「咁你呢，又點呀？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvslRCUA08
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NJDTXuZoF
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPPcTp3ccR
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPnrQrXjmv
「托賴，幾好吖。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfE2n8XR7TA
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6eNGkT8n6D
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIR2tRvnCW
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPTyUtJBOW
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4V7KiYcgJw
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoILaJXYLbH
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuEkJRCCB8
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oYguio351
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxinvtZM6nf
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGUe0Gfg0N
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5DcQUvkWM
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxTo11lyPo
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tFn5db1jf
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3YeuI6NwQ
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1sP8LyQkR
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0WyqPlhBB
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazFYlWcqll
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC63c54SmT6
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoULH8gfOT
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyCkSpgXJ4
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcH1DQXSKV
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5L4nRKisQO
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBoQCOJnCC
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixZz4o8Xyw
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZg4bfVmW7
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TGqEFfl8A
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWh5WsL9Gwi
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ReddFaR1r
每天都不想做任何事。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCqdEy1y9s
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQwH9XAwto
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nw2QtwXH2
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11Dp6NMAlL
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pDwQSx5FM
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbO6ioE8jJ
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeH1tOxoVWt
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTnGAwZ5hH
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5GXGePGF6
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZjJqMOwRQ
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfY0ONPjA3
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJ1BIIbt8k
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Jgrj8XP8Y
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYzUzNg5bS
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJOzpJW74a
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNT9MBPBc1G
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjS5RaVq5U
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSzrd8FFAn
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0KiRAElFm
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwb9IDRkWRh
何況，他們如此親厚。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsoT3EPupR
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3YM4j8UAl
阿樂問：「去邊？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uGpgQcK4A
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQaFYKiSeL
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3fJNALhm1A
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK26O11QqQO
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneBzXMHSoM
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRzNY47rnL
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukNClviOzw
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDn22FnM8ir
Sean回答：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKomW4Dxosx
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK603X08Rgj
「係。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYsuM6we5l
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOkZBVegxR
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPThHA8sFVE
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETb2chjylX
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiH10Z77Mwo
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNIpkKYYEk
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjePjhta3o
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDZJARbXsi
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26RUmgoMHR
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebg2lYiD9o
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEzWODtHw0s
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcAZO5dW5K
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsIdv7KM3j
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Zlb63askG
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWnfePr0zn
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfawTUpUGI
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngoSjFRw5o
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhpu1yLgYto
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HnysPrZUJ
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsPkXy6wU8
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hlPW05idN
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGevWa0RCr
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9QnRoU1vc
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoElVeOna9
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yWqsrE2CH
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz01nlsUGCb
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6RdivzTRP
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivhr9l0exk
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2WW356GOL
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8lwnFsIqn
阿樂質疑：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMADaG9PTe
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1x4E3vPBM
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dj4nFQXNS
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuikxxem5Wc
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpXBovHvqM
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QT8Kx2DQw
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3u0vnnjNzf
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVS5ERoKOM
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJ0hD7xGzR
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbFrCm8aML
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMzMR6vEog
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlvCZk89CO
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMd0y1G06Qa
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZlccme5Ck
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvXj8iUAyo
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXHGPWbajQ
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpi5JkpwSd
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzmMcGdn4f
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00CsbcsPg9
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzC94IjruE
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3zlSDqioZ
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQcFzJ2Ro6
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZgRra3Jbb
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzFAdlnZFF
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDBgy4eD9z
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY51oVdshhw
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hISJ3SwKS
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCBCEbJcUG
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jBOhWF9fS
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJss3VFVbTU
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJDOVoMX2n
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrV8gkUeHNJ
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWXibNmq0Q
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolPnQRX750
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ051mMY2dWo
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRZIBsE0c3
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAhKvmEiV8
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NI8MxziOi
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFehqilhKq
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvJrwYqw8Q
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmpzsIsOsf
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLAaJ1FHU6
她發現自己有些恐懼。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjypYWiEQd
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAG5iPrItWP
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczSMCBuWw9
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnvpqLLVww
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6ffhZhjWW
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUMygGPPPd
最後，Matt離開。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCnffWxrdv
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ACYQp2lRc
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡit8FzKeDwM
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMMJsyK5HAl
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjsOGLZ6FG
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9qmeJMSot
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcz56dd14z
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsu7jQLrNiN
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzE8BZtEl2n
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnltWJ2O2wC
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCL37djv3s
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkHkySHuB0
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKv08DIzSwJ
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrlxScTVcA
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmE9b7yrPWT
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vF1tlj6t8
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWT06TblbW
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfaATFpnAk0
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrdWYyB30Y
702Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2STi0crQy8
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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