這算什麼?621Please respect copyright.PENANAJVCtU4AreF
621Please respect copyright.PENANAV3upKCx3GV
突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。621Please respect copyright.PENANAo5KgU92IqO
621Please respect copyright.PENANAJZO97fCjxD
說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。621Please respect copyright.PENANAngbEc1VCbt
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。621Please respect copyright.PENANAtziWKelZwu
621Please respect copyright.PENANAcw6mkc4yL7
說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。621Please respect copyright.PENANAmLTnZbStH4
621Please respect copyright.PENANAz0Pfuv8DmI
神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。621Please respect copyright.PENANAmCh5Rdj67A
621Please respect copyright.PENANAT1dhjkh0yi
我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。621Please respect copyright.PENANArLso44bgWo
621Please respect copyright.PENANAJsdbZJLedl
走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。621Please respect copyright.PENANAcliBi4YIVU
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然後便準備下山了。621Please respect copyright.PENANAQNdrmPYx0H
621Please respect copyright.PENANACBIFqueYJr
「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。621Please respect copyright.PENANAlGUsuNj0Ge
621Please respect copyright.PENANAvnolFQ9dep
「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。621Please respect copyright.PENANAEaFv7brS2E
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」621Please respect copyright.PENANAxYHPzFy7mn
621Please respect copyright.PENANAZk5EY18AVX
一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。621Please respect copyright.PENANABsOiFpJU6i
621Please respect copyright.PENANAMeQ1SuIelR
到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。621Please respect copyright.PENANApkg1DBEzJK
621Please respect copyright.PENANAyevVt7mehe
樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。621Please respect copyright.PENANAGaUT2ocQeL
621Please respect copyright.PENANAaPpj5bVg2p
雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。621Please respect copyright.PENANAXqxSOgqCaW
621Please respect copyright.PENANAtuIXN9SYY6
裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。621Please respect copyright.PENANA9TjzNdvXYw
621Please respect copyright.PENANAkmUProrJjM
養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」621Please respect copyright.PENANAdSHtyFMGWF
621Please respect copyright.PENANAovXaK2qwgm
不會告訴我,又一天了。621Please respect copyright.PENANACGjNZI8arX
621Please respect copyright.PENANAzLd85qGhRu
在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。621Please respect copyright.PENANA7ZpPNizZ3k
621Please respect copyright.PENANASdbeFi7bkL
我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。621Please respect copyright.PENANAfjkDqJZ3Tu
621Please respect copyright.PENANAmWnT5clkwf
現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。621Please respect copyright.PENANAqTgwXsX7at
621Please respect copyright.PENANAEC5d4ZrtPr
我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。621Please respect copyright.PENANAsG3IIlavCE
621Please respect copyright.PENANAr9Gply0a4q
靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。621Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6R8dhBsEM
621Please respect copyright.PENANALdIpYvdIQZ
「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」621Please respect copyright.PENANApZa0AUeEtM
621Please respect copyright.PENANAIWMK0Llimx
摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。621Please respect copyright.PENANAiSDQvXi0DQ
621Please respect copyright.PENANAI5xS68zXVv
但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。621Please respect copyright.PENANA47JreOd7iz
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怎麼說呢?621Please respect copyright.PENANAUrey5gYgMi
621Please respect copyright.PENANAbkbIz7OP8w
本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。621Please respect copyright.PENANACtsuhQXu6Y
621Please respect copyright.PENANAZsgIehzndi
「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。621Please respect copyright.PENANAAFJARhebKD
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。621Please respect copyright.PENANAxAttR9nBfO
621Please respect copyright.PENANAICnOHk5uOR
那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。621Please respect copyright.PENANAWISZtZX0vr
621Please respect copyright.PENANAbIkiS1psO0
「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。621Please respect copyright.PENANA6iWjsZDBYR
621Please respect copyright.PENANAl9EvwPZ6fJ
「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。621Please respect copyright.PENANAcYzuIZlDlQ
621Please respect copyright.PENANAAGlphV8xql
我再點頭。621Please respect copyright.PENANAdH3fWZsM6Q
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。621Please respect copyright.PENANAqhQwVmFszV
621Please respect copyright.PENANAC1aU5wZ8kW
一天完了,有一個記號「END」。621Please respect copyright.PENANAbn4xPvYUEw
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我馬上看第二天。621Please respect copyright.PENANA0zsIyxx3ci
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。621Please respect copyright.PENANALHKOaeyBIM
621Please respect copyright.PENANAffkc1fIl0q
在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。621Please respect copyright.PENANA9zZI9axf6x
621Please respect copyright.PENANA0zWKLZKkkl
在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……621Please respect copyright.PENANAfenzSZ89mb
621Please respect copyright.PENANAI2TBjdYeXL
聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。621Please respect copyright.PENANAmoN3o3Au9b
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」621Please respect copyright.PENANAf0lJIYya4Y
621Please respect copyright.PENANAswyDbt7pA7
「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」621Please respect copyright.PENANA8Pela5xA5y
621Please respect copyright.PENANAwPoATai8x8
第二天「END」出現。621Please respect copyright.PENANA4zLvSlrYDy
621Please respect copyright.PENANAPbQ4rZXRM1
我蓋上了練習簿。621Please respect copyright.PENANAWMza0afK9j
621Please respect copyright.PENANASeCETPOSB7
雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。621Please respect copyright.PENANAfNNJISearZ
621Please respect copyright.PENANAdFebvenyyX
如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?621Please respect copyright.PENANABA235zFjHl
621Please respect copyright.PENANAWd4JqYlckZ
深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。621Please respect copyright.PENANA2NKh9yNzVM
621Please respect copyright.PENANAe8rh8sWGRF
問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。621Please respect copyright.PENANAXCfa0funq3
621Please respect copyright.PENANAhtSoNV50QO
活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。621Please respect copyright.PENANAI0mEzSKAD0
621Please respect copyright.PENANAyZPazowKNm
但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。621Please respect copyright.PENANAHLSeOeq58P
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。621Please respect copyright.PENANAv3cSATutTE
621Please respect copyright.PENANAuOlKfz6wuL
我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?621Please respect copyright.PENANA6w6bP0nDJN
621Please respect copyright.PENANAf2tvxM8Ifo
剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。621Please respect copyright.PENANASe5KQketkb
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。621Please respect copyright.PENANAlEzN4PrY59
621Please respect copyright.PENANAOxaeKFJEzv
「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」621Please respect copyright.PENANAUHowp9volL
621Please respect copyright.PENANAlpdn1IP8Uu
「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。621Please respect copyright.PENANAYRsItLrIFZ
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」621Please respect copyright.PENANAoKiWCYyNv5
621Please respect copyright.PENANACUGcD3pLKV
「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。621Please respect copyright.PENANAKH1vH0Nh8o
621Please respect copyright.PENANAOa1xNijYNv
放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。621Please respect copyright.PENANAlVFxhMFlWy
621Please respect copyright.PENANAi4DUi9wBm7
我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。621Please respect copyright.PENANAhmnjI9pzBp
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然後再次坐好。621Please respect copyright.PENANAxMPWfHLsTf
621Please respect copyright.PENANAHNom2mcIny
「陸……傾兒。」621Please respect copyright.PENANA1Zy3tAUuqw
621Please respect copyright.PENANAMAJFSwQ7NR
這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。621Please respect copyright.PENANAsDv6SAIbaW
621Please respect copyright.PENANAJTct5KIR4W
陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。621Please respect copyright.PENANAJDoeiqpZwi
621Please respect copyright.PENANAeC8n6JatAW
紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。621Please respect copyright.PENANA1mVRrmmVJG
621Please respect copyright.PENANA3iVYjRvd0d
一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。621Please respect copyright.PENANAl17w3F6Umt
621Please respect copyright.PENANAS8u17jQtgg
不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。621Please respect copyright.PENANARA7qtxeR2L
621Please respect copyright.PENANA6FLzwIZTGS
牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?621Please respect copyright.PENANANt5PgUUHJw
621Please respect copyright.PENANARfAkwxB9AS
於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。621Please respect copyright.PENANA06n7v0jOfV
621Please respect copyright.PENANARAdTzx6q53
坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。621Please respect copyright.PENANAk1qVxysOQy
621Please respect copyright.PENANANhAlSlZjWA
山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。621Please respect copyright.PENANAgBxRD5ITjh
621Please respect copyright.PENANAqC6Wg0AMV8
第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。621Please respect copyright.PENANA0DDujus1TE
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。621Please respect copyright.PENANAzd6yjTnHoe
621Please respect copyright.PENANAG8lbm8ltZB
不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。621Please respect copyright.PENANAEqjHfPOr2X
621Please respect copyright.PENANAFncRWjHADI
這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。621Please respect copyright.PENANAuYhT77nKlk
621Please respect copyright.PENANAEOsOxzrcF3
所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。621Please respect copyright.PENANAK2kXub55dZ
621Please respect copyright.PENANAtPx0QhyZg9
只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。621Please respect copyright.PENANAdUAd2iMLFm
621Please respect copyright.PENANAF86v9sjZ7W
那麼,我呢?621Please respect copyright.PENANAy9kkQgKRBi
621Please respect copyright.PENANAewdFimJ9kZ
我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?621Please respect copyright.PENANAS9W2TRQBZt
621Please respect copyright.PENANAwW2CxcDSBb
「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。621Please respect copyright.PENANAXrA42qYmNG
621Please respect copyright.PENANAB93DGLMmgd
我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。621Please respect copyright.PENANA1Px0fgK7w3
621Please respect copyright.PENANAldFQ7EA9P3
「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。621Please respect copyright.PENANArxFajqXyEs
621Please respect copyright.PENANAFU2V0uskvn
「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。621Please respect copyright.PENANAisFyFaB2xZ
621Please respect copyright.PENANAFn4CL2FsK1
屁股坐在扁平岩石上。621Please respect copyright.PENANA5GY1fCAKau
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 621Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZZS4xgjiw
621Please respect copyright.PENANAMkutQPb2Dn
最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 621Please respect copyright.PENANARfFyj9jnCj
621Please respect copyright.PENANANOEQnOYt9I
「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。621Please respect copyright.PENANAIKUkmHb3Sj
621Please respect copyright.PENANAaiklNbu0x2
「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」621Please respect copyright.PENANAfCZVU3vrFk
621Please respect copyright.PENANAXjlpDV7j6Y
「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」621Please respect copyright.PENANAaEGJK6WfmG
621Please respect copyright.PENANAznqrxBzw0O
「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」621Please respect copyright.PENANAehNYa3eDWW
621Please respect copyright.PENANAuzXf3FCX9v
「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」621Please respect copyright.PENANARfcHkemxWQ
621Please respect copyright.PENANAyFiuvTGgJf
「係……係。」神明丁聽著。621Please respect copyright.PENANAVRcJAxUgAg
621Please respect copyright.PENANAZ2NJ7i0GMR
「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」621Please respect copyright.PENANAb8biy6lawO
621Please respect copyright.PENANAN8yQEGI485
「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。621Please respect copyright.PENANAvFW6M57A0Q
621Please respect copyright.PENANAoCrCc8lEpe
「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。621Please respect copyright.PENANAZaJJ01KCEg
621Please respect copyright.PENANAWH25cCVbn6
不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。621Please respect copyright.PENANA7f6nlja6pm
621Please respect copyright.PENANAOQVT5shwkz
我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。621Please respect copyright.PENANAhenLTWqkkp
621Please respect copyright.PENANAZdgYWNO9GD
不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?621Please respect copyright.PENANAZii5KONNqc
621Please respect copyright.PENANAUaVdvjYBmw
我期待著。621Please respect copyright.PENANAMpWrYkUcyU
621Please respect copyright.PENANABiNbYozD39
——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。621Please respect copyright.PENANAlDRm7XpEVU
621Please respect copyright.PENANANMXoaKKnNM
「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。621Please respect copyright.PENANAQweMqnfTkp
621Please respect copyright.PENANA734D6YpVWz
祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。621Please respect copyright.PENANALjj13aU3dQ
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」621Please respect copyright.PENANAICI8Krlh4H
621Please respect copyright.PENANAA0bMFw13nl
「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。621Please respect copyright.PENANA625ySOcsCA
621Please respect copyright.PENANAXUBrDeNqA6
「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」621Please respect copyright.PENANAxmYqCazUoS
621Please respect copyright.PENANA1KaUnnqwbR
「好,咁我去喇。」我說。621Please respect copyright.PENANAO1ydv6R2dq
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。621Please respect copyright.PENANA01X1AY4Y9T
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傾耳以待——621Please respect copyright.PENANATMpZAuqHwZ
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」621Please respect copyright.PENANA9DwnN27jL0
621Please respect copyright.PENANAua0J4dxZJr
「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。621Please respect copyright.PENANAbtK6Gziy5h
621Please respect copyright.PENANAJJsmm8qpeY
聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。621Please respect copyright.PENANAsaZamNkgDZ
621Please respect copyright.PENANAz7yPcBoBFo
「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。621Please respect copyright.PENANAgO0jQtBPN8
621Please respect copyright.PENANAcZvZ31cEpa
「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」621Please respect copyright.PENANALZqWYnFIKl
621Please respect copyright.PENANAVCfx7E8gbB
身體傾後,躺了下來。621Please respect copyright.PENANAKnu3BRb64E
621Please respect copyright.PENANASebrK8TBxf
「係諗住攤。」621Please respect copyright.PENANAjM5u3XmYBe
621Please respect copyright.PENANA9H9aFn8jsL
翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。621Please respect copyright.PENANA92rkTS3RiQ
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。621Please respect copyright.PENANAhhZPygP9Mb
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