我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujuWrvEmUk
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SPIAt1gic
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「咬下——」明白了。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0qbdv1RkU
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcTWvSovDD
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx80Wl37ke7
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSHkOAPOpu
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封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgZYMghBwf
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神是不是故意的？654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hAjTASLuu
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCJd2E4eBe
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMChb8s7eF
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7k60rbhyn
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRdN1fPFi9
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DxLgeRcMR
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBbRWPPPnV
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd86C46Go9X
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1DIMXLNJp
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Sp85fWjvK
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7FyqnyKiG
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BC6GXx1Yj
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLM8D2NcbY
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGeOwiwxjQ
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkyrlqvKrI
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsJ2TkmPqN
「唔好再講喇。」我說。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18dBmsxPS2
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZyJlWhBtV
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3t4lo6Qu0
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然後我沒有再阻止她。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8AUVzIdPQ
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhE00VmFX6B
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLI0DNPUcD
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聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBb5OBEAXi
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvvQZMR63e
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOojMqacwD
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLamf3g2wq
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxKsCYpa14
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除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jmYIxIOrC
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRZD4G35pP
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUzt55ar5I
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgZ3xE3uAC
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7mXK4fzfc
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXaw6EXG8d
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1hsk2TuNP
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTlupSoMrw
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZD39IjQevh
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVg6kUOiv1
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PjCBUjyCt
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mXA7pkNsF
我也正在難過。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXfE787ggG
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90t1ITBbMf
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0P6yaTENIY
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiC7yO27kP
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDlsxuvZc8
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjd7Zofjt4C
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「點解？」她問。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycustfz3p4
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32PsjYA6F2
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpJPBUmnnp
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrh4OOvKTc8
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqBmAzvaL4
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ehTmkxlwr
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDF4wvFgU7
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwbZqLEXyi
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMBo7z7WFR
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT95sN7eIiR
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvbtBts6Hr
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VG8Oezhka
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHWLHEE1dk
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkc1AcSNYRV
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnik6j9k3Fp
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這是……什麼爛方法？654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPruvFFxlI5
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMboYn9ha3M
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3FYQf8leZ
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nWjnNdRTH
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiT9w5zXha
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFf7P3uPSXx
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHv5W4EXRx
「咩條件？」她問。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFT0lqgjDCe
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡig3Nckcz4I
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSSmX4YT8r
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4xB2RjsDd
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvVInwCKBX
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVno7iTl4cm
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKbgax8djD
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi95bdXp7nK
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpVyfS6kRD
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtELSJDvGXD
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRzaUVttQs
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDzohaJkVU
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMF1Y94vg0
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGFdOhVtc1
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFtX5pIw9V
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9gPeBxltZ
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeNGNh5cHP
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTiuyTAdFg
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuPPV6sjKq
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2WJrM6C7N
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHTjqDXrRL
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xEeNpC7zY
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWsxqiIY8z
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeUFrFowSg
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAZII02LMi
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjWd1b8zYK
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodNXG4RtCJ
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdybGgtEm2
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKnsP5FBwO
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDBlMSjVLD
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLzF9JLENZ
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOlCzstWyE
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5r9ENw2Ax7
說完，她聽完。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryHIrsLMoV
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6auTvlgXa9
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPn89zUUdey
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9k60AuXSl
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5tWoko96n
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvXARSq1jK
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNYhkqmk8d
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5T5z3xdJg
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ryubPHkmL
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Zlox7My7u
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl26GSl5m0O
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHnWmNFrgE
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLI0ftgY8Q5
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASCIX5ZKzH
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgVxs2wCOD
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4bqP1EzTI
「陸傾兒……」我說。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lOWSG0GZq
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgX2i12lxo
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8WDngVuWh
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnsSy6lgyx
「揀咩都得？」我問。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ap4q85Xlb
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvzs4arSZH
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigMaqRlqOa
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQOiJyKEaA
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoawory4pe
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0DA7P6gy8
而我不懂回答。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZj7uCNEgm
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLR0gvdXtf
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFK1Jq3pmUq
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE5MfBRv4lr
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmSMMQ3Pel
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYacqa2ify0
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2X8YI02kY0
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gtJHOOQFp
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxZrGeV1N5
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD673pupluj
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡac1VbvQOf3
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fhhuDXNt7
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTIySugl1t
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9p73wKNER
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytm4PPEAfO
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAOTfaSfPZ
過後——654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0CwjODeXZ
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXIvQUAfwX
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOn9e786LE
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNr06Ws47bk
屁股坐下。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRMJop9Av0
654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIGnFKWQ0E
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。654Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4xgMBUluq
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