等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KJvYVlHgG
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXm8biJe4hQ
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWnxXhM7ep
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「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3R9uXOi20
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我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBulHYZNzgh
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我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3z1iVdrfnS
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所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVMJR2eyjq
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只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhO1RknEhj
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「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7W43yATvrB
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我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWLhMbYL4m
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我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLAm6LzbbL
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碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8eRimghmx
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「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vSGXXMZ5Q
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMihzJqOI7d
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「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqU2NvgN7T
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他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbIkzSeOmy
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「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jMy24l1jn
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我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmriC5zLtGc
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「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxPPDQGtvE
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我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVh4jKNopK
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「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh28i6detR4
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「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSADLpM8Sf
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那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hPErIBwbq
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我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2h1Adqgg2Q
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「這是新編的。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXiAR6SmGl
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他看了看手繩，又看看我。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77cTL9Kuri
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「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5UTP8JqS2
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我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLFeE3SPNy
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白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOTzltiZXK
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「妳看。」他得意。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLexewJPxt6
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「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqxx4cNr4P
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「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw36TGVhYmt
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn8R3TjbCK
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKX4tYjZia
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「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbm7D0arfpO
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「現在拍。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDxCI4tXbC
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「啊？」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KTciWyCLm
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwreV7zQ9PB
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHT6jr3j0cs
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgPe37QMmH
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「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqcrEI9ouC
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「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOssVK5UN0W
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIg63ZivCA
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTyHfmKwa2
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我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2eOpfRVcX
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「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopmAyM0goK
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我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeznZ0m13I3
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「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBU2eY1erLM
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「…有寫一些小故事。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGkprTGSWV
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEMavDFvWi
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「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkAtU1yl1K
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「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnfIdcyZjZ
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgQDwCa58r
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5Cbi2xVeV
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6yozPaGIk
「妹。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzOuVqd337
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5zWphSwXL
「嗯？」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpJpL0nnjz
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「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBFdKx63Wy
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWmN2fqdDf
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6yEXJp0av
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHMBdcp1FE
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPze5d5qnu
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因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KDSI8iWyj
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那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0ExQZ4nsu
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58Pqvbk3DS
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnmQF3D9M6
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「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIY3yIMStf
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爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2goHaRrYh
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我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeGjS42g4t
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我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7fyj09ML6
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我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXR26o6a2ri
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我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtp13QZHt1
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但我是欣慰的。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2I0mj45Sk
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那一天來的又快又急。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAiRdmo5sJK
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「妹…」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJsDrHLUaq
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我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwSKlQDAWK
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「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrAXelKUfI
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還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqqz8ZCbD8
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGqVMOUQdi
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolw8Ca1g99
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiprOusWh8c
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNxyvDEPAG
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我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjwwyrIE4O
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajmMYOaCIp
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9s6KYNqOGF
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMnAwSJL1X
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmiVuoDyCS
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她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcJIEAlxWr
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我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CsAo0l6DP
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那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8A4kuYznii
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「我真的，還不想死。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqUjfMwMva
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我握著他的手出了點力。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpa0gehQzq
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「我很害怕。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydJRK4MK62
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「我很怕死…」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQYhZYhkg2
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他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ejMDPxMPm
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那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSXvVf7BKc
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmi6CJcUlE
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fBLAGbRx7
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7kwfXGvH3
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgLeGcVrVR
495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4A2unvAd75
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4WbiWXVxi
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「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVEf7mT8kv
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我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvxWjZXImw
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這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncH8AbtIB5
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「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LJ609hkrn
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英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYF3HY0En0j
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「妹。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDfiqGV10n
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「嗯？」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFPlFZgPpD
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「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwA2UGQQVT
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5ssPuGVY5
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「回去再看。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpqGsu4lFi
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「好。」我收起信。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjLB6WklIT
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「妳回去吧。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGn1T7XOUGv
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「什麼？」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynhg4GN1jb
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNqS1Jrm7T
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「為什麼？」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOiTEdI1SJ
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYjN0WR1Df
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「……」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZI5PGttNv
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「回去吧。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9kjVcvxdm
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfH2NF2nvbG
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqv3q4jNv3g
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我又抱了抱他才離開。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Azbb4Ti8N
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7t4Q6vSug
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「英傑已經走了。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5dupwfYdz
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJl7NN9808b
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hKRIgZDt7
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「Dear 妹：」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJb8hCqDuGO
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「妳永遠是我的天使，495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHXucEkRQK
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請不要忘記我。」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCf42k9Fm1M
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「哥 英傑」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pCPGcZ3Za
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Me46VcWpV
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡze81DHLinz
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkWDWTWid8
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzqJ64044a
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPjBe46mUk
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XSgzKmkj6
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDSVokwnv4
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEfVYuXICP
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但我什麼也沒做。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVutCwqb6h
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfVRXyMCe9
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87cdgiEPCt
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMd3odKiMxK
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08lv0o7mwD
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8Dujq5YwC
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去年，我沒有寫信。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiVw2h0mhZ
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiZL0gnz5v
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAE4hJLVviT
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XNFVFiLQM
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這是，我哥哥的故事。495Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUskiXdvPUU
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