我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSetkdYvI5a
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskoRlGEKMp
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「咬下——」明白了。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITFTgmuMdv
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wvXLOvVJg
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBfiJd2YTG
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPWnYn7U2q
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpN2Y9YFSa
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQStO7W10t
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGT7WToJUi
神是不是故意的？657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DcWqAHi3j
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPznWQejxjx
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaHy8hfLMd
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0hBVUeJvA
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6T7jc69pfq
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliNYuUT4LR
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXeQBVsn0o
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡni5jdhzERo
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4haakBIPc
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSYiXDOAu9
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbjCrmQJj2
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ700gJTJ7vB
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3bp9z2FL7
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9m7Rw5Gke
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZN6qVGup6K
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWBlxFVEJA
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5mHxf9i4u
「唔好再講喇。」我說。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wVPH3m30C
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNX5NwCytKZ
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkMabWYUP3
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然後我沒有再阻止她。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryZzS1N9CZ
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmAPZLeCo6
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aweZjBJqx
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ehqBNI3Lx
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmT3Cya5BFh
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQVICmFkfz
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PajCL0L1a
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAAYqApgQw
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Wfd4s6PhJ
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wGLx0RcdG
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSj2xQextqM
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoW0ksBVic
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gDySvSmGo
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDzm8GhK63
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZOdH53vuI
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDApSdNcL1
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDsc5NrbDZ
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEjMil4m7C
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wTM2ts1vj
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyxTU0mmSg
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEKxIo3Cgj
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBgBjOGCsL
我也正在難過。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9z3iV8Owu
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9ufk2DDNR
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvVxcxY1d9
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgmupVB2Lz
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqRIie0Op4
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「點解？」她問。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeR5u5pbHyP
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2R9UUavdJ
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgCeQhv1HF
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLPDtjy49R
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGO5lpeETl5
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuke0aWI5E
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIxcQOWwvs
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhokjVZBTw
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZu022vQs9
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfc2RYZJN1
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoKLm8lCzh
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgsHH5yfvg
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpTjJCDIXV
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMSNxYYtrG
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfywuZFLmz
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilD7aKeja7
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzz7uWRNht
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這是……什麼爛方法？657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnXAgjVz9Z
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJaLAum1yz
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotKSkIFwfv
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xzrrW0S1c
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVzidGM8zy
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuITdPtjHN
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFOFsw1cvj
「咩條件？」她問。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxITiWKVdu
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiN0cRoqmIS
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIarn1VHqo
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiedquO5vj
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1fdqlu6vm
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILAVnKXjkh
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRyUdyQv0t
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTIivErJRh
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObYZvePIdV
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXTBPegRf3
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBZkdz9Gw6
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQi0BBKIjRs
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgbKkZehYs
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kJyIimkJB
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aqWOR2zEy
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNUq8rObNH
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq09QTrLqUR
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1dCt45nwg
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGgZ7LwW7u
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDIoUm7cyD
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWpLGf2dtp
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJcy7IyjB2
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIeAbCymWO
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSo8V30UCIu
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXkVepib9a
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWjPJgvX8f
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesswHqZmN1
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74ovikjAAo
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE77FcjtWUD
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLPkmFxhVJ
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtn5IURIeO
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyCc9aTLhK
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOEHLIvUr6
說完，她聽完。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSbCAZu2hT
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6ln2hGCEN
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrSPmSDunk
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVahB73Ce9F
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTDs532ZwJ
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3z2N1ILnD
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvjhgGwk7G
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpXSH6mr4X
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMySYWJFyK
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHD5oHftYX
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaeAUJu8Zb
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyH1HDG2E3u
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0O1YHBPRX
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfj2vs6vN3x
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpG5L6Xs2nn
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupc5X5tsRT
「陸傾兒……」我說。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqHLmWqaa8
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNn7vxjfKFI
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡur7me0bJ0S
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5eVS9ADkx
「揀咩都得？」我問。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFCygubQ1r
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjtYdQxzZN
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyFP0vlzUl
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSLF1IImG2
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYI4FOUqTU0
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjWS2LRtvz
而我不懂回答。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgtODejtyA
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lHPgNWRg7
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwisepQodwO
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEeT9KmaTq
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hfm4Cswcm
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpw4nrijIRC
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbSSjXZt8f
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVMvdgm9BY
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4mdKceepz
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDdSWeLOTP
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtFZBV0ez6S
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7bDQocrKE
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd377y64S5y
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡau5iVuSGWM
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtgkVKahg1
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8YXLX3Q33
過後——657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkitU9cRt5W
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJofDnhUab
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBTRjwhxbP
657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonlwGIdbZb
屁股坐下。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ipqoe8b54
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。657Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHdtGnnCKk
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