於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlsrJavBZx
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青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNN3gyYW7o1
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweBXqGb4Yd
之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0sbQRSu87
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwDScEEqXr
「好耐冇見。」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrGFcz3ENj
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rp3b3zuSt
「係。」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEMhuX64zP
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIcMSFMEFf
接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDmHu9WxAM
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWec6Qh5wI
沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9KCwc5Amc
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡodojp1Z4OS
他們都覺得對方是陌生人。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7dUaFkRii
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEKGto2wIo
但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUHWPXSWsE
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9IXhKh35q3
就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiThPwBxW7
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZn0l4Ozi3
就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVehjmfpXPC
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6FfJk5LYP
「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3BEUZAE64
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fIZ7OGMLh
「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwpWWaquAU
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuzCQ7iM8a
青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xMFrNNzBg
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhpruIXOwa
「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2uO6IogMl
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63mHICy349
但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRDEi8jNEU
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aQ1Df3cvg
青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbu7vHT5vHD
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對。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6TJYA3LBr
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoibw4yN5A
她有些不一樣了。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdy5ar1DdE
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qCJsYisZY
她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgi3JtbE3lI
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl19mD62Gxz
是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRRWqEelU04
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1fviJzdij
希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRm8wJ1RO4J
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IosOncJCh
是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWO0daaanCA
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsB1bsarrl7
最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3o7ZW0b0E
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe33S9u82zq
「祝你平安。前程萬里。」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WXC3HkVBF
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcgZInOPvR
Matt有些錯愕地回握：733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuPFgy2OU5
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuqn2bksfA
「你都係。」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaToAY395W7
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6uVHAc2Tp
沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4apQfXW053
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Uucwhtrch
「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmu14jB3fqR
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35YsnTPdPc
她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3iqFGk64j
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDjH38mvsS
行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiQzXUFuOs
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdL4ClDaPJF
屌，失戀啫——733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oeGLgFE8z
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKE6xhAfjB
但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ykNc2vrLb
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkMuCFojUG
好痛。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrC558pM2GV
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPcqGXUuHW
回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zfsVvx4Qr
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7G6HlKxrjp
今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEV8DzsXLG
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczpv8TV1D7
在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhjEWdRQzv
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9fg3hOW9o
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733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq61IeBH0XC
夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIERJ7Yv5R
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFHM4NSSmf
「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVl8EkR7sLp
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk01WO4uDTK
「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2R7U199qfL
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTH8m6dUymp
青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrYP1WJp1J
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aUD43BlEl
「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Cf4VD3H9y
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoM3jLCHWt
阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtthC4eQIFF
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOdInFpOgJ
青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFD0SJ83hd5
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOBP2ZcIUQ
出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1M8HgPSMFv
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2FgVE08XM
青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbahVyAxl2
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VjUdCiXq7
「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Mb1vbh3bM
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc86oQh0veW
阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7X5cQfOn9
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsw12f0bCK
「快啲許願啦。」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fo8h4xqRG
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTkD37xVAq
青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48yloQm0Ao
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4be70sM53y
「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ960bUG4v6T
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKGCS0hj0w
她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThvFPJs6zO
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93BqqSZEhm
過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UZ9r6wYmL
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeADtf64VU2
她看着鏡子。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5C3mBjhLA2
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8q9Em1fMek
一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCSBJs9l8x
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUP0Y1OLH0c
我都要證明，我有本事。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKlnwfBXnh
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXNchq98wHd
他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoSLl9ygCY
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQugnUs3ohf
他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcJDxHT1fT
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yISybaXWi
她出來，整個人都很香。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVi7Yql1JW
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ivPJgdbm4
阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpQ5KVPbaA
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Sjk7aczXC
「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5f0VGOtsBN
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMdYtha5nL
「你咁迷信咩？」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSjA9eY1r9
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOyTYsLIWz
她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuv6Flck9i
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCffUpZ7v6
「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENicQ4ze2z
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnIuGIOTGi
阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1PmADX9s0
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCXvpvuiHU
「吓話？」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TJPfm9Ty0
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡod5pdKOcoX
「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUe03BJVkrL
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSERwklua27
他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN34wWKAehk
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EGbvN2qOX
慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgXR40v6Kz
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KQsreNMNr
「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYEotXlzoB
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlQrymMrH3
以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUC38BTs1f
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXaEu4zSXa
後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKNbpynxDA
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lSxXk0UBY
佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2Ogwd6gFB
733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9nZuyhuJu
但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。733Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubvMCWVZHW
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