我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。671Please respect copyright.PENANAoc2cEfziF1
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看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。671Please respect copyright.PENANA9PKfBtqZqU
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背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。671Please respect copyright.PENANAVKDm5j1k2Z
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奈何,心頭一樣沉重。671Please respect copyright.PENANAy1JImqMRxn
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走進了屋邨商場。671Please respect copyright.PENANAedmEovI8nN
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剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。671Please respect copyright.PENANA7DCyurKhqZ
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其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。671Please respect copyright.PENANAdk4oEr13Cp
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看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。671Please respect copyright.PENANALZb3FFN7qS
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我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。671Please respect copyright.PENANAejXxEWBgZD
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曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。671Please respect copyright.PENANAvQcDK7rYNT
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只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。671Please respect copyright.PENANAQKcezGyO39
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那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。671Please respect copyright.PENANAt3ee63tEd2
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果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。671Please respect copyright.PENANAUFhPGGL5rv
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陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。671Please respect copyright.PENANAMuGtKQlv0C
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兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。671Please respect copyright.PENANAIfc1uIcKF0
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我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——671Please respect copyright.PENANA9U3Tl2xktZ
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她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。671Please respect copyright.PENANAxoBLnnWnD1
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當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。671Please respect copyright.PENANAk9FZJ5Pwte
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腳步還是能動。671Please respect copyright.PENANAC89ZWdnbNi
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。671Please respect copyright.PENANAah6N4oSjYa
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直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……671Please respect copyright.PENANAqtpqybsSZ4
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腳步才轉向離去。671Please respect copyright.PENANAl4EiiRL5dr
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眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。671Please respect copyright.PENANAnOZdHiqo6D
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然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。671Please respect copyright.PENANAMj6A5TVfU6
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途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。671Please respect copyright.PENANAIcCojPuanC
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但是已經不再重要。671Please respect copyright.PENANASGpEBtZZ3r
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她騙了我。671Please respect copyright.PENANAFCeDc4fy1D
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她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。671Please respect copyright.PENANAR8THd5Bmqy
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第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。671Please respect copyright.PENANAw1OxFlSClO
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她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。671Please respect copyright.PENANANk00FNz0MB
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有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。671Please respect copyright.PENANARI4rHJx7DP
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我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。671Please respect copyright.PENANAkASAGapgJn
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我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。671Please respect copyright.PENANAVmwq3oglko
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但我錯了。671Please respect copyright.PENANAIo5WST9Jl4
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錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。671Please respect copyright.PENANAjMUZ4dO4qk
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我辜負了她,成為了人渣。671Please respect copyright.PENANA4axKLEJZpD
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眼下——671Please respect copyright.PENANAPgR9RfuMfH
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那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。671Please respect copyright.PENANACK1RxLElQ1
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陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。671Please respect copyright.PENANAhd7kqkIV3p
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但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。671Please respect copyright.PENANAGCaOtGPVH5
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我能夠再承受一次嗎?671Please respect copyright.PENANAi9mWydYzEn
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可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。671Please respect copyright.PENANAgFzV2VLuox
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我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。671Please respect copyright.PENANAMkjAii3Zph
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「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。671Please respect copyright.PENANANO7mbvuTzW
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孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。671Please respect copyright.PENANA7kbfFUPpH8
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我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。671Please respect copyright.PENANAIzVaorZVV4
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是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。671Please respect copyright.PENANACrthaotB2x
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有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。671Please respect copyright.PENANAe5l4Nc6UFc
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我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。671Please respect copyright.PENANAbvyhw1h3dZ
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還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。671Please respect copyright.PENANABmdqhu5XVg
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神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……671Please respect copyright.PENANApRYvgQFYiZ
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我樂意代勞的。671Please respect copyright.PENANA1CueJomOQO
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到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。671Please respect copyright.PENANA1GoI7FJy8A
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我馬上看看後座的乘客——671Please respect copyright.PENANAcXQxbSdm4v
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不是陸傾兒和蔣少。671Please respect copyright.PENANAQul3ADsE28
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我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?671Please respect copyright.PENANAUQSOpNPCCy
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坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。671Please respect copyright.PENANAOT9KKnepH1
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在下午等待至日落——671Please respect copyright.PENANAcOawnpnEnu
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這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。671Please respect copyright.PENANAQn8rZWgxss
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在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。671Please respect copyright.PENANAV0nBqJeQBd
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「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」671Please respect copyright.PENANAispehYTb2E
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他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。671Please respect copyright.PENANAvnyT5p6VD4
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「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。671Please respect copyright.PENANAlvJYdkfKMz
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操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。671Please respect copyright.PENANAq9THQ8e2oU
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我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。671Please respect copyright.PENANAnalMi1u5bw
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「嘭——」也是不進。671Please respect copyright.PENANAUsem67YrrO
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抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。671Please respect copyright.PENANAocfQIZkqUP
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漸漸出現晚霞。671Please respect copyright.PENANAyNsEKTfsYw
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回去吧。671Please respect copyright.PENANAJHIBbq9mcY
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在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。671Please respect copyright.PENANAFOf5XzXyHR
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我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。671Please respect copyright.PENANAimsDz8ZklJ
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沒有收獲,只好先行回去。671Please respect copyright.PENANAABxx5h9LC3
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背著書包,累然站起——671Please respect copyright.PENANA37ZpDqEFyL
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手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」671Please respect copyright.PENANAgDfrxPLqG2
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這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。671Please respect copyright.PENANAjbim96ffFu
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最後,舉起手。671Please respect copyright.PENANAiOnYf4MmXz
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「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。671Please respect copyright.PENANAPSMpiKIkjY
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* * *671Please respect copyright.PENANANzEIIxGzhQ
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乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。671Please respect copyright.PENANA0hZ4CMaprF
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萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。671Please respect copyright.PENANA0BDBrMZt0n
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進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。671Please respect copyright.PENANAAyMFfkLZRf
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今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。671Please respect copyright.PENANACnUMxYH6Gi
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便點了一盅湯,配白飯。671Please respect copyright.PENANA8a0XO3zpgk
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對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。671Please respect copyright.PENANADJdeFHTtil
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小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。671Please respect copyright.PENANA2TTOtgXf3L
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我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。671Please respect copyright.PENANAwnzhTESrZU
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。671Please respect copyright.PENANAm64lsO9rTO
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我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。671Please respect copyright.PENANApcriuf824Q
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這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。671Please respect copyright.PENANA4WB5R0ZlED
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在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。671Please respect copyright.PENANAGtsc79WI7Q
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偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。671Please respect copyright.PENANAJjoFk0Sm8I
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流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。671Please respect copyright.PENANA448whL6At8
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流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。671Please respect copyright.PENANAM9iQtLTskl
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頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。671Please respect copyright.PENANAxkA9qFOkLF
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「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。671Please respect copyright.PENANAuTAoEZmPSk
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雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。671Please respect copyright.PENANAQSviMIJb8A
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這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。671Please respect copyright.PENANAXvvqdZY3TD
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那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……671Please respect copyright.PENANASEUdGveyjT
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——放大瞳孔。671Please respect copyright.PENANA2SsIIAvhx5
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。671Please respect copyright.PENANAdgYtvNxQgr
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手機就在我的褲袋。671Please respect copyright.PENANAy5R5diqjdr
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有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。671Please respect copyright.PENANAqQDZLigscn
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陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。671Please respect copyright.PENANAfajpL1c2pD
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阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。671Please respect copyright.PENANAoWHlDkkdwN
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在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。671Please respect copyright.PENANAY7tRqrG3x0
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那麼,打嗎?671Please respect copyright.PENANAWHi9m9r44H
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打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。671Please respect copyright.PENANAVGRTRsX3Le
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還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?671Please respect copyright.PENANA1nxONreHVJ
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定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?671Please respect copyright.PENANAiA72D7YElx
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我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。671Please respect copyright.PENANAyEmcr9njxf
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對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。671Please respect copyright.PENANA6X0nXdx0ld
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幾度拿出手機的我——671Please respect copyright.PENANATxoGUsH3Fn
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算吧。671Please respect copyright.PENANAB5X63psa9s
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把手機放回褲袋。671Please respect copyright.PENANAEqchrtygcT
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「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。671Please respect copyright.PENANAHp21x9Rvno
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「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。671Please respect copyright.PENANAlKtIZ0iDcY
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最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。671Please respect copyright.PENANAp55SI8gLsz
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