「咁你呢，又點呀？」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXph8DL7vmk
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouA8ltLHoc
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDe8FIrOMJ
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07E6EnRs5l
「托賴，幾好吖。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZkivSttYF
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDU1IgWzNPt
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTqy039ewL
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4iMSh3nrD
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLncOuv5oe4
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5TYRB7bYf
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDrpbC2YhB
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqfTH64pJp
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBVPFP2jsk
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGDouCQWIb
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bKeu2pljI
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKm1Dxoi66
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQwPgrBD9d
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqryTqOQW2r
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9JxaNTfwX
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJGq3E3gRY
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bxkN7WSLJ
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPf5VDYenRM
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfCA5AlWFi
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡin2ApoBiXc
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡar4s3yEx7Q
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmtoKgAxvw
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDPQXHonTO
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVMhTKcToE
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFMX709Yqa
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnChzCu6IEm
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5Z4pbMncZ
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDy8Egkbqn
每天都不想做任何事。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgWdRX1xXw
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZ0KTXmGJ7
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOH78JZPTV
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8DnFxVcfr
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wkYnhXhqr
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQQp1ln47W
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejbRLhIT4b
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisZUUavLHC
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLcGLXET8L
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxg2SbRxrax
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5G2KmF4mp
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5HhtSbjEd
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw672QXB1iG
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfm3Ynd2DL
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQjLTXHr0d
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZA7kCzST1K
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7r7Ti56oT
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3heJkX612
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyqrZnPdWl
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGhSjirpBH
何況，他們如此親厚。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhe0vcTilt
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHczB7UKGi0
阿樂問：「去邊？」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfh2q8zM0vb
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7z3QW375LP
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzeTMCs2dK
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAk5CcDSgvL
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtctjKeWVv
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRO9DIvMR6i
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JQoALkvrj
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfinbndRaO
Sean回答：677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvtaj2ASEM
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaI6CCVPb6
「係。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPm98fUoClu
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1D2DUWNKTZ
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGJ9ZbzM6y
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFtvxZRJS1
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRn6ONuGApi
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfsvWPK3DK
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAadesJaemM
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeQ8uIiA1O
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhulWX6uQGw
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0crqAGT9OJ
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdf8rgQ619
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJv6sGSWfqc
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTN41b3cKtI
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzcgLLRqaN
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQbPUVvgR9
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREMRtZQt68
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTgKZdwSS1
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YXSbNTQyZ
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcAms8zMfh
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuQujbedyA
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEOzF9tJ8r
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Cw2C9oLTR
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25B2SOd52l
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWleSIl5Qna
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMho4DKQlH
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGc0SF8mHSf
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxqrgDyPL9
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEalzDWtZ14
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iQuMaoL3y
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBIqHkYnN4
阿樂質疑：677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmTj2XovtE
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOQjlawmyW
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVggmtUvt3
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKEZDM8hHQ
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UMxqXLwMS
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWuGykGuvi
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevJ6yh7uB3
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dzX32yW73
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0QvFEbyoP
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMWI88DUlz
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIIAjoEAwZ
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7K2UKRqN68
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BNJ72dt46
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPS1xrRCsb
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjGyy08SJG
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHHGaGgSgq
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJg0Y3c09H8
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdZHs3LWLJ
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzo17COKYzO
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AuM7xDDx4
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2IF6cXU6B
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RGVqqR27P
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOr80tCJ0Y
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQ6akZwSaQ
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS74iTSjqRf
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROteotUipz
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztzUAPFWMH
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4LxvKVx4I
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIg4PLmbwih
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47ibQWZn2k
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbhT0PjDg6
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHH2PDq3cA4
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7QlgTKYE2
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULMhyKIJ63
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSegV4wZe3S
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkuNyFGePl
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGqbRXRUfX
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkYRvtVTsc
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCmjpIFpXt
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlVL24x8yO
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡey0IBm2y7c
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLUe9CSknY
她發現自己有些恐懼。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZe3s8yY4H6
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOAfYpC3Fx
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYlUJgsoe4t
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTvjvUcEJs
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgz95zDOcy
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiozAeWs2zK
最後，Matt離開。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDlVMRQtV8
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08WqHZZ46C
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡru45UunXaG
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TImWeS7sC
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKOr3YBDt8
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUk015Y3j9
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvdqjnsxpS
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOS2jZTCCgU
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyi2rjU3vwc
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2b6WEgK1R
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtKKapkEzrf
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT7MdeA5KEY
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsItwdaN8Xn
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqATK1ovje
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPkuUMcgrP
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qJzJBTG1P
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0Nzr4xV5k
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzgeYrpx9c
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTnTcbCxH0
677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTU6fhFJ0r
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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