「咁你呢，又點呀？」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LlJZJ83Ao
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2o1HedC4J
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQoHasE6pq
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TBhr5RK7p
「托賴，幾好吖。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjzdd4qhMa
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lvLiRFtJd
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEV4DZOfSx
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUQA8JAFBB
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJThoU4l8k
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqAewDFnH5
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7m9ptB0CZ
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gcvcxorYY
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdiRggrqROm
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOhlrnZHe7
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Y7NV3SBF6
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkWSSxu7kl
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLadUuAZMO4
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcJNJ7tstG
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrkaS3ZIrl
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYAa0erXEL
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ6lyHJ0d0H
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgjjFhVTz8f
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1k1ea7oNO
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEfaURRFl5
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4lDWWJV7a
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjX55HFfxS
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfq2k2SIeD
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qmLM4eoKD
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZgvNtqcwi
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BEFTfZ7mR
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkcvCEuVl1
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA673ycXuen
每天都不想做任何事。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyJ9IKk4Wk
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhiUaIdi1j
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9FLm2VpS5
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRzR3SKzC9
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dwVVCXxJw
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBmnyVlKjB
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLLEeHXt95
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGZngDAwH9
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMXicnB1E5
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeQaxCQIIP
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMZKCGM3ba
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTOTD79MtW
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0GBXRMRpL
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25gmMmno8C
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2lJIcpTHO
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ552dh2BV75
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYXR3TFRUD
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT970rNCeub
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTouGIG6Gen
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpH2BN76Esd
何況，他們如此親厚。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgLKVcxVKd
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkHRNCuNF7
阿樂問：「去邊？」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpOXXZi6uI
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Qk04ge5AR
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7pcKfe1T2
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGW3b46QEG
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZxytePTxl
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXi5rmTp7oi
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZI5KNtv1E
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiY13L9wwjL
Sean回答：689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcz25xcpkQ
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7kvTmS3Rt
「係。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00rHJqerrb
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhj1JDFQoHY
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9apRsFwntk
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdoWtxgkcA
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosrZDu2qza
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQVgDXrdUT
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQArpJ9aXfR
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHacqmDAOm
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJW0pIEkgBI
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5k6U2dBxJp
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLTGztqU0H
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nJOVHHklz
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRaLGIKcL3
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyV72e9zwIg
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3VBzUckte
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVlTA6IA1p
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCeSvVBG3j
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2AlGxW1co
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPLjxbm78s
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoU4eu8jb2
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmSQMaAtYV
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyOwdo0SZi
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0d7k6H2mpV
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmZLpgIxvy
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTFFxEidB6
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvvKLj3kUa
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6xJ8colXK
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamgUDNsgvz
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KUupbayfy
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasfJOOoawI
阿樂質疑：689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsd8YCMrBDk
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Q6sQA0rPV
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJWVRdnWag
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNSy81oId9
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOWlbsJBMA
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mgQ8u10uT
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqK6zMbDnf
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3K7IQvXXNL
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhc9rrT4Z42
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBtxPvkgng
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCesdn3z89q
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4fY0H3Uov
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxXY9sm1K2
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzX3M7bIKSw
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuluoxoHyH
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3kVhRSLLQ
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPl6iO7LGEF
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejiK9KR1U9
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbltcKsjWUo
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEPb6nTy1Cl
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0j3oahRph
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhQImz0bCa
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIXRTaweWy
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7zCtZCVxB
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYHHY55jra
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmxUojINbK
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPM0KanZmYH
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRslbI2k0EX
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnOK7Rp8nc
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcgd4DTbc3
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh16AtgcwUl
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpjNqhNSFN
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7iQ2GItV7
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBR9Zv7U3U
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZZql8y60I
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTByuYuaSIv
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVSg8WlArc
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEuJMhriXb
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DsudJI0Pa
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUnChBE7jq
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhyv9kbpsn
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGwR7LS8Fb
她發現自己有些恐懼。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjWfFHMEQt
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZ1rpF9bYb
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvafZlk8Nrs
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELDhJad4qX
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEsInRNsOI
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOiedAMSgKS
最後，Matt離開。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqaoNK6T7Y
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCwbHRJtIK
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZmUrrKOCB
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KzK0mIsgc
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dOTVdHr7H
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAHrPSGvbB
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYNWF6dKXa
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY814Drr6XQ
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAF1DH0MZd
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZTOYkowXC
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2rTmRB9p1
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyTwvIfrG1
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJLv0IWZiP
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXS1XEiLIQ
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGnpLi7WhK
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvXX5ND7Du
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqdZRxpLLi
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWraD3xLwz
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnn6hdURaQ
689Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOheJHr2Db
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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