愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKLxGos1QN
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaLmpTwHmw
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwmYI0u0Bn
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdaDtXzzp3
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67bOehflIY
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但他沒有。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmp5lclgRs
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmY0OvOOwK
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuwvhSOQLC
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZ6chFInIK
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7D0u2GyVMn
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「妳在家嗎？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5uQzZ3ga4
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「嗯。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBKo4gHl0W
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「下來。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqK21b4uy0e
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxq5hImc0dN
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoNmeCCSOx
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbBfHEKhok
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4cVTBjRp0
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「把妳載去賣。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkWJzCCZp4
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「嗯，好。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUaDhy6WQgj
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LmOeQi9K6
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86wkTuaIxq
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「起床了。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxIqaLAgKh
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「快點起來，小豺！」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3k3lqRIFDU
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmt0COt4Rdm
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiTfpX7n1n
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFgo1NnEXu
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWQz29FVMz
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8WsEN89nX
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5ycrfyycq
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQ98LgFZjq
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「在山上。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mA8NskqUW
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzn8k2dAvF
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「你要拜拜啊？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NbkbZNCeY
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeGpQZLOQu
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40ezsKhOkE
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUXgmpz7Nl
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfFEKjT6xN
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82SXsjGoR2
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「我哪知道。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloaJYM6FZt
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「……說的也是。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXfwNX8l4N
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2AlI2K196
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMCl9Si3OK
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「會發霉。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5d29UAAWs
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfqxXNTHgG
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「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92ClOrHcrg
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvKOcli8K2
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iN8c4GvKW
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「啊？」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdiFY3EmRfz
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEi5Lw9KyQ
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktvmNUBSaU
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdnQwEjiNc
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ20HvS4s9z
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pihbd0gJY
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhGwX2ON6T
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPxq4Skndq
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1qN7SSP1x
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT673hhYzYQ
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZf9pQIUZR
522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOW2vwSZyqN
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡen8kW7ahm0
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。522Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwK7q1050vR
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待續。
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