等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQYkhMc7dn
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1lsehtDrs
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkhurj3PpcC
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「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FH2ZAUNU9
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我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsCTTTHSgB
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我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPLQY2C1hi
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所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gLfsD5qSX
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只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRqoBQLXmp
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「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYuDGIw8zd
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我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkqS7I6qZ1
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我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12CSik77BU
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碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6D7ZTnaDTa
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「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiY0qWXWar
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzqTCObtnI
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「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBpbfyxXXU
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他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWef7ssSOgQ
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「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr96IjoAAsQ
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我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTbH59new5
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「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSx0qUsUOPQ
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我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv91RHePuFw
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「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE64Exasgef
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「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmImqAUQcqw
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那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeyGoFWKyI
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我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDUCtU2aVy
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「這是新編的。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5q3JzBPSj
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他看了看手繩，又看看我。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsAFcB1bwl
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「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgz6KvkfSzQ
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我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgo4lJQC8q
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白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5x5Um40kM
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「妳看。」他得意。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWEREgNUJX
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「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkx1prh09A
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「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTlhCMDjBG
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我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4FPW6EaT8
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「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqHMMJm7VK
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「現在拍。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nxfMCwa0w
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「啊？」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQ8nLImqEP
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPJx07nfaR
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「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnV5J8qxqy
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「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNOGwxPNMs
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「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtdrO3poZj
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我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdadUEawNj
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我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRr0tqIpHzT
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「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlE3wmrpMuV
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我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiVLiaMNkb
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「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4CQFtILg0
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「…有寫一些小故事。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGpdUDjINy
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GNXEsKllQ
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「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9IQV98TGG
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「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdXh4ljcyt
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「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYNI0DV5kN
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「妹。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWBrqLsicS
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「嗯？」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLY8jsYy7yz
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「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8rfCe7tW6
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我突然意識到他正在做什麼。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYTwYTvM0D
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像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOX7rC1Wm4
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因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdc2kbjDzWi
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那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ywc8l4sQd
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他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSVDFvKVSv
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「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0XuA6NYMk
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爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyvMjob692
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我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFn4XKkWDh
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我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfwwzLpU50
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我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKM52SPwaU4
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我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWVwiG8PGo
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但我是欣慰的。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCo4Xq3IVlU
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那一天來的又快又急。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwFBkd5ouW
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「妹…」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Kt73NduY9
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我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiFEAq0gwf
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「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb72qQ8yj1Y
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還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbAt9zk1pf
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「我還不想死…」他哭著說。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRI2KF0XSsS
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那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq10w9PAG5Z
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我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ61MWgsJPZ
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他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCICcTkFsS1
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英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSS1XQ1180
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她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HMLEQpy5V
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我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjAzJngzOR
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那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡat0fwzHQfb
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「我真的，還不想死。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSDowtNJ9r
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我握著他的手出了點力。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmnnX6xXnP
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「我很害怕。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9q6eCCyAk
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「我很怕死…」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwnkUw7bSs
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他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsTuIFytz0
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那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyugBK90q1
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「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkuV7Z9l7I
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「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSt5cEkHvPl
503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBd8Ie8fQzK
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQtUVAuMJ0
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「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rDphyoPun
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我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eIzVmOY6T
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這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOh72OIIf1O
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「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4rJlpiblN
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英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSo9fkp0ef
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「妹。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlTJkqx8cF
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「嗯？」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv13vnS20er
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「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WhafSThWS
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3v5fbxR4AO
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「回去再看。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUSuG85Rn5
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「好。」我收起信。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGJ618RGMZ
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「妳回去吧。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRVzqyQUmd
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「什麼？」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYn0rehyIG
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarBM4lH8sB
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「為什麼？」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgjy5txDJS
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH89ehWviye
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「……」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQPcSbFPv3
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「回去吧。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXDv9YNWf7
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVboOAzFNCN
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyYvzjJ3vD
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我又抱了抱他才離開。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUUPf3FVmy
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyp5NjJVngR
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「英傑已經走了。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFdyhFLvPO
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKfdI5uc2S
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JcZLuBbZw
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「Dear 妹：」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dnhMTQ1Ji
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「妳永遠是我的天使，503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0qUniSrYh
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請不要忘記我。」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVlaV4lfy1
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「哥 英傑」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzpfe7AunW
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpvtnqoo7A
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffTyEc2doq
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dawR9O40r
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrMh28gNE2
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPzlVIYoTq
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJV16BeXYQ
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pLWvylr6C
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFi1VF5cyO
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但我什麼也沒做。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEI9FC8cbl
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡetSmScTBcO
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8Nr1EepsT
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vwEFIuA5z
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGA0MXApuS
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PUgUNlqNv
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去年，我沒有寫信。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhFXhZGTMI
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLyC7FYhaO
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3tIw2gf5O
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCR3NpwsO9p
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這是，我哥哥的故事。503Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMC9NJJpKu
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