等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3J0uKuM3Ql
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1WQ2rtADm
深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdRHl8OJHQ
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpNzY7ugCB
他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkX13tRCyJ
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxmCjboK6C
「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PXWvRjrkG
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupCyAYnmAN
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAGUZe7jUD
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyqwGnrIra
我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRefokx5F8
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWNcfHI3wL
所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLzK2VUFDp
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecaBfG0epy
只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7UAYrdzaB
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoe4hAjg0lv
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGrw3wHMpG
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcNHtl5zMn
我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlKv4TNGoJ
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtVfrdxjWv
我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiadHiDsI8U
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvFCvGWxro
碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzOibPqqVm
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmvNrRano8
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mF0SDxC5S
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ26lDZ1KiX
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCKOb8XFHV
「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Li6CHFFs1
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEbdVkEsXu
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qJ8fhagRy
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXI180hdTO5
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdl8P12wqkL
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobuS3sw0tT
「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YP3lkfJhf
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpr5r2wMFPl
我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRJG326eKO
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5woafkUmu
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNRJtHQuic
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimGgkSogpM
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHkEC264R0
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXk64FvdHxd
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnY4D3JrMrX
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqS6Kmnm5et
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRznWOnNUr
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhe2WYaFWXR
那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SvHfZJCBp
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM15bCVVfZj
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWNLHcwOYy
我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNT5HFwyuts
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXa8ZeViMiP
「這是新編的。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8lLdFarYo
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36TraxeDri
他看了看手繩，又看看我。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5pHpqMNig
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6iji5VcG5
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioQcNkq4VD
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDMEDPZSt8
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RtkwokUGN
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63hY50G4xf
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBG6t9psMC
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZ4X783Mda
「妳看。」他得意。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBqe3Idby4
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Zb1B6k73d
「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9rbxxgk1S
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKS5VchAOVC
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cdFygJVzh
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAW436lJAC
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkBQt3VZwC
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3toEZrUWz
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTdGjIhIN1
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIwEfjJmDS
「現在拍。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFWT4s2WOI
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl97ZDzyg7A
「啊？」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZcIbxnuIy
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBh0ccD7my
「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BKo07zjcH
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtBJeDrxpB
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk78VEGYhj7
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0RDdNEEMI
「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuX2fwnhXq
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpMbrulQsv
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZfWxAXWTz
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OocYe5Kwq
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6Bw3aLkEe
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknC2Gtwf1K
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3e1EkShSe
我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgTHr0AZ3Z
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVAlheyzli
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnihjGAkZpT
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqZekHGE4G
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWztc5sAuvr
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZ6yQ1iwY2
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VSMvFtASH
「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSkzNncW0K
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUE9LoBHUL
「…有寫一些小故事。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnMqpYOK3Y
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMZziuzKBg
「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqDiTo4XdW
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnoPNA7haL2
「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ORvnJXuOm
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQlPV5SetB2
「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzc6q00M2F
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxc769LBxmz
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoM5d15mKA
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAf0gTTCIA4
「妹。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZYkpqxxsk
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbNSnzT97L
「嗯？」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJV9NPJ19E
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PRlwvz0RG
「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzYHZYqk3A
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAORBf2Wv5
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24pkZwuX0d
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1E2msxcr2X
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWcKCl4fjo
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP184FsJ4BA
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTPfWDwkE5
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5JQPIX1Xd
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREyzs8Zn4y
那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCHCNM0JE1
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaHK3AZIuw
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUH7bl6BSw
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtgZPD7Nho
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbcL3elqQE
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwtqjwRSdh
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUtwUgwv35
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5e2xaPLxS
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDeUnsXBrG
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm09rxFp3mL
我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArKq9MItoE
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxRxAD9det
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QMyFVW185
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbMPv67xSi
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTF7l37UzX
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOleEMXHNCt
但我是欣慰的。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqzm8Icz1P
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSI0iOFDzK
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqMYvYoUqw
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAShes7zKOa
那一天來的又快又急。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgn3QY03jv
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OrYZbLGDF
「妹…」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmabmjeTRP
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90QeK9U8yw
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYX2Z3qx3x
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvSlME8vplg
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9c5DAGqng
