愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sxk6FEfxv
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMelw6I3u5
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmpYPmqCIy
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yVElXzOHH
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lk3q5EkaS
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但他沒有。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQQBp7rHsA
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsVtQ6w4yf
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdkcyc0WTUE
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnC6ltNlZc
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZFAgtNTxF
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「妳在家嗎？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPemx5vKlbz
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「嗯。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2tVm0uSsP
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「下來。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVoEWxDqAK
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLG16BBeGh
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xAz28ow5A
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZpVuOjjI2
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBe5M29kAGI
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「把妳載去賣。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUSzgarNqS
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「嗯，好。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojpw53UV5R
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgSYh1sPpE
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4FJiZ46am
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「起床了。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVqt6rOLoj
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「快點起來，小豺！」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWznbf7YxD
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgiBqzioLS
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uLhaybw7C
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHCNucD8sk
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6fhhczq9l
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIV7YyaQcY
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUASITsan6B
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「在山上。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJ4i80XqXu
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡev2QPkUhiY
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「你要拜拜啊？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgNu30BkFE
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyERxGoLfIA
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzsRNv7NNG
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5w6Qewm0YT
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1LhibRoSz
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「我哪知道。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbt5r95cvt
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「……說的也是。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR5LOvkFUHI
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtjCzAAZ7o
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzBjU0VnSB
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「會發霉。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB40zqlXhmM
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDEUTy4m87
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「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwXG8mhndJ
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5BpAiXIqU
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5ydrigBaq
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「啊？」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKq0mRtugCy
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrdT4kLHOL
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxwvYjbi4A
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuMFVnKpG2
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nh6HVnnvJ
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gObODO8BJ
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41UmafdUkx
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaANWEsxrVa
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vyfVUp8rK
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKytmPMsc83
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsB36f9PRiF
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。519Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xFVk0IaPu
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待續。
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