我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。744Please respect copyright.PENANAMr7YbnlXSK
744Please respect copyright.PENANAxHz0jo9rqR
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。744Please respect copyright.PENANA3DwJYLpZRE
744Please respect copyright.PENANALNg7P3XZUg
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。744Please respect copyright.PENANAx5KReLx8Qi
744Please respect copyright.PENANAwGAZAdUF4b
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。744Please respect copyright.PENANAkp0mcWBYn2
744Please respect copyright.PENANAKygDSVJft3
走進了屋邨商場。744Please respect copyright.PENANAGX00ZBmieU
744Please respect copyright.PENANAzW6qJRlLz1
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。744Please respect copyright.PENANATm64FyZ6EV
744Please respect copyright.PENANAtUJFKm87Jx
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。744Please respect copyright.PENANAD9BKxURQqH
744Please respect copyright.PENANAa8AdKtcsvN
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。744Please respect copyright.PENANAuCiNob4dAs
744Please respect copyright.PENANA6XMivo9KjT
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。744Please respect copyright.PENANAS7c0LZSLiT
744Please respect copyright.PENANAFx8p5RiPlJ
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。744Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2csPw9KNt
744Please respect copyright.PENANAKhDh5z9ckK
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。744Please respect copyright.PENANADb4q9ZHX9s
744Please respect copyright.PENANAVyOtxJKWyy
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。744Please respect copyright.PENANAmqpSXUkV7f
744Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZxCk1JRck
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。744Please respect copyright.PENANAOXwDWCsAsY
744Please respect copyright.PENANA7VWBUp4k6O
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。744Please respect copyright.PENANAsoYBOXo9Sh
744Please respect copyright.PENANAeVuPWla58Y
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。744Please respect copyright.PENANAzO5dnTuVGQ
744Please respect copyright.PENANATgjIaVKcmB
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——744Please respect copyright.PENANAaWh8GBswWh
744Please respect copyright.PENANAUYBJO8zMOj
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。744Please respect copyright.PENANAcYnKX6NS74
744Please respect copyright.PENANAVQ8xpoXclE
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。744Please respect copyright.PENANArdufiLwo4F
744Please respect copyright.PENANAAwn8JQrpZ8
腳步還是能動。744Please respect copyright.PENANAQRT1evBgHf
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即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。744Please respect copyright.PENANArHwD0QRboF
744Please respect copyright.PENANAIOczcYcXLj
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……744Please respect copyright.PENANAxH6a0UsXeO
744Please respect copyright.PENANApRi8GlRJO6
腳步才轉向離去。744Please respect copyright.PENANADOOfHphWki
744Please respect copyright.PENANAVWHOHECeEV
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。744Please respect copyright.PENANActFtDamL58
744Please respect copyright.PENANAY98azKV8ia
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。744Please respect copyright.PENANApDfyX3wLpg
744Please respect copyright.PENANAVm8o5Bn07n
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。744Please respect copyright.PENANAgEM7vBPtj8
744Please respect copyright.PENANAJH17Q5ARvQ
但是已經不再重要。744Please respect copyright.PENANAHOUCBsRQw8
744Please respect copyright.PENANAtEJE13ouE6
她騙了我。744Please respect copyright.PENANA0FtazF2PvY
744Please respect copyright.PENANAy8XK3T2x3L
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。744Please respect copyright.PENANAGDad5A0sDh
744Please respect copyright.PENANA3qOGUwa14F
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。744Please respect copyright.PENANAr0vGQ5x2pb
744Please respect copyright.PENANAwRHxphsGvn
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。744Please respect copyright.PENANA26pT11pVue
744Please respect copyright.PENANACQXG0xt4Vv
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。744Please respect copyright.PENANADoUJ5a4Mhh
744Please respect copyright.PENANA6gqsYoL7MD
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。744Please respect copyright.PENANAdMtTjeMuLO
744Please respect copyright.PENANAsJ2y3vx3kH
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。744Please respect copyright.PENANAfUmyE1iWpM
744Please respect copyright.PENANAxy2PHGMLvL
但我錯了。744Please respect copyright.PENANA5xsehJGAWs
744Please respect copyright.PENANAVrp0LZIh4n
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。744Please respect copyright.PENANA6npTc2Eq3J
744Please respect copyright.PENANAAJMIASBCbp
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。744Please respect copyright.PENANAoOePIkfjYC
744Please respect copyright.PENANAudQQcbxa7V
眼下——744Please respect copyright.PENANAx21bCCJJE0
744Please respect copyright.PENANAiYt1xNsjub
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。744Please respect copyright.PENANAjID6QR9VZU
744Please respect copyright.PENANAazmqdp6WdE
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。744Please respect copyright.PENANAmGb005Rpny
744Please respect copyright.PENANAtRt72jEv9n
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。744Please respect copyright.PENANArx4cH2z1yS
744Please respect copyright.PENANAwvh8oJA4mq
我能夠再承受一次嗎?744Please respect copyright.PENANAfBAVb9ELpZ
744Please respect copyright.PENANAD1oVhoKq9m
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。744Please respect copyright.PENANAgTp6G7rNuG
744Please respect copyright.PENANA6b7VccTkyy
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。744Please respect copyright.PENANA9AJ1NlQs5R
744Please respect copyright.PENANAt4Rsh2j1EL
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。744Please respect copyright.PENANAvNEhHOJauP
744Please respect copyright.PENANAKiL5uZor6W
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。744Please respect copyright.PENANANcxRj1RSPB
744Please respect copyright.PENANAJDctUVXD2M
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。744Please respect copyright.PENANAHsAPqTdXyg
744Please respect copyright.PENANAKH5qJyn0Z9
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。744Please respect copyright.PENANA2jnUHHpWr9
744Please respect copyright.PENANAloajPrVHAo
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。744Please respect copyright.PENANApmuFHxbNOM
744Please respect copyright.PENANAwcpU1v7YhQ
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。744Please respect copyright.PENANAnMgOdNlVri
744Please respect copyright.PENANAu9N5Z5Fpmj
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。744Please respect copyright.PENANAgfKskiqcB0
744Please respect copyright.PENANADnkR4HKJVM
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……744Please respect copyright.PENANA9JB6eO7b85
744Please respect copyright.PENANArcnxxVwYij
我樂意代勞的。744Please respect copyright.PENANAFpvVijbWXr
744Please respect copyright.PENANAGXK2IPQ6u5
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。744Please respect copyright.PENANAZzpTvmwj7i
744Please respect copyright.PENANA4OmDgBMrAl
我馬上看看後座的乘客——744Please respect copyright.PENANAoSpe5TZ7bE
744Please respect copyright.PENANAooY9p7nJJd
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。744Please respect copyright.PENANAVucBNn7ghY
744Please respect copyright.PENANA5K6cTNJ3mD
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?744Please respect copyright.PENANA1fnAl7PcVl
744Please respect copyright.PENANAA4RjLnEVYg
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。744Please respect copyright.PENANA1xe9pb9VB5
744Please respect copyright.PENANAkV7ynvquDS
在下午等待至日落——744Please respect copyright.PENANAQTn3AbbeMB
744Please respect copyright.PENANAwQ1OF15DEF
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。744Please respect copyright.PENANA1hDxx6uZxm
744Please respect copyright.PENANAAzvisQMdh2
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。744Please respect copyright.PENANAuaB3m8fAwh
744Please respect copyright.PENANAaNspszoW3r
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」744Please respect copyright.PENANAqKgnsx8j7t
744Please respect copyright.PENANAm70u28OVRn
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。744Please respect copyright.PENANAKtBt1uh2eL
744Please respect copyright.PENANA9TaaNcCj12
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。744Please respect copyright.PENANAfpvJR1mjij
744Please respect copyright.PENANADmDOmH1fE9
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。744Please respect copyright.PENANA3hwmgRBViC
744Please respect copyright.PENANAUPfErhZ6mq
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。744Please respect copyright.PENANAVsLa9C8igu
744Please respect copyright.PENANAaSfA9DvW8f
「嘭——」也是不進。744Please respect copyright.PENANAWB3IMUroc6
744Please respect copyright.PENANAQqp2a6ZlTl
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。744Please respect copyright.PENANA4Z60bU0lAS
744Please respect copyright.PENANAE8DxFPvBAD
漸漸出現晚霞。744Please respect copyright.PENANAtX6zZyEsgY
744Please respect copyright.PENANA6V6UrrgeCz
回去吧。744Please respect copyright.PENANAJT2qq75ZcF
744Please respect copyright.PENANApVXIxbcYrU
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。744Please respect copyright.PENANAhaF4HL85Io
744Please respect copyright.PENANAkTWPvjmByC
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。744Please respect copyright.PENANA0hg0OrJz9f
744Please respect copyright.PENANAJw07PPzuTH
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。744Please respect copyright.PENANA6nzhe8nzqR
744Please respect copyright.PENANA4l3SU5sy66
背著書包,累然站起——744Please respect copyright.PENANA0NhgMMCMVP
744Please respect copyright.PENANAh0zmyv3v9s
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」744Please respect copyright.PENANAijF2tAIzGA
744Please respect copyright.PENANA28CCR2A3E0
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。744Please respect copyright.PENANAvnSqDjSVuZ
744Please respect copyright.PENANAfLvR9AZ5AA
最後,舉起手。744Please respect copyright.PENANADptjG8gxRr
744Please respect copyright.PENANAV8v9FIoKfw
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。744Please respect copyright.PENANAqP48aq0lYH
744Please respect copyright.PENANA8slVsYxLYh
* * *744Please respect copyright.PENANAawIRuXFnfU
744Please respect copyright.PENANAbZqvAslWW0
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。744Please respect copyright.PENANADrHPtGZ8c4
744Please respect copyright.PENANALmbvZs0bys
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。744Please respect copyright.PENANAgd3dJQcpIW
744Please respect copyright.PENANA8SbskGfEs3
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。744Please respect copyright.PENANAcTQ1ovVgtP
744Please respect copyright.PENANAv3B1tV25Xm
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。744Please respect copyright.PENANAExEo3kieqp
744Please respect copyright.PENANAqdPdKE4GHZ
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。744Please respect copyright.PENANA5pfenITjCG
744Please respect copyright.PENANAEjlXfm3iRP
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。744Please respect copyright.PENANARVxclD3IlO
744Please respect copyright.PENANAa8dKQlY3iN
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。744Please respect copyright.PENANA094AaGA6VQ
744Please respect copyright.PENANAoPAMBRneWz
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。744Please respect copyright.PENANAxDUZQukLin
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但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。744Please respect copyright.PENANAK6dzx73qW2
744Please respect copyright.PENANA4ulKAAMb7d
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。744Please respect copyright.PENANAukjzqkxfE3
744Please respect copyright.PENANAaRbDNZAr30
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。744Please respect copyright.PENANAtYKAgBYEfP
744Please respect copyright.PENANA6egHkDV6Tu
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。744Please respect copyright.PENANAr5CZ3fcGIs
744Please respect copyright.PENANA1DwsTqN7PO
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。744Please respect copyright.PENANAqFHT1iLEeV
744Please respect copyright.PENANAz6ejoU9zub
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。744Please respect copyright.PENANAROpKBrimWW
744Please respect copyright.PENANAX3nJVt3NbH
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。744Please respect copyright.PENANApWuUSki3Bp
744Please respect copyright.PENANATeBLwy4YzK
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。744Please respect copyright.PENANAA8zHKAqD5d
744Please respect copyright.PENANAWOKQjLFV5k
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。744Please respect copyright.PENANAapETojhMmw
744Please respect copyright.PENANAHHPrAAdYjc
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。744Please respect copyright.PENANA7XMdn0VX6w
744Please respect copyright.PENANAhNYVpTOMDD
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。744Please respect copyright.PENANA5tThEudH8V
744Please respect copyright.PENANAZmy3SR7b3w
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……744Please respect copyright.PENANAIC0uREEc11
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——放大瞳孔。744Please respect copyright.PENANAPM2HzDDP23
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如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。744Please respect copyright.PENANAksySzoDZEx
744Please respect copyright.PENANA5ijbij45GC
手機就在我的褲袋。744Please respect copyright.PENANAOwh2enMdi5
744Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1vggKi1rE
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。744Please respect copyright.PENANAHDUmpEe1BZ
744Please respect copyright.PENANAXX8whKt3La
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。744Please respect copyright.PENANATbPyhkfY33
744Please respect copyright.PENANAR1ySEJXXtB
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。744Please respect copyright.PENANAk1reIZ6EKN
744Please respect copyright.PENANAqmsU0aHmLX
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。744Please respect copyright.PENANAZB9rkM18zP
744Please respect copyright.PENANAy6z7W39zX8
那麼,打嗎?744Please respect copyright.PENANAghpNNN9QSY
744Please respect copyright.PENANAKch3nKbXPL
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。744Please respect copyright.PENANAcfJco0PzXH
744Please respect copyright.PENANAaQUzWaPNe6
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?744Please respect copyright.PENANAyNkTID4Zro
744Please respect copyright.PENANAiUP1zd3qgb
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?744Please respect copyright.PENANALPEi0jAe8Y
744Please respect copyright.PENANAD6pVwVIxuQ
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。744Please respect copyright.PENANA8iOBAmwwT3
744Please respect copyright.PENANAsqnaWM4EXQ
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。744Please respect copyright.PENANA458OvzULlW
744Please respect copyright.PENANA8oSjUZYSib
幾度拿出手機的我——744Please respect copyright.PENANAN3i46gB3E8
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算吧。744Please respect copyright.PENANAareoiGbY2J
744Please respect copyright.PENANAq1OGr7TNh7
把手機放回褲袋。744Please respect copyright.PENANAv52a0rhqfT
744Please respect copyright.PENANAeNHR9OfC1T
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。744Please respect copyright.PENANAEuls7glpJj
744Please respect copyright.PENANAvZ44kGY0jg
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。744Please respect copyright.PENANAbcokeUptsz
744Please respect copyright.PENANA2nCiVDqbND
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。744Please respect copyright.PENANA3QLk5Su2B9
744Please respect copyright.PENANAeBZnhqIEoM