我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。677Please respect copyright.PENANAlLGlQjw8rD
677Please respect copyright.PENANAFEKKyneTj5
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。677Please respect copyright.PENANAO6zhTnSPr3
677Please respect copyright.PENANAnC9rYZl4Rj
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。677Please respect copyright.PENANAauBk4lCDjq
677Please respect copyright.PENANAgttDDxT0PW
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。677Please respect copyright.PENANA2T2A8JU6K0
677Please respect copyright.PENANAe6l0bzD5SU
走進了屋邨商場。677Please respect copyright.PENANAaq206loZYV
677Please respect copyright.PENANAfyh7ePBJD7
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。677Please respect copyright.PENANANcBEorifsf
677Please respect copyright.PENANAZGyKnDIRZS
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。677Please respect copyright.PENANAphQLS7FGHq
677Please respect copyright.PENANAyWfJdMlS7a
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。677Please respect copyright.PENANAUuNdGLafO1
677Please respect copyright.PENANAxLgwDhCCzv
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。677Please respect copyright.PENANA69T7KH80Ks
677Please respect copyright.PENANAZq41l3ivH3
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。677Please respect copyright.PENANAmr8tg3Zhcd
677Please respect copyright.PENANAY20ba734jC
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。677Please respect copyright.PENANAsSQc1bvS8N
677Please respect copyright.PENANAUKvwkhlU9I
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。677Please respect copyright.PENANAQAKOFPJuF5
677Please respect copyright.PENANAd6Z27yPY5Z
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。677Please respect copyright.PENANAP9ahn7xNOk
677Please respect copyright.PENANAhJ6hX60kBz
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。677Please respect copyright.PENANAgXec3zrfgr
677Please respect copyright.PENANAP7Fy8K1EVa
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。677Please respect copyright.PENANAdECEQI5Nuu
677Please respect copyright.PENANAeuevFLem3H
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——677Please respect copyright.PENANA9Ze6HitmVY
677Please respect copyright.PENANA58jWEI9cSL
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。677Please respect copyright.PENANAzIa46MRrsY
677Please respect copyright.PENANAW3YbINolq5
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。677Please respect copyright.PENANAzy29Amctf9
677Please respect copyright.PENANAiLfywoRfe7
腳步還是能動。677Please respect copyright.PENANAtwgm7nm8ey
677Please respect copyright.PENANAyI63qhklWA
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。677Please respect copyright.PENANAEiuKlCy3ll
677Please respect copyright.PENANAMj9YwObUJF
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……677Please respect copyright.PENANAYWqV0xKwrH
677Please respect copyright.PENANABSLDZHHggI
腳步才轉向離去。677Please respect copyright.PENANAS2MHt2vHTp
677Please respect copyright.PENANA6kDIscD3Yc
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。677Please respect copyright.PENANAcH1Tnap7qH
677Please respect copyright.PENANAU73C9zmXaa
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。677Please respect copyright.PENANAFPdhhix33c
677Please respect copyright.PENANAu3eYebF8r2
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。677Please respect copyright.PENANADVqcQUmI5H
677Please respect copyright.PENANA6usZXyh5pQ
但是已經不再重要。677Please respect copyright.PENANAdvQ99s3AHs
677Please respect copyright.PENANARQxKbH4Qzm
她騙了我。677Please respect copyright.PENANAboqNOkYBvj
677Please respect copyright.PENANARRYGKEqevE
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。677Please respect copyright.PENANAit9L8UciV4
677Please respect copyright.PENANA5xbqWzEpIP
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。677Please respect copyright.PENANA7mvEkvLTbX
677Please respect copyright.PENANARWKBvmy60k
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。677Please respect copyright.PENANAcoICpPcPZp
677Please respect copyright.PENANAVyWPRbC1O2
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。677Please respect copyright.PENANAdYOMvlqGbX
677Please respect copyright.PENANAFmRTvY5Fhw
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。677Please respect copyright.PENANA7QpGUzCRPX
677Please respect copyright.PENANAzWIL1z5e4D
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。677Please respect copyright.PENANAQldhbrAsF6
677Please respect copyright.PENANAtaCD2cd21k
但我錯了。677Please respect copyright.PENANAaLaSK3hSIB
677Please respect copyright.PENANA6stqYtWBZ7
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。677Please respect copyright.PENANAXSQfjQlKIX
677Please respect copyright.PENANAOVO2Klj0Rv
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。677Please respect copyright.PENANArgFsr29epP
677Please respect copyright.PENANAoZaMU7QeBR
眼下——677Please respect copyright.PENANAkhumLjBOJ5
677Please respect copyright.PENANAj23CG5YcIQ
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。677Please respect copyright.PENANAcg0pL3gce7
677Please respect copyright.PENANAnlGAb996K8
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。677Please respect copyright.PENANAXMxJU87AKF
677Please respect copyright.PENANAYXzH7jrzY2
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。677Please respect copyright.PENANA5Rs6AhwLye
677Please respect copyright.PENANAjeTae5FS20
我能夠再承受一次嗎?677Please respect copyright.PENANAF50bxZK9mU
677Please respect copyright.PENANABw7XfbuwVY
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。677Please respect copyright.PENANAu1OhfZOreN
677Please respect copyright.PENANANHRVboQHEN
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。677Please respect copyright.PENANAGO0lhFbw2U
677Please respect copyright.PENANAeOL4PQAHg4
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。677Please respect copyright.PENANAGlWNtnt7BG
677Please respect copyright.PENANAqGGdo626wC
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。677Please respect copyright.PENANAiomeupMWQD
677Please respect copyright.PENANA7Y5075L9Vg
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。677Please respect copyright.PENANAGa8nhiAjpF
677Please respect copyright.PENANApnEuGDiINB
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。677Please respect copyright.PENANAuQDxUybCjA
677Please respect copyright.PENANAtPxaTNkmLh
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。677Please respect copyright.PENANAOaS4R3nQ5h
677Please respect copyright.PENANApcxqbyMpuu
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。677Please respect copyright.PENANAxYX2VMeeHO
677Please respect copyright.PENANA319CRRMfYQ
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。677Please respect copyright.PENANAcH2JiT3Rb5
677Please respect copyright.PENANAmZA3mbbhxG
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……677Please respect copyright.PENANAKYYMCNfsZV
677Please respect copyright.PENANAWFlH6MlWR8
我樂意代勞的。677Please respect copyright.PENANALGX1tiLRtM
677Please respect copyright.PENANAlXcM2xjeV4
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。677Please respect copyright.PENANACZ6Oo9Ivd4
677Please respect copyright.PENANAg1sLXfBUDx
我馬上看看後座的乘客——677Please respect copyright.PENANAZOQp42Cvx3
677Please respect copyright.PENANAv2OvgMoqLp
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。677Please respect copyright.PENANAOmBIm05fUK
677Please respect copyright.PENANAyf8fLAyvZh
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?677Please respect copyright.PENANAlFv6lWOUPA
677Please respect copyright.PENANAeVhmG6yG6g
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。677Please respect copyright.PENANA5h2SVEjgqy
677Please respect copyright.PENANAc1PUX12MMX
在下午等待至日落——677Please respect copyright.PENANAWpHx6Ho6Ro
677Please respect copyright.PENANAQf3yYO5bwo
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。677Please respect copyright.PENANAer3LEefTog
677Please respect copyright.PENANATMzC0AWNJ4
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。677Please respect copyright.PENANAofOguAVg3a
677Please respect copyright.PENANAXhx4rMOCx0
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」677Please respect copyright.PENANA7GzR0ISBMX
677Please respect copyright.PENANAeiNkzTwM0j
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。677Please respect copyright.PENANAf9BfQho0KN
677Please respect copyright.PENANAR79NtK4U15
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。677Please respect copyright.PENANA05B5YfMoZg
677Please respect copyright.PENANAJkGMHnYCuT
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。677Please respect copyright.PENANAAWuaCjII1B
677Please respect copyright.PENANA8hF19CjwVm
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。677Please respect copyright.PENANAmiyMJMeLb7
677Please respect copyright.PENANA3lZ64azm5P
「嘭——」也是不進。677Please respect copyright.PENANAylPyL5Ip2C
677Please respect copyright.PENANAOsCuUZCH9F
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。677Please respect copyright.PENANAes4P4Qb6as
677Please respect copyright.PENANAR5eI8pRHNj
漸漸出現晚霞。677Please respect copyright.PENANAml6bJ8D9xP
677Please respect copyright.PENANArOBqxicfM1
回去吧。677Please respect copyright.PENANAeHY2QWqwFE
677Please respect copyright.PENANAtnSN18KoiW
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。677Please respect copyright.PENANAvuxKtVXgzm
677Please respect copyright.PENANAR66HIIhn7D
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。677Please respect copyright.PENANAJtyJnohQHs
677Please respect copyright.PENANAUhgfx48RE9
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。677Please respect copyright.PENANAV61tAOnUl5
677Please respect copyright.PENANAXgZkiSyodm
背著書包,累然站起——677Please respect copyright.PENANA2hhEyGCjN6
677Please respect copyright.PENANAStyJ5YPoM6
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」677Please respect copyright.PENANAiLQwgKzQWL
677Please respect copyright.PENANAaTezOor24f
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。677Please respect copyright.PENANA24FlGXEhdh
677Please respect copyright.PENANAcMHQl1dFd6
最後,舉起手。677Please respect copyright.PENANAVXbIBnZ1qu
677Please respect copyright.PENANAQpKSBQxPY8
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。677Please respect copyright.PENANAsTjK0Xg1jX
677Please respect copyright.PENANAsIgip4t6Ik
* * *677Please respect copyright.PENANAAWyXr6y78i
677Please respect copyright.PENANAKgrKrHqZZD
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。677Please respect copyright.PENANAO7gNtIMWNl
677Please respect copyright.PENANAysIYbF2CEO
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。677Please respect copyright.PENANAKKhS5bGZlW
677Please respect copyright.PENANArd8Jr13I2x
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。677Please respect copyright.PENANAP4Klwu3EVu
677Please respect copyright.PENANAo7o36NK1ZA
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。677Please respect copyright.PENANAj9OtKkiHHT
677Please respect copyright.PENANAxddQO8rx3A
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。677Please respect copyright.PENANAKmwr3wcTKg
677Please respect copyright.PENANA6p6K2rm9WE
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。677Please respect copyright.PENANAP3pK3QGATA
677Please respect copyright.PENANARj7afV6DCg
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。677Please respect copyright.PENANA5E9OBKjiJQ
677Please respect copyright.PENANAJFDzFYw7rL
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。677Please respect copyright.PENANAexx8m9dPtI
677Please respect copyright.PENANA105b3RCgj0
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。677Please respect copyright.PENANArWwzVKkL5B
677Please respect copyright.PENANAfpOcIeQDRb
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。677Please respect copyright.PENANAn77nLHVVw6
677Please respect copyright.PENANAkpdTZo7jrj
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。677Please respect copyright.PENANA1K91OI2H61
677Please respect copyright.PENANAnhDxh8c2A0
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。677Please respect copyright.PENANAj0rhKCdHyE
677Please respect copyright.PENANAyExJTJPrWd
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。677Please respect copyright.PENANA0TFK9t1dMa
677Please respect copyright.PENANAk76jcz5IuA
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。677Please respect copyright.PENANAkNcchC7CBS
677Please respect copyright.PENANAcX797t43cb
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。677Please respect copyright.PENANApm5LRc3HRK
677Please respect copyright.PENANALAyv5yRweb
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。677Please respect copyright.PENANA4wqiInzjbj
677Please respect copyright.PENANAsaWdYbBLJn
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。677Please respect copyright.PENANACBVeAT8gkS
677Please respect copyright.PENANAuKELm0UyHz
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。677Please respect copyright.PENANAoX4oGMp8fV
677Please respect copyright.PENANAF2nwFmumS0
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。677Please respect copyright.PENANAzce3MaYtxl
677Please respect copyright.PENANAkSU63hclna
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……677Please respect copyright.PENANAuwuVeELczw
677Please respect copyright.PENANAMlAPAaX8N8
——放大瞳孔。677Please respect copyright.PENANARDKu5Pn4s4
677Please respect copyright.PENANAaTEOhciz3R
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。677Please respect copyright.PENANAVCjvwVXfuq
677Please respect copyright.PENANAQlPuJSDsV3
手機就在我的褲袋。677Please respect copyright.PENANAsUMpGM0eO3
677Please respect copyright.PENANAzM9cJCgjFN
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。677Please respect copyright.PENANAgGfGt7RScT
677Please respect copyright.PENANARcUrHlHhUe
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。677Please respect copyright.PENANAZkpnkKDQgr
677Please respect copyright.PENANAglVxu6SIsR
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。677Please respect copyright.PENANAMR1hK1KWyq
677Please respect copyright.PENANARDwN7MlOEL
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。677Please respect copyright.PENANAenwBYk5s0t
677Please respect copyright.PENANA3e1Lgxw3mi
那麼,打嗎?677Please respect copyright.PENANAIBXa2e8WCP
677Please respect copyright.PENANAgoZTcOWx1a
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。677Please respect copyright.PENANAqDFi9ksFmb
677Please respect copyright.PENANA435eIGVLVa
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?677Please respect copyright.PENANANmYQL3t0dK
677Please respect copyright.PENANASMOmlroIL0
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?677Please respect copyright.PENANAnL8TOf65tj
677Please respect copyright.PENANAu561WPaTDW
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。677Please respect copyright.PENANAMd8m5SME2J
677Please respect copyright.PENANAgZoopBUHk5
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。677Please respect copyright.PENANA2sRwTwISFb
677Please respect copyright.PENANA9eAcYbFOv6
幾度拿出手機的我——677Please respect copyright.PENANAvfPG8HlDiA
677Please respect copyright.PENANA0c6xtuhxGj
算吧。677Please respect copyright.PENANAAD0VtXK9eh
677Please respect copyright.PENANAHJDXfuR9ms
把手機放回褲袋。677Please respect copyright.PENANA2E9HhkJ8Ov
677Please respect copyright.PENANAX3maeG659o
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。677Please respect copyright.PENANAAcjUIwnM1Y
677Please respect copyright.PENANAC0p2tpud67
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。677Please respect copyright.PENANA5qdnaWrgmy
677Please respect copyright.PENANAOrgsWm2Hxj
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。677Please respect copyright.PENANAGvBbiJVHmV
677Please respect copyright.PENANAkweEAGCYtQ