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6RSSII4Zw
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQU6h2QyxNR
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe54LvrQMEF
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKuHa4xtdh
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡremBjhn2AN
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEC0FI4YbQd
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCx2L2v6rA
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWDOGiBm81
我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCs1gPqh7xy
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiBUyEAc9d
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJIw7O45nq
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOwtLlbcd0
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUY6CVDMe9
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMq7eQ8N17
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrslog0S7dg
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXSCeEupKP
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChvksdyIkC
我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU99bDMPLe0
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCjVnvqpL1
那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sJ7TJNtQe
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzdNEXKM7f
「我真的，還不想死。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1qMR8zfAx
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Na8pboBBZ
我握著他的手出了點力。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJgVKRvgEp
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCONanf18H1
「我很害怕。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLjG8BWCww
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNWtVNup0u
「我很怕死…」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIxXcmV3AO
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunNsEfpCnW
他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNs4avjDQy
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkDcIzkYbC
那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUFgjinepv
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWrKH5qVhG
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPfZQ7CrhN
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DhLfroMmd
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡww7P6p7BFi
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwo6rjMaZt
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLUycT7wGb
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxTn5gFI2Y
「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7Y9fTOJGa
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi95Bb5ulvN
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmHMq0MWrv
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHnhPMKcym
這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRhitoa82m
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwiZyoNCc6
「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7EChbsjXl
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDu6Ed5yFlr
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLDCqPBKg7
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoeqeFGCmf
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZimirQGXE
「妹。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBuA4L0u5o
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWj5zIeaGdi
「嗯？」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDvOWb30i5
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOznmeOtkj
「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡao7FKTxAwK
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNF7SSeIEPC
我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyb8UqGs41n
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVHI09eGLr
「回去再看。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahgRfx0dIE
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGI656netp
「好。」我收起信。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEr8LcoqM2q
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsKYZXSf7v
「妳回去吧。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4bbdACvCs
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OfCJXcDFH
「什麼？」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3auXcPz2f
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkuyhOdMnF
「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsa9flfz5tX
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「為什麼？」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QrA9NO7yv
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmAkSw2WDv
「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjw1ktWNsYv
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「……」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDD22QR7Q7Y
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「回去吧。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXHRndA4zW
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpc5a3pTKFU
他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0vCXEJIYT
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouq4xbxV3r
不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShXQckiegy
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxVNon16x4
我又抱了抱他才離開。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptRe4JkSnb
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496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8wuGx7Kfe
當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyO4zd9gVb
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4TsgwvzvA
「英傑已經走了。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreeacVQVUS
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TWiETfuSe
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLmk5reqsi
那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jdhkPdrax
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6iDKAq1OH
我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnB6k2rp1zq
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1r78RpIAcG
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29aRzdsmcJ
「Dear 妹：」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iVfrPcteZ
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYi5fizXuFZ
「妳永遠是我的天使，496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZgyzE6A3L
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHh3pFZlbu4
請不要忘記我。」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iQWNO7k3p
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQriL9qerZ
「哥 英傑」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0TLZ8ghjq
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496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3gEeSR3Qw
我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1yHkeilzT
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFczwdc2wT
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2H3Xvd5JL
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXHe0r7Wgu
之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1DXXO2VBA
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLN95NF9qK
每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXi6fNuujL
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQYKSHLEyF
前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjanMRJIdm
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlThPpvhCUv
後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEI5F6aLLlA
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqcsU9YYD6
英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecLnCp4ZZs
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy85EPfFwxL
他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJygkUo1XSJ
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLSgQuzAPz
曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUsrrrkA91
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但我什麼也沒做。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHh8Xu5eVgM
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbE6bmN6Kw
因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HvqLb77nF
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq4lc3G7Dp
所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9k8CgNKIgZ
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kn5sEDMJS
我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNygvZMvzS
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5o6wg8HZR
一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhL4BjjJ7cy
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfACIgLxwY
說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhi0EgF5QWM
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj81nOeMT0m
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGGeabeBpY
去年，我沒有寫信。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMghFLRXF8R
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctCcu0wK2X
我選擇在當天完成他的故事。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUlWaeFV1t
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9Orn6Quws
他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLC3SquQSAb
496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yRegpEEtQ
我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOU3NyVsseO
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這是，我哥哥的故事。496Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gi7ZaCkeP
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