這算什麼?706Please respect copyright.PENANAAoarlvk1Cp
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。706Please respect copyright.PENANA2UdFPbZxZr
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。706Please respect copyright.PENANAPeh0Y57hpM
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。706Please respect copyright.PENANAi6M3cR5ovx
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。706Please respect copyright.PENANAsa1CYkW1kX
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神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。706Please respect copyright.PENANAKvwkkWwCDf
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。706Please respect copyright.PENANA3UwI6VMjYV
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走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。706Please respect copyright.PENANA5QbxcmcS5x
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然後便準備下山了。706Please respect copyright.PENANAjSf0vSOXFZ
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。706Please respect copyright.PENANA1rrxuAADDS
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。706Please respect copyright.PENANAUCFdtMuhMA
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」706Please respect copyright.PENANAw57jEcdh5o
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。706Please respect copyright.PENANAVxNTTyQmtz
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。706Please respect copyright.PENANAqWBRXryauN
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樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。706Please respect copyright.PENANAIyb7eY0HW0
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。706Please respect copyright.PENANAbMPmP8iy7D
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裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。706Please respect copyright.PENANAFGrUj18Ynx
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養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」706Please respect copyright.PENANAOisD3ca8Kr
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不會告訴我,又一天了。706Please respect copyright.PENANAaXycoF3Z8u
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。706Please respect copyright.PENANAwEErVUgmCt
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。706Please respect copyright.PENANAbi800Y2dp5
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。706Please respect copyright.PENANAzoPWg850cr
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我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。706Please respect copyright.PENANAN82D0bs8nK
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靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。706Please respect copyright.PENANAkzfkdhCU5u
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」706Please respect copyright.PENANAwSL2loiDJo
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。706Please respect copyright.PENANAzqMcnxTkgr
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。706Please respect copyright.PENANAkqEDs5OAhS
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怎麼說呢?706Please respect copyright.PENANAU1nfr4hCHW
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。706Please respect copyright.PENANAlREfedU7hc
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。706Please respect copyright.PENANAqugvYTjD7q
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。706Please respect copyright.PENANAD9Yd8SsrW7
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。706Please respect copyright.PENANAT55SW2Tbcu
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。706Please respect copyright.PENANATOp5y2g35W
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。706Please respect copyright.PENANAJUKRxfuDrF
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我再點頭。706Please respect copyright.PENANAbdFVwbX4rP
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。706Please respect copyright.PENANAgBF6eGETrr
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。706Please respect copyright.PENANACDkKyoG49N
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我馬上看第二天。706Please respect copyright.PENANAixPlSutgQL
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。706Please respect copyright.PENANA9Jb9xg7VJM
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。706Please respect copyright.PENANAXsz7PifuNS
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……706Please respect copyright.PENANArzqHh4R8sf
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。706Please respect copyright.PENANALTfswoT8FC
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」706Please respect copyright.PENANARMdAqOTtyV
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」706Please respect copyright.PENANAtGvGlX7K7M
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第二天「END」出現。706Please respect copyright.PENANAqYUpqXDXfP
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我蓋上了練習簿。706Please respect copyright.PENANAtAqln2pjIm
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。706Please respect copyright.PENANAwauNU1vwh5
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?706Please respect copyright.PENANADNnHGC26co
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深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。706Please respect copyright.PENANAjq80la9yrt
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。706Please respect copyright.PENANAsEtriU6yqg
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。706Please respect copyright.PENANAPDSE0ywdEU
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。706Please respect copyright.PENANAthqxYWkrBt
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。706Please respect copyright.PENANAzvzpnqdHDP
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我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?706Please respect copyright.PENANAqjpmsBZqcX
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。706Please respect copyright.PENANAJz9h704d2R
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。706Please respect copyright.PENANA4BhmFByF6I
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「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」706Please respect copyright.PENANA4SPcEabXCY
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「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。706Please respect copyright.PENANA2EynvJrAV2
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」706Please respect copyright.PENANA9AnCf8xiPo
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「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。706Please respect copyright.PENANABrcNYVMhhx
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。706Please respect copyright.PENANAS60C0NIOXN
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。706Please respect copyright.PENANACcRTP9Yk8f
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然後再次坐好。706Please respect copyright.PENANAynh5sjnIoC
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「陸……傾兒。」706Please respect copyright.PENANA56YEQVFFvA
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。706Please respect copyright.PENANA0yTEUsCTrN
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。706Please respect copyright.PENANAV8DgDLn2Bl
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紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。706Please respect copyright.PENANAE0hmlc9Bk3
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一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。706Please respect copyright.PENANAXvwbhAcEKf
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不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。706Please respect copyright.PENANAWKO5FPc2Ef
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牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?706Please respect copyright.PENANAYPD4CsF2mI
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。706Please respect copyright.PENANAycr6NfmHQS
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坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。706Please respect copyright.PENANAtevmTLV9jX
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山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。706Please respect copyright.PENANATh6HVlsvRQ
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第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。706Please respect copyright.PENANAs1gWvv4Vnp
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。706Please respect copyright.PENANATurz4QEXuC
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不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。706Please respect copyright.PENANAJU7s9r24QO
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這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。706Please respect copyright.PENANALyjYGmzosT
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。706Please respect copyright.PENANAKvjLNufJQi
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。706Please respect copyright.PENANAA5CwkG5ach
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那麼,我呢?706Please respect copyright.PENANAh2owsTNFbA
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?706Please respect copyright.PENANApjsV0WYks7
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「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。706Please respect copyright.PENANAo9kITHi4Bo
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我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。706Please respect copyright.PENANAvXVy3GtnDS
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。706Please respect copyright.PENANAiz1HnwcMjE
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「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。706Please respect copyright.PENANAcNqFh9eCYD
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。706Please respect copyright.PENANAfg1g3yKE0K
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 706Please respect copyright.PENANAIMzv4Edca6
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 706Please respect copyright.PENANA31gCwaPe4Z
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。706Please respect copyright.PENANAdGqB94OI0l
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「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」706Please respect copyright.PENANAtQl9JyLkt0
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「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」706Please respect copyright.PENANAP4ylqXT80c
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「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」706Please respect copyright.PENANA1iPrJsj18j
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「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」706Please respect copyright.PENANAsVw7qIxSTV
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「係……係。」神明丁聽著。706Please respect copyright.PENANAHa7KSxUFHg
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」706Please respect copyright.PENANAsTM9rpYiBC
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「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。706Please respect copyright.PENANA94fMUkVHoF
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。706Please respect copyright.PENANAqPOcIQ7yHl
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。706Please respect copyright.PENANADBzhFKzfvZ
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。706Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4wd481t9g
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?706Please respect copyright.PENANAT8xzgGZEBu
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我期待著。706Please respect copyright.PENANA7Q6GGnbDr9
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。706Please respect copyright.PENANAAKtKNI0Qw6
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。706Please respect copyright.PENANAoj9etIdK7q
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。706Please respect copyright.PENANA1eqBdqCTFL
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」706Please respect copyright.PENANAZ19uRrhRQv
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。706Please respect copyright.PENANA3oT1brCgkX
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」706Please respect copyright.PENANAkYAWpsf3Sq
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。706Please respect copyright.PENANAbttSGJBwQf
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。706Please respect copyright.PENANAAQUFxb8WCc
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傾耳以待——706Please respect copyright.PENANAngshNSqfQk
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」706Please respect copyright.PENANAO2hJLx6GWy
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。706Please respect copyright.PENANAe0rZCkTp3Z
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聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。706Please respect copyright.PENANAPYkU36STEs
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。706Please respect copyright.PENANAH84jmHWzmO
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」706Please respect copyright.PENANAmcTBaY6qzi
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身體傾後,躺了下來。706Please respect copyright.PENANA3eJFU1MDio
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「係諗住攤。」706Please respect copyright.PENANA6KN1F7OyUV
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。706Please respect copyright.PENANARtcSSLr1Cg
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。706Please respect copyright.PENANAmYCYjmrbQu
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在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。706Please respect copyright.PENANA1l4gyxbsZR
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露出鼻尖和微笑。706Please respect copyright.PENANAlKSOzHjcLf
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。706Please respect copyright.PENANAj8ZkKBxBXg