點頭。619Please respect copyright.PENANAOlwO3nocaB
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。619Please respect copyright.PENANAodu4klMvuj
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。619Please respect copyright.PENANAcvTMs7lau9
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我馬上看第二天。619Please respect copyright.PENANAX2C7rqpjHK
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。619Please respect copyright.PENANAOlCOk9QGN8
619Please respect copyright.PENANAHXPRd0SnVB
在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。619Please respect copyright.PENANAIMRFkI2yO6
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……619Please respect copyright.PENANA5mbLBLfcvd
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。619Please respect copyright.PENANA6QJyW9o6Hl
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」619Please respect copyright.PENANAXpbUVCmUhx
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」619Please respect copyright.PENANAnan26wjwVn
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第二天「END」出現。619Please respect copyright.PENANAigltqsD4CD
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我蓋上了練習簿。619Please respect copyright.PENANARPy0yZ7vax
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。619Please respect copyright.PENANA9sgFzDjiUi
619Please respect copyright.PENANAZdlEBWhnaN
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?619Please respect copyright.PENANADUgxskj4DW
619Please respect copyright.PENANAIH9f4tf8Yu
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。619Please respect copyright.PENANARpn6yPeFTD
619Please respect copyright.PENANAVqybeC6BZ9
問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。619Please respect copyright.PENANATg47LbKpcV
619Please respect copyright.PENANAAezKpVrxWn
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。619Please respect copyright.PENANAxdI2kYxE9J
619Please respect copyright.PENANAp6uuvIWbzW
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。619Please respect copyright.PENANAQKK46qlCBX
619Please respect copyright.PENANACjx3gTu8LY
有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。619Please respect copyright.PENANAF31ukIgMBS
619Please respect copyright.PENANAXf2cafbzaK
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?619Please respect copyright.PENANAB3pnF7GhaZ
619Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4nbP2Jhdl
剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。619Please respect copyright.PENANAuZcgaeloOR
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。619Please respect copyright.PENANApDfhRPZe0E
619Please respect copyright.PENANAKzed14SFIa
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」619Please respect copyright.PENANANW8Gv7ZxmA
619Please respect copyright.PENANAxxhCusfj4d
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。619Please respect copyright.PENANAt0ZS9k6GSu
619Please respect copyright.PENANAW3lP8Bdobu
「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」619Please respect copyright.PENANAIIfsMt50pe
619Please respect copyright.PENANAPvfQeMn9ZB
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。619Please respect copyright.PENANAWrBRsiArs0
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。619Please respect copyright.PENANAxFJZEsGPWO
619Please respect copyright.PENANAXqdqlRN0o1
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。619Please respect copyright.PENANAWpr270ksXf
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然後再次坐好。619Please respect copyright.PENANA0hcyldTOVo
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「陸……傾兒。」619Please respect copyright.PENANAmWC1jsWH4f
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。619Please respect copyright.PENANAax7eeUzhNP
619Please respect copyright.PENANA9o6BXYPPn8
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。619Please respect copyright.PENANAYbGK3CIRtG
619Please respect copyright.PENANAalTV2cM61C
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。619Please respect copyright.PENANA4XVu9JpVzq
619Please respect copyright.PENANABXorHXoltn
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。619Please respect copyright.PENANAOk0n4PXLgG
619Please respect copyright.PENANAicLd1rzVRZ
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。619Please respect copyright.PENANA61rTqHDvOf
619Please respect copyright.PENANAcJ5fI94QTc
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?619Please respect copyright.PENANADS4r3RuqR4
619Please respect copyright.PENANAqGG16qLg0f
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。619Please respect copyright.PENANA7a3h7lU2WR
619Please respect copyright.PENANA6VTRPqXs0M
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。619Please respect copyright.PENANAxTv0EomB7S
619Please respect copyright.PENANA3AQQKWWeAo
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。619Please respect copyright.PENANAcvqtw2lOB8
619Please respect copyright.PENANAIhcDs6AXno
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。619Please respect copyright.PENANAwIbk4dIdLr
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。619Please respect copyright.PENANA0PLAQHW5ji
619Please respect copyright.PENANAidwvSlYpxf
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。619Please respect copyright.PENANAbfEEPlIEMh
619Please respect copyright.PENANANs8d5f7jet
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。619Please respect copyright.PENANA9P7JyaAjuI
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。619Please respect copyright.PENANAYtPUyZDiNa
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。619Please respect copyright.PENANAo9p5BeCzo1
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那麼,我呢?619Please respect copyright.PENANARd1HpPuKVm
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?619Please respect copyright.PENANAxIBStVGbvo
619Please respect copyright.PENANAvgDRu6Gr6i
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。619Please respect copyright.PENANAofcMA8c6jJ
619Please respect copyright.PENANA9PjQ2ORjSb
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。619Please respect copyright.PENANAtWYBaNbyF2
619Please respect copyright.PENANAD7T0ptO392
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。619Please respect copyright.PENANAZRYf3cxzm4
619Please respect copyright.PENANARstz0Qpmv3
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。619Please respect copyright.PENANA25hFpwmanr
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。619Please respect copyright.PENANAZThsG3nLvP
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 619Please respect copyright.PENANAzR7tGilw45
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 619Please respect copyright.PENANAmjb6gt114G
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。619Please respect copyright.PENANA86U8C55KJL
619Please respect copyright.PENANAIomQjSVoxY
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」619Please respect copyright.PENANA06ANbrnIBg
619Please respect copyright.PENANA7E06DVd2SL
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」619Please respect copyright.PENANAlBNwLeXstE
619Please respect copyright.PENANAJoUfTJeEXM
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」619Please respect copyright.PENANAhIQsD2Pal4
619Please respect copyright.PENANAFqEACkVray
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」619Please respect copyright.PENANATXcllZ9k5c
619Please respect copyright.PENANAnAI0a5psWG
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。619Please respect copyright.PENANApQSe3521fA
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」619Please respect copyright.PENANA09G4BzVItk
619Please respect copyright.PENANA4TWHiZapOV
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。619Please respect copyright.PENANAkVJE12dcdy
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。619Please respect copyright.PENANATtdrcTGusc
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。619Please respect copyright.PENANAjCjlL8gJDo
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。619Please respect copyright.PENANAnae62Zwty2
619Please respect copyright.PENANAvVLEk6jD4s
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?619Please respect copyright.PENANA8hTtAY3WaS
619Please respect copyright.PENANAiS1SMwUJqc
我期待著。619Please respect copyright.PENANArdDUTheoc9
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。619Please respect copyright.PENANAnOXHHPivCc
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。619Please respect copyright.PENANAbWUOUwvvLg
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。619Please respect copyright.PENANAVcVk82240D
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」619Please respect copyright.PENANAxhfSdzYzDp
619Please respect copyright.PENANAXj8oEnenUF
「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。619Please respect copyright.PENANAFtsHhuYWjj
619Please respect copyright.PENANA6mXOuQpoAl
「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」619Please respect copyright.PENANAILj6I7n8Zh
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。619Please respect copyright.PENANATDvmD8BBsb
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。619Please respect copyright.PENANAFVrWREhCsm
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傾耳以待——619Please respect copyright.PENANAepf8BHrmLX
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」619Please respect copyright.PENANAzRAHlHiL7N
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。619Please respect copyright.PENANAUY9Emsd3mD
619Please respect copyright.PENANA4bfNrPQlw1
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。619Please respect copyright.PENANAYjSzcwmwW6
619Please respect copyright.PENANAdPNpl6Pbu2
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。619Please respect copyright.PENANAK5NLo6ETTT
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」619Please respect copyright.PENANAKKnqoQu0PO
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身體傾後,躺了下來。619Please respect copyright.PENANATJ8VzKgKZH
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「係諗住攤。」619Please respect copyright.PENANAVUDNMAJCkm
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。619Please respect copyright.PENANAb3KSEcXYYa
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。619Please respect copyright.PENANA0iUv9fiBnX
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