「咁你呢，又點呀？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsy7ZYSaEYL
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g6G2CroFo
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4foZntsl6b
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzADj2UYlAe
「托賴，幾好吖。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8Zcpdbabb
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPomx5Pbl8G
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutyJeJoUYX
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTC9h26zxaQ
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbw9yO9j8R
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngRJ1XPkQj
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHwfxwiHru6
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5Q0rTjyaW
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITpbnCyAKx
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxZRaB0pt1
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8X9qkHcknH
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxov9CPJou
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTaYorGz8G
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVRQ0kMqIo
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFUi5y8Bn0
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDKylv7S9s
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7pH6bos9R
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHcGI1YjDt
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilovaYXIj3
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbEkboUSaC
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJXP6umZfy
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjgKlgBaUZ
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsL2ckJnIY
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXzi5LoNet
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0h0JGwlATW
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeW32gEmtoU
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaqjndbH7r
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8N7ZP82Val
每天都不想做任何事。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaF9PC65pAj
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNN9Tppkdl
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkRS6dHD4V
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9E7cqEwwt
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLUV9iHdAW
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiJMQUV8Z7
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhHSsexMy0
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tXhhiFXkn
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR27dhDGQ2T
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXPV90B2nH
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2HX2E70cM
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFAZLq6X4z
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5vvFlTHc0
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvQaXLymwh
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRhdtilDCr
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqw38aPmRIC
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRk9zENJp8
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQiWzZIZxj
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfUghGvffX
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDxqGfU9mA
何況，他們如此親厚。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILidzNZ3LO
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjMplktGCb
阿樂問：「去邊？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK67uflCiOu
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RNAbBExjO
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOF1wlJ72L
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHb8vPhdOf
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mdfszaggR
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqiawa83Im
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHfwMMRjiJ
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNdzfeHh6v
Sean回答：711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcEwysxarD
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwroFlXkG0e
「係。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2LmxSgrkE
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4g05jl0DU
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr49MBYUT4a
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1GhpAhVtO
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJh1Ovo3IXE
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMPTPiK9ik
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAMtJHWtmJ
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNHE20MFhC
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWRiImmdvo
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KjG6R8EbY
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoHPd2Cv4x
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45x4KRenmg
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUa78ciFU6u
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45lGDRDNvS
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVV4bs1XrY0
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92ukQuLn71
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEvhuZn88Z
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBvpRaA1N4
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaA4nLf8Iy
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5J2ZfL7vk
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJ0EkxHizC
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kMhLtTBKc
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Kgsi6e0jG
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxnt85FnxP
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDCUbPIeTT
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFNTidDkzW
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNbeJdHQq4
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbCrZcdoUn
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3c6xH0gGNC
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQWN0tb5xm
阿樂質疑：711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLqxSNZfWo
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjNVre036k
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURthBPRTTp
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8biuGKPHjw
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4qAK5zbWz
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZuBz8KNSN
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCtQbiZWaM
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJvj8rOlhJ
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd40wLlcgIt
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwVatnXIdV
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnjGw3Iu0m
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekloT7KHpi
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjyE0Bf7TC
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OHPFTWJ3k
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtZaRtx86s
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1mfyaVqDb
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRebtE74U5T
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuYx8gY91s
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYlw3csC0p
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYC6pKERWF
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2qm9Dywui
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuBaClC2xh
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaSzPi3TS0
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZinITfIiL
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4NCkhE2Ey
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIAQntapqK
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2EVKiA1vB
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDT55Oh8PeY
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBeZ8UcOZ8
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8NiWsmTKw
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynW4BGyR8B
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDspMaFq0me
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwJ6kQxdD1
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Y0QxBLUVD
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFao2In6Lfy
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSshgfjh2O
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdy6BTQbyhi
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeMiA3j8uv
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtEvPf4yzu
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUXyMGWn9q
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OoRu2f2H5
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2bNya9D4C
她發現自己有些恐懼。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmT7vuiVxXZ
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rzap3RKkf
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCtXQytDh1
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVrfLYPLVID
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvoudnY5Bz
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzChrIBE284
最後，Matt離開。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡustLJ8wmeO
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmqvRkbY0G
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmxWoOB2Cj
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0JVpSGrgC
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFWjNKjmMf
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7mHFe73oU
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2uFjAxHGo
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXqxWayGYE
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosfK0XPJzc
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2aXPvUeeNZ
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkG3iZLlQwp
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrb94JWiwQ
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpGAoU2AMx
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfuGqmVRU8
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1l03wiVGB
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLEyqwVKXO
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYK8IYvTSdm
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZZzTdokep
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZvQZpaxiL
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUtFELJC4p
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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