這算什麼?631Please respect copyright.PENANAeI5FXYnGyG
631Please respect copyright.PENANADefzJDgA6l
突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。631Please respect copyright.PENANARiuaThKijZ
631Please respect copyright.PENANAAJs4VhuUrN
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。631Please respect copyright.PENANAjflhAxmMDe
631Please respect copyright.PENANAC5d2GhWOpY
說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。631Please respect copyright.PENANA8m8esUmw9x
631Please respect copyright.PENANAw9nNMTmCoH
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。631Please respect copyright.PENANAVBDf8LNciR
631Please respect copyright.PENANAJNbjg6GMWZ
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。631Please respect copyright.PENANAOsIkiwqcUk
631Please respect copyright.PENANAqOiW4uZ6pZ
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。631Please respect copyright.PENANAt00QfvenMG
631Please respect copyright.PENANAbF0IwjvvgH
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。631Please respect copyright.PENANA5VW0QzcizB
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然後便準備下山了。631Please respect copyright.PENANASOanHwGoZN
631Please respect copyright.PENANAV4LAsbAXAP
「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。631Please respect copyright.PENANAfQ9kQ6sra9
631Please respect copyright.PENANAPAfZMHvAwp
「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。631Please respect copyright.PENANAgUIQqJ47Zo
631Please respect copyright.PENANAWrNnJ1ciwK
我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」631Please respect copyright.PENANAX9IDd15d8v
631Please respect copyright.PENANAD1mqG3GcQf
一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。631Please respect copyright.PENANAr8iMtoqr6Y
631Please respect copyright.PENANAX643Jn9ydR
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。631Please respect copyright.PENANASlkKCTWiD1
631Please respect copyright.PENANANkoJonsHKf
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。631Please respect copyright.PENANAb1aTz0CRDd
631Please respect copyright.PENANAyIW6FxeXij
雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。631Please respect copyright.PENANAGN6mgt60Y2
631Please respect copyright.PENANA7xfMPRihYP
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。631Please respect copyright.PENANAgJ69NPLRSA
631Please respect copyright.PENANAcmagkC7Zuk
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」631Please respect copyright.PENANAYajNpjFQYq
631Please respect copyright.PENANArfPfvtHxyv
不會告訴我,又一天了。631Please respect copyright.PENANAboU3RXBypE
631Please respect copyright.PENANAjDHo7vLL6u
在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。631Please respect copyright.PENANA41tM0yKutL
631Please respect copyright.PENANAr4px0pcEXl
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。631Please respect copyright.PENANAAqJbzCOXTi
631Please respect copyright.PENANAsvYyAreeIH
現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。631Please respect copyright.PENANAqDQBgVPpEG
631Please respect copyright.PENANAEe4j1flVCI
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。631Please respect copyright.PENANA91cEiEZnYb
631Please respect copyright.PENANA4lAy9Zlnm0
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。631Please respect copyright.PENANAo5G33yNMGw
631Please respect copyright.PENANAHXqYGkRM10
「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」631Please respect copyright.PENANAJQ9gQ0FzgS
631Please respect copyright.PENANATFr0swvk5u
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。631Please respect copyright.PENANAGWYm6D8JK2
631Please respect copyright.PENANAcqzhBuEY9H
但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。631Please respect copyright.PENANAv6ukJkrPnC
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怎麼說呢?631Please respect copyright.PENANADzrZ61AVcx
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。631Please respect copyright.PENANA3pwTZkBWpC
631Please respect copyright.PENANA9j5YD8ugKK
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。631Please respect copyright.PENANAe8NTVmpeo7
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。631Please respect copyright.PENANAeFfqS6kw9F
631Please respect copyright.PENANA643pZyLEOp
那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。631Please respect copyright.PENANAqFwouMaL9H
631Please respect copyright.PENANADvac8r29uH
「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。631Please respect copyright.PENANAKjd05KEaP5
631Please respect copyright.PENANAZbQlspmXS7
「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。631Please respect copyright.PENANAR2TFw5KZfA
631Please respect copyright.PENANAk6YyMJgc1h
我再點頭。631Please respect copyright.PENANAjaP0GBKyHj
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。631Please respect copyright.PENANA5wuyRaYOhn
631Please respect copyright.PENANACRZAY5w8Yh
一天完了,有一個記號「END」。631Please respect copyright.PENANAXCbHs9SHmA
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我馬上看第二天。631Please respect copyright.PENANAQchOx0hzAc
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。631Please respect copyright.PENANA8A1fq4KeEX
631Please respect copyright.PENANA6NDID6FXzI
在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。631Please respect copyright.PENANAYvXUiKY0hb
631Please respect copyright.PENANATUnJWWxgmr
在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……631Please respect copyright.PENANAe7RLVIzJOH
631Please respect copyright.PENANAIcxRyOo2KR
聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。631Please respect copyright.PENANArijB17HvXS
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」631Please respect copyright.PENANAj8HqfxotvE
631Please respect copyright.PENANA5XF28wSk6S
「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」631Please respect copyright.PENANA0JmMJd67vJ
631Please respect copyright.PENANAXOd1GEGmPF
第二天「END」出現。631Please respect copyright.PENANA3mUr4YfRUD
631Please respect copyright.PENANAAxPivHlE16
我蓋上了練習簿。631Please respect copyright.PENANAC6U7xDFa5L
631Please respect copyright.PENANA8qFZ5TS3hV
雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。631Please respect copyright.PENANAeDEbYlPkg8
631Please respect copyright.PENANA000eyDYSiJ
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?631Please respect copyright.PENANA7s0bdDLCga
631Please respect copyright.PENANANK8gjLwN0S
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。631Please respect copyright.PENANAbAV2JK2Pgo
631Please respect copyright.PENANAwIuffohhbE
問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。631Please respect copyright.PENANAgxog9aAlco
631Please respect copyright.PENANA35gnUsAjr4
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。631Please respect copyright.PENANArXUcWAxsD4
631Please respect copyright.PENANATvbGn91JFe
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。631Please respect copyright.PENANAq75IwRQU4N
631Please respect copyright.PENANAyfZdg22lKA
有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。631Please respect copyright.PENANAmgkeg7XurP
631Please respect copyright.PENANAJtfJF8lvQg
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?631Please respect copyright.PENANA0XtAmIqNec
631Please respect copyright.PENANAKMzu6MJaIF
剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。631Please respect copyright.PENANAIw4wfLa81U
631Please respect copyright.PENANAoiNgzeMd08
只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。631Please respect copyright.PENANAU5MMuUMx71
631Please respect copyright.PENANAHIaHCXMzA7
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」631Please respect copyright.PENANAI1UMEf7cLX
631Please respect copyright.PENANA2Nep84E3QE
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。631Please respect copyright.PENANAxqiRd1pgHZ
631Please respect copyright.PENANA4uhlvTl4Gd
「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」631Please respect copyright.PENANAn4BiSJhDR5
631Please respect copyright.PENANAMBADhr3ySD
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。631Please respect copyright.PENANAu1lAYZJ06r
631Please respect copyright.PENANALPyhT13i1N
放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。631Please respect copyright.PENANAGzx5jtiA9G
631Please respect copyright.PENANAUupjVyb9eW
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。631Please respect copyright.PENANAYQG1TVvXhu
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然後再次坐好。631Please respect copyright.PENANAmYFTr7FGN8
631Please respect copyright.PENANA2iNKhXy7gY
「陸……傾兒。」631Please respect copyright.PENANAJnU77BsfW5
631Please respect copyright.PENANAWNtiGZDAZY
這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。631Please respect copyright.PENANAF75jMc8bvm
631Please respect copyright.PENANAoQpIjQc7RP
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。631Please respect copyright.PENANAKMrjiwRtZy
631Please respect copyright.PENANAf7AAYnyrhH
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。631Please respect copyright.PENANAOibicHMzPX
631Please respect copyright.PENANAp6INolvH3J
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。631Please respect copyright.PENANA3Nq0W9FIHu
631Please respect copyright.PENANAwr31g0ldgd
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。631Please respect copyright.PENANArXXRIS6lwK
631Please respect copyright.PENANAyqHmWzTJNo
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?631Please respect copyright.PENANAr8JgD4FhLe
631Please respect copyright.PENANA07PFkjUSzs
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。631Please respect copyright.PENANAfrXHLRPN7s
631Please respect copyright.PENANAUUqGEOVkAd
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。631Please respect copyright.PENANAAhnkPKRqDB
631Please respect copyright.PENANA1WRBOvu7Fy
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。631Please respect copyright.PENANAgUbjTKRWme
631Please respect copyright.PENANAy6aWSREseI
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。631Please respect copyright.PENANARbk8ErSsAq
631Please respect copyright.PENANAFCoCdvRbOM
雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。631Please respect copyright.PENANAnBlY5GrSiI
631Please respect copyright.PENANAFYr9v9YYc1
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。631Please respect copyright.PENANA424Oy77wZd
631Please respect copyright.PENANAR2HZCPXXoQ
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。631Please respect copyright.PENANAA37V7zXeOZ
631Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6H8nZVXwc
所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。631Please respect copyright.PENANAbrhruMzItP
631Please respect copyright.PENANAiHxzjJzmm1
只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。631Please respect copyright.PENANA2sSPmDxXkm
631Please respect copyright.PENANA19dC7HCYPk
那麼,我呢?631Please respect copyright.PENANA9bu3fiyqyc
631Please respect copyright.PENANAdIzWXbTW3X
我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?631Please respect copyright.PENANAWJeAEyYfUf
631Please respect copyright.PENANAc8KjoqD15Q
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。631Please respect copyright.PENANA8PT6DKG43T
631Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6fSDPtklx
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。631Please respect copyright.PENANA8dZtfARVud
631Please respect copyright.PENANAzY1Dx74Bbn
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。631Please respect copyright.PENANAPaBv6RzC72
631Please respect copyright.PENANA4uXEfO3BGO
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。631Please respect copyright.PENANAQeuOIE20tu
631Please respect copyright.PENANA3l9rTLBakp
屁股坐在扁平岩石上。631Please respect copyright.PENANAGDmHcKVU4O
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 631Please respect copyright.PENANAsRyh8oUkGx
631Please respect copyright.PENANArVzGlSpiTk
最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 631Please respect copyright.PENANAI0L6LZJPYc
631Please respect copyright.PENANAKLteK7khAU
「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。631Please respect copyright.PENANAPEYWwwVr7A
631Please respect copyright.PENANA5yKgtTL183
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」631Please respect copyright.PENANAXXphMh78XF
631Please respect copyright.PENANA3iCOe080X6
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」631Please respect copyright.PENANArkQTjXsMlG
631Please respect copyright.PENANAUXqIVOrkJR
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」631Please respect copyright.PENANAO7m8Xw1puj
631Please respect copyright.PENANAMlWvSh5WB0
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」631Please respect copyright.PENANA06BKnRwzCe
631Please respect copyright.PENANA5YHzx4deXn
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。631Please respect copyright.PENANAoFC8wQLJs1
631Please respect copyright.PENANAgViBKo28dJ
「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」631Please respect copyright.PENANAcccoS5Sh2A
631Please respect copyright.PENANAjsgtNM5r0o
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。631Please respect copyright.PENANAUog4554C6a
631Please respect copyright.PENANAifaMal98od
「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。631Please respect copyright.PENANAJpUl5PAXQ1
631Please respect copyright.PENANAhd3PMGhQAM
不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。631Please respect copyright.PENANAxykdEuQCna
631Please respect copyright.PENANALTMM5b8cwZ
我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。631Please respect copyright.PENANAYNI1RdoN2b
631Please respect copyright.PENANA13diDx0RxU
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?631Please respect copyright.PENANADioyOPp944
631Please respect copyright.PENANA9Mj9yHs9Ik
我期待著。631Please respect copyright.PENANACMBrxgrOSZ
631Please respect copyright.PENANANrGHMlEHNt
——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。631Please respect copyright.PENANAK89m8WSvzb
631Please respect copyright.PENANAb3wTimnuOQ
「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。631Please respect copyright.PENANAdEDoZihrIc
631Please respect copyright.PENANA0e0a4s0oFJ
祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。631Please respect copyright.PENANAGm5f59HUBD
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」631Please respect copyright.PENANAPtqKokOeJX
631Please respect copyright.PENANANhXbYKReZf
「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。631Please respect copyright.PENANAQrf6mNCFdX
631Please respect copyright.PENANADjSUnrIPfb
「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」631Please respect copyright.PENANALRGV3P7yxF
631Please respect copyright.PENANA3wajDMgfNQ
「好,咁我去喇。」我說。631Please respect copyright.PENANASHACWCWrgy
631Please respect copyright.PENANAX3sV4BExwq
「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。631Please respect copyright.PENANAc9kgPIermk
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傾耳以待——631Please respect copyright.PENANAbHFqispdUT
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」631Please respect copyright.PENANAzIGZhsJlzY
631Please respect copyright.PENANAdRwD2xlvhC
「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。631Please respect copyright.PENANA9NBhGKp8tK
631Please respect copyright.PENANAbaAYfWexjP
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。631Please respect copyright.PENANA1V5jAQkxeA
631Please respect copyright.PENANA0OL3acSg5F
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。631Please respect copyright.PENANAr1fk0RTXkr
631Please respect copyright.PENANAs3RIMNamdo
「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」631Please respect copyright.PENANAVKBekuMb9k
631Please respect copyright.PENANAveYptSqgaB
身體傾後,躺了下來。631Please respect copyright.PENANAstPpdnbYZl
631Please respect copyright.PENANALFVJR0GUSr
「係諗住攤。」631Please respect copyright.PENANACckQcq2erM
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。631Please respect copyright.PENANAnX2hPFu7Ge
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