「咁你呢，又點呀？」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHKZX6cdlf
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGiX10RApr
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSod2maxcQT
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iqPo3hMYa
「托賴，幾好吖。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDczldoIk6C
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf94qbnWDsJ
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnR5sZxf5BI
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdA0K4gtCH
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUpxjdQEkI
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJacy0ufSp
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNCwlXv17T
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPFNtyepPt
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHNzQO3xTl
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunYE5nVUgJ
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTfQAe6hKk
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt487FwDOU7
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZlBYfF6Fd
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqYU9JLrJ7
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ctT4I5473
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUiwncu7uU
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7DFtZiy0w
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEBYVLlMMq
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgCQgIJdG6
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMrZw8Z61b
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXn7fpBHbw
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hspiVmfMZ
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlT8f0r9ks
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIduK0Fxj6e
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGxymJIO8O
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYatnM1SdQy
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfF5lVLfngd
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nrVOfpozE
每天都不想做任何事。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjr9zhYs8X0
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlPy863T7Z
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQv85b4hZUy
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEBcDfX4px
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQdA0azMVU
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGZlZf6oPD
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPwaTzwhLr
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBLAMwMXlG
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cIYlHS5P9
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMS5K3TYAmI
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJypyrBD6tE
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdHwG5Xzk2
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Ux0X20PEF
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEmybDYHdA
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRifBvf4kQV
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7xSc1cobp
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrCYvR4ssh
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8lbj9J0Dx
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XrmB8z2tW
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRl44grnPhZ
何況，他們如此親厚。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfg1Jrc9ZWv
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtQ9BITNEL
阿樂問：「去邊？」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNrFdjYVi4
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡie4ajBYRdz
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHB1BfLpcCT
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbVHwBGQHZ
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhMOboDRnZ
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigSIvvOXWj
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKlygM0TVX
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrwE2lCU8t
Sean回答：680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7da0KgFyWh
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOcXyhoYpM
「係。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0P3KFIDX3
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97fJ0HzsF8
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhPyvr8C8X
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeNM9nyXvK
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCU9RtjklWe
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeTLlW72zB
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYz2g9U2il
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4AM8RENSI
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxXhBK7Z5m
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmzF5hO0IT
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlaoJuCB8j
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56zd30m9br
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ElFaxUgMX
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruFw6i3gMO
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnknPwY9bxt
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMZKogUgJy
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1Oi55i58n
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JMYgTnJTK
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCClLwFjQc
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPAtnVYrG7
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldu1zDltoJ
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlE9L6dBkW
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8uK3E0vWX
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbY4TuSRP4
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevh21L7wZJ
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODOc77JWwP
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqub5Wfv8sQ
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuHgT6uGZu
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFRryGt34Q
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJ6eNFtARu
阿樂質疑：680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVEOS5gESX
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJ04vOwwmd
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTk7Y3JlU5
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1JoL3qvPz
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6JCulXn7j
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmMtHDVhoI
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7I6qQfpdMq
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaHFdhjSy6
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFHR3bBTCR5
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6h5QKAWZwq
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3chRE3sd8t
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMB6YC8YNoF
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLSVSIsC35
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxQo6MRyPh
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNP0eYiKd8
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8Btuz8nqC
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONU1OTKAEb
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DuBn3E8QU
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRU7oGADVI
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡme2ZK1Xt0T
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuusn1H16cl
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4spmLKreR
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLC9yzf52Pu
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOctMAuoPkD
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1TPNNYKDL
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyc35mEMWqR
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQVsQk4fNT
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfeoURLyZC
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdEmCga3fc
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrduWf3G6h
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRQH9sFzsz
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9twXfd7Ym
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBnKr7BFf4
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrlc9lVeWS
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQaH4ILss8
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHfHea5VLL
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVn8zF5CZMA
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcu13bwJU5Q
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhZ26rulIB
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7z2pvJzLRQ
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGLnIqFmly
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KUGCRVOFx
她發現自己有些恐懼。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpsTwkZmL3
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBq9Q5qm8v
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MmTjdYyf0
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKYfOQ6Uh5
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74GcRJL4BP
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4Ho4XNpsW
最後，Matt離開。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtP0FphZLgC
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5Q61TQKGc
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jMKqaTDzY
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknjAUEKyiz
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7dZfqpd7O
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRz3LlUMSLX
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBInw2H0RY
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcMObKG30V
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYd2pQkrl5
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhlN3PuEko
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICwID26cGe
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUH267m8X3
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOH7uH1W94O
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbgONzosWB
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFNByx3tML
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuk0ybgF1F
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9EHuLdIqP
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6J0ErSvBvL
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnOEB0mrkN
680Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpL0FTPfmvl
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